Dear Zhan,
By the time you read this, I will be gone.
I am so sorry for doing this to you, I know how much I mean to you and how much you are dependent on me, and I am sorry for leaving you behind in this way.
I have my reasons that I will not explain in this letter. They are very complicated and honestly, I am not in a mental state to explain everything.
I was honestly going to take a drastic step but after meeting you this morning I changed my mind, I will not end my life I promise you, because I know that will devastate you and I can't be that cruel, hence I am only taking a little time for myself.
I want to find myself, rebuild myself, and be a person worthy of you. I will live for you and I will come back for you.
I promise you that this separation is temporary, I am not going to go forever, I will come back, I promise I will be back for you, and when I do I promise we will hang out and have a heart-to-heart conversation.
I will tell you everything, please wait for me, Zhan. Don't try to look for me, I will come find you when the time comes.
And always remember that you are very precious to me and it is because you are precious to me I have to go away from you for a while. But don't be disappointed, and don't forget that you have to move forward, you have to achieve great things and become the man your parents always wanted you to be, just like I wanted you to be. But most importantly don't forget to listen to your heart.
Don't forget to be yourself, love yourself, and live for yourself
I Love you, Zhan.
Take care and wait for me.
Love,
Yibo.