Chapter 74: chapter 74

Eloras's POV------------------The continuous ringing of the doorbell wakes me up at 6 am. I sigh and stare at the white ceiling and then around. The apartment where I moved into last night isn't that large but enough for me. I'm afraid that if it was even a little bit bigger than this one, I would've just felt small and lonely. There are so many things to do. There's almost nothing in this apartment besides the bed I'm sleeping on, a sofa in the living room and a kettle and mug in the kitchen. I will have to buy so many things but am feeling too lazy to even get up from bed and I need more sleep. I moved here in the middle of the night so abruptly after walking away from Rodas. The bell keeps ringing. I lazily wrap the blanket around me and walk toward the front door. Is it Jeremy? I'm still sleepy. So, I do not even bother to check through the keyhole first and open the door. I rub my eyes before setting them on the person standing in front of me. I blink multiple times. Rodas.I grab the blanket around me tighter."If you walk out now... Don't expect to see me again, Elora. I mean it" He said it last night. So, what is he doing here early in the morning? And Fuck Jeremy. He must have told him the address. But Rodas doesn't look like he is in his right mind at this moment while he looks at me with a pair of sleep-deprived eyes. His hair is in a mess and it seems like he is wearing the same clothes as last night. If we were in a different situation, I would've run my fingers through his hair and caressed his face before hugging him, maybe even telling him how much I love him but at this moment all I want to do is to shut this door on his face and stay alone in the room even if I have to cry myself to sleep again.The blanket drops on the floor as I grab the door handle and shut it but a foot stands in the way. It must have hurt, I put my whole strength but when I look up at him, Rodas shows no sigh of pain. So much so, that he didn't even blink an eye away from me."Rodas, get out!" I say coldly. He grabs the door handle over my hand and pushes the door wide."Come with me!" He says. "That's not possible" I look him in the eyes and say that. I want to be crystal clear that no way in hell I'm going back with him.  "Elora, don't do this," he says. I glare at him. Don't do what Rodas? I didn't bring up this situation. He takes my hands off the door handle and gets inside the apartment before kicking the door shut behind him. "Rodas! I will not say this again. Please get out" "Right?" He steps in front of me.I snatch my hand away from him in anger but the moment I do, he holds the back of my head and kisses me on the lips.I stand still for a moment in shock, my eyes wide open. His mouth wildly moves around me desperately but I keep my lips shut clearly letting him know that this isn't gonna work. We stagger back and plop down on the sofa with him on top of me.He pulls away slowly and buries his face in my nape.  "Let's go back" He mumbles. I shake my head. He raises his head and his green gazes stare at me in disbelief."What do you want Elora?" I can hear him getting frustrated."I only wish to be loved the way I love you, Rodas! I'm so sick and tired of trying and pretending to be considerate."I cry out, trying to push him off me. "Go away! I don't want you to be here" He grabs my weak fist that has been hitting him with one hand and covers my mouth with another. I start kicking him this time but that makes no difference. I'm still being dominated by his massive body against mine. "Elora! I don't know how to explain it to you again... I love you, Is that not enough? I don't know how to express it to you. You're driving me crazy!" Tears start pricking my eyes as I stare at him, my chest heaving up and down. Rodas slowly removes his hand from my mouth and I turn my face to the side. "Then don't stay here!" I say. He laughs suddenly. A laugh of disbelief. He loosens his grip and sits on the edge of the sofa giving me a chance to move away from him immediately."Elora!" He calls my name as I walk away from him to the kitchen. "Or do you love this building? Do you want me to move in with you? I can do that, Sunshine" he blabbers following me to the kitchen. I don't have the energy to argue with him anymore. I just stay silent and make myself an instant coffee.He picks up the instant coffee packet and stares at it before throwing it away. "Don't drink this type of cheap thing..." I take a sip in front of him and walk back to the living room with him following me. I sit on the sofa and switch on the TV but he stands before it. I don't what he is trying to do and if he thinks that sticking around here at this moment will help then he is so wrong. I have made up my mind. Rodas comes to kneel before me, slowly takes the coffee mug away from my hand and places it on the floor."Elora..." He says softly. "I promise I'll not make you feel alone in the home from now on. I'll never be out of town more than a day and I swear I'll come home early and spend time with you. The home is so empty without you... Please, come with me " His words make me chuckle. Rodas's face darkens. "And yet, you'll never say the things I want to hear from you, Rodas. I don't know why I'm still looking forward to it" "What do you want me to say more Elora?" I rub my face before pointing toward the door. "Leave Rodas. We are done. I'm breaking up with you" "What does that even mean?"