Chapter 12: chapter 12

He laughs.Sending a wave of embarrassment to my body. My eyes shifted to a small hole in the table cover."I'm a doctor, Ms Green... Of course, we must have met before!" He says in a not so convincing words. I shake my head."N-No... I mean. It feels like you're familiar to me. Like we were close before. I feel like this about Rodas too" One of my fingers found its way to the hole. But I don't feel like this about Rei, which is so weird.I raise my eyes to see Liam's widen eyes for a mere second but then they are back to normal as quickly which is enough to tell me that he knows, he is just acting dumb. He shifts in his seat."Tell me the truth, Liam. Please!" Desperate pleas leave my trembling lips.Yet he cast his eyes off me and flips the pages of his diary. How ignorant."If I were you, Elora... Then I wouldn't want to remember my past"  he says in a soft voice. "I would not believe anyone and just leave everything and live a new life. Start over with new memories."    My heart drops to my stomach, his words are salt to my wound. Stupid tears well up in my eyes knowing very well that I can't trust anyone at this point because everything is turning out wrong.Fuck, I've already understood that my memories wouldn't be pleasant but I can't live with this incompleteness. I will never be able to heal. No matter how painful my memories are. They are still my freaking memories. I want to claw my head till it bleed, it might help."Are you telling me to run away?" I mumble, penetrating my finger through that small hole in the table cover, making it bigger.Liam's square face makes an innocent expression."No! I'm in no position to tell you that. I'm just giving my opinion. I'm only here to check your health condition, Ms Green" My both hands are back on my lap. I wipe away my tears with the hem of my shirt."Do you think I will get my memories back?""It's a temporary condition but at the same time I cannot be so sure" I stay silent."Do you get headaches?" "No! But once I heard voices all around me. It was scary""You might get it from time to time. They are the fragments of your memories... Try not to get so hard on yourself Ms Green," "You really are not going to tell me if we knew each other?" I try again.He chuckles and closes his diary before putting it inside his bag."You can go now, Ms Green!" My shoulder drops but I also wait for a moment in case he changes his mind and tells me but nope... Not even after five minutes. So, I stand up and walk to the door.Waiting outside the door is Rodas with his harsh face. Leaning against the wall. He takes steps near me."Were you eavesdropping?" I scowl at him.The corner of his mouth curls up in a proud smile. "This is my house, I can do whatever I want" So, he isn't even denying it.I roll my eyes and stomp away from him only to be yanked back by the arms. My body crashes against his hard chest. I do not look up at him, instead, my eyes are on his exposed chest. My stomach tingles but soon the feeling is snatched away by Rodas's finger raising my chin to meet his gaze."How was it?" He asks.Your chest? I almost let out my thought. "Everything good?" He throws his concerned question to my dumb face again. "What do you think?" He looks worried. Lowering his head, he demands, "Answer me" I guess he loves playing a good character. There's no way, this person can be concerned or be worried about someone else.But look at me, still being affected by him. I do not answer. Our lips are only mere inches apart and he is looking at mine now. Is he gonna kiss me?  My shameless thoughts run wild in my head.But in a moment, his touches are gone. I'm left alone in the hallway as he walks away from me. "You're staying here for a while!" I hear him say without looking back. I rub my arms, my poor attempt to remove the lingering warmth of his touch. Then I stroll toward the way he went. After almost fifteen minutes of getting lost and getting out of his giant home, I find him in a small room on the second floor with the help of one of his men. Rodas curses and throws the game controller, it lands near my feet. That's when he notices me. He turns off his computer."I want to go back!" I start."Only for a few days, stay here!" His calm voice is almost convincing. "Then, tell me the fucking truth. If you don't want to, then let me go back. I want to talk with Rei. Make things clear with him. He is kind. I know he will not hurt me" I shout. Rodas still sits in his place, though he is blurry now. My tears keep welling up without stopping. "And if he is not my boyfriend and just acting up then it's ok also... I will part ways on good terms. I just want a little clue about my past. Maybe I'll remember that way-" I choke on my tears. I know I sound so pathetic right now.Rodas is walking toward me. He holds the back of my head but I refuse this time. I move away. He stares at his hands as if he couldn't believe I just did that. "If I saw something that I shouldn't have before losing my memory. I swear I won't open my mouth, just tell me what happened"Rodas sighs and looks down. Then he takes out his phone and calls someone. Minutes later, two women come in, built big. Rodas nods his head at them and I'm lifted immediately."FUCK YOU!!! FUCKING DICKHEAD!!!" I yell at him.I struggle, shouting and yelling at them to let me go. Rodas turns his back away from me and sits before his computer again.They shove me inside the room where I was staying last time and close the door from outside. I'm devastated. I don't have the energy to pound on the door and ask them to open the door because I know they will not do it unless Rodas tells them to.I sit on the ground, between the sofa and the table, head on my hands. A sudden vibration of my phone in my pocket shakes me. I instantly take it out. Relief that they didn't confiscate it from me.Then I stare at the screen for a while.It's a text from Rei.