Chapter 275 Audrey Tina quickly wiped her face, trying to hide her tears, but it was too late. I had already seen everything.
âIâm not crying,â she whispered, but her voice cracked halfway through and betrayed everything. âOkay, maybe... Yes. I am. A little. Just... just donât look at me right now, okay?â
But I didnât turn away. How could I turn away from my friend when she was crying? I sat down beside her, wrapping one arm around her trembling shoulders. âTina, whatâs going on? Is everything alright? Too much champagne?â
She hesitated, swallowing hard. âIâI thought I could handle it,â she choked out. âBeing... just being me, you know? But I canât even do that right.â
I tilted my head, watching her as she looked away, staring out into the darkness beyond the courtyard. âWhat happened?â She laughed, but there was no humor in the sound. Only something tight and sad. âAvisâs friend, Sarahâshe, um, she was really nice.
So, so nice. But she... she made it clear that she wanted more than I could give her.â
I didnât say anything yet, just quietly waited for her to keep going.
âShe was looking for... for something physical. She even wanted to take me home tonight. And when I told her that wasnât something I was comfortable with, she was nice about it. Genuinely nice. But... but sheâs not interested in seeing me anymore, and it just... it just hurts,â Tina said, her voice breaking on the last word.
âYouâre talking about... sex?â I asked.
She nodded and took a shaky breath. âYeah.â
âWell that doesnât mean that anything is wrong with you,â I said gently. âIf anything, you should be proud of yourself for setting that boundary.â
She shrugged. âBut Audrey, I think... I think maybe there is something wrong with me. I think I might be asexual. And I know it shouldnât feel like a bad thing, but sometimes... I donât know. I feel like something is missing, or like Iâm... I donât know, broken somehow.â
My heart twisted, and I held her a little tighter. âTina, thereâs absolutely nothing broken about you. A lot of people feel that way-â
âI know, I know, and I try to tell myself that,â she interrupted. âBut when youâve got someone looking at you and expecting something you just... you just donât want... itâs hard not to feel like a total fraud.â
She sighed, resting her head against my shoulder. âItâs like... I do want the romance, the connection, I want all of that. I want to be with someone who understands me, but when it comes to sex, I donât know. Sex just feels wrong to me, and the thought of doing it... kind of grosses me out. Itâs part of the reason why Iâm still a virgin.â
âHave you always felt this way?â
She nodded, sniffling. âYeah, I have. I think Iâve been pretty good at hiding it, but I really just donât feel that... drive that everyone else seems to. And itâs hard because, like, I know Iâm gay. I know I want to be with women.â
Tina looked away, shaking her head. âBut at the same time, I feel like a fraud. I mean, how can I call myself a lesbian when...
when I donât even want to sleep with a woman?â
My heart ached for my friend, seeing the pain drawn across her face. She wasnât looking at me now, but staring at the ground, almost like she couldnât even bear to meet my gaze.
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I took a breath, choosing my words carefully. âTina... being a lesbian isnât about having sex. Itâs about who you love, who you want to share your life with. And that doesnât have to include anything youâre not comfortable with. Itâs not about... doing anything to âproveâ who youâre attracted to.â
She looked at me then, and her eyes were filled with a kind of desperation that made my heart break all over again. âBut what if that means Iâm alone forever?â Her voice wobbled. âWhat if I never find someone whoâll be okay with that? What if thereâs no one out there whoâll want me...
all of me... just the way I am?â
I shook my head, squeezing her hand. âYou will, Tina. I know you will. There are plenty of people out there who are in your exact situation. Youâre not alone.â
She leaned her head against my shoulder again, wiping her nose with the back of her hand. âI just feel so... lost. Like I donât belong in any space. I donât even belong in my own home with my own parents. Itâs like, no matter where I turn, I donât quite...
fit.â
I held her hand, running my thumb over her knuckles ass quietly cried on my shoulder. âYou fit in with us,â I said softly.
Tina was quiet, although I could feel her huff out a little laugh against me.
âThank you,â she finally whispered after a few moments of silence. âThank you for saying that. Iâm glad have you all... You bunch of weirdos.â
âAnytime,â I said with a laugh of my own. âAnd hey.â I placed my hand under her chin and lifted it, forcing her to look at me. âYou will find someone someday, if thatâs what you want. Someone who truly understands and accepts you.â
A faint smile touched her lips, and she sighed. âI hope so. But until then... I think I need to figure out who I am. Reallyâ
I nodded, letting go of her chin. âI think thatâs a good idea.â I paused, smiling a little. âAnd in the meantime, you can help others find themselves, too.
She gave soft laugh and looked away. âWeâll see about that.â
I nudged her gently. âCâmon, Tina. Whereâs my favorite confident girl? Whereâs the girl who once jumped up on the table at on a dare?â the bar and belted the entire chorus to Bohemian Rhapsody, word for word, just A small, genuine smile finally broke through her sad expression at that, and I felt a surge of relief rush through me. âAlright, alright,â she said, wiping her tears. âYouâre right. As always. You and your gorgeous fucking silver hair are right again.â
A smirk touched my lips again, and I flipped a lock of said silver hair over my shoulder. âWell, Iâm glad you finally recognize my talents. Now, how about we go back inside and join the others?â
She hesitated, glancing back at the warmly lit reception hall where the others were still laughing and dancing, and would be all night. A lot of the guests had gone home, but our party was only just beginning; and it was clear, judging from the way Gavin was currently dancing with Peter, ties loosened and hair mussed. Drunk. And hilariously so.
But I could see Tina hesitate. âI dunno if-â
âNope. Weâre dancing.â I rose, dragging her to her feet by both hands. âYou and I are gonna slow dance together.â
Her eyes widened a little, her cheeks flushing. âWith everyone watching?â
âWhen has that ever stopped us before?â I grinned, giving her hand a little tug toward the door. âBesides, you know Avis will join us the second she sees us dancing.â
That earned me a small laugh âAlright, alright. Letâs go...â
Handâinâhand, we walked back into the reception hall, where the music was still going strong. I pulled Tina onto the dance floor, holding her by the waist as we swayed to the music, laughing like giddy little kids.
Chapter 275 And, just as I predicted, Avis spotted us almost immediately. She didnât hesitate for even a secondâshe rushed over in a flurry of white skirts and threw her arms around Tina, pulling her into the dance with a wild grin.
Soon enough, Betty, Peter, Gavin, and even Edwin joined in, circling us chaotically. Tina was caught between laughing and crying as everyone shoved her around the circle, but I could see the light in her eyes.
Edwin and I exchanged amused glances as the spectacle went on and he cast me the subtlest of winks.
Mission accomplished.