I dump my food in the nearest trash bin and stalk down the hallway. People press themselves against their lockers. Probably because they see the wrath on my face and know Iâd step on their heads if they donât clear out fast enough.
My blood is roaring in my ears.
Fury makes me gnash my teeth.
Iâve spent my life learning to control that rage, pouring it all into my guitar instead of being the type of bastard that punches for sport instead of necessity. Music helps with that. It focuses all my energy. Funnels it into a mess of chords and tangled notes that donât make sense to anyone but me.
Itâs much more satisfying to control the emotions than letting them rule me.
But with Cadence?
Screw that.
Whatever control I thought I had goes slipping through my fingers like sand. Itâs infuriating to lose my own balance.
Iâve always been on top of the world. No one above me. No one ruling me.
But all that girl has to do is bat her eyes and Iâd wage a war.
Not that she wants me to go to war for her.
The way she looked at meâlike I was a freaking annoyance, it got under my skin. Even more than that, her words dug at me, unearthing a truth that bites like a million mosquitoes descending at once.
I did make it my mission to ruin her.
And I failed.
In the end, sheâs the one who ruined me.
Some part of my brain is aware that I need to give her time. Time to see that weâre right for each other. Time to prove that Iâm never going to hurt her again.
But why do I feel so freaking torn up inside? Why do I want to bust someoneâs head off their neck?
I turn down another hallway and stop short. Lucien and Ronâmy dadâs personal bodyguardsâare standing outside the music lecture room.
Ron, the one on the right, is dadâs favorite meathead. Heâs nothing but a big, hulk of muscle and an empty can for a head. Anything dad says, Ron does without question.
Lucien is a little slimmer than Ron, but what he doesnât have in mass, he makes up for in cunning. Thereâs something about Lucienâs eyes, the way they slice into you like a knife, thatâs always set me on edge. I would prefer to pick a fight with the brainless shark Ron, than to tempt fate with Lucien.
A crowd of students are in front of the classroom, eagerly peering inside. Some of them have signs.
Brainless zombies. All of them. Clamoring for someone who doesnât give a damn about them. Breathless and waiting on his every move.
Idiots.
I storm toward the classroom. The crowd goes silent and, like they did in the hallway, they move out of my way.
Ron gives me a grim nod.
Lucien doesnât bother acknowledging me. Not until I get close.
He suddenly bars me with an arm out. The snake.
âSorry, Mr. Cross,â Lucien rasps. âYou canât go in.â
âTry and stop me,â I hiss. Slamming his arm down, I stalk past him. Dad lifts a finger, a quick but powerful gesture to his underlings. Lucien adjusts his suit jacket and returns his attention to the crowd.
I stalk toward my father, my anger bristling in my veins. I havenât spoken to him since that disaster of a âfamily introductionâ dinner. The one where he announced Miss Jamieson as our step-sister and crushed my twinâs heart with a freaking stone. Zaneâs stopped his destructive drinking binges, but he still hasnât recovered from that.
Maybe he never will.
âWhat a pleasant surprise, son. I was told you and the others didnât often attend this lecture.â Dadâs voice is smooth. Oily. Heâs made an unbelievable amount of money peddling that voice to women hungry for the fantasy. The dream that a man with everythingâmoney, looks and talentâcould be singing to them and only them.
If they knew what their dirty fantasy does in the dark, would they still worship him?
Something tells me they would.
I glower at dad. âWhat are you doing at Redwood?â
âI told you Iâd be teaching a class.â Dad tilts his head, showing the tattoo behind his ear. âYesterday was my first lecture. I was a little rusty, but Iâve been told I did well for my firstââ
âI meant,â I step closer, âwhat are you doing here?â
My eyes scour his face, searching for any signs. We both know that nothing dad does is a coincidence.
Slowly, the facade of the warm-hearted father disappears. Dadâs eyes glint with the cruelty I know lurks deep in his bones.
âI heard youâve been talking to Miller,â he growls.
My lips quirk. âIs there some reason I canât talk to the chairman of the board?â
âWhat are you planning, Dutch?â
âNothing you need to know.â
âYouâve been getting on my nerves.â
âThat was intentional.â
His eyes go dark. âDonât force my hand, son.â
âYouâve already forced mine.â I clench my jaw. âLetâs not hold back anymore, dad. Iâd like to take a proper swing at you.â
Musical chimes flood the speakers.
Class is about to begin but neither of us moves a muscle.
Through the window, I notice the crowd multiplying. Some are fans here to watch Jarod Cross from a distance, but others are students.
Cadence is among them.
I canât see her yet, but I know she has this lecture and I know sheâll be here soon.
âLeave.â Dad steps back. Slipping a pair of thin, circle glasses out of his pocket, he puts it on like a costume. âI have work to do.â
âIâm not going anywhere.â
He glances over me, his tone dry and mocking. âYouâre suddenly interested in school?â
âIâm sure thereâs a lot I can learn if I keep my eyes on you.â
His mouth twists into a bigger smile, but his gaze is as cold and frigid as winter. âMy goodwill ends here, Dutch. Iâm holding myself back for your reputationâs sake, but if you insist on staying, Iâll have to throw you out in front of everyone.â
My back goes ramrod straight. I give him a look thatâs pure hell.
âThe teachers here at Redwood are scared of you, arenât they? But Iâm not, little boy. Iâll show you what power is,â dadâs voice is raspy and threatening. âAnd when I embarrass you, when I show them how weak you really are, youâll lose all the respect these airheads have for you. Do you want that, Dutch?â Dad reaches out and fixes my collar. His thick fingers, calloused from years of playing guitar, scrape against my skin. âDo you want your kingdom to crumble?â
âSir,â Lucien twists his neck and looks into the classroom, âdo we let them in now?â
Dadâs eyes remain trained on me. âIn a minute. Dutch was just leaving.â
The fury inside snaps and crackles. But heâs good for the threat.
We both know it.
My vision goes red.
My body tightens like a spring.
I pick up a desk as I leave and send it rocking over to its side.
Wood thuds and splinters.
Metal bangs.
Dadâs laughter flows eerily into my back, following the clatter of the overturned desk. I stumble outside, gritting my teeth so hard Iâm sure theyâll crack.
The crowd makes room, but one person canât step into the background if she tried. And hell, she trying.
I stop in front of Cadence whoâs hiding behind a tall guy with a giant backpack.
âCome out,â I growl.
She inches forward, her steps slow and shuffling, her eyes wide.
I stare straight ahead, not trusting myself to look her in the face. Thereâs no way dad has anything good planned for Redwood or for us now that heâs here. Iâd rather cart her away than let her get close to him.
But I know that would be pushing it.
I canât let dad see how much she means to me or heâll place a target on her back.
âMeet me in the practice room after class,â I bite out.
She frowns and, for a second, I think sheâs going to protest.
Thankfully, she nods her understanding.
I take off like a storm, footsteps pounding down the hallways until I get to the practice room.
I send my brothers a text.
My jaw works and I reach roughly for my guitar, plopping it into my lap and running my hands down the strings. A discordant note plays, a perfect reflection of my heart.
Dad needs to go.
Redwood Prep is too small for the both of us.
Besides, he doesnât deserve to have total control over the lives and futures of the students here.
And no one knows that better than me.