Chapter 40// "We're like hot chocolate and Marshmallows Dawson, you're hot and I want to be on top of you"
"Your hair is tickling my face" He complains. Well it wasn't my fault I had so many stupid baby hairs.
"Stop resting your face in my neck, it's ticklish as well" I try and shove him but he doesn't move.
He snuggles in to me that makes me laugh.
"What are you 12?" I ask him raising an eyebrow at him though he couldn't see me. He was acting so childishly.
"Yeh on a scale of 1 to 10"
He groans in annoyance when I move. "Just fix your ponytail"
"Oh I'm sorry I didn't have time to make my hair perfect for you, seeing as you were the one who woke me up in the middle of the night to eat KFC"
"Cress if sarcasm burned calories, I would be worried about your weight"
True, true.
"Cress" I nod my head in his direction, he shifts so he is face to face with me.
"Do you remember on Friday you said you and Emily were going to get ice-cream"
I remembered perfectly well, seeing as it was only a few days back. Elliott was in a really romantic (could you call it that when it came to him) mood that day because he was texting me all these cute messages about how he loved me. Not that I'm complaining.
"Emily told me you were looking down at you phone and smiling at my messages, then you walked in to a pole"
My mouth hangs open, she said she would keep my little incident a secret; I place my face in my hands in embarrassment.
He takes my wrist and looks me in the eye with his gleaming dark blue eyes.
"Do you think it would be legal to fuck in the middle of the forest?" he asks me.
Oh my lord he did not just says that out loud. All the innocent night creatures are officially scared
"'Elliott why are you always so horny"
"It's not that I'm horny all the time, it's just your always fucking sexy"
"I don't even see how we ended up together, I'm smart and you're always a sex craving jerk"
"Dawson there is 1 universe, 9 planets, 204 countries, 809 islands, 7 seas and I had the privilege of meeting you. Which shows it was meant to be form the start"
He does that all the time; he comes up with these weird crazy lines, which are so adorable that I just want to pinch his cheeks.
"I guess you paid attention in geography"
"Nah I just saw that quote online one day and thought I would learn it off my by heart, thinking it would come in handy one day. And it has"
I laugh, what a idiot.
He looks at me silently studying my face in the darkness; I look at the grass trying not to blush.
"God Dawson" He groans. Wow it was such an attractive sound. I give him a questioning look.
"We're like hot chocolate and Marshmallows Dawson, you're hot and I want to be on top of you"
"Then what are you waiting for"
*
Elliott's soft lips were attached to mine until we hear a rustle of leaves. I don't think anything of it seeing as it was probably a fox or a bird. We were in the middle of a forest.
But Elliott stops dead, I open my eyes look in to his, which were filled with alarm, he pulls back from me. He looks around as if he were looking out for someone.
'It's probably a fox" I say soothingly, I lean towards him again, but he stands up.
That's when all of a sudden I see a shadow come up from the darkness. At a closer glance the person had blonde hair and grayish blue eyes. I let out a sigh of relief.
"It's only Conner" I let out a laugh. But Elliott was unmoving.
As the figure walks closer he has a hard expression on his face.
"Elliott what's wrong" I ask I could feel the tension in the air.
"I think you should introduce your upper lip to your lower lip and shut up for one minute" Elliott tone had changed completely. I look alarmed at him and then back at Conner.
"What are you doing with him?" Conner asks me coldly.
"He's my boyfriend" I reply but my voice wavers, wasn't he?
"He broke your heart'
Then memories from that night come back to me the night Elliott and me broke up, then the memories of Elliott leaving.
Conner was suddenly by my side and it felt like Elliott was getting more and more distant from me.
"He's not good for you blondie"
No, Conner was wrong; Elliott and me were perfect for each other. There was no better couple than us.
You manipulated her in to loving you. She's always had a crush on me," Conner says in Elliott's direction.
"I've been the one who's been here for her while you ignored her" Elliott replies angrily. I wanted to say something but the words just wouldn't form in my mouth.
Conner lets out a dry laugh "I'll be here for her, I'll make her forget about you and the hurt you caused her. She has always had a crush on me it's only a matter of time"
I keep my gaze on Elliott; my thoughts were all mixed up.
I always had a crush on Conner. That's what I can remember. And also that I always dreamed up ending up with. I was over Elliott because he broke my heart.
No Conner never even knew my name; Elliott was the one who held me like no one had ever done before.
Something was nagging at me that I couldn't trust Elliott.
That's when I see Elliott slowly place his hand behind his back, I keep my eyes on his hand watching it move like he was taking something out his pocket.
"Elliott, what are you doing" There was a menacing look in his eyes.
I jump on the spot when I see him pull out the gun.
"Me or him Dawson?"
I look at Elliott, he wasn't like this, he was never scary like this. He was funny and idiotic a bit of a jerk as well.
The way he held the gun and pointed in my direction, was like he'd done it before.
My head was telling me to say Elliott, but it was my lips that betrayed me...
"Conner'
And I heard the shot. And I went cold.
*
I finally scream out loud.
It felt like was underwater ad I finally hit the surface, I could breathe again.
I place my hand on my chest to feel my heartbeat. Instead I was covered in water.
I look around and see someone standing there, I very nearly scream again till the figure takes hold of my shoulder and shakes me slightly. Bringing me fully back in to reality.
"Crescent it was a dream, as nightmare. I don't know" It was Conner's voice.
A dream. I dreamt that Elliott and me where on our date that night. Then Elliott tired to make me choose between him and Conner. And Elliott had a gun.
In a way it was too good to be true, well the start at least.
''Why am I wet?" I ask. I expected him to throw a sexual joke at me, but I forgot, he wasn't Elliott.
"Because you wouldn't wake up and you were shouting my name"
I look at him surprised but why would I shout his name. I could tell by the look on his face he had just woke up or was at least dozing off.
"I was just going to sleep then I heard you shouting really loudly. So I came through the window, you were struggling in your sleep and I poured water over you"
There was a glint of concern in his eyes. Conner? Concerned? I really must be delusional.
"Where is Daniel?"
Daniel? Oh yeh my brother Daniel.
I didn't really know how to put this. When we got home the day I was confronted by Ryan in the car park. I started chucking Daniel's thing s out the window. I told him I didn't want him in the same house as me.
The only reason he left was because I had his x-box or play station. I didn't even know what you called it? And I was holding it outside the window. I told him if he didn't walk away I would drop it.
So he left.
I know, I went a bit insane. Maybe even a tad bit over the top. But it was hard coming to term with the fact your brother and his friends were part of some sort of gang.
Mom would be so disappointed in him, if she were still alive today.
"I kicked him out," I tell Conner though I knew he knew there was more to the story but he didn't push it.
He scratches the back off his neck awkwardly "So are you okay now?"
I try and attempt to smile, though I was still shaken up "Yeah, I'm okay now"
I knew where this conversation was going, but I didn't want to be alone.
"I should get going then"
I continue too look at him and he looks straight back at me. I didn't want to be alone again.
My voice was almost a whisper "Can you stay?"
I sounded so vulnerable. It wasn't just that I had a nightmare, but it just felt so real to be held by Elliott.
I craved that sort of comfort though no one could match up to Elliott's standards.
The moment of silence made me regret asking, what if he said no. I don't think I could really take that sort of humiliation.
"Yes"
Wait did I actually hear him right? Did Conner Ryder just say yes?
I shuffle to the edge of the left side of the bed. I always slept at this side.
Conner walks around the bed and carefully climbs on top of it. For a moment there is no movement.
There was still the usual dark look on his face but I also saw a sort of smile starting to form.
"Are you going to scoot close then or do you want to build a invisible wall between us"
He half puts his arms round me, but not placing himself too close to me. As opposed to Elliott who would practically be on top of me at this point. Relationship or no relationship.
It was sort of like spooning but in a less sexual way.
"I vaguely remember as kids we once slept together. Me, you and Daniel"
I knew I was also remembering the same thing.
"We had to share a bed, because there were only two rooms"
It was the time we went to Spain. Conner's mom, my mother (not my birth mother) and the three of us.
"I had to sleep in the middle because you and Daniel kept arguing. But I guess that is what a sibling relationship runs on. You hate each other one minute but you still have to love them" Conner explains. I knew he was trying to tell me not to be mad at Daniel anymore.
If I was being honest I wasn't mad at Daniel anymore, he was my twin, it wasn't possible to stay mad at him for too long.
"I'm not mad anymore just more hurt"
"He always has your best interests at heart"
"Good night Conner"
"Night blondie"
*
"Holy shit" Winter comments.
"Holy shit is that all you can say" Emily says very loudly
"More like holy motherfucking cheeseballs"
After a few pizzas and a lot of cookie dough I finally explained everything to them. Starting with Elliott's letter.
"So Conner held you last night, like if your arms. I wish Daniel would do that to me" Winter huffs. Emily hits her on the head with the empty Pepsi bottle.
"Not the right time Winter"
"Let's see the letter then" Emily asks. I gently pull it out one of my drawers. I stop for a moment.
'If it make you feel better Cress we can wear gloves whole touching it"
Emily and me give Winter an odd look but she just shrugs.
I hand it to Emily and both of them skim through it.
"I have come to a conclusion" Emily finally says after she studies the letter.
"I'm not saying this to hurt you, but I'm going to be honest with you. Elliott clearly says he's not coming back and from what you told me it's not safe for him to comeback. So get over him. Cress we can't see you sit there every day, thinking about him"
I look her deep in to her blue eyes. I had been thinking the same thing. The deeper I though about Elliott the more it was messing me up in the head.
I take the letter gently from Winter, I then walk to my bedside table and open the photo album up picking out every picture of him. Of us. I also take the photo frame from our Cheerleading and football team party.
I gather them all up and place them in a drawer. Subconsciously I place ally my feelings in the drawer too.
I was not going to think about him any more. At least not for now. I am going to move on, I know that's what he would have wanted.
''I'm still team Crelliott. I'm sorry but fuck Conner" Winter states truthfully.
"Well I'm team Crescent and Conner"
"Ha" Winter shouts out loud which startles us both. "You don't even have a ship name for them"
Emily shakes her head as the smiling winter.
Winter looks in to the empty pops bottle like it was some sort of crystal ball.
"My senses tell me that Elliott can never keep away from you Crescent, and they also tell me that he loves you and he'll always fight for you"
"So tell me oh so great one what does the crystal Pepsi bottle say about my future" Emily asks sniggering.
"Dunno it's gone all cloudy now, maybe your damned or something"
Author note:
My updates are on fire right now. Bet you were really confused at the start but, oh well.
I loved writing about Elliott and Crescent again! I adore the humor they create together.
Also if your super confused. Crescent had a nightmare about Elliott, Conner was also in it. Then Conner woke her up.
Maybe another update tomorrow though don't get your hopes too high!?!?