Y/N - hm..............
It's been a few days since I went over to Doc for my usual session with him, though a bit later than last time.
I learn a lot from him, which I appreciate the most.
Scratching my head, hands occupied with kneading the freshly made dough I'm planning to bake for today.
Arms wrapped around my neck, making me chuckle to myself as I turned my neck around to give her a sweet kiss.
The touch of her lips gives me the motivation I need for the moment before turning away to focus on kneading.
Y/N - hey pikmin.
Hae - yah, I give you a one time early access to a workdol episode and you're catching on?
Y/N - mmhm.
Hae - hehe, hard at work I see?
Y/N - always.
Hae - aren't you tired?
Y/N - very.
She went around to stand beside me, grabbing the other batch of dough and began kneading it herself.
Lifting an eyebrow since I wasn't expecting her to help me all of a sudden, I turned my neck to look at the living room.
Min-Jeong and Jimin are here again alongside Joo-Hyun-noona, the NMIXX girls said they could make it today since they have pre-recording right now for something but I wonder what Jinsol was going to say to me on Christmas, she brought it up and never spoke about it again.
I wonder what it is.
Turning back around to the dough, now to the consistency I wanted it to be. Grabbing the cutter and beginning to cut it into small pieces.
Hae - you should take care of yourself more.
Y/N - I know, but thank you for caring about me.
Hae - heh. When we're at work, I always thought about you.
My heart warmly fluttered, a small smile on my face formed where I looked at her.
Y/N - oh yeah?
Hae - you always looked tired, and you still do and it concerned me. Then when I started hanging out with you more and you introduced me to Jinae. I understood you had a lot more on your plate than I knew.
Y/N - it's just how it is being a parent. How's being Jinae's mom feel?
Hae - tiring, now I get why you're always tired especially since you're working late nights too.
Y/N - you get used to it, but you're lucky you haven't gotten to the part where you're up at 2am some nights, having to pat the baby and wait for it to go to sleep and then they sleep again
We both softly laughed, our eyes colliding with each other with warm smiles on our faces. Leaning in for a kiss, I was beaten to the punch.
Receiving a peck from her, heightening my feelings for her especially with that adorable smile of hers.
Hae - we'll get there soon, maybe.
Y/N - you plan on staying with me that long?
Letting out a small grin, almost teasing.
Hae - I do.
Before I could act on anything, an arm wrapped around my shoulder as it did on hers making us look back slightly behind.
Seulgi - you two getting all lovey without me? I'm here too.
Y/N - noona hi.
Seulgi - ah ah ah, you can't call me noona anymore. We're dating so-
Lifting her hand off my shoulder, pushing her body forward with her ear showing jokingly. Sighing, accepting defeat from her all happy condition right now.
Y/N - Bear....
Giggling to herself, she kissed both me and Haewon on the cheek before wrapping her arm around me again.
Seulgi - that's what I thought. How's it feel to have two girls who fawn over you?
Shrugging, it was something that I'm still trying to get used to, but knowing Haewon as well. She was trying to get used to it too.
Even if it was her own decision to stay with me, I've been curious about her thoughts lately.
Y/N - it's- cool. I guess.
Hae - unnie, you can't put him on the spot like that.
Seulgi - yeah I can. He's put up with me for so long, he's used to it.
Y/N - sort of.
Seulgi - but I'm in a good mood today since 2025, we'll all be thriving in our own successes.
Y/N - we sure will be.
Feeling a tug on my pants, all three of us looked down in surprise to see a one little muffin with her hands up.
Jinae - papa uppies!
Y/N - AHHHHH MUFFFIN!
Quickly wiping my hands with a towel, immediately squatting down and picking her up and happily laughing to myself where she poked me on the nose.
Seulgi - he always breaks out of his seriousness when it comes to her.
Hae - and only her.
Snapping my neck to glare at them, they shook their heads in disappointment while crossing their arms.
Y/N - shush
Hae - you don't look and react the same when it comes to us.
Seulgi - when will we get the same type of treatment from you, our dear future husband?
With an unexpected attack from them, I didn't know how to react to that at all.
Y/N - uhm- I-
Jinae - papa loves all of us!
Oh thank you Jinae for the save. Her hands gripped my hair, not really feeling any grabs or pulling but rather like a head pat or something like that.
Y/N - that's right, muffin! I love your mama and uh- Seulgi-noona!
Seulgi - I'm your mama too now Jinae-ah.
Jinae's face lit up in excitement while Seulgi just confidently nodded, Haewon was just looking back and forth between me and Seulgi.
Jinae - yay! Now I have two mamas!
Seulgi - haha! Now I get to spoil you whenever I want!
Figuring from her body language, she wanted Jinae so I handed Jinae over to her where she began to tickle her.
Hae - will you be able to take care of her though like Y/N?
Seulgi - yes I can. I've been there for Jinae since she was born so- yes. I absolutely can.
Y/N - that's true. She knows the odds and ends pretty well.
Haewon just smacked her lips, lifting her eyebrows in defeat. But in response, I turned to Seulgi and gave her a half-glare.
Y/N - you two shouldn't be fighting over who should be the best mother
Jinae - my mommy's should not be fighting!
Jinae pouted a bit, crossing her arms cutely. Walking over beside her, caressing her long hair.
Y/N - ne, that's true.
Hae - we're not fighting sweetie, just talking.
Seulgi - yeah, we're okay!
Jinae - does my mommy's argue with papa?
Hae - sometimes.
Seulgi - only when he's being met
Y/N - ya.
The three of them giggled, making me smile sweetly at the sight.
Bolstering her up further in her arms, Seulgi quickly gave me a kiss on my cheek before turning away
Seulgi - I'm just gonna play with her alright?
Y/N - alright
But as I was just to turn to Haewon, her shoulder gently pushed me away from the counter.
Hae - you, mister should take a rest for the time being. Go take a nap, you've been up all morning again.
Y/N - ah what? Come on.
Hae - I love you but please take a nap. We'll all be okay.
A bit unsure about the advice, my hand scratched the back of my head while pursing my lips a bit.
Y/N - al- alright.
Hesitant, she slapped my butt as I turned around to walk away
Hae - and a long one okay? I'll wake you up once the girls are here
Y/N - arraseo.
My body still felt a bit restless since the energy I was feeding off of was just pure sheer will at this point. My hand rested on my bedroom door knob, twisting it and entering my room.
With a sigh, I began to take a fighting stance once I heard the door click.
Imagining the shadow of someone that held something against me.
A vision of my current self to settle an old vendetta with.
My feet immediately locked into the hardwood, the wood not being able to make a sound.
My headspace is becoming foggier and convoluted as all I could focus on,
Was him.
And only him.
The hatred in his eyes, imagination going wild knowing every step.
Every single punch he took,
Every hook, uppercut, weave.
All lost in a vase that couldn't be put back together.
The more I looked into him,
Love poured out,
The once lost passion oozing in a mist of black sun.
A tear formed from the ducts of my eyes, almost befalling me.
Enraptured in the gaze of my opponent.
My body felt light in this moment,
And in this moment between me and him, only we mattered.
The undeniable speed of my punches never connected when in awe, he was just an echo of a former past.
Even though I kept trying and trying, pushing myself harder.
In between quickening breaths and shudders, sweat rained down from my forehead.
Pushing myself to a limit even though he was never there.
I hate him.
And oh god do I despise him.
Every bone in my body shouldn't take much to hate who he was.
But something came over me, imagining the almost blinding ray that was Jinae's smile,
The light of my life that came to be because of a simple mistake, when in reality she was never a mistake.
Just an unexpected surprise.
I've raised her to the best I could and if I left anything,
Anyone behind.
I know she would resent me for it, but in return. I left her with family, friends,
People she could turn to and ask,
"What was Dad like?"
Regaining my composure, I stopped in my position and put down my hands.
Staring into him once more,
The fog cleared up in front of me.
Seeing the broken face of a boy.
And there I stood,
In front of a mirror as I looked at the boy.
His eyes pierced daggers at me.
If I could ever loved him,
It would've taken many years to come to terms of how insatiable I was.
With a single step and lifting my blanket up in my hands. Laying myself down with both of my hands behind my head.
Closing my eyes and envisioning a time if I could learn to love myself once more.
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"Hm? Y/N?"
A soft gentle touch grazed my shoulder, slightly pushing a bit to wake up.
But as soon as I heard that voice echo in the middle of my voidless eyes. I knew who it was.
Opening my eyes, being met with Haewon on top of me.
Groaning a bit with a bit of ache in my forearms, slightly pushing myself up to the headboard.
Y/N - hey....
A soft whispery voice came out of me where she smiled at the corner of her lip, leaning in to kiss me on my head before caressing my face.
Hae - the girls are here. You've been asleep longer than I thought.
Confused a bit of where I am, but that's to be expected since my naps have always been like this.
Y/N - h- how long?
Hae - about four hours-ish. It's about half six.
Y/N - eugh....
My head ached a bit too, I'll take an aspirin or something in a bit.
Looking down at my lap, feeling a bit of weight on top of it.
Clearly, she had sat down on me as if she was awaiting something from me.
Her eyes dwindled on me, an abrupt interruption had occurred with our ears perking up to the sound of the door opening
Kyu - he-
In came Kyujin, a surprised and embarrassed look brought her back, quickly bowing to apologize
Kyu - sorry for the interruption!
Closing the door quickly as she came in, our heads turned to each other, softly laughing.
Y/N - now I can see that they're clearly here.
Hae - she was probably looking for the bathroom again.
Y/N - ah it's fine. I did ask her if she could put up the decorations for tonight.
Hae - Decorations?
Y/N - y'know, gotta have that big happy new year sign up and stuff
Hae - you asked her but not me?
Y/N - I like the way she thinks. Controlled chaos.
Hae - hm, alright. I agree with you there.
Y/N - thank you, but I should really get up don't I?
Hae - you should.
Y/N - excuse me then.
She got off of me, stepping down onto the floor. My hand got ahold of the blanket and lifted it up. I was still in the same clothes as earlier, maybe I should change my t-shirt at least.
Y/N - I'm just gonna quickly change my t-shirt if you don't mind.
Hae - ah alright, I'm gonna head out to help with Kyujin if she needs anything.
Y/N - okay coolio.
Giving me a quick kiss on the cheek, I watched her walk away back to the outside.
Not a lot is on my mind right now, even though the remains of earlier still lingers a bit.
My hand gripped the hem of my t-shirt, lifted it off of me and held it in my hand before throwing it into the hamper.
My face faced the mirror, taking a good second to look at myself before reaching into my dresser and picking out a suitable shirt to wear and certainly not the 'I love my GF' t-shirt Haewon bought for me as a joke.
'Knock knock'
Snapping my neck towards the door, a bit curious on who was knocking since their voice was muffled behind it.
Y/N - who is it?!
Keeping my voice a bit up but just enough to see if I could garner a response from them.
Bae - oppa? It's just me!
Y/N - give me a second!
Without wasting a second, putting on my t-shirt hastily before walking to the door and opening it gently, her figure in front of me.
Y/N - yeah? What's up Jinsol? Oh and, thanks for coming by.
Swaying side to side, she looked a bit unsure but was still somewhat happy to see a friendly face other than her members.
Bae - thanks for having me. I wanted to tell you what was on my mind that I forgot to tell you on Christmas.
Y/N - oh yeah sure
Opening the door fully for her to come inside, watching her walk in before closing the door.
Sitting on the edge of my bed, I opted for my office chair to sit on. Grabbing it and rolling it over to me and sat down with a leg over my other leg.
Y/N - yeah?
Bae - w- well.
Bringing her shoulders together, she looked shy more so. Her eyes avoided mine and was a bit hesitant.
Y/N - hm? Is something bothering you?
Bae - wel- well- you and Soo-Young-unnie aren't related by blood right?
Y/N - that's true. How come?
Bae - it's about my family.
My eyebrows perked up in curiosity but also, deep down. This was going to be a topic that I shouldn't take so lightly considering my real circumstances.
Y/N - your family? Are you sure you want to talk about it with me?
Bae - I- I do. There's no one else similar to me.
Y/N - well, how similar?
Bae - recently. I had someone come up to me and she told me we were half siblings.
Y/N - oh?
Bae - and I didn't believe her at first but she was so persistent about it so we did a blood test.
Y/N - so- is she your half sibling?
Nodding with a soft look on her face, I understood that feeling.
The day I found out that Soo-Young-noona was not my real one, it hurt but she was still family to me regardless of DNA.
Bae - and it turns out that I also have a half brother too.
Y/N - that must've been really surprising wasn't it?
Bae - I- I just don't know how to feel. Out of the blue, I have a family I never knew about.
Y/N - do you feel happy about it?
Bae - should I be?
Y/N - *sighs* to be honest Jinsol. I wouldn't really know what to do in this situation since you and I's family differ pretty far away from each other. But, at the end of the day. Family is family.
Nodding at my response, sliding my chair closer over to her, putting a hand on her shoulder to comfort her.
Y/N - do they treat you nice?
Bae - they do, we're still a bit awkward since it was only recently we found out.
Y/N - how recent?
Bae - maybe a month or so.
Y/N - hm, I understand. Then my advice is make what you can of it. Not like to use them for your advantage, but family is family after all. If I had a chance to know my real one, I would but Soo-young-noona and the family that I have that isn't mine in reality? I'd still love them the same.
Bae - hm.
Patting her shoulder gently, a bit of a soft smile on my face.
Bae - thanks oppa.
Y/N - no problem.
Bae - so, I should get to know them?
Y/N - of course, it doesn't matter if the age is huge. Look at me and Soo-Young-noona, we're close but still siblings.
Softly laughing, she suddenly put me in a hug making me a bit surprised but quickly accepted it as I hugged her back but just loosely.
Y/N - you'll be alright. I promise you.
Pulling back from the hug, she looked at me with a friendly look before she turned around, dragging her feet along the floorboard. Her hand on the doorknob.
Bae - thanks oppa, I'm just gonna join the girls again in the living room.
Y/N - alright, I'll be out in a bit.
Watching her walk out of the room, I lowered my shoulders down and hung my head. My hand resting on my forehead.
Y/N - what a day.
And it's not over yet.
An inhale through my nose and a deep breath, I think I need some water.
Getting up from my bed and walking to the door, opening it and coming out of the bedroom while making my way towards the living room.
Many faces appeared, some with surprise but.
Where's Jinae?
Joy - ah you're awake.
Win - oppa were you asleep?
Kar - yeah were you?
Waving to the NMIXX girls who came by to the party, deciding to sit down beside an empty space between Jiwoo and Lily
Y/N - yeah I was, sorry. Was feeling tired.
Lily - what got you so tired?
Kyu - hey I'm tired too!
Locating Kyujin's voice, she was on top of a foot stool putting up the big banner with Haewon on the opposite end but was on top of the dining table.
Y/N - oh, that's where you were Kyujin
Kyu - I better get paid for this!
Y/N - you will! Thanks!
A faint smile, my attention turned to Min-Jeong and Jimin, curious where our daughter was
Y/N - so, where's Jinae?
Win - she fell asleep on me, so Jimin-unnie brought her to her bedroom.
Y/N - ah. Okay cool, uhhhh. Jiwoo?
Jiwoo - yes that's me!
Y/N - I haven't heard from well, all of you guys actually since Christmas. So how are we all doing?
Sully - we've been doing fine, just the pre-recording for earlier today and nothing much really.
Bae - we have been a bit too lazy since it is still our break.
Sully - but thanks for inviting us though oppa.
Y/N - no problem, I thought you guys would be bored this new years and plus, since Haewon's always over and away from you all, It's better that you guys stay together.
They all softly smiled at me but Jimin shot me a unnerving look, making me curious
Y/N - what?
Kar - you say that but it's just me and Min-Jeong that's been going to your place.
Y/N - I thought Ning and Aeri would be busy
Kar - we're busy too you know? I'm dealing with so much shit right now with my sponsors and I still make time for you.
Y/N - well jeez, I'm sorry. I'll get Aeri and Ning over then next time.
Kar - actually. It's still early and I know they aren't busy soooooo
Watching her take out her phone, Jiwoo sat closer to me without me knowing.
Y/N - Min-Jeong, are Aeri and Ning actually not busy?
Win - they haven't been doing anything for a while.
Y/N - oh.
Win - it's okay, it's right to assume since we're all stars here.
Irene - exclude me out
Joy - me too.
Kar - sunbaenims, you're still stars too you know
Irene - yeah but we got our own thing going on and the- uh- contracts
Win - oh right.
Lily - I heard about that, are you guys really gonna be staying as Red Velvet
Joy - all up in the air.
Seulgi, who has been missing for a while. Strolls into the living room with airpods in her ears, taking one out as our eyes gazed at her
Seulgi - what?
Irene - we're talking about our contracts
Seulgi - don't ask me, I'm still performing as a soloist
Bae - but will we ever see Red Velvet again as a whole?
The three RV girls looked at each other, an unsure connection between the three of them.
Lily - we all love you even though we're not the company
Hae - it'd be a shame if you guys disband
Kyujin - mmhmm
Irene - well, then again. It's just up in the air, we're not too sure ourselves though we know what we want
Joy - I'll just focus on my acting for now, and we'll see from then on
Seulgi - music wise is still there for me
Irene - same with me
Y/N - Seung-Wan-noona is unsure though
Kar - the same with Yeri-sunbaenim
Seulgi - ah, no more talk about Red Velvet, we'll worry about that next year.
Everyone inexplicably nodded in agreement, Seulgi made her way to me. Sitting down on my lap before leaning back and resting the back of her head on my shoulder, wrapping my arm halfway around her before looking around at the girls
Y/N - noo-
Seulgi - ah
Y/N - Bear.
Seulgi - yes?
Y/N - you know the girls are here right?
Lily - woah when'd this happen?
Jiwoo - are you and Seulgi-sunbaenim together?
Bae - I didn't know this happened
Kyujin - what's happening?!?!
Sully - oppa, I didn't know you were like that
Getting a bit red from the barrage of questions with Min-Jeong and Jimin not really wanting to butt in neither with Joo-Hyun-noona and Haewon. Though Soo-Young-noona doesn't even really care.
Y/N - wait wait-
Seulgi - yes we're dating so what?
Without any care in the world, putting it out there for everyone to hear before Joo-Hyun-noona put her hand to her face, sighing loudly.
Irene - Seulg- you idiot-
The girls were shocked, and I mean open mouth shocked.
To be fair, they didn't know and we didn't mean to intentionally make it a secret.
Hae - I'm okay with it.
Haewon shrugged to herself, the girls still shocked nonetheless
Sully - unnie you're okay with it!?!?
Lily - why?!?
Hae - I love him, so does Seulgi-unnie. Doesn't really make me angry or anything
Bae - wouldn- wouldn't it be like cheating though? Weren't you mad?
The two of them put up the banner while they were in the middle of talking, Seulgi leaning back into me, softly kissing my neck where Jiwoo notices and looks away being a bit shy seeing it.
Y/N - Sorry.
Jiwoo - i- it's fine.
Seulgi - mmhm, you smell good. Is that the cologne I gave you?
Y/N - y- yeah.
Listening back to the girl's conversation, Jimin and Min-Jeong were over at the kitchen helping Joo-Hyun-noona with something.
Hae - I wouldn't hate him, it's not like he chose to do it. Seulgi-unnie confessed to him and I'm not against it, and it's just easier for the both of us since she can also take care of Jinae when we're working.
Sully - Seulgi-sunbaenim is just as busy as us though!
Seulgi - nope not really
Nonchalantly putting it out there, she continues kissing my neck, ignoring her while I listen in.
Kyu - are you really sure about this?
Hae - of course I am, it's been a week since all three of us happened.
Jiwoo - a week?!?!
Bae - unnie?!?!
Hae - what?
Sighing a bit to myself, my hand rested around Seulgi's waist. Her barrage of soft kisses ended, now just snuggling up to me.
Joy - Y/N?
Y/N - yeah noona?
Joy - you're a fucking player
Y/N - fuck you
Joy - yeah yeah
Going back to lazily lounging on the opposite couch, Haewon walked over to me and sat on Lily's lap.
Lily - just. I never expected it.
Hae - me neither. But that shouldn't make you guys hate Y/N or Seulgi-unnie for the decision. I made the decision to stay with him, and I'm still happy.
Sully - good on you unnie, you're mature enough to figure it out
Hae - so are all of you. I still love him and I'm not afraid to say it.
Seulgi - me too.
Jiwoo - I won't hate you oppa.
Bae - me neither.
Sully - I mean, I'm just shocked but I don't think we would hate you for it or resent you.
Kyu - mmhm.
Y/N - thanks girls.
Jiwoo - but what does Jimin-sunbaenim and Min-Jeong-sunbaenim think about it?
Kar - oh we don't care
Win - just more obstacles in my plan
Not hearing what she said in her last few words, I leaned in asking her out of curiosity
Y/N - what was that?
Win - nothing ehehe
Laughing it off, we just shrugged it off.
Y/N - thanks again Kyujin-ah for helping set up.
Kyu - no problem oppa, so what's my payment?
Y/N - I'll decide later, let's just relax for the time being.
Nodding, it's comfortable right now, I don't think I want to get up at all.
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*02:00 (roughly), January 1st, 2025*
I felt restless,
Neither from the nap I took but restless.
True, we may have celebrated the new year just two hours or so ago, but it didn't tire me out.
And yet here I was, in bed with Seulgi and Haewon, who I don't know if are still awake since we just went to bed about thirty or so minutes ago.
Sighing, it was heard by the two who I turned my head to look at them individually.
Seulgi - hm? Y/N?
Hae - you're still up?
Y/N - oh. You're both still up.
Hae - yeah, I was just restless.
Seulgi - you too Haewonnie?
The two of them hummed in agreement, my hands laid flat on the mattress, lifting myself up to the headboard where my back sat.
They sat up and rested their heads on my chest, our eyes weary and tired but still had the strength to keep them open.
Y/N - sorry about this, I can't sleep.
Seulgi - it's fine. Neither can I.
Hae - yeah.
Y/N - you mind if I tell you girls something?
Seulgi - yeah of course
Hae - anything.
Taking a good look at them, before looking up at the ceiling before back down on them.
Y/N - to tell you guys the truth, it's just I've been a therapist for a while now.
Hae - a therapist?
Seulgi - woah wait, this is new to me.
Hae - I thought you would know unnie?
Seulgi - but this is VERYYY new to me
Y/N - I know. I'm sorry about that.
Hae - but, you're seeing a therapist?
Seulgi - how come?
Y/N - well, you remember when Jinae was just born noona?
Looking at Seulgi for a response, where she thought to herself quietly for a second before looking back at me.
Seulgi - I do. You were struggling for a while.
Y/N - after she turned one, I started seeing this therapist. I just- thought that, well. I didn't do anything good at all in life.
Hae - was it really that bad?
Y/N - it was.
Seulgi - I never knew how bad it was for you.
Y/N - I just didn't want to tell you noona. Or any of them. being up all night trying to soothe a crying baby and having to change her diaper out of the blue, i- it made me depressed if I had to put it that way.
Hae - oh honey.
They both leaned in closer, both of their arms wrapping around me warmly.
Y/N - it's been four years now and I still see him.
Hae - is that where you went the other day after you said you were going out for a walk?
Seulgi - and a long walk too, it was two hours long.
Hae - I'm sorry though about that as well, I know you were late coming home and we missed you.
Seulgi - I just didn't expect that you were out there for help.
Y/N - I just didn't want to be a burden and tell you.
Hae - but it's not a burden
Seulgi - we've shared everything between you and me, and this is the only thing you've never told me. And I don't blame you for that decision.
Hae - it's not a burden to me, nor to Seulgi-unnie. We both love you.
Y/N - it's been a tough four years you know? At some point, when everything started to die down for Red Velvet, I thought to myself that maybe I could hand Jinae over to Soo-Young-noona or to you or any one of them.
Seulgi - why?
Y/N - you know I don't want to see my parents again
Seulgi - I know.
Hae - but why?
The deep incision in my chest opened up a bit, the feeling of a sunken stomach as I bore the thought of an ultimatum occupied my head once more.
Y/N - I- I thought, that no one would miss me.
Those words struck their chests, clearly shown with their faces convolving into concern.
Seulgi - I- I would miss you. We all would.
Hae - w- why would you think that?
Y/N - I- I was not in a good headspace. I had you noona and everyone else, b- but I never felt more alone in my life.
They climbed themselves closer to my face, where their heads laid on my shoulders, their arms going closer to my upper back.
Seulgi - you were never alone, Y/N.
Hae - you have us now.
Y/N - but that was back then.
Frowning a bit, reliving the moment of a night I pondered upon it.
Y/N - back then, one night. Just- I was out at the Han river after I asked you to take care of Jinae for me.
Seulgi - o- oh...
Her voice cracked, almost choking on itself as she looked up at me with teary eyes.
Seulgi - is that wh- why you told me that ni- night?
Nodding softly,
That night.
I told her I would be going out for a walk, such derivatives clouded my mind constantly at that point. Where I just wanted them to stop.
The emotion, stress had accumulated at that point where I just wanted all of it to just,
End.
The both of them held me tight, the force of their hold seeming to never want to let me go.
Seulgi - I- I'm sorry I- I never saw it
Y/N - i- it's okay.
My hands caressed the top of their heads, Haewon had become quieter, instead trying to find the epiphany in Seulgi's words.
Y/N - it's none of your fault. It's all in the past b- but. Sometimes it comes to haunt me.
Hae - h- how does it?
She spoke softly, bringing me to look at the top of her head.
Y/N - I don't just go to these to see how I'm doing. B- but he helps me replenish my pills that I need to control my anxiety.
They both looked at me, it looks like that information was also new to them too.
Seulgi - y- you-
Giving them a soft yet firm smile, my hands caressing their hair.
Y/N - but I promise you, I'm okay.
They turned back to being silent, my body leaning in to hug the both of them
Y/N - I have the both of you and a family I never thought I deserved. It's enough for me, and I hope it's enough for everyone.
Hae - it is.
With a soft hum from Seulgi affirming her answer, they both warmly kept their bodies on me where I slowly slid back down in the covers.
Y/N - let's just sleep this off alright?
The both of them nodded gently, my eyes closing with them in my arms.
If I could change anything in my life,
I wouldn't change a damn thing at all.