I slept in until noon the next day. It was the latest Iâd ever woken up, but the previous dayâs events had taken their toll. Even after a solid sixteen hours of rest, fogginess clouded my brain as I walked to the kitchen.
Being drugged and kidnapped. Finding out my old classmate slash the reporter whoâd written that amazing profile on me was my stalker. Nearly dying, then getting rescued by Christian, staying the night at his house, and sort of/kind of making up with him.
Iâd had time to process, so it was easier to wrap my head around what happened, but yesterday was so surreal I still felt like I was walking on the edge of a dream.
It was Monday, so Iâd expected Christian to be at work. But when I entered the sun-splashed kitchen, I found him standing by the espresso machine, dressed in a black shirt and pants instead of his usual suit.
I blinked with surprise. âYouâre here.â
âIt my house,â he said dryly. He nodded at the array of covered plates on the kitchen island. âNinaâs here and made breakfast. Lemon ricotta pancakes, your favorite.â
My stomach growled at the mention of breakfast. Iâd had a pastry for lunch and skipped dinner yesterday, so I would be happy with kind of food.
âHow are you feeling?â he asked, watching as I dug into the pancakes.
, these were good. Possibly the best pancakes Iâd ever had.
âIâll survive.â My muscles ached and my head still hurt a bit, but it wasnât anything critical. âArenât you supposed to be at work?â
âIâm leaving soon.â Christian set his coffee mug in the sink. âI had to tell Ava what happened since she was worried when you didnât come home last night. She correctly guessed you were with me.â
I winced. Iâd totally forgotten to let Ava know I was okay.
âShe told Jules.â His tone dried further. âThey should be here soon. They can keep you company while I deal with Julian.â
âYouâre letting them into your house? I thought you didnât like guests.â
âI figured you wouldnât want to be alone.â Christianâs frown deepened. âIf thatâs not the case, Iâll tell them not to come.â
âNo. Itâs fine. Itâll be good to see them.â He was right about me not wanting to be alone.
Seeing my friends would give me a sense of normalcy, though I knew they must be freaking out.
âWhat are you going to do with Julian?â I asked, sure I didnât want to know the answer but was too curious not to ask.
If it were anyone else, Iâd insist they let the police handle it.
However, trying to convince Christian to turn a case over to the cops would be futile, and I didnât have the best experience with the police.
With my luck, Julian would weasel his way out of a heavy sentence and be back on the streets in a few months.
Christianâs eyes darkened. âNothing he doesnât deserve.â
A chill skated down my spine at the calm lethalness of his response. I suddenly wondered, on a more visceral level, why he was wearing all-black, casual attire instead of a suit.
Christian had proved he was a better man than Iâd expected.
But I knew with sudden, blinding clarity that he was also capable of worse things than I could imagine.
Our gazes locked. My heartbeat slowed beneath the weight of his appraisal.
He knew I knew, or at least I had an inkling. And he wanted to see if I would condemn him. Try to stop him.
My fork grew cold in my hand. But I didnât say a word.
The chime of the doorbell broke the spell, and I instinctively glanced toward the living room.
Nina mustâve answered the door because I heard the faint sounds of my friendsâ voices followed by the patter of footsteps.
âIf you have time todayâ¦â Christianâs quiet voice drew my attention back to him. âLook in the drawer where you found the files. Thereâs something there for you.â
The uncharacteristic uncertainty in his tone sparked a seed of curiosity and something warmer that slid through me like molten honey.
My friendsâ voices grew louder.
Christian moved to leave, but I stopped him before he reached the doorway.
âChristian.â
He turned to look back at me.
âDonât give him any pieces of your soul,â I said softly.
Julian made his bed, and it was time to lie in it. But Christianâ¦I didnât want him doing anything that would haunt him, especially if it was for me.
Especially if it would break any part of him.
âOne of my favorite things about you,â he said, his voice like the darkest of velvets. âIs that you think I have any pieces left.â
I was still standing in the kitchen after he left, his presence a cool, lingering draft in his wake.
I only had a few seconds to breathe in the silence before my friends spilled into the room and wrapped me in a cocoon of hugs and concern.
âIâm sorry I didnât call yesterday,â I said, hugging Ava. âSo much happened, and it completely slipped my mind.â
âI understand,â she reassured me. âIâm just glad youâre okay.â
âWhat I understand,â Jules said. âIs why youâre at Christianâs house. I thought you broke up. What the hell happened?â
didnât âItâs a long story,â I said. âYou might want to sit down firstâ¦â
Two hours and one exhaustive recount of my kidnapping and the aftermath later, I found myself staring at three slack-jawed statues. Two in person, and one on FaceTime, since Bridget was in Eldorra but would murder me if I left her out of the loop on this.
Apparently, Christian had merely told Ava Iâd had a ârun-inâ with my stalker, so ninety-five percent of my story came as a complete shock to them.
Jules recovered first.
âFirst of all, Julian deserves .â She shook with fury. âSecond of all, Iâm to jail for what Iâll do if I ever come across him. I will cut his balls off, do you hear me? Iâll slice them open with a machete and shove them down his throat so he chokesââ
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, I think weâve had enough violence for the week,â Ava cut in. Worry creased her forehead. âStel, are you sure heâs taken care of? Heâs not going to escape or anything?â
I shook my head. âI doubt it. Harper Security has him.â
âWhat about Christian?â Bridget asked. She was in what looked like her office, and a giant portrait of some old Eldorran monarch glared at me from behind her. âDoes this mean youâre back together?â
âWeâreâ¦â I hesitated. âWorking things out.â
âThatâs great!â Of all my friends, Jules was the most enthusiastic about Christian. Probably because heâd lowered our rent so much when we moved into the Mirage. âHeâs not that bad of a guy. I mean, sometimes he does bad Those files were totally not okay, and you had every right to break up with him.
â¦â Her voice softened. âHe really loves you.â
I swallowed past the knot of emotion in my throat. âI know.â
Luckily, the conversation soon moved back to safer ground with Jules detailing all the creative ways sheâd murder Julian (much to Avaâs chagrin).
My friendsâ company grounded me back in reality.
When lunchtime passed, however, I gently but firmly insisted that they go about the rest of their day and that I didnât need babysitting.
I appreciated their company and concern, but Iâd exhausted my social battery for the day. I needed alone time to recharge.
The door closed behind them, and I sucked in a breath of silence.
Nina was also gone for the day, so it was just me and the empty penthouse.
When I first moved in, I thought it was cold and impersonal, like a model showroom. Now, being here felt like returning home.
That was the couch where Iâd created my collection, those were the plants Iâd lovingly tended to for monthsâ¦
And that was the office where Iâd found the files that shattered it all.
I stopped in front of the entrance. For once, Christian had left the door open.
.
Staying away was impossible.
My heartbeats collided with each other as I walked to his desk and triggered the secret drawer mechanism.
The compartment slid out soundlessly.
I experienced a twinge of surprise when I saw its contents.
Instead of black binders, the drawer was filled with letters. There were at least a dozen of them, handwritten on simple cream stationery.
I recognized Christianâs bold, elegant scrawl immediately.
I flipped through them, my heart rate climbing with every sheet that came into view.
They were all addressed to me and dated from the day we broke up.
One letter for every day weâd been apart.
Emotion swelled in my throat at the thought of Christian sitting here night after night, writing me notes I might never see.
Except I was here now, at his request, and I couldnât have stopped myself if I wanted to.
I sank into his chair, picked up the first letter, and started reading.