Chapter 53: chapter 53

Z's POV----------What the heck is this?Is this some kind of nightmare? I really can't grasp what is happening. Shit.Jeremy is covered in blood next to me, unconscious and faintly breathing. How did this stupid find himself in a condition like this? Why did he fucking let his guard down? Ugh! If only I was there with him. Then again, how could have I been with him. I was avoiding him. I hit the steering wheel with my fist."Get the fuck out of my way," I scream, speeding past a car in front of me. The way to the hospital seems like forever. I reach for his cheek with one hand. It's cold. He's never been this cold before. The thought itself is so scary. My palm wipes away the blood on his face."Jeremy... Stay with me ok?" I find myself spouting. "I've not told you about my feelings yet... Aren't you curious to know?" But he lies still, not aware of my words and the tears trickling down my face. "It's ok... We are almost there. You'll be fine" I'm convincing myself more. If something happens to him, I don't know what I would do. Everything seems meaningless without him. I've been avoiding this realization for a long time now but these few days when I was away from him, I was able to understand more about myself. I was slowly able to open the door of my heart and let my feelings free. I was an inch away to confess to Jeremy and this happened. "It's ok... You'll be fine," I keep mumbling. I pull the car in front of the hospital and rush to Jeremy's side. A guard comes running to me, shouting not to park the car there. I carry Jeremy in my arms without giving any attention to the guard and walk inside the hospital. Liam comes running to me, his eyes wide in shock."What the heck happened?" He gasps, quickly checking Jeremy. Then he calls for an emergency treatment. "You better save him, doctor," I growl, grabbing Liam's collar. He glares at me and shakes himself free."Why don't you be a little nice at times like this?" He spat and walks inside the emergency room. I sigh, grabbing my hair. So suffocating. I don't like it. I feel like someone is choking me to death. I can't. I won't be able to handle it this time. Not another death of the person I care about. Please. I don't remember much about my childhood before I met Rodas and Jeremy. I don't know if I had parents or not but all I could remember was an old lady who used to give me food and a place to sleep. She had a little black cat. I often played with it but one day it went missing. That old lady spent the whole night looking for it but came back empty-handed. I don't know if it's because I was bad at remembering or I just didn't want to remember about it anymore but that old lady somehow died. I can't seem to know about the cause. But right now, I feel like I've had these feelings before. This fear. This grief. This feeling of loneliness. Yeah! I must have felt all of these feelings when that old lady died. And I didn't know the random boy I saved while trying to steal from his home ten years ago would be this important to me. So important that the thought of his absence in my life alone is life-threatening to me. Whom am I kidding? At the end of the day, I've been always in love with Jeremy. I was just being a coward and kept convincing myself that loving someone would distract me. On the other hand, Jeremy has been true to his feelings, getting hurt and insulted by me over and over again yet didn't give up. I'm a coward. If something happens to him today, I'll never be able to forgive myself till my last breath. Ugh."Please, Dont don't leave me... Give me a chance to tell you how I feel... Please!" ...7 hours. 7 hours have passed. I'm still sitting outside the emergency room, slipping in and out of consciousness. My phone rings for the third time.Rodas has been calling me."Hello...""Is Jeremy alright?" He asks.I look around and then rub my nose. I don't know. "He will be" I reply instead. "I'll be there in an hour""You don't have to come Zeco... Stay there with Jeremy," Rodas says.How can expect me to leave him alone at this crucial time? Jeremy will be ok. Everything will be ok."I'll be there in an hour," I repeat. "Make sure Jeremy is ok," he says and cuts the call. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. Everything will be ok.30 minutes later, the door opens. I strengthen myself immediately and wait for Liam to come out. He sighs, sending my anxiety to the peak."How..." I swallow, scared of the answer. "How is-" I clasp my trembling hand.Liam walks to me and put his hand on my shoulder. I look at him.He nods with an assured smile."He is in stable condition."I gasp. Dropping on the seat next to me. I feel like a huge stone has been lifted off my head. I'm so relieved."S-So... He is ok?" I ask again, looking up at Liam.He nods again."He will be transferred to a private room... Though I can't say when he will wake up," "Can I see him?" I ask.Liam opens the door for me. I lean in to kiss Jeremy's head. "I love you... More than anything else. So, please hang in there,"  I whisper. With a last glance, I leave the room."Please take care of him, Liam" He frowns, confused."Where are you going?" He asks.Oh. He doesn't know about the whole situation but I'm not sure if I should tell him or not. I give him a small smile."Gotta take care of some unfinished business," I tell him."Ok..." He mumbles.I turn around to leave but Liam calls my name again."Please, take care of Elora!" He says."Nothing will happen to her, Rodas won't let anything happen to her" Right.Nothing will happen to her and Jeremy.