Before I was arrested, me and the guys always hung out at Masonâs place.
Weâd be in the converted garage, getting high, gaming, fighting. It was our go-to when we werenât riding or at some sort of party.
I remember the first time he invited me overâhis mom and dad were kind, loving people, and I hadnât a clue how they ended up with someone like Mason as a son. He wasnât even allowed to cuss in front of them, yet he was sneaking out, taking drugs, smoking weed, and fucking girls in their kitchen while everyone was asleep.
His mom tried to ask me if I wanted any lunch with faltering sign language. They were learning⦠For me.
A few months later, they were all fluent.
When I wasnât obsessing over my sister and her whereabouts, Iâd be there, pretending I was normal, that people tolerated me because they chose to, not because they had to.
The same place thatâs all boarded up now.
Some of the windows are smashed, the grass long, bottles all over the yard. Despite being in an expensive neighborhood, the place looks like a wreck.
Itâs been vacant for eight years, despite the house still being owned by Masonâs familyâthey left it here to rot along with the memory of their son.
It didnât take me long to find him. One single search for his name and town, and article after article flashed before me. My friend died the same night I was arrested. He was hit by a truck at high speed and died on impact.
Ever since my speech therapist brought up having a friend, I kept wondering what he was up to. I thought maybe he was married with kids, that heâd won that scholarship he was trying to get, or maybe heâd moved Down Under, living it up with the Australians and surfing and bathing in the sun.
Learning about his death made me wish I was numbâthat I felt anything other than the raw pain of how much Iâd hated him all these years, thinking heâd just left me in there to rot. He hadnât ever tried to see me, not that I wouldâve accepted, but all along, Mason was dead.
Olivia has had multiple opportunities to tell me what happenedâshe could have, at any point, told me that Mason was gone. I hadnât mentioned him. I hadnât mentioned any of my friends to her since she came back to me, but surely, fucking surely, I deserved to know?
When I went to her office, I wanted to confront herâI wanted her to have a good reason for not telling meâbut my anger, the terrified look in her eyes and tone of her voice, turned me on. I was going to spank her over her desk, but I ended up with my dick buried in her ass.
Her punishment was not being able to come, but I fucked myself with that when Abigail walked in. I wouldâve kept going if Olivia let meâI would have screwed her right there, in front of an audience, to prove how much I owned her.
Abigail is lucky I didnât break her neck and throw her out of the fucking window.
I chew my lip and get back into my carâthe drive back is about an hour. I need to pick Olivia up from work in a few hours, and Iâm setting up a date.
Sheâs desperate for it, so Iâve finally given in.
According to Google and online forums, most date nights consist of seeing a movie or going for dinner in a restaurant. At the start of relationships and getting to know someone, there are nerves, blushes, and, most of the time, they never see each other again.
They can sometimes lead to a second date, third, fourth, where they end up screwing each otherâs brains out then one ghosts the other. Or, on rare occasions, they end with the couple in a relationship, married, having a family, and all that bullshit.
My eyes were sore by the time I stopped my research.
By the time I reach home, the sun is setting. Still a few hours until I pick Olivia up. I hunt for candles, set them up on the coffee table, set out bowls of chips and various dips, and make sure the bottle of wine is in some ice.
See? I can be romantic when Iâm not on a warpath of revenge. Thanks to Google and reading too many forums, Iâve taken notes on this shit.
I pause when an idea comes to me, and then I smirk to myself and head to my locked side room. Itâs filled with pictures and footage and TV screens. I took them out of my apartment while Olivia was at work and set them up here, making sure the cameras were on each route Olivia takes in life, including to and from the courthouse.
Iâve even hacked the security cameras of the coffee shop she goes to on the way to work.
I scan through the files on my computer and spot the one from years ago, from when we were teenagers and she was âteaching meâ how to kiss and touch her. I watch it all, shaking my head at how ridiculous and shy I look while sheâs talking me through everything like I hadnât drugged her and fucked with her body already.
Back then, I thought I was muscular and inkedânow Iâm larger, my hair is longer, my ears are stretched, and Iâm covered in tattoos. I think the old me would be terrified of who Iâve become, since Iâm still as hung up on the same girl, obsessed to the point of danger, all these years later.
I was a bit of a dick back thenâpretending I had no idea what I was doing despite practicing on her while she wasnât conscious. Should I even tell her about those times, or will she get mad that I lied about the whole âI have no idea what Iâm doingâ thing?
Technically, I was still clueless and needing lessons from her. But sticking my fingers in her holes while she was unaware and me not understanding the way her body reacted didnât exactly teach me.
Although she still got wet, moaned in her sleep, and she still tasted like fucking heaven when I sucked my fingers and licked her pussy.
The real thing is way better.
I land on a file labeled âHalloweenâ and click through different clips until I find one I know sheâll love.
I freeze as one of the screens draws my attention. Olivia is rushing out the back of the courthouse, stopping at our momâs car. She looks like sheâs been panicking.
My spine straightens, my brow furrowing at her posture and worried look.
I narrow my eyes. Where the fuck is she going?
A car pulls up at one side, the driver jumping out and grabbing her.
It takes a long second to realize this is real and some asshole is dragging my girl into their car with their hand over her mouth. Sheâs kicking her legs out, trying to slap her attacker, but Iâm on my feet and grabbing my keys as she vanishes into the car.
Rushing to my car, I pull my phone out to see where she is. I have a tracker in her phone, something I was worried about her discovering, but now Iâm grateful for my paranoia.
The red dot is moving. Fast.
I set my phone in the holder, press the gas, and speed out of the drive, the car tilting onto two wheels from the tight turn before I straighten it up and accelerate down the dirt road.
Fuck.
I could lose her.
I refuse to lose her.
I canât. I fucking canât.
I grit my teeth as I follow the dot, trying to remain calm. Leaning over, keeping the car steady, I empty the glovebox to get my small toolkit and grab the screwdriver.
Itâs not the one I used on Olivia.
Someone is trying to take my girl from me, and the faster I catch up to the blip on the screenâwhich is turning onto a road that will take them into the forestâthe louder my heart beats in my ears.
I donât have anyoneâs number to contact them. The only person I have in my new phone is Olivia. Why donât I have my dadâs number?
The dot stops in the middle of the woodlandâIâm close, so I slow down until the car comes to a halt. If they hear me or see me coming, theyâll drive off and itâll be another chase. Plus, they might be hurting her.
I grab my gas mask from the backseat, slide it on, and take a deep breath before making my way quietly out of the car, gripping the screwdriver in my hand. Each footstep draws me closer, my breathing heavy within the confines of the mask.
I hide behind a tree when I see the black car. Theyâre still inside it, the window of the driverâs side down. I can hear Olivia screaming. Itâs muffled, as if sheâs got tape on her mouth.
Tensing my jaw and taking another deep breath, I go straight towards the car. The driver is on the phone, Olivia lying on the backseat with her wrists bound and rope around her face and in her mouth.
Without hesitation, as soon as I reach the driverâs side, I tighten my hand around the screwdriver and stab it into the assholeâs neck over and over again, blood splattering all over me as he chokes, each thrust sending more blood over my mask and coating the steering wheel and windows. Warm liquid spits at me as he tries to breathe, gasping like a slaughtered animal.
I jab the screwdriver into his jugular and yank it out then drive it into his fucking eye.
Heâs dead already.
His head is hanging off, the flesh and butchered muscle keeping him from decapitation.
Motherfucker deserved worse. I should have taken him to the house and tortured him for even thinking he could take my girl.
Leaving him to slouch on the steering wheel while the soul drains from his body and soaks his leather seats in blood, I pull open the back door to find Olivia crying around the rope, screaming, a red mark under her eye.
That piece of shit hit her.
Iâm too angry and losing it to speak. I canât give her any comforting words. I tuck the screwdriver into my back pocket and go to her. She doesnât question who I am. She knows. She saw this mask before when I took her and fucked her. A time I wish Iâd dealt with differently, now that I know she couldâve eventually picked me, but I canât take any of it back.
I untie her and pull her into my arms tight, holding her, never wanting to let go as my heart ricochets all over my damn body. Without her, there wouldnât be any point in taking one more breath.
She cries into my shoulderâalive, here, with me. Sheâs with me. She doesnât care that Iâm covered in blood as she pushes the mask up and off my face and grabs my cheeks and kisses me.
Desperate. Each press of her lips is desperationâas if sheâs trying to tell herself that this is all real and Iâm here, in front of her, and sheâs not being taken.
âOh God,â she sobs. âHe works for the Reznikov family. They⦠they tried to kidnap me. Theyâll⦠theyâll try again.â
I shake my head, unable to talk or get my words out given how much adrenaline is rushing through me.
I wonât let them take her.
I can already feel the crimson staining my skin starting to dry. His blood is all over the car. Evidence of his murder. Fuck. I just killed him and havenât got a single plan. I usually do this carefully. I make sure they canât be found. I create a story. I have files upon files in my locked room of different strategies to remove someone from existence. But this⦠this is bad.
âSomeone is coming,â she tells me. âHe was on the phone to a man. I couldnât hear what he was saying. We need to go.â
I glance over at my car, hidden behind bushes, then at the body in the driverâs seat.
Help me put him in the trunk, I sign. I have a plan.
âOkay,â she replies quietly, wiping tears from her cheeks.
Olivia is barely any help. She drops his head on the ground while I hold his feet, shrugging when I glare at her. Then she stands aside, shaking, with a dead manâs blood on her hands as she hugs herself.
She covers her mouth. âI think Iâm going to be sick.â Then turns and vomits all over the ground.
I shove him in the trunk, slam it shut, and go to Olivia, whoâs hunched over still. Pushing her hair behind her ears and grabbing it all in a fist, I hold it back until she finishes bringing up her lunch.
She wipes the back of her hand across her mouth. âOh God. What do we do? Weâre going to get into so much trouble and theyâll send you back to prison. Malachi⦠I canât lose you again. Iâd rather be dead than lose you again.â
No one is dying, I sign. I have a plan. Then while sliding my thumb over the mark under her eye, my nostrils flare. What did he do to you?
âI managed to knee him in the balls, so he punched me.â
I grit my teeth and glare at the trunk, wishing I could bring him back to life so I can kick his ass before killing him again.
âLook at me. Iâm fine.â She rubs my cheek, running her thumb across my lips, coating them in red. âTell me your plan.â
Nervously, I stand at the entrance of Vize Manor.
Olivia is beside me, holding my hand tight, rubbing her thumb over my skin to reassure me that everything will be okay. I canât go back to prison. Especially for murder. I refuse.
The door opens.
Mom frowns, her face growing paler by the second when she sees Olivia, and how weâre both covered in blood.
âWe need help,â Olivia tells her. âSomeone tried to kidnap me.â
âOh. What happened?â
Why isnât she more concerned?
Dad appears at the door, tilting his head and pausing when he notices the mess on both his children. âWhatâs the meaning of this?â
Our fingers slip apart as Olivia runs for our father, burying her head in his chest as she sobs and cries and shakes. Heâs confused yet holds her back anyway, lifting his gaze to me. Given the look in his eye, he thinks I did something.
My shoulders slump as her words fail and all weâre left with is silence beyond my little sisterâs crying.
I need your help.
Mom laughs. âYou must be joking. Why in the world would we help you?â she sneers, looking at me in disgust. âYouâre not welcome here. Get the hell away from our house before I call the cops.â
Dad stops the door with his walking stick as my mom tries to close it in my face, shutting me out from Olivia.
She points at me, stepping right into my face yet speaking to my dad. âHe tried to kill you and now heâs hurt Olivia! We arenât entertaining him. Heâs no longer our son.â Then her eyes burn into my soul. âYou were my biggest mistake. You should have stayed in the system and messed up someone elseâs family. Or better yet, you should have died with your mother.â
I canât hit her. But fuck do I want to.
âHow dare you,â Olivia snaps, stepping away from Dad. She takes my hand again, showing sheâs with me. âDonât ever speak to him like that again.â
âIâve heard enough.â Dad glances between us then at Mom. âLeave us be.â
âExcuse me?â
When he doesnât respond, only glares, she scowls at me, then huffs and walks away.
I want to rip her apart.
When she goes to work tomorrow, I hope she gets hit by a damn truck and dies slowly.
âWhat happened?â Dad asks.
âSomeone tried to kidnap me, and Malachi killed them. The manâs body is in the trunk, and we donât know what to do.â
Dad looks at me, and I donât blink, waiting for his lecture, waiting for him to call the cops or tell me how much of a headcase I am, but doesnât do any of that.
Heâs quiet for far too long, and I grow anxious. My hand sweats in Oliviaâs, and I break eye contact and stare at the ground.
âWeâll need to dispose of the body and destroy any evidence.â
I look up with wide eyes.
Olivia covers her mouth on a sob and throws herself into him once more. She hugs him, thanking him over and over again while he rubs her back. His eyes lift to me, but I lower my gaze again so itâs fixed on my bootsâwhich are covered in a dead manâs blood.
I have no right to ask for his help. I donât deserve any of it. Heâs the way he is because of me. I attacked him. I put him in a coma, gave him brain damage, and, ultimately, ruined his entire life.
I gulp and fist my hands.
Maybe Mom was right? Maybe if they didnât adopt me, their life would be way easier. If fate was real, I wouldâve found Olivia regardless of which family took me in, if any did at all.
âDo you have anywhere to hide him for now?â
I nod, but I donât lift my eyes.
He follows behind me on the way home. Him and Olivia in his car while she drives, and I take the car filled with enough evidence to lock me up for the rest of my life back to the farmhouse. I have the guyâs phone, his wallet, and a random set of keys with a keyring of him and someone I assume is his wife.
I donât feel bad.
He tried to take what belonged to me.
I pull in and reverse the car as far back as I can to the backyardâitâs dark now, and itâs starting to rain, but I have flashlights we can use.
Dad doesnât blink at the home me and Olivia have been living inâas if he already knows. Olivia helps him out of the car and gives him his stick, then the three of us hunt for a flashlight while everyone stays quiet.
Olivia is about to find out a huge secret Iâve kept from her.
That I have bodies buried in the backyard.
Fuck, why am I nervous?
Dad being here doesnât help. If I dig in the right place, they might not notice the other body bags. Iâve made more than enough bags to last a lifetime, and when I pull one out, Dad watches me in silence.
While Olivia showers, I lift the body from the trunk, stuff it into the bag, and tape it up. Rigor mortis is already setting in, so the guy is a bit stiff and heavy as I carry him to the yard and drop him.
Still, Dad doesnât say a word as I start digging a hole. He doesnât need to be out here with me. He could sit inside, sheltered from the storm, instead of all this awkward silence.
Rain is soaking my skin, saturating the blood and making it slide down my body. After twenty minutes, I have to remove my shirt from how hot I amâsweat coats my skin, mixing with the rain, and still, Dad watches me without saying a word.
Itâs better if we donât talk. We donât like each other. There wouldnât be anything to say, other than him asking me to leave Olivia and me telling him to fuck off.
My shovel hits something hard, and I swear when I notice the body I forgot to bag. Itâs decomposedâbeen hidden in the dirt for about two months now, so itâs mostly bone.
I pause and stare, my lips flattening as I lift my gaze to my father.
Heâs staring at his killer son, the murderer, the abusive asshole, yet he isnât being judgmental or giving me shit.
âWe wonât tell Olivia, but this is the last one.â
I roll my jaw. Who the fuck is he to tell me who to kill and not to kill? If someone gets in my way, they deserve a shallow grave in my yard.
Despite wanting to tell him to mind his business, I toss the shovel, climb up to the surface, and roll the body into the hole.
Even though he can barely walk without his stick, Dad helps me fill the hole with dirt. Heâs only doing this for my sister. He canât stand me. Iâm the reason he canât walk properly.
âI donât know if I can ever forgive you,â he tells me. âBut Iâll try.â
I flinch as his hand lands on my shoulder. He pats me twice, then slides his hand off me and goes to turn around.
âDad,â I say, my nerves taking over when he pauses. I rub my fist against my chest with more meaning than ever. Iâm sorry.
âI know, son.â
Walking back to the house, I stand in the middle of the kitchen while Olivia talks to Dadâtheyâre discussing our next steps and how heâs going to protect her, possibly send her to a safe house.
I pull the phone from my pocket. The screen is cracked at the corner, but it still works. Thereâs a preview of a message from hours ago that has me frowning.
Thereâs no passkey or fingerprint scanner, so I unlock the phone with a swipe of my thumb, open the chat box with the unsaved number, and see theyâre discussing an exchange with Igor Reznikov for a fee of five thousand dollars for delivery of the âpackageâ.
My dad comes up beside me, staring at the screen too. âMotherfuckers,â he mutters. âThis has gotten out of hand!â
I call the number and place it on speaker for everyone to hear.
âWhat happened? I told you not to call this number,â a voice says.
The voice of Jennifer Vize.
The woman who raised us.