The low mound of coals throbbed like the heart of some giant beast. Occasionally, a patch of gold sparks flared into existence and raced across the surface of the wood before vanishing into a white-hot crevice.
The dying remnants of the fire Eragon and Roran had built cast a dim red light over the surrounding area, revealing a patch of rocky soil, a few pewter-gray bushes, the indistinct mass of a juniper tree farther off, then nothing.
Eragon sat with his bare feet extended toward the nest of ruby embersâenjoying the warmthâand with his back propped against the knobby scales of Saphiraâs thick right foreleg. Opposite him, Roran was perched on the iron-hard, sun-bleached, wind-worn shell of an ancient tree trunk. Every time he moved, the trunk produced a bitter shriek that made Eragon want to claw at his ears.
For the moment, quiet reigned within the hollow. Even the coals smoldered in silence; Roran had collected only long-dead branches devoid of moisture to eliminate any smoke that unfriendly eyes might spot.
Eragon had just finished recounting the dayâs activities to Saphira. Normally, he never had to tell her what he had been doing, as thoughts, feelings, and other sensations flowed between them as easily as water from one side of a lake to another. But in this instance it was necessary because Eragon had kept his mind carefully shielded during the scouting expedition, aside from his disembodied foray into the Raâzacâs lair.
After a considerable gap in the conversation, Saphira yawned, exposing her rows of many fearsome teeth.
wanting .
Eragon felt compelled to add, .
Then she laughed deep in her long throatâa rolling rumble that reminded him of thunder.
Leaning forward to take his weight off Saphiraâs sharp-edged scales, Eragon picked up the hawthorn staff that lay by his side. He rolled it between his palms, admiring the play of light over the polished tangle of roots at the top and the much-scratched metal ferrule and spike at the base.
Roran had thrust the staff into his arms before they left the Varden on the Burning Plains, saying, âHere. Fisk made this for me after the Raâzac bit my shoulder. I know you lost your sword, and I thought you might have need of it. . . . If you want to get another blade, thatâs fine too, but Iâve found there are very few fights you canât win with a few whacks from a good, strong stick.â Remembering the staff Brom had always carried, Eragon had decided to forgo a new sword in favor of the length of knotted hawthorn. After losing Zarâroc, he felt no desire to take up another, lesser sword. That night, he had fortified both the knotted hawthorn and the handle to Roranâs hammer with several spells that would prevent either piece from breaking, except under the most extreme stress.
Unbidden, a series of memories overwhelmed Eragon:
Eragon blinked, disoriented as the noise and fury of battle faded and the pleasant aroma of juniper wood replaced the stench of blood. He ran his tongue over his upper teeth, trying to eradicate the taste of bile that filled his mouth.
The name alone generated a welter of confused emotions in Eragon. On one hand, he Murtagh. Murtagh had saved Eragon and Saphira from the Raâzac after their first, ill-fated visit to Dras-Leona; risked his life to help extricate Eragon from Gilâead; acquitted himself honorably in the Battle of Farthen Dûr; and, despite the torments he no doubt endured as a result, had chosen to interpret his orders from Galbatorix in a way that allowed him to release Eragon and Saphira after the Battle of the Burning Plains instead of taking them captive. It was not Murtaghâs fault that the Twins had abducted him; that the red dragon, Thorn, had hatched for him; or that Galbatorix had discovered their true names, with which he extracted oaths of fealty in the ancient language from both Murtagh and Thorn.
None of that could be blamed on Murtagh. He was a victim of fate, and had been since the day he was born.
And yet . . . Murtagh might serve Galbatorix against his will, and he might abhor the atrocities the king forced him to commit, but some part of him seemed to revel in wielding his newfound power. During the recent engagement between the Varden and the Empire on the Burning Plains, Murtagh had singled out the dwarf king, Hrothgar, and slain him, although Galbatorix had not ordered Murtagh to do so. He had let Eragon and Saphira go, yes, but only after defeating them in a brutal contest of strength and then listening to Eragon plead for their freedom.
And Murtagh had derived entirely too much pleasure from the anguish he inflicted upon Eragon by revealing they were both sons of Morzanâfirst and last of the thirteen Dragon Riders, the Forsworn, who had betrayed their compatriots to Galbatorix.
Now, four days after the battle, another explanation presented itself to Eragon:
.
Whether or not that was true, Eragon suspected Murtagh had embraced his new role for the same reason that a dog who has been whipped without cause will someday turn and attack his master. Murtagh had been whipped and whipped, and now he had his chance to strike back at a world that had shown him little enough kindness.
Yet no matter what good might still flicker in Murtaghâs breast, he and Eragon were doomed to be mortal enemies, for Murtaghâs promises in the ancient language bound him to Galbatorix with unbreakable fetters and would forevermore.
said Saphira.
He caught himself and nodded, grateful for her intervention. Eragon did his best to avoid brooding upon Murtagh or their shared parents, but such thoughts often waylaid him when he least expected it.
Drawing and releasing a slow breath to clear his head, Eragon tried to force his mind back to the present but could not.
The morning after the massive battle on the Burning Plainsâwhen the Varden were busy regrouping and preparing to march after the Empireâs army, which had retreated several leagues up the Jiet RiverâEragon had gone to Nasuada and Arya, explained Roranâs predicament, and sought their permission to help his cousin. He did not succeed. Both women vehemently opposed what Nasuada described as âa harebrained scheme that will have catastrophic consequences for everyone in Alagaësia if it goes awry!â
The debate raged on for so long, at last Saphira had interrupted with a roar that shook the walls of the command tent. Then she said, .
It was, reflected Eragon, difficult to argue with a dragon.
The details of Saphiraâs remarks were complex, but the underlying structure of her presentation was straightforward. Saphira supported Eragon because she understood how much the proposed mission meant to him, while Eragon supported Roran because of love and family, and because he knew Roran would pursue Katrina with or without him, and his cousin would never be able to defeat the Raâzac by himself. Also, so long as the Empire held Katrina captive, Roranâand through him, Eragonâwas vulnerable to manipulation by Galbatorix. If the usurper threatened to kill Katrina, Roran would have no choice but to submit to his demands.
It would be best, then, to patch this breach in their defenses before their enemies took advantage of it.
As for the timing, it was perfect. Neither Galbatorix nor the Raâzac would expect a raid in the center of the Empire when the Varden were busy fighting Galbatorixâs troops near the border of Surda. Murtagh and Thorn had been seen flying toward Urûâbaenâno doubt to be chastised in personâand Nasuada and Arya agreed with Eragon that those two would probably then continue northward to confront Queen Islanzadà and the army under her command once the elves made their first strike and revealed their presence. And if possible, it would be good to eliminate the Raâzac before they started to terrorize and demoralize the Vardenâs warriors.
Saphira had then pointed out, in the most diplomatic of terms, that if Nasuada asserted her authority as Eragonâs liegelord and forbade him from participating in the sortie, it would poison their relationship with the sort of rancor and dissent that could undermine the Vardenâs cause.
said Saphira, .
A faint smile touched Eragonâs lips as he recalled the scene.
The combined weight of Saphiraâs declaration and her impregnable logic had convinced Nasuada and Arya to grant their approval, albeit grudgingly.
Afterward, Nasuada had said, âWe are trusting your judgment in this, Eragon, Saphira. For your sake and ours, I hope this expedition goes well.â Her tone left Eragon uncertain whether her words represented a heartfelt wish or a subtle threat.
Eragon had spent the rest of that day gathering supplies, studying maps of the Empire with Saphira, and casting what spells he felt were necessary, such as one to thwart attempts by Galbatorix or his minions to scry Roran.
The following morning, Eragon and Roran had climbed onto Saphiraâs back, and she had taken flight, rising above the orange clouds that stifled the Burning Plains and angling northeast. She flew nonstop until the sun had traversed the dome of the sky and extinguished itself behind the horizon and then burst forth again with a glorious conflagration of reds and yellows.
The first leg of their journey carried them toward the edge of the Empire, which few people inhabited. There they turned west toward Dras-Leona and Helgrind. From then on, they traveled at night to avoid notice by anyone in the many small villages scattered across the grasslands that lay between them and their destination.
Eragon and Roran had to swathe themselves in cloaks and furs and wool mittens and felted hats, for Saphira chose to fly higher than the icebound peaks of most mountainsâwhere the air was thin and dry and stabbed at their lungsâso that if a farmer tending a sick calf in the field or a sharp-eyed watchman making his rounds should happen to look up as she passed overhead, Saphira would appear no larger than an eagle.
Everywhere they went, Eragon saw evidence of the war that was now afoot: camps of soldiers, wagons full of supplies gathered into a bunch for the night, and lines of men with iron collars being led from their homes to fight on Galbatorixâs behalf. The amount of resources deployed against them was daunting indeed.
Near the end of the second night, Helgrind had appeared in the distance: a mass of splintered columns, vague and ominous in the ashen light that precedes dawn. Saphira had landed in the hollow where they were now, and they had slept through most of the past day before beginning their reconnaissance.
A fountain of amber motes billowed and swirled as Roran tossed a branch onto the disintegrating coals. He caught Eragonâs look and shrugged. âCold,â he said.
Before Eragon could respond, he heard a slithering scraping sound akin to someone drawing a sword.
He did not think; he flung himself in the opposite direction, rolled once, and came up into a crouch, lifting the hawthorn staff to deflect an oncoming blow. Roran was nearly as fast. He grabbed his shield from the ground, scrambled back from the log he had been sitting on, and drew his hammer from his belt, all in the span of a few seconds.
They froze, waiting for the attack.
Eragonâs heart pounded and his muscles trembled as he searched the darkness for the slightest hint of motion.
said Saphira.
When several minutes elapsed without incident, Eragon pushed his mind out over the surrounding landscape. âNo one,â he said. Reaching deep within himself to the place where he could touch the flow of magic, he uttered the words âBrisingr raudhr!â A pale red werelight popped into existence several feet in front of him and remained there, floating at eye level and painting the hollow with a watery radiance. He moved slightly, and the werelight mimicked his motion, as if connected to him by an invisible pole.
Together, he and Roran advanced toward where theyâd heard the sound, down the gulch that wound eastward. They held their weapons high and paused between each step, ready to defend themselves at any moment. About ten yards from their camp, Roran held up a hand, stopping Eragon, then pointed at a plate of shale that lay on top of the grass. It appeared conspicuously out of place. Kneeling, Roran rubbed a smaller fragment of shale across the plate and created the same steely scrape they had heard before.
âIt must have fallen,â said Eragon, examining the sides of the gulch. He allowed the werelight to fade into oblivion.
Roran nodded and stood, brushing dirt from his pants.
As he walked back to Saphira, Eragon considered the speed with which they had reacted. His heart still contracted into a hard, painful knot with each beat, his hands shook, and he felt like dashing into the wilderness and running several miles without stopping.
he thought. The reason for their vigilance was no mystery: every one of their fights had chipped away at their complacency, leaving behind nothing but raw nerves that twitched at the slightest touch.
Roran must have been entertaining similar thoughts, for he said, âDo you see them?â
âWho?â
âThe men youâve killed. Do you see them in your dreams?â
âSometimes.â
The pulsing glow from the coals lit Roranâs face from below, forming thick shadows above his mouth and across his forehead and giving his heavy, half-lidded eyes a baleful aspect. He spoke slowly, as if he found the words difficult. âI never wanted to be a warrior. I dreamed of blood and glory when I was younger, as every boy does, but the land was what was important to me. That and our family. . . . And now I have killed. . . . I have killed and killed, and you have killed even more.â His gaze focused on some distant place only he could see. âThere were these two men in Narda. . . . Did I tell you this before?â
He had, but Eragon shook his head and remained silent.
âThey were guards at the main gate. . . . Two of them, you know, and the man on the right, he had pure white hair. I remember because he couldnât have been more than twenty-four, twenty-five. They wore Galbatorixâs sigil but spoke as if they were from Narda. They werenât professional soldiers. They were probably just men who had decided to help protect their homes from Urgals, pirates, brigands. . . . We werenât going to lift a finger against them. I swear to you, Eragon, that was never part of our plan. I had no choice, though. They recognized me. I stabbed the white-haired man underneath his chin. . . . It was like when Father cut the throat of a pig. And then the other, I smashed open his skull. I can still feel his bones giving way. . . . I remember every blow Iâve landed, from the soldiers in Carvahall to the ones on the Burning Plains. . . . You know, when I close my eyes, sometimes I canât sleep because the light from the fire we set in the docks of Teirm is so bright in my mind. I think Iâm going mad then.â
Eragon found his hands gripping the staff with such force, his knuckles were white and tendons ridged the insides of his wrists. âAye,â he said. âAt first it was just Urgals, then it was men and Urgals, and now this last battle. . . . I know what we do is right, but doesnât mean . Because of who we are, the Varden expect Saphira and me to stand at the front of their army and to slaughter entire battalions of soldiers. We do. We have.â His voice caught, and he fell silent.
said Saphira to both of them.
.
Eragon stared at the coals. She had stated a truth that he was reluctant to acknowledge, lest by agreeing that one could enjoy violence, he would become a man he would despise. So he was mute. Across from him, Roran appeared similarly affected.
In a softer voice, Saphira said, .
Rising to his feet, Eragon walked to their saddlebags and retrieved the small earthenware jar Orik had given him before they parted, then poured two large mouthfuls of raspberry mead down his gullet. Warmth bloomed in his stomach. Grimacing, Eragon passed the jar to Roran, who also partook of the concoction.
Several drinks later, when the mead had succeeded in tempering his black mood, Eragon said, âWe may have a problem tomorrow.â
âWhat do you mean?â
Eragon directed his words toward Saphira as well. âRemember how I said that weâSaphira and Iâcould easily handle the Raâzac?â
âAye.â
said Saphira.
âWell, I was thinking about it while we spied on Helgrind, and Iâm not so sure anymore. There are almost an infinite number of ways to do something with magic. For example, if I want to light a fire, I could light it with heat gathered from the air or the ground; I could create a flame out of pure energy; I could summon a bolt of lightning; I could concentrate a raft of sunbeams into a single point; I could use friction; and so forth.â
âSo?â
âThe problem is, even though I can devise numerous spells to perform this one action, those spells might require but a single counterspell. If you prevent the action itself from taking place, then you donât have to tailor your counterspell to address the unique properties of each individual spell.â
âI still donât understand what this has to do with tomorrow.â
said Saphira to both of them. She had immediately grasped the implications.
â
ââmay have placed wards around the Raâzacââ
â
â
ââa whole range of spells. I probably wonâtââ
ââhave to relyââ
âStop!â exclaimed Roran. He gave a pained smile. âStop, please. My head hurts when you do that.â
Eragon paused with his mouth open; until that moment, he had been unaware that he and Saphira were speaking in turn. The knowledge pleased him: it signified that they had achieved new heights of cooperation and were acting together as a single entityâwhich made them far more powerful than either would be on their own. It also troubled him when he contemplated how such a partnership must, by its very nature, reduce the individuality of those involved.
He closed his mouth and chuckled. âSorry. What Iâm worried about is this: if Galbatorix has had the foresight to take certain precautions, then force of arms may be the only means by which we can slay the Raâzac. If thatâs trueââ
âIâll just be in your way tomorrow.â
âNonsense. You may be slower than the Raâzac, but I have no doubt youâll give them cause to fear your weapon, Roran Stronghammer.â The compliment seemed to please Roran. âThe greatest danger for you is that the Raâzac or the Lethrblaka will manage to separate you from Saphira and me. The closer we stay together, the safer weâll all be. Saphira and I will try to keep the Raâzac and Lethrblaka occupied, but some of them may slip past us. Four against two are only good odds if youâre among the four.â
To Saphira, Eragon said, she said.
Eragon reluctantly conceded the point.
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Continuing the strand of conversation he had been privy to, Roran said, âThis magic is a tricky business.â The log he sat on gave a drawn-out groan as he rested his elbows on his knees.
âIt is,â Eragon agreed. âThe hardest part is trying to anticipate every possible spell; I spend most of my time asking how can I protect myself if Iâm attacked like and would another magician expect me to do .â
âCould you make me as strong and fast as you are?â
Eragon considered the suggestion for several minutes before saying, âI donât see how. The energy needed to do that would have to come from somewhere. Saphira and I could give it to you, but then we would lose as much speed or strength as you gained.â What he did not mention was that one could also extract energy from nearby plants and animals, albeit at a terrible price: namely, the deaths of the smaller beings whose life force you drew upon. The technique was a great secret, and Eragon felt that he should not reveal it lightly, if at all. Moreover, it would be of no use to Roran, as too little grew or lived on Helgrind to fuel a manâs body.
âThen can you teach me to use magic?â When Eragon hesitated, Roran added, âNot now, of course. We donât have the time, and I donât expect one can become a magician overnight anyway. But in general, why not? You and I are cousins. We share much the same blood. And it would be a valuable skill to have.â
âI donât know how someone whoâs not a Rider learns to use magic,â confessed Eragon. âItâs not something I studied.â Glancing around, he plucked a flat, round stone from the ground and tossed it to Roran, who caught it backhand. âHere, try this: concentrate on lifting the rock a foot or so into the air and say, âStenr rïsa.â â
âStenr rïsa?â
âExactly.â
Roran frowned at the stone resting on his palm in a pose so reminiscent of Eragonâs own training that Eragon could not help feeling a flash of nostalgia for the days he spent being drilled by Brom.
Roranâs eyebrows met, his lips tightened into a snarl, and he growled, âStenr rïsa!â with enough intensity, Eragon half expected the stone to fly out of sight.
Nothing happened.
Scowling even harder, Roran repeated his command: âStenr rïsa!â
The stone exhibited a profound lack of movement.
âWell,â said Eragon, âkeep trying. Thatâs the only advice I can give you. Butââand here he raised a fingerââif you happen to succeed, make sure you immediately come to me or, if Iâm not around, another magician. You could kill yourself and others if you start experimenting with magic without understanding the rules. If nothing else, remember this: if you cast a spell that requires too much energy, you die. Donât take on projects that are beyond your abilities, donât try to bring back the dead, and donât try to unmake anything.â
Roran nodded, still looking at the stone.
âMagic aside, I just realized thereâs something far more important that you need to learn.â
âOh?â
âYes, you need to be able to hide your thoughts from the Black Hand, Du Vrangr Gata, and others like them. You know a lot of things now that could harm the Varden. Itâs crucial, then, that you master this skill as soon as we return. Until you can defend yourself from spies, neither Nasuada nor I nor anyone else can trust you with information that might help our enemies.â
âI understand. But why did you include Du Vrangr Gata in that list? They serve you and Nasuada.â
âThey do, but even among our allies there are more than a few people who would give their right armââhe grimaced at the appropriateness of the phraseââto ferret out our plans and secrets. And yours too, no less. You have become a Roran. Partly because of your deeds, and partly because we are related.â
âI know. It is strange to be recognized by those you have not met.â
âThat it is.â Several other, related observations leaped to the tip of Eragonâs tongue, but he resisted the urge to pursue the topic; it was a subject to explore another time. âNow that you know what it feels like when one mind touches another, you might be able to learn to reach out and touch other minds in turn.â
âIâm not sure that is an ability I want to have.â
âNo matter; you also might be able to do it. Either way, before you spend time finding out, you should first devote yourself to the art of defense.â
His cousin cocked an eyebrow. âHow?â
âChoose somethingâa sound, an image, an emotion, anythingâand let it swell within your mind until it blots out any other thoughts.â
âThatâs all?â
âItâs not as easy as you think. Go on; take a stab at it. When youâre ready, let me know, and Iâll see how well youâve done.â
Several moments passed. Then, at a flick of Roranâs fingers, Eragon launched his consciousness toward his cousin, eager to discover what he had accomplished.
The full strength of Eragonâs mental ray rammed into a wall composed of Roranâs memories of Katrina and was stopped. He could take no ground, find no entrance or purchase, nor undermine the impenetrable barrier that stood before him. At that instant, Roranâs entire identity was based upon his feelings for Katrina; his defenses exceeded any Eragon had previously encountered, for Roranâs mind was devoid of anything else Eragon could grasp hold of and use to gain control over his cousin.
Then Roran shifted his left leg and the wood underneath released a harsh squeal.
With that, the wall Eragon had hurled himself against fractured into dozens of pieces as a host of competing thoughts distracted Roran:
Taking advantage of Roranâs confusion, Eragon rushed forward and, by the force of his will, immobilized Roran before he could shield himself again.
said Eragon, then withdrew from Roranâs mind and said out loud, âbut you have to learn to maintain your concentration even when youâre in the middle of a battle. You must learn to think without thinking . . . to empty yourself of all hopes and worries, save that one idea that is your armor. Something the elves taught me, which I have found helpful, is to recite a riddle or a piece of a poem or song. Having an action that you can repeat over and over again makes it much easier to keep your mind from straying.â
âIâll work on it,â promised Roran.
In a quiet voice, Eragon said, âYou really love her, donât you?â It was more a statement of truth and wonder than a questionâthe answer being self-evidentâand one he felt uncertain making. Romance was not a topic Eragon had broached with his cousin before, notwithstanding the many hours they had devoted in years past to debating the relative merits of the young women in and around Carvahall. âHow did it happen?â
âI liked her. She liked me. What importance are the details?â
âCome now,â said Eragon. âI was too angry to ask before you left for Therinsford, and we have not seen each other again until just four days ago. Iâm curious.â
The skin around Roranâs eyes pulled and wrinkled as he rubbed his temples. âThereâs not much to tell. Iâve always been partial to her. It meant little before I was a man, but after my rites of passage, I began to wonder whom I would marry and whom I wanted to become the mother of my children. During one of our visits to Carvahall, I saw Katrina stop by the side of Loringâs house to pick a moss rose growing in the shade of the eaves. She smiled as she looked at the flower. . . . It was such a tender smile, and so happy, I decided right then that I wanted to make her smile like that again and again and that I wanted to look at that smile until the day I died.â Tears gleamed in Roranâs eyes, but they did not fall, and a second later, he blinked and they vanished. âI fear I have failed in that regard.â
After a respectful pause, Eragon said, âYou courted her, then?
Aside from using me to ferry compliments to Katrina, how else did you proceed?â
âYou ask like one who seeks instruction.â
âI did not. Youâre imaginingââ
âCome now, yourself,â said Roran. âI know when youâre lying. You get that big foolish grin, and your ears turn red. The elves may have given you a new face, but that part of you hasnât changed. What is it that exists between you and Arya?â
The strength of Roranâs perception disturbed Eragon. âNothing! The moon has addled your brain.â
âBe honest. You dote upon her words as if each one were a diamond, and your gaze lingers upon her as if you were starving and she a grand feast arrayed an inch beyond your reach.â
A plume of dark gray smoke erupted from Saphiraâs nostrils as she made a choking-like noise.
Eragon ignored her suppressed merriment and said, âArya is an elf.â
âAnd very beautiful. Pointed ears and slanted eyes are small flaws when compared with her charms. You look like a cat yourself now.â
âArya is over a hundred years old.â
That particular piece of information caught Roran by surprise; his eyebrows went up, and he said, âI find that hard to believe! Sheâs in the prime of her youth.â
âItâs true.â
âWell, be that as it may, these are reasons you give me, Eragon, and the heart rarely listens to reason. Do you fancy her or not?â
Saphira said to both Eragon and Roran, .
Mortified, Eragon swatted her on the leg.
Roran was prudent enough not to rib Eragon further. âThen answer my original question and tell me how things stand between you and Arya. Have you spoken to her or her family about this? I have found itâs unwise to let such matters fester.â
âAye,â said Eragon, and stared at the length of polished hawthorn. âI spoke with her.â
âTo what end?â When Eragon did not immediately reply, Roran uttered a frustrated exclamation. âGetting answers out of you is harder than dragging Birka through the mud.â Eragon chuckled at the mention of Birka, one of their draft horses. âSaphira, will you solve this puzzle for me? Otherwise, I fear Iâll never get a full explanation.â
âTo no end. No end at all. Sheâll not have me.â Eragon spoke dispassionately, as if commenting on a strangerâs misfortune, but within him raged a torrent of hurt so deep and wild, he felt Saphira withdraw somewhat from him.
âIâm sorry,â said Roran.
Eragon forced a swallow past the lump in his throat, past the bruise that was his heart, and down to the knotted skein of his stomach. âIt happens.â
âI know it may seem unlikely at the moment,â said Roran, âbut Iâm sure you will meet another woman who will make you forget this Arya. There are countless maidsâand more than a few married women, Iâd wagerâwho would be delighted to catch the eye of a Rider. Youâll have no trouble finding a wife among all the lovelies in Alagaësia.â
âAnd what would you have done if Katrina rejected your suit?â
The question struck Roran dumb; it was obvious he could not imagine how he might have reacted.
Eragon continued. âContrary to what you, Arya, and everyone else seem to believe, I aware that other eligible women exist in Alagaësia and that people have been known to fall in love more than once. No doubt, if I spent my days in the company of ladies from King Orrinâs court, I might indeed decide that I fancy one. However, my path is not so easy as that. Regardless of whether I can shift my affections to anotherâand the heart, as you observed, is a notoriously fickle beastâthe question remains: should I?â
âYour tongue has grown as twisted as the roots of a fir tree,â said Roran. âSpeak not in riddles.â
âVery well: what human woman can begin to understand who and what I am, or the extent of my powers? Who could share in my life? Few enough, and all of them magicians. And of that select group, or even of women in general, how many are immortal?â
Roran laughed, a rough, hearty bellow that rang loud in the gulch. âYou might as well ask for the sun in your pocket orââ He stopped and tensed as if he were about to spring forward and then became unnaturally still. âYou cannot be.â
âI am.â
Roran struggled to find words. âIs it a result of your change in Ellesméra, or is it part of being a Rider?â
âPart of being a Rider.â
âThat explains why Galbatorix hasnât died.â
âAye.â
The branch Roran had added to the fire burst asunder with a muted as the coals underneath heated the gnarled length of wood to the point where a small cache of water or sap that had somehow evaded the rays of the sun for untold decades exploded into steam.
âThe idea is so . . .
itâs almost inconceivable,â said Roran. âDeath is part of who we are. It guides us. It shapes us. It drives us to madness. Can you still be human if you have no mortal end?â
âIâm not invincible,â Eragon pointed out. âI can still be killed with a sword or an arrow. And I can still catch some incurable disease.â
âBut if you avoid those dangers, you will live forever.â
âIf I do, then yes. Saphira and I will âIt seems both a blessing and a curse.â
âAye. I cannot in good conscience marry a woman who will age and die while I remain untouched by time; such an experience would be equally cruel for both of us. On top of that, I find the thought of taking one wife after another throughout the long centuries rather depressing.â
âCan you make someone immortal with magic?â asked Roran.
âYou can darken white hair, you can smooth wrinkles and remove cataracts, and if you are willing to go to extraordinary lengths, you can give a sixty-year-old man the body he had at nineteen. However, the elves have never discovered a way to restore a personâs mind without destroying his or her memories. And who wants to erase their identity every so many decades in exchange for immortality? It would be a stranger, then, who lived on. An old brain in a young body isnât the answer either, for even with the best of health, that which we humans are made of can only last for a century, perhaps a bit more. Nor can you just stop someone from aging. That causes a whole host of other problems. . . . Oh, elves and men have tried a thousand and one different ways to foil death, but none have proved successful.â
âIn other words,â said Roran, âitâs safer for you to love Arya than to leave your heart free for the taking by a human woman.â
âWho else I marry but an elf? Especially considering how I look now.â Eragon quelled the desire to reach up and finger the curved tips of his ears, a habit he had fallen into. âWhen I lived in Ellesméra, it was easy for me to accept how the dragons had changed my appearance. After all, they gave me many gifts besides. Also, the elves were friendlier toward me after the Agaetà Blödhren. It was only when I rejoined the Varden that I realized how Iâve become. . . . It bothers me too. Iâm no longer just human, and Iâm not quite an elf. Iâm something else in between: a mix, a halfbreed.â
âCheer up!â said Roran. âYou may not have to worry about living forever. Galbatorix, Murtagh, the Raâzac, or even one of the Empireâs soldiers could put steel through us at any moment. A wise man would ignore the future and drink and carouse while he still has an opportunity to enjoy this world.â
âI know what Father would say to that.â
âAnd heâd give us a good hiding to boot.â
They shared a laugh, and then the silence that so often intruded on their discussion asserted itself once again, a gap born of equal parts weariness, familiarity, andâconverselyâthe many differences that fate had created between those who had once gone about lives that were but variations on a single melody.
said Saphira to Eragon and Roran.
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Eragon looked at the black vault of the sky, judging the hour by how far the stars had rotated. The night was older than he expected. âSound advice,â he said. âI just wish we had a few more days to rest before we storm Helgrind. The battle on the Burning Plains drained all of Saphiraâs strength and my own, and we have not fully recovered, what with flying here and the energy I transferred into the belt of Beloth the Wise these past two evenings. My limbs still ache, and I have more bruises than I can count. Look. . . .â Loosening the ties on the cuff of his left shirtsleeve, he pushed back the soft lámaraeâa fabric the elves made by cross-weaving wool and nettle threadsârevealing a rancid yellow streak where his shield had mashed against his forearm.
âHa!â said Roran. âYou call that tiny little mark a bruise? I hurt myself worse when I bumped my toe this morning. Here, Iâll show you a bruise a man can be proud of.â He unlaced his left boot, pulled it off, and rolled up the leg of his trousers to expose a black stripe as wide as Eragonâs thumb that slanted across his quadriceps. âI caught the haft of a spear as a soldier was turning about.â
âImpressive, but I have even better.â Ducking out of his tunic, Eragon yanked his shirt free of his trousers and twisted to the side so that Roran could see the large blotch on his ribs and the similar discoloration on his belly. âArrows,â he explained. Then he uncovered his right forearm, revealing a bruise that matched the one on his other arm, given when he had deflected a sword with his bracer.
Now Roran bared a collection of irregular blue-green spots, each the size of a gold coin, that marched from his left armpit down to the base of his spine, the result of having fallen upon a jumble of rocks and embossed armor.
Eragon inspected the lesions, then chuckled and said, âPshaw, those are pinpricks! Did you get lost and run into a rosebush? I have one that puts those to shame.â He removed both his boots, then stood and dropped his trousers, so that his only garb was his shirt and woolen underpants. âTop that if you can,â he said, and pointed to the inside of his thighs. A riotous combination of colors mottled his skin, as if Eragon were an exotic fruit that was ripening in uneven patches from crabapple green to putrefied purple.
âOuch,â said Roran. âWhat happened?â
âI jumped off Saphira when we were fighting Murtagh and Thorn in the air. Thatâs how I wounded Thorn. Saphira managed to dive under me and catch me before I hit the ground, but I landed on her back a bit harder than I wanted to.â
Roran winced and shivered at the same time. âDoes it go all the way . . .â He trailed off, and made a vague gesture upward.
âUnfortunately.â
âI have to admit, thatâs a remarkable bruise. You should be proud; itâs quite a feat to get injured in the manner you did and in that . . .
. . . place.â
âIâm glad you appreciate it.â
âWell,â said Roran, âyou may have the biggest bruise, but the Raâzac dealt me a wound the likes of which you cannot match, since the dragons, as I understand, removed the scar from your back.â While he spoke, he divested himself of his shirt and moved farther into the pulsing light of the coals.
Eragonâs eyes widened before he caught himself and concealed his shock behind a more neutral expression. He berated himself for overreacting, thinking, but the longer he studied Roran, the more dismayed he became.
A long, puckered scar, red and glossy, wrapped around Roranâs right shoulder, starting at his collarbone and ending just past the middle of his arm. It was obvious that the Raâzac had severed part of the muscle and that the two ends had failed to heal back together, for an unsightly bulge deformed the skin below the scar, where the underlying fibers had recoiled upon themselves. Farther up, the skin had sunk inward, forming a depression half an inch deep.
âRoran! You should have shown this to me days ago. I had no idea the Raâzac hurt you so badly. . . . Do you have any difficulty moving your arm?â
âNot to the side or back,â said Roran. He demonstrated. âBut in the front, I can only lift my hand about as high as . . . midchest.â Grimacing, he lowered his arm. âEven thatâs a struggle; I have to keep my thumb level, or else my arm goes dead. The best way Iâve found is to swing my arm around from behind and let it land on whatever Iâm trying to grasp. I skinned my knuckles a few times before I mastered the trick.â
Eragon twisted the staff between his hands.
he asked Saphira.
Saphira countered.
With a sigh, Eragon put down the staff and beckoned to Roran.
âHere, Iâll heal that for you.â
âYou can do that?â
âObviously.â
A momentary surge of excitement brightened Roranâs face, but then he hesitated and looked troubled. âNow? Is that wise?â
âAs Saphira said, better I tend to you while I have the chance, lest your injury cost you your life or endanger the rest of us.â Roran drew near, and Eragon placed his right hand over the red scar while, at the same time, expanding his consciousness to encompass the trees and the plants and the animals that populated the gulch, save those he feared were too weak to survive his spell.
Then Eragon began to chant in the ancient language. The incantation he recited was long and complex. Repairing such a wound went far beyond growing new skin and was a difficult matter at best. In this, Eragon relied upon the curative formulas that he had studied in Ellesméra and had devoted so many weeks to memorizing.
The silvery mark on Eragonâs palm, the gedwëy ignasia, glowed white-hot as he released the magic. A second later, he uttered an involuntary groan as he died three times, once each with two small birds roosting in a nearby juniper and also with a snake hidden among the rocks. Across from him, Roran threw back his head and bared his teeth in a soundless howl as his shoulder muscle jumped and writhed beneath the surface of his shifting skin.
Then it was over.
Eragon inhaled a shuddering breath and rested his head in his hands, taking advantage of the concealment they provided to wipe away his tears before he examined the results of his labor. He saw Roran shrug several times and then stretch and windmill his arms. Roranâs shoulder was large and round, the result of years spent digging holes for fence posts, hauling rocks, and pitching hay. Despite himself, a needle of envy pricked Eragon. He might be stronger, but he had never been as muscular as his cousin.
Roran grinned. âItâs as good as ever! Better, maybe. Thank you.â
âYouâre welcome.â
âIt was the strangest thing. I actually felt as if I was going to crawl out of my hide. And it itched something terrible; I could barely keep from rippingââ
âGet me some bread from your saddlebag, would you? Iâm hungry.â
âWe just had dinner.â
âI need a bite to eat after using magic like that.â Eragon sniffed and then pulled out his kerchief and wiped his nose. He sniffed again. What he had said was not quite true. It was the toll his spell had exacted on the wildlife that disturbed him, not the magic itself, and he feared he might throw up unless he had something to settle his stomach.
âYouâre not ill, are you?â asked Roran.
âNo.â With the memory of the deaths he had caused still heavy in his mind, Eragon reached for the jar of mead by his side, hoping to fend off a tide of morbid thoughts.
Something very large, heavy, and sharp struck his hand and pinned it against the ground. He winced and looked over to see the tip of one of Saphiraâs ivory claws digging into his flesh. Her thick eyelid went as it flashed across the great big glittering iris she fixed upon him. After a long moment, she lifted the claw, as a person would a finger, and Eragon withdrew his hand. He gulped and gripped the hawthorn staff once more, striving to ignore the mead and to concentrate upon what was immediate and tangible, instead of wallowing in dismal introspection.
Roran removed a ragged half of sourdough bread from his bags, then paused and, with a hint of a smile, said, âWouldnât you rather have some venison? I didnât finish all of mine.â He held out the makeshift spit of seared juniper wood, on which were impaled three clumps of golden brown meat. To Eragonâs sensitive nose, the odor that wafted toward him was thick and pungent and reminded him of nights he had spent in the Spine and of long winter dinners where he, Roran, and Garrow had gathered around their stove and enjoyed each otherâs company while a blizzard howled outside. His mouth watered. âItâs still warm,â said Roran, and waved the venison in front of Eragon.
With an effort of will, Eragon shook his head. âJust give me the bread.â
âAre you sure? Itâs perfect: not too tough, not too tender, and cooked with the perfect amount of seasoning. Itâs so juicy, when you take a bite, itâs as if you swallowed a mouthful of Elainâs best stew.â
âNo, I canât.â
âYou know youâll like it.â
âRoran, stop teasing me and hand over that bread!â
âAh, now see, you look better already. Maybe what you need isnât bread but someone to get your hackles up, eh?â
Eragon glowered at him, then, faster than the eye could see, snatched the bread away from Roran.
That seemed to amuse Roran even more. As Eragon tore at the loaf, he said, âI donât know how you can survive on nothing but fruit, bread, and vegetables. A man has to eat meat if he wants to keep his strength up. Donât you miss it?â
âMore than you can imagine.â
âThen why do you insist on torturing yourself like this? Every creature in this world has to eat other living beingsâeven if they are only plantsâin order to survive. That is how we are made. Why attempt to defy the natural order of things?â
observed Saphira, .
Eragon shrugged. âWe already had this discussion. You do what you want. I wonât tell you or anyone else how to live. However, I cannot in good conscience eat a beast whose thoughts and feelings Iâve shared.â
The tip of Saphiraâs tail twitched, and her scales clinked against a worn dome of rock that protruded from the ground.
. Lifting and extending her neck, Saphira nipped the venison, spit and all, from Roranâs other hand. The wood cracked between her serrated teeth as she bit down, and then it and the meat vanished into the fiery depths of her belly.
she said to Roran.
.
Roran hesitated, as if unable to decide whether her request was serious and, if so, how he could politely extricate himself from such an unlooked-for and rather onerous obligation. He cast a pleading glance at Eragon, who burst out laughing, both at Roranâs expression and at his predicament.
The rise and fall of Saphiraâs sonorous laugh joined with Eragonâs and reverberated throughout the hollow. Her teeth gleamed madder red in the light from the embers.
An hour after the three of them had retired, Eragon was lying on his back alongside Saphira, muffled in layers of blankets against the night cold. All was still and quiet. It seemed as if a magician had placed an enchantment upon the earth and that everything in the world was bound in an eternal sleep and would remain frozen and unchanging forevermore underneath the watchful gaze of the twinkling stars.
Without moving, Eragon whispered in his mind:
Comforted, Eragon gazed into the void between the stars and slowed his breathing as he drifted into the trance that had replaced sleep for him. He remained conscious of his surroundings, but against the backdrop of the white constellations, the figures of his waking dreams strode forth and performed confused and shadowy plays, as was their wont.