Chapter 81: chapter 81

It's my fault. I brought this situation to ourselves.I force Rodas to decide to leave the organisation and get attacked like this.If I didn't force him then this would've never happened. This would've never- he wouldn't be lying there, bleeding and getting stomped over and over. My voice is gone.I'm mute, lying in the centre of the room. There's a hole in my stomach and blood oozing out of it. Did they shoot me? Or did they stab me?It hurts. My eyes are becoming blurry. Rodas isn't moving anymore. Is he dying? Are we dying? Like this?Can't we hold each other for the last time? I want to be in his arms so that I feel protected. I want him to look at me and smile. My body can't seem to move. It's like I'm buried under a huge stone. Rodas. Is this it?Suddenly there's chaos in the room again. I try to look around but it's blurry. "Elora!!!" It's Jeremy's voice. They are finally here. Screams. Gunshots.Fights.And after some time, it goes silent. Someone rushes to me and picks me up before running. I can hear the distant sound of sirens. "R-odas!!" I mumble. The person says something and his words don't come clearly to me. Am I losing hearing too?"Rodas!" I say again with my remaining strength but before I can hear the person's voice, darkness envelops me in its heart. ----White lights. Blinding white lights. Slowly it's turning black.White again. Then thick red blood starts covering it from every corner. Someone is lying at the centre. Slowly his face comes into my sight. It's Rodas. But his eyes are pitch black instead of green. He smiles at me as blood streams down from the corner of his eyes. "Why?" He cries."Why did you do this to me?" He reaches for my throat and starts pressing making it hard for me to breathe."WHY DID YOU KILL ME?" He screams this time. "WHY????" My eyes shot open and I got up to sit immediately. Doot. Doot. Doot. Doot.The monitor sounds beside me. I blink several times before my eyes travel to a hand attached to multiple needles and tubes. I uncover the sheet and pull up the shirt before staring at my bandaged stomach. Why am I in the hospital?Panic strikes me slowly as I keep staring down, not brave enough to look up again. So, it was a dream. What I've seen now was just a dream. So, Rodas must be alright. Maybe.Maybe I got into an accident somewhere and had this horrible dream where some people got inside my apartment and Rodas told me to stay inside the bathroom where Zeco didn't pick up my call and...And...Rodas got attacked.And I got s-shot-Shit!Why can't I put these pieces together?"Thank God! You woke up" Someone says loudly and in a few seconds I'm getting hugged. So suffocating. I push away the person and take a heavy breath before raising my head to look at the person. Liam. He smiles down at me. What's he doing here?He ruffles my hair."I'm so happy you're alright. You can leave from here in the evening and we siblings can take a long vacation at a beautiful place." He says while gently taking the needles off my hand. I frown. I don't understand a word he is saying. "Doesn't that sound exciting?" He sounds so oddly cheerful. Rodas. I rush to get out of bed but Liam stops me furiously."What are you doing?" He shouts."Rodas," I mutter and then grab his shoulder, "Where's he?" He sighs and pushes my hands off him before turning away from me and doing his things. "Liam, Answer me!" I demand but he stays indifferent. My body starts trembling and I can barely stand on the ground as panic strikes me even more. I grab onto my clothes and start making my way towards the door ignoring Liam's call."He's gone, Elora" I hear him say. He's spitting nonsense.I'm not sure about anything anymore. I've lost the ability to think.I'm so afraid of myself. So afraid to believe anything. So exhausted.All I want is to see Rodas and be in his arms. Then only I'll feel safe and secure. I want him to tell me that everything is ok. Then only I'll believe. I push the door open."They found twelve bullets in his body, Elora," Liam says suddenly.I pause, My vision slowly turning blurry with the amount of tears welling up in my eyes."He was stabbed six times in his stomach and three times on his back. There were several injuries in his head. His jaws were crushed." I turn to look at Liam. Why is he lying to me? "Do you think he is alive?" I don't know how I got the strength but I take large steps towards Liam before slapping him across the face. "Elora, stop it.""He...Rodas." I say. "He's got so many wounds before. He was fine all the time. He will be fine this time too" Don't look at me with those eyes Liam. Don't look at me with sympathy. Rodas is fine. "TELL ME HE IS ALRIGHT!!" I find myself screaming at him. "They tried everything Elora but Rodas is only a human. No one can survive such-" "Shut up. Where is he?" I grab Liam's clothes and demand. Liam tries to hug me but I shake him off."Where is Rodas?" My voice starts breaking. I'm in the middle of the ocean. I'm drowning. No one can save me this time. Where is Rodas? "They took his body away," Liam answers in a small voice."Where?" "They didn't tell me but-" Liam takes out something from his pocket, a note. I snatch it away immediately and look at it. "Jeremy left it," Liam says. The paper drops from my hand and I'm on the floor. An unfamiliar scream leaves me and I do not hear anything other than that. I scream.Scream.And scream. ......Elora,        I'm sorry we couldn't save what you loved the most. I'm sorry we couldn't save you sooner. I know sorry wouldn't be enough and you don't have to forgive us but please try to take us out of your memory for the rest of your life. Think of us as a nightmare you shouldn't have ever had.       You deserve the best thing in this world Elora. Please live.                                                                Jeremy. ...Rodas is right.I killed him.         Â