Chapter 69: chapter 69

Jeremy's POV-----------------Zeco has been standing behind me like a shadow for almost half an hour now. Neither of us uttered a single word.The air is so thick that I'm sweating and having difficulty breathing properly. I feel funny in my heart and the thing between my thighs hurts. It's embarrassing.Suddenly Zeco moves. He comes forward and sits beside me. My heart drums loudly against my chest as his fingertips brush against mine, sending shivers down my spine. I cough and pull my hand to myself, constantly rubbing the area where his skin made contact but the feeling of his icy cold finger doesn't fade away like it has been permanently engraved. Don't say a word.Don't you dare say a word.I plead under my breath. I badly want him to go away right now. I don't want to give in so easily. It's already so difficult to act like I'm not affected by him when I'm at my peak. I don't want to appear easy in front of him."Jeremy!" He calls my name softly. "Do you want to go the woods with me tomorrow morning?" I've wanted to do that for a long time now.Last year, I asked him to go for a picnic in the woods and take photographs of me with the yellow and red leaves but he refused straightly without any hesitation. So, hearing him ask me feels so unreal at this moment. He scoots closer to me and holds my arm. "Jeremy... Say a word... say anything, please!" I turn to look at his face, though I cannot see his exact expression due to the lack of light on the rooftop."Why are you being like this?" I ask."What do you mean?" "Why are you suddenly being kind to me Zeco? Is it because of sympathy?" Zeco shakes his head immediately as his grip tightens around my arm."That's not it... Jeremy, I don't know how to explain it but I- I love you... I love you and I don't want to lose you ever again." He sounds serious but I still can't help but feel that this is all just my stupid dream. All my life till now, I've only been rejected and abandoned. By my family and by the person I've fallen in love with. Zeco has been nothing but rude and selfish to me. Always looking for his own convenience. So how can I trust him so easily? What if he goes back to his old self again?"I'm afraid Zeco!" I whisper. "There's no need to" his hand moves down from my arms to my wrist and he slowly intertwines our fingers. "I'll never treat you the way I treated you before, Give me a chance. Please!" He pleads. Stupid tears well up in my eyes and I quietly wish they would fall without his notice but shortly his lips capture them. I close my eyes, my body weak as his rough lips caress my face."I couldn't live without you from the beginning. I loved everything about you..."He whispers near my ear and I feel like every shred of hair in my body is standing up with the goosebumps he is sending me. "But..." His palms come under my chin, cupping my face. His face is barely inches away from me. Our noses are touching each other and our lips quivering. "I was full of ego, I couldn't accept my feelings for you. I was disgusted by it yet whenever you go to other guys, I would burn underneath." His lips brush against mine. Even if it is only for a millisecond, it's enough to fuel the desire growing in me. Guess, I'm such a shameless bitch. "I thought I've nothing to lose in this life but I've realised it now..."His eyes sparkle in the dark and I can feel his hot breath all over me. I'm one string away to submit myself to him as I've always done in the past. "Jeremy... You're the only person I'm afraid to lo-" I couldn't bear any more. I rush in to close the gap between our lips. Instantly there seem to be sparks flying around us. We hungrily devour each other. His mouth sucking and biting my own. No words are spoken. Only our breathless mess of moans and groans. Zeco's hand slips under my T-shirt. Making me tremble and shiver with every touch. I find myself wrapping my legs around his waist, tugging at his hair while never leaving his lips. "I-I love you!!!" Zeco whispers under his breath. "I love-" I capture his lips again, preventing him from saying more. He removes his shirt and places it over the floor before making me lie down. Then he pulls off my clothes and just when he is about to unbuckle my belt, I stop him. He looks at me with desperate eyes. I shake my head and he slowly pulls up his hand and rests it over my chest. I kiss on his cheeks.Even though I badly want him to screw me right now, I can't afford to trust him so easily and let him do it. Call me crazy but I want him to come after me and tell me that he loves me for a little bit more. He buries his face into my nape, making his breathing steady. "So are you coming tomorrow or not?" He asks.I run my fingers through his hair, thinking about a suitable answer. "I-""Please! Don't say no" he interrupts me. I swallow back my words. He raises his head to look at me "I'll capture your photographs as much as you want... I'll do whatever you want me to do just- just don't say no Jeremy!" He says with a hoarse voice. "Give me a chance"I push him off me and sit up."I'll think about it," I answer and grab my t-shirt before wearing it."I'll be waiting at the gate tomorrow morning, Jeremy" I hear him say while making my way out of the rooftop. I can't help but smile.