Chapter 50: chapter 50

Eleanor's POV,'You will be included in his list if you don't stop.'Now I understood what Shawn meant. Kylen's other consciousness if flipped, it could kill me. But what if he can hear me out? Are there chances that I could get him back during that phase? Kylen can't be persuaded to even take a nap, he's as stuborn as a mule. If I can reach him out and bring him back, that side will be defeated. Is that why grandma and Sam were suggesting him to marry me? Maybe. The word 'marrying' itself fluttered my heart. Kylen and I were in his room's balcony, staring at the night sky. He was probably plotting a plan to stay away from me.Every ounce of my body wanted to flee, hearing his story, saying to be practical. Yet, I listened to my heart, because I believe that there has to be a solution for it. The will power is beyond science. He just has to gain it.He cracked the silence, "This is how I spend the nights. Watching the boring sky, movies, series, games, matches and reading books. Sometimes going on a stroll."Things started making sense. Every time I wanted to watch anything on TV, Kylen wouldn't hesitate from warning it was a dumb story or suggesting me the ones I like. I always wondered how he knew about each and every show.He didn't let me stay at his guest house for more than a night, when my wedding broke. He found me a new apartment quickly, so that I didn't have to live with him.He didn't sleep when we went searching Sam. When the car got a breakdown in that frozen night, and I had cuddled to him, I fell asleep first and when I woke up, he was already checking his phone."These days,", he faced me, "I love watching you asleep.""You give so much of peace, sometimes I'm afraid I might even catch a bus to the dreamland.", his voice depressed and mocking."Kylen.", I pressed his palm."You know why I was happy when you broke my engagement with Laura?", he paused giving me time to recall.I nodded lightly, he continued, "She is a popular psychiatrist, and my family thought she could cure me with her medicines and love. ""What was the problem?""She knew I couldn't be cured. She was all behind my money. So that when I die, she could have my assets, and she could pull out a drama of sympathy.""Oh my god."The assets reminded me, Kylen saying that his dad was ready to hand over the company to Sam. Uncle wanted to secure it and I think he has given up on Kylen being saved.I chuckled recalling how Kylen used to behave with me initially."Your arrogant 'I don't care about you' vibes, taunting me about how weak I was for Shawn. You only had red wines because that doesn't let you have a hangover. Your quibbles, your squabbles with Sam. All this time, you were distracting me from finding the real you."His cheeks flushed light pink as I caught him raw."And Kat knows your truth. Doesn't she?", I cocked an eyebrow."Well, it happened accidently.", a smile curved his lips, "Both of us were wandering in the same hospital for reports. I saw her cornered on a bench, a river flowing out of her eyes. She caught me with my file. And the rest is history."Yeah, Kat wouldn't have let him go without finding out why he was there. That is why she drew herself away from me, until she had to run back to me in the end moment."Hey, look! We found a way out for her pregnancy complications. She too had given up. You know it better than me!", I said excitedly."I'm saying this for the last time, Nor. There is no cure for mine.", his eyes warning me to back off.I stepped closer to him, rather."You are not a loser. So am I."All of a sudden, he tugged me, caging me between the sidewall and him. His orbs darker than ever."You have no idea of how much I want to make you mine. How much my body yarns for you.", his voice cold and husky, as he traced my jaw with a finger, "How much I want to rip off all your clothes, make you yell my name all along while you see the stars beyond the skies."A small gasp left me as he stated, "I don't plan on going easy with you at all, Miss Messy."His body pressed against mine, I could sense the hardness of his cock over my flesh. His right knee separating my thighs. I'm damn sure I was dripping wet down there already.This was not the first time I was sharing the proximity with him. We have made out at my place, for God knows how many times. But he never went ahead, and I thought we weren't rushing to make love."What is stopping you?", I managed to drawl, as the arousal hit me when he breathed against the side of my neck.He placed a tender kiss, walking backwards, untying me from his grip.A rush of wind shook me as I felt the emptiness of his body, while I stared at him blankly.His hands fisted, "There's a young lady, a maid here. I don't know if you have seen her or not."I was into the heat so much, it took me more than a minute to grasp his words."Are you talking about the scared one?"She trembles every time she saw Kylen. And I always forgot to ask the reason."Yes.", he was startled that I had observed, "I had met her in the club, six or five years ago. And I was into her so much, I booked a room for us. Guess what happened next?"My hand covered my mouth, "You lost your consciousness. Didn't you?""Right again.", he walked towards me, yet maintaining safe space, "If Sam hadn't got into the room, hearing her screams across the corridor. I would have killed her, that night. And I still have no memory of what happened.""She doesn't belong to this country. Grams is taking care of her. To be specific, she is traumatized.", Kylen sighed, "You may ask why we have kept her with us. It's because she is the only one who can identify when I switch to the killer me. This house has people. Me staying here needs a guard on me." That's why he had laughed saying none, when I had asked him about one-night stands and his love life."No way I'm touching you anymore, Eleanor.", his words stumbled with his eyes wet, "This is the price I have to pay for being with you. I'm not listening to anyone's words!"He turned to exit the balcony.I circled my arms around his torso from behind, resting my head on his back, "Fine. Don't marry me! Let's not do anything that you are afraid of hurting me. Okay?""Nor-. This is the end.""Strike off that crappy thought of dieing, please!", my hands clenched his chest, "Make every moment count with me. That's all I ask for."