Chapter 72: chapter 72

Elora's POV----------------It's 10 pm when we come back to the mansion. We have done a couple of things before coming back. We job hunted.It kind of sounds crazy but yeah. Jeremy had this idea of me working somewhere again so that I could move to my place. We made a lot of lists of many works that were available and finally concluded that I would be working as a piano teacher in a private music club in the morning, at a book cafe in the evening.I know. Jeremy was starting to oppose it too but I need to be busy. I need to stop myself from thinking about things that will just mess up my head.  The living room is empty. It seems like the couches haven't been occupied by anyone today, otherwise there's always a mess. "Good night!" Jeremy says.I nod and hug him. "Thanks, Jeremy"When we pull away from the hug, he ruffles my hair with a wide smile."Everything will be alright ok?" I nod again and watch him walk away towards the direction of his room. And I'm left standing alone in the middle of the hallway, a wave of heavy feeling surges in. The feeling of not wanting to deal with anything and just longing for a peaceful sleep is so strong but I know it's impossible when I have stepped into this place. I stroll towards my room and hesitantly grab the handle, half wishing that Rodas wouldn't be inside. With a small push, the door opens. The freezing air in the room immediately sends chills throughout my veins. The window is open and there's a huge figure standing by it. Cold and dangerous. My breath sticks to my throat and I slowly take a seat on the edge of the bed waiting for him to approach but minutes pass and he doesn't make a move. So I open my dry mouth to start the conversation which will end very badly. "I'm moving out!" He doesn't respond. "I need some space for myself. I think staying here will be too much for me. I can't handle you anymore and it's so hard to deal with. If I leave you're free to live your life. You won't have to worry about protecting me-" Before I can finish my words, the flower vase on the table goes flying across the room and strikes the front door before shattering into pieces. I cover my ears and keep my face down as tears stream down my cheeks. Next, I hear the sound of shattering glasses.And then silence. I slowly raise my head and look towards him. Rodas has smashed the window glass with his fist.  I dare not look at him again. Leaving the room seems to be better than dealing with him now. I shouldn't have come here. I stand on my shaky legs and take a step towards the door but before I can reach for the handle, his chest collides with my back making me small in front of him and the door handle gets blocked by his bruised hand. I stare at it, he must feel nothing to this kind of small injury. Again, it's just me who is feeling that pain. I feel his lips brushing against my earlobe ever so slowly. He takes a deep breath. "Is that all?" he whispers and then pauses. I grab the hem of the sweater, trying hard not to break down. "I'm sorry, I couldn't become the ideal man you wanted and I might not live for long but Elora I can't let you leave me" I burst into tears. I wish he said something reassuring. "If you want to leave so much... You should've left ages ago and I would've easily let you go but trying to do it now wouldn't work at all"I wish he said it differently. He puts his chin on my shoulder and wraps his arms around my stomach. It takes me a few seconds to realise that he is crying. I dare not move, not even an inch.His hands slip inside, digging his fingers into my skin. I twitch in pain and he slowly rubs over my stomach. "Don't be afraid." he chuckles."Did you ever-" I start but swallow back the rest of the words. I know his answer even if I don't ask. He tightens his grip around me."Ask anything you want, I'll answer" I shake my head and stay silent. "Did you ever love me wholeheartedly?" "Did I ever love you wholeheartedly?" He repeats my question and then slowly turns me around. His face is cast into a shadow but I can see his green eyes staring at me very clearly. I don't know what they are trying to say. His eyes have always been like a mystery ocean. "Elora you would be scared to death if I'm to tell you how much I want you. My love for you cannot be put into words and at the same time, it's the thing that only I can understand. Even now, my hands are itching to drag you into my bedroom, break your legs and chain you up so that you can't ever leave my side."I don't know why I'm not scared at this moment. Instead, I feel the anger boiling inside my stomach. I push him away from me and slap him hard across the face. The force is real, he staggers a few steps back. "IF YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH THEN WHY CAN'T YOU CHANGE FOR ME? WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE EVERYTHING AND BE WITH ME? DON'T GIVE ME YOUR BULLSHIT WORDS ABOUT WANTING TO KEEP ME BY YOUR DISGUSTING FANTASIES" I shout and point at his chest. He just stares down at me silently."You are such a selfish and stupidest person I have ever met Rodas. You know I had a little hope left for us but YOU JUST CRUMBLED IT INTO PIECES. WE ARE DONE RODAS CASTILLO. YOU CAN ENJOY YOUR DISGUSTING EMPIRE AND FUN MURDERS ALL YOU WANT" I turn away from him to leave but his hand blocks the door handle again. I glare at him with teary eyes and he slowly opens the door. "If you walk out now... Don't expect to see me again, Elora. I mean it" I push him away with both hands before stepping out of the door.