TESSIA ERALITH
âItâs so strange, always being the center of attention,â Alice said as she refilled our glasses with cold water from a pitcher. âWeâre just these very plain people, surrounded by actual deitiesâor at least what weâve always thought of as deitiesâbut theyâre all so interested in us.â She stared down into the pitcher, her eyes glazing over. âIt feels like Iâve slipped and fallen into someone else's life.â
I twirled a lock of hair around my fingertip as I considered the dragons weâd been speaking with. âI guess I was always the center of attention in Elenoir, but they seem a lot more interested in the fact that Iâm an elf than a princess. The things they ask aboutâ¦â
I chuckled, and Ellie and Alice laughed alongside me.
âYeah, theyâre kind of weird,â Ellie said with an amused smile. âOne little girl insisted I couldnât really be a lesser, because sheâd been told lessers could barely speak or stand upright!â
âWell, things here are going to get a whole lot weirder.â
We all turned toward the door, where Arthur had just pushed back the curtain. I began to smile, but the expression faltered as I processed his words and the pained expression on his face.
Ellieâs hands flew to her face and she slumped back into the seat sheâd been hunkering on the edge of. âNo. They didnât! You canât be serious.â
Aliceâs hand began to shake. I quickly took the pitcher from her and set it down on the tile-topped end table before it spilled.
âYouâ¦better sit down,â Arthur said, rubbing the back of his neck in that silly way heâd done since he was a kid.
His words and demeanor could mean only one thing, as Ellie and Alice both seemed to have already guessed: the asuras had agreed to Lord Eccleiahâs proposal.
I found myself wishing that Arthur hadnât spent so much of these last couple of weeks away. He would certainly be pulled into other duties, and it was likely there would be little time to work through everything between us that needed to be addressed. Still, I told myself, perhaps that was for the best. Maybe what we really needed was time.
Forcing myself to appear calm, I took a seat next to Ellie, who had pulled her legs up into the seat tight against her chest.
âIâ¦have officially been named an asura,â Arthur said. He spoke mostly to his mother, but twice his eyes flicked to mine, almost too rapidly to notice. âIâm the first of a new race. An archon.â
I felt my eyes glaze over, my thoughts dissociating from my physical presence as I struggled to understand what this meant. So much had changed since we sat above the Wall and made our promise to each other. A promise to stay alive. To have a future together. A relationship. A family. It had been a beautiful moment. It was a lovely plan. But Grandpa Virion had taught me earlyâ¦
No plan survives contact with the opponent.
Was it fair, now, after everything that had happened, to hold Arthur to a sweet promise made naively in the middle of a war that neither of us could control the outcome of?
The room had gone silent. I forced myself to focus. Ellie sat beside me, thunderstruck. I could see the gears of her mind working, and her mouth moved silently, but she seemed at a loss for words. Alice, on the other hand, was looking at Arthur as if heâd just told her to wrestle a world lion with her bare hands. I shared their feelings, but I couldnât let those feelings run away with me.
âWhat happens now?â I asked to break the silence. âWhat does this change, exactly, and how would this affect Dicathen and Alacrya?â
Arthur hesitated, exchanging a glance with Sylvie. âAlthough a new race has been invented for me, really Iâll be a representative for our world among the asura. In the end, I think itâs necessary to ensure protection for both Dicathen and Alacrya.â His head drooped slightly. âWith this authority, I can make sure what happened in Elenoir never happens again.â
I nodded, and the conversation continued, Ellie and Alice asking a few questions of their own. Despite my best efforts, the longer we spoke, the wearier I began to feel. Afraid that my control might slip and derail the conversation, I waited for a lull and excused myself, returning to my room and sagging into the bed. Closing my eyes, I breathed deeply and thought back to my lessons.
I canât control the world around me, but I can control myself and the way I move within it. It was a lesson my father had tried to drill into my head when I was only a small girl, but I donât think Iâd ever truly appreciated his meaning until I lost that control.
Outside the room, Arthur continued speaking, although I would have sworn I could feel his gaze lingering on the room curtain separating us. âWeâve been âinvitedââI think itâs more of an expectation, honestlyâto visit some of the other lords at their homes.â
âOh, thatâsâ¦â Alice started but then trailed off, her voice weak.
âI know, Mom,â Arthur answered. The sound of his voice changed; he must have moved across the room. âI know what Iâm asking you to do, and I know how dangerous this is for all of us, butâ¦â
I took a deep breath, forcing myself to remain calm.
The idea of being dragged to another asuran city made my insides clench like a bloody fist. I missed my family. I missed my home. I was ready to return to Dicathen. I knew Elenoir was goneâmy mother and father were goneâbut I wanted to see my grandfather. I wanted to be with elves, to hug them and cry with them, to mourn our shared losses in a way I hadnât been able to do yet. Not while I was locked away beneath Ceciliaâs will.
The rustling of the curtain made me turn my head. I was expecting, or maybe just hoping, to see Arthur there, but I wasnât disappointed when Sylvie stepped into the room and let the curtain fall behind her again. She looked down at me with such understanding that the pressure of sudden tears swelled up behind my eyes as if from nowhere.
I sat up, kicked my legs over the edge of the bed, and blinked back the wetness in my eyes. Sylvie eased down next to me. Instead of speaking, she rested her head on my shoulder.
We sat there like that, just the two of us, for quite a while. In her presence, I felt myself settling again. She had a way of transporting me out of the moment and taking me back in time to simpler days. It was so strange that the little fox-like beast that used to ride around on Arthurâs head had grown into this powerful, empathetic young woman. I could so clearly remember when sheâd first hatched in Zestierâ¦
I sank into the moment, enjoying the peace and quiet. Instead of worrying about the future, I listened to the rustling our clothes made against the bedsheets with each small movement. I watched as the sunlight refracted through the window to sparkle against the walls. I listened to our breathing as we fell into sync with each other, and sensed the thrumming of Sylvieâs mana signature beside me, moving with the same subtle twitchiness as eyes beneath closed lids.
Slowly, the tension all released.
âThanks,â I said eventually.
She reached out and grabbed my hand, taking it in both of her own.
âIâ¦wanted to tell you,â I started, suddenly awkward. I knew what I wanted to say, but the words themselves seemed difficult to hold onto. âGood luck. You know, when you go to visit the other asura. Youâll protect him? Nevermind, I know you will. Iâm sorry Iâll miss it, butâ¦I need to go home.â
Her hands squeezed mine. âOf course. Arthur told them that theyâd have to wait.â She regarded me with sudden understanding and then a sympathetic smile. âWeâre taking you home first, Tessia.â
***
The air changed as I stepped out of the portal into darkness. Appearing so suddenly in the cool, dank underground felt almost like waking after Everburn's nearly perfect atmosphere. Like Dicathen was more real, somehow.
My eyes began to adjust, and I found myself standing in the center of a wide, nondescript tunnel. Arthur was already there, having arrived through the portal first.
Behind me, Ellie and Boo appeared, followed by Alice, and then Sylvie.
Our appearance was met by a shout, and we all looked to see several heavily armed dwarven guards hurrying toward us. Behind them was a roughly made wall inset with a small gate.
Before they could reach us, another figure came through the portal. Dressed in the same richly appointed militaristic uniform Iâd always seen him in, his otherworldly eyes unreadable, Windsom brought the dwarves up short with a glance.
On first seeing Windsom, I had been thrown back to the battle between Cecilia, Nico, and him. This dragon had helped General Aldir burn Elenoir to ashes. I was mostly catatonic at the time, but Ceciliaâs memories of the fight were clear enough. It seemed patently unfair that this dragon was still happily serving his lord, able to flit between our world and his at a momentâs notice, while the shattered remnants of my people were cast off and homeless with nowhere to go.
âDarv, as requested,â Windsom said in his clipped manner. âThe city of Vildorial is beyond that gate.â He indicated the guards. âVirion Eralith and a procession of elves are here, though the bulk of the refugees were relocated before Agronaâs last attack.â
The dwarves, finally able to look past Windsom at the rest of us, recognized Arthur immediately. âRegent Leywin! Youâre aliveâ¦â The dwarf in charge turned to one of his men. âGo to Lodenhold immediately. Inform Lords Earthborn and Silvershale thatââ
âHold that thought,â Arthur said, raising a hand. âI have business to attend to, then Iâll go to the council myself.â
The dwarves looked at each other awkwardly, but none of them moved.
âWell, Arthur, if there is nothing else, Iâm afraid I am too busy to shuttle you aroundââ
âLord Leywin,â Arthur said, cutting Windsom off.
Despite my anger toward Windsom, I couldnât help but flinch at the confrontation of their opposing intents. It wasnât only me, as Alice and Ellie instinctively backed away within the confines of the dim tunnel, and Boo moved to shield them from the conflict.
âOf courseâ¦Lord Leywin. I apologize.â Windsom bowed low, hiding his expression from sight.
âNo problem, Windsom.â Arthur's gaze was penetrating, his tone frosty. âItâs quite the change for you to get used to, I know. But Iâm certain you will.â
âOf course.â The asura feigned an attitude of servility, but I could practically see his irritation seething just beneath his skin. âIâll return in two days to open the way back to Epheotus.â
âYouâre dismissed for now, then,â Arthur said, turning away from Windsom.
The dwarven guards, who had watched the exchange like wide-eyed statues, bent into deep bows before Windsom as he turned toward the portal.
I caught Ellie and Alice exchange a glance, but neither moved to show any obeisance to him. I raised my chin and stood tall, but he did not look back at any of us before vanishing into the portal, which then melted away.
I didnât voice my thoughts out loud to Arthur, but I felt a thrill at seeing him put Windsom in his place. A part of me wished that Arthur had been even crueler.
The thought turned sour as soon as I had it. Iâm not Cecilia, to take pleasure in such things. As Arthur approached the guards and waved for them to stand, I pushed the thoughts away, making room for the jittery nerves I felt at the thought of seeing Grandpa Virion.
A hand slid into mine, and I looked over at Ellie, who smiled. âYouâve got that face on again.â
I gave her an embarrassed smile back. Over the last two weeks, sheâd started calling me out whenever I had my âworried faceâ on. âIâm sorry, I justâ¦â
âPlease, donât apologize,â Sylvie said from my other side just before taking that hand, so the three of us were walking along in a chain like we were children. âYouâve been through a lot, and youâve only had a couple of weeks to recover. That kind of trauma could take years just to start unraveling.â
âGeez, thanks,â I said teasingly, pulling Sylvie closer so our shoulders bumped together. The three of us all shared a laugh.
The guards opened the gate, and Arthur exchanged a few more quiet words with them as the rest of us stepped through into the massive cavern that housed the city of Vildorial.
âWow,â I said, turning around to take in the entire cavern.
Vildorial wasnât unlike a beehive that had been turned inside out. Dwellings of all shapes and sizes were carved into the outer walls, while a curving highway circled round and round as it descended, connecting the various levels. Its people, mostly dwarves, moved about busily, some wearing large packs, others dragging carts or leading mana beasts to do it for them.
The flow of traffic past us began to slow as people realized that Arthur was with us. He quickly began leading us up the highway as the first shout of, âLance Arthur!â resounded through the cavern. The crowd gathered behind us, with many of the dwarves abandoning what they were doing to follow along and shout out their thanks or messages of welcome. But not all of them were glad for his presence.
âYou abandoned us!â one woman yelled. âMy boyâs dead. The Alacryans killed him when they attacked, and where were you!â Someone tried to grab her, but she shoved them away. âOur regent? Our protector? Look at him!â This last part was directed at the gathered crowd. âHeâs no better than the dragons or the Alacryans!â
âYou shut your mouth,â a rough-looking dwarf yelled.
âTheyâre just letting them all go!â another man shouted, gaping at Arthur desperately. âThe Alacryans who attacked us. Letting them go!â
âEnough with outsiders!â the first woman shouted. âDarv for the dwarves! Hang them all by theirââ
Someone else shoved the woman, and a scuffle quickly broke out, interrupting the frenzied tirade. Boo began to growl, interposing himself between Ellie and the aggressors.
Arthur hadnât paid the shouting any mind, but now he stopped and turned back. As physical blows started to fly, he waded into the melee, separating the dwarves with his presence alone. The brawl ended as abruptly as it began. A group of nearby guards, who had started in our direction, hesitated and glanced at each other nervously.
âIâm sorry for your loss,â Arthur said, his voice soft enough that the dwarves around him had to strain to listen. âIâm sorry for all who lost loved ones in this war, whether it was in the last battle or the first one years ago,â he continued, looking around at everyone. âI know all kinds of rumors must have spread in the absence of factual information over these last couple of weeks. Donât fall prey to those who would feed on your fears. I am on my way now to explain everything to your leaders. They will share the truth soon enough.â
Wide-eyed, sweating dwarves watched as Arthur moved among them. A couple even reached out, their fingers brushing his arm or the back of his hand. They lingered there as we moved on, the whole crowd just kind of standing in the highway, clearly uncertain what to do now.
âWell, itâs to be expected, I suppose,â Ellie said softly, almost as if she were talking to herself. âI hope everyone else is okay.â
âWeâll find out soon enough,â Arthur said over his shoulder.
The highway led directly to the dwarven palace, but Arthur did not take us to see the dwarven lords. Instead, he guided us into a series of smaller tunnels and eventually to a very long switchback stair. We passed through a small cave intoâ¦
Well, into something I hadnât expected at all.
I knew that Arthur was leading us to Grandpa Virion, and it felt like weâd climbed nearly all the way to the surface to reach this chamber, but even then, I would have expected desertâ¦not this.
A gorgeous oasis within all the stone opened up before us. The grotto was brightly lit by little bobbing lights that floated and danced over verdant green moss and emerald vines that grew to hide the walls.
Most amazing of all, though, was the large tree that filled up the center of the grotto. I recognized its broad leaves and pink buds immediately. âThis tree is from Elshire Forestâ¦â
âAnd gives this place its name,â Arthur said softly. âThis is the Elshire Grove.â
âItâs beautiful,â I said, looking around again. This time, my focus caught on a patch of ground where the moss had been cleared away in favor of dark, fresh soil.
Many seedlings poked up in neat rows. It was among the seedlings that I first sensed my grandfatherâs signature, and my head jerked back to the tree just as he stepped out of the small house grown into its branches.
âArthur, is that you? Iâ¦â His voice trailed off as he looked down from the balcony of the small treehouse.
A fear I had been quietly nursing came rushing forward.
Cecilia had done terrible things while wearing my face, my body. The average dwarf on the street might not have recognized meâor herâby sight, but I was terrified that my grandfather would see not me, but her. I didnât think I could stand to see a look of horror on his face at my appearance.
And yetâ¦
As his jaw slackened and his eyes grew wide and sparkling, a light seemed to shine through from within him. There was nothing like apprehension or horror on his face, and in an instant, I watched as years of fear and hardship melted from him.
He sprang over the balcony rail, fell lightly to the ground over a dozen feet below, and sprinted toward me. âT-Tessia!â he choked, his throat constricted with emotion.
Already feeling myself beginning to break, I ran to meet him. We collided, and Grandpa flung his arms around me. I collapsed into them, a desperate sob wracking my body. All the stress, anxiety, confusion, and existential dread I had felt over the last two weeks burst out of me like Iâd cast a water-attribute spell from my eyes.
Grandpa sank down to his knees, holding me like heâd done when I was just a child. He made calming noises and petted my hair. I lacked the wherewithal to feel shame or guilt at this display in front of Arthur and his family.
âH-how did you know?â I gasped out through choked sobs, desperate for him to understand.
âYouâre my granddaughter,â he said, his rasping voice as comfortable as a weighted blanket. âOne look at you is enough.â
As I continued to cry, it wasnât just the last couple of weeks that poured out of me. I couldnât easily calculate the exact length of time I had spent behind Cecilia, from the moment ElijahâNicoâcaptured me in Elenoir to the final fateful hours after I helped Cecilia escape the Relictombs and return to Agrona. A year, probably more, but it felt like a lifetime. Two lifetimes. Iâd died and been reborn an entirely changed person.
And all of it, every agonizing moment of sharing mental space with the stunted, damaged child that was Cecilia, the memories of all the horrible things sheâd done while in my body, all the memories of Arthurâs past life that Cecilia had sharedâboth the real and the invented onesâevery strange thing Iâd experienced and discoveredâ¦
It all came pouring out of me.
Arthur was speaking. He said something about Agrona and the asura. Explaining where weâd been for the last couple of weeks and why he didnât bring me home sooner.
âIâm sorry, I wish I could stay, but there are several other people I really need to speak to, and Iâm not sure how long Iâll be in Vildorial,â he finished. âWeâll give you some timeâ¦just to be in each otherâs company.â
My sobbing subsided, and I wiped my eyes and began to disentangle myself from my grandfather. He held me protectively, but I smiled up at him. âNo need to hold me so tightly, Grandpa. I promise, Iâm not going anywhere. Butâ¦I need a moment alone with Arthur before he goes. Just a moment.â
âThe bratâs had you for two weeks already, Iâ¦â Looking into my eyes, he trailed off. His face was an indecipherable mess of conflicting emotions forged into a single expression, but joy and trust shone through brightest of all. With an understanding smile, he helped me stand and took a few steps back.
Sylvie, Ellie, and Alice gave me hugs in turn and assured me theyâd be back to help me get settled in. Arthur then sent them ahead, explaining he would catch up before leading me to stand by the small arboretum full of seedlings.
I bent down and ran my fingers through the soil. It was the richest I had ever seen, teaming with earth-attribute mana. âThere is a touch of Epheotus in this.â
âThere is. It was a gift. Fromâ¦Aldir. A token, something to help make up for what he did,â Arthur explained. âNot that anything could.â
Iâd already heard the truth of what had happened to Aldir, the asura whoâd burned my home. This information brought me no peace, but I couldnât help the spark of homesickness andâ¦hopeâ¦that the Elshire trees brought me.
âWhat did you want to say?â Arthur asked, leaning down beside me and pretending to examine the leaves of a tree. Really, though, all his attention was on me. He was taut as a drawn bowstring.
âI donât want to say the wrong thing or belabor it so Iâll try to be straightforward,â I said, the words rushing out of me. âA lot has changed, Arthur. Too much. Everything.â He opened his mouth to speak, but I pushed on, afraid that if I didnât, Iâd lose my nerve. âWe said it before: the promise we madeâthe moment and the words we sharedâit was all so beautiful. And it was real. Andâ¦it was important. There were so many times I wanted to just give up, to let myself fade or sacrifice myself to destroy Cecilia. In the end, it was that promise between us that gave me the strength to survive when death was so much easier. But the truth is, Iâm not the person you made that promise to anymore. Andâ¦andâ¦â
âAnd Iâm not the person you thought I was when you made that promise,â Arthur said plainly. He was calm. Serious. Understanding.
I shook my head, and my hair fell down in front of my eyes. âI know who you are, Arthur. I do, really. And thatâs why Iâm releasing you from the promise we made. Thank you for making it. Iâll cherish that moment forever, but I wonât cling to it at the expense of the worldâs future.â
I stood, brushing back my hair. Arthur immediately raised a hand to wipe away my tears, but there were none. He hesitated. I took his hand in both of mine and held it between us as I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his. My heart broke at the softness of his lips and the unsteady rhythm of his pulse, but my resolution didnât wane. The heart wants what the heart wants, but my spirit was at ease with my decision.
Pulling away, I let myself dive into the twin golden orbs of his eyes. They really were the most beautiful eyes Iâd ever seen. âBe careful, Arthur,â I heard myself say, barely cognisant of the words. âDonât lose yourself in all of this.â
I let his hand slip out of mine, and I turned away, knowing he needed me to. I could feel the intensity of his gaze on my back like the rays of the sun, and I bore it.