Chapter 50// "Well Dawson how about a buy you a book?"
I stand on my absolute tiptoes to reach for the book I wanted. I already had the paperback of a court of wings and ruins in my hand.
Nope there was no chance I was reaching this. I sigh thinking. Why the hell would the have such an important book so high up?
I believe that lord of shadows deserves more respects.
I feel some sort of presence around me; they grab the book that I was currently reaching for and hold it in front of me. I saw from the corner of my eyes that one hand was leaning against the bookcase and their other hand was around my back holding the book in front of my face.
"You know how people buy drinks for girls in bars? As a way to start a conversation or get with the girl"
"Well Dawson how about a buy you a book?"
Dawson.
I spin around to see Elliott hovering over me.
I was dumbfounded; I never understood where Elliott came up with all these things that attract me to him.
I didn't know what to even say, that pick up line was just, so perfect. I couldn't say no. I was for once speechless.
I don't know why I loved the way he was so close to me. His scent was so intoxicating that it made me dizzy?
"I...Elliott...." he cuts me off and takes a court of wings and ruins out my hand.
"You want me to get this one too. No problemo"
I walk behind him, not knowing what to say. It was also a shock to the system casually seeing him around. God I missed that smile.
I finally compose myself. "You didn't have to do that Elliott"
"But I did Dawson and if you wanted me to buy you the whole bookstore I would do that too. Now hurry up Cress I need a coffee"
As we reach the coffee counter there was a young bouncy blonde girl with her hair in a ponytail and a bright smile on her face. Also her eyes were scanning Elliott.
"What would you like?" She smiles too sweetly showing off her little white teeth.
"A cappuccino, 1 sugar" He dragged out every word and looked deep in to her eyes.
"Elliott Grayson" She blushes at the sound of his name.
Instantly the smile drops off her face when she looks at me. Why does he have to do this in front of me and why the hell is this hurting me?
"Cress what do you want?" Elliott asks me.
"I like my coffee how I like myself, dark butter and too hot for you"
That's when I storm of to go sit at a empty table. I sit down placing my bag beside me and put my chin in my hands.
After 10 minutes or so Elliott walks in my direction with both his hands behind his back.
"I got you your favourite coffee" He smiles saying it in a singsong like voice. I turn my face away from him as he places his and my coffee on the table. His other hand was still behind his back.
"And I got you a chocolate chip muffin" he says overly excitedly.
Who could resist a Starbuck's chocolate chip muffin? I reach my hand out to take it form him but he places a sly grin on his face.
"Tell me one thing you love about me"
"Excuse me? Sorry I can't think of a single thing"
"Then I guess I get to enjoy this delightful muffin"
Damn this boy.
"Your eyes Elliott, I like how blue they are"
"Oh Dawson your making me feel all hot" he says placing the muffin on the table and sitting across from me.
I take sip from the drink and look at the name on it.
'Dawson'
*
Jack and Tiffany had invited us round to his mother's house before they flew to New York.
It was actually surprisingly hot outside for a December night. I decided that I didn't care if it was formal event, I had so many tests and had been solidly studying for the past few hours.
So I decided to go in what I was already wearing, which was my Levi's t-shirt and a pair of leggings. My hair was hanging down loosely, small strands occasionally falling in my face. Thank god I didn't decide to wash off the little make-up I usually wore for school.
"Cress How long does it take to get changed" Daniel shouts from the bottom of the stairs. I huff out load and pick up my phone as I skip down the stairs.
"I was finishing off the math homework. Do you think our teacher math teacher give us so much because Elliott came back? Like he just wanted to make us suffer" I sigh. How much do they think can fit in my tiny brain?
"Dunno I haven't looked at it yet" Daniel shrugs.
"What but it's due tomorrow?"
"Elliott sent it to me and I copied it out"
I give him a hard look that wasn't fair, just cause Elliott was some kind of math genius. The looks and the brains, I didn't understand how one human could be so fortunate.
We walk across the road and down towards Elliott's house, there were countless cars parked in front of it. Well shit.
When we ring the doorbell someone instantly answers it. It was a middle age woman, with dark green eyes and Elliott's dark hair.
"Crescent, Daniel, oh Jack is going to be so happy to see you" She says excitedly, as she pulls us both in to a single hug.
"Hey Mrs. Grayson" Daniel smiles, while I offer her a warm smile.
Inside it's filled with people mostly a few years older than me, I scan the room and don't see the person I am subconsciously looking for.
He wasn't here.
But I did see Jack and he waves at me to go over to him.
"Hey guys, this is Crescent. Cress these are my two best friends Tommy and Landon" I give them both a smile and one of them even offers to kiss my hand.
"I'm so glad you came, well obviously not as glad as Elliott will be. You're the only topic running out of his mouth. And I can't wait for you to meet Tiffany"
My throat hurts at the sound of her name.
"Yeh can't wait. I think I'm going to go and find Conner" I said quickly before rushing off.
"Dawson I was told this was a formal event but damn you look too good to complain"
I spin around and see Elliott leaning against the doorframe. He was wearing a white shirt and a black, really tight pair of jeans.
He bits his lip and runs his eyes over my body and then looks back up at me with that smile that makes you go weak at the knees.
He stands away form the doorframe and comes close to me gently using his softy fingertips to push my hair behind my ear.
"But you know where I think your clothes would look better? On my bedroom floor"
And he was gone, I spin around to see him but he had melted in to the crowd.
"Hey blondie" Someone says wrapping their arms around me. I spin around in his arms to face him a smile immediately falling on to my face.
"I didn't expect you to come tonight after all those post on your spam account about having so much math homework"
"I know, but Jack would have been disappointed"
"I'm so happy I dropped that class"
"Lucky for some" I reply as he gently places a soft kiss on my lips.
"I'm starving, where is the food" I say when he pulls away, to my dismay.
My eyes catch the figure behind Conner. It was Elliott, he quickly drops his gaze form me when I see him and was away. But I saw the look in his eyes that look of hurt.
*
When Conner decides to go and talk to Jack I walk in the direction of the kitchen hoping to find Jack and Elliott's mom, and see if she wanted a helping hand.
Instead I see 2 people arguing in the kitchen. Elliott and Winter.
I knew it was wrong but I stood outside the door, out of site but with enough distance to hear them both.
"She's moved on Elliott" Winter tells him.
"But I still care, fuck sakes I never stopped caring"
"Elliott she's moved on and I feel sorry for you because I know that she thought you were the most amazing boy in the world. If she could have had any guy she would have picked you. I saw her suffer but I still told her you were good for her but now I'm not so sure. Conner treats her good"
"But I loved her first. And since when did you two become best friends again"
"The night you broke her heart Elliott. I went with her to the airport when you were leaving" Winter tells him.
I peak through the door and see the shock on his face.
"I thought I saw you but I thought I was imagining it"
"You know what Elliott I don't really care, you're a fuckboy that changed his ways for a girl. But now you see her holding hands with someone else that took the chance. And she doesn't notice you as much, she too busy laughing with Conner. And I see it hurts you every time you see her smile and that you're not the reason for it. I think it's finally hit you that she's the only one for you and it will always be her. But are you really the one for her?"
I leave before I can hear anymore. Was it really hurting Elliott seeing me with Conner?
Eventually we're all called to sit at the table for this dinner. It was a long table filled with fancy food that fit just about everyone.
I sit with Conner and Winter next to me, with Daniel, Conner and Aiden across from us. I could feel the tension between Elliott and Winter.
That's when a women walks in, she had wavy brown hair and was average in height. From what I could tell from the distance she had grey eyes and a big smile on her face. The smile showed off her pearly white teeth. All in all she was so pretty I was almost stunned.
She wore a light grey dress that went halfway between her thigh and kneecaps.
"For any of you that don't know this is my fiancé who is soon to be my wife. Tiffany Heart" Jake says proudly kissing her on the lips.
I see Daniel and Elliott's eyes watching me carefully.
This was Tiffany. The girl who Carter and Elliott betted on. She looked like a lovely person but I felt the hate build up inside of me.
Of course Elliott had liked her, she was so pretty. Something that I would never be. Well at least not to that standard.
"Elliott where did you run away to, your mom is furious with you for spiking the chocolate mousse" Tiffany says pretending to be angry as she walks in our direction.
"Had to be done" he shrugs. "Anyway this is Cress, she's the last bridesmaid"
I look at him angrily; I didn't want him to tell her who I was, I was mentally deciding whether or not to fake a illness so I didn't have to go to the wedding.
"Really, oh my god I'm so so happy to meet you. I swear you're the only word on Elliott's lips. He said you were stunning and I can't say he did you enough justice" Some comes around the table and give me a big hug. Well this is awkward and Conner didn't look too happy with the situation either.
"Thanks for letting me a bridesmaid, I haven't been one before" Was all that came out my mouth. How could she be so nice? I imagined her as being a wicked witch. Actually it would be easier is she was.
"Nonsense I've lost count of the number of my bridesmaid. I'm actually getting worried if the place we booked isn't too small. Oh my god, who brought out the mousse" she says running away as quickly as she came.
I sit my self down. "She's nice" I comment.
'She's bangin" Aiden adds eating a piece of chicken, I didn't even know we were allowed to start eating yet.
"Yes Elliott would know" I say harshly.
He didn't say anything.
"Sad isn't it Elliott, the girl you were betting on actually turned out to be your brother's fiancé."
Still no reaction from him as he looks down at his food, moving it about on the place with a knife.
"And you use me to choose which on of you deserves her more. It's kind of sick isn't it? But why should I be angry, I'm not pretty enough for you because your Elliott Grayson, the fuckboy, who never gave a shit about me. In my opinion she's seems too nice for you"
I have been angry with him for a long time but now it was all coming out.
"Why me huh Elliott? Was I easy, I must have been seeing as I trusted you"
"Cress calm down" Conner puts a hand on my arm but I violently shake him off.
"Elliott the way you hurt me was cruel. Sometimes I would just end up lying on the bathroom floor trying my hardest to breathe while I was wondering where it all went wrong and how I was supposed to get up and pretend every thing was ok"
No response. Was he brain-dead.
"You know what Conner is so much better than you, because when you used to call me hot, he calls me beautiful. You picked on me while Conner stood up for me. You said you loved my body when he loves my personality. And most of all Elliott you were the one who made me cry when Conner was the one who cared for me and wiped away the tears.
"What do you want Crescent?" He stand up fast pushing his chair back. His voice was a shout, which made most people stop talking.
"Is something wrong?" Jake asks from the top of the table.
"Why don't you ask her, all I see is bullshit pouring out her mouth"
I grab the purple glass of wine in front of me and splash the continents in Elliott's direction, on his perfectly clean white shirt.
Before I can see the look on anybody's face I turn around and walk out the room
*
I end up in the messy kitchen alone.
"What do you want from me Crescent?" His vice was harsh and almost at a shout.
"I want you to explain, why you left, why your back, why seeing your face around breaks my heart" I could feel the wetness bubbling in my eyes
"Dawson there's no point in thinking about what happened. I can't take back what I did and when I left I did it all to keep you safe"
Without my permission he takes both my hands in to his own pulling me forward. I didn't want to be too close to him.
But there was a small place inside of me that desperately wanted Elliott to wrap his arms around me. To go back to the time when it was Elliott and me. The time when I had no idea who Ryan was, or Aaron.
"Elliott" I begin about to pull away from his grip.
Until He gives me another tug closer to him and I fall in to his chest. My arms are trapped between our chests and his arms wrap around my back holding me tight against him.
My mind protests against this whole thing that this was going to hurt later that I should be stronger and not give in to him.
It was the way he held me so tightly and his familiar sent and the familiar feeling of his body it made me never want him to let go.
All my thoughts turn to soup when he bends down and nuzzles his face in to my neck, like he was breathing in the scent of my perfume.
"I'm sorry for breaking your heart Dawson. Mine is breaking too. I've lost the right for you to ever forgive me or even for me to call you mine. But I would be devastated if you didn't want to be my friend again"
His voice was soft, as if he were lightly chanting a poem. It didn't have the mysterious undertone to it or any humor. It was just Elliott, being honest.
I lean closer in to his chest resting my head where his heart it and I heard it drumming really fast. Did his heart pick up it's pace whenever I was around just like mine was doing with him?
I let my body stop tensing and enjoy the moment while it lasted.
He lowly loosens his grip and I take the slightest step back though I didn't really want to.
"Now how are we supposed to explain what just happened" I ask.
"I don't think we need to we're Cress and Elliott, nothing we do makes sense"
Author note:
Well I really found this chapter boring.
I legit have bad writers block and I hate when that happens cause I end up not writing for like a month?
Anyone have any ideas. No Cress and Elliott are not going to kiss anytime soon ahah!
And woohoo we reached 50 chapters !!!!