Chapter 20: chapter 20 - sparks

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Jinae - papa papa look!

Pointing her finger at the screen, the show of a cutscene playing while I ruffled her hair as she sat on my lap watching her.

Y/N - good job muffin, you even got a good score

Jinae - did I really?

Y/N - yeah it's on the screen

Jinae - yay!

Sully - you know, doesn't the game seem a bit too dark for her to be playing?

Hae - yeah, I get it's Batman but I'm with Yoona here

Y/N - ah she's having fun though, and besides it's a good memory for her when she grows up. To experience the nostalgia when she replays it

Sully - okay.....

While Yoona sat beside me, wrapped up in a blanket, Haewon was making lunch for us. She's been insisting on making lunch or dinner or hell, any snack. I don't know where that motivation came from but I think she just wants to try the whole 'wife' schtick or something but I appreciate her efforts.

It's been a week since then, being holed up in my home. I haven't even stepped out of my house yet except for groceries and dropping Jinae off at school. It's been a bearable experience, it's not like it's the first time being holed up, we lived through a goddamn pandemic so it's fine enough.

Y/N - do you remember the silent take-down?

Jinae - crouch then triangle

Y/N - good girl now take out the entire group

Sully - imagine making your daughter into a gamer when she's almost six years old, that's go to be an achievement

Turning my head towards Yoona, her eyes glued to the TV before turning to look at me.

Y/N - there's rules for her obviously, like no online games. I was raised in the 360 and PS3 era so those times were a bit too, well. Different.

Sully - what about violent games?

Y/N - there's some I'd like her to play, but not all of them. She's fine playing Mortal Kombat and stuff since she's good at those, horror games and stuff since for some reason, she likes to treat the antagonists as friends rather than enemies so playing Resident Evil 7 was kind of funny

Sully - eugh I hate horror games

Y/N - me too, wouldn't let her near Outlast though which is my last rule actually, no nudity. I'll give her time till her teens to figure that one out

Sully - you put more thought into rules for games than parental ones

Y/N - well I ain't gonna be hard on her unless when I need to be. The only reason she's even playing games is because of me, spent my days off when I would be playing games and she'd be watching me and then I let her take the controller and there she goes because of curiosity

Sully - huh.

Y/N - a kid gonna be somewhat similar to their parents or at least one of them, the one thing I'd like is just to let her like what she likes. And she just likes playing games

Sully - what about Lego and Superheroes?

Y/N - w- well- uhm- okay maybe I didn't enforce her on those but you've seen my room

Softly laughing, we both turned to the TV again where she muttered to herself

Sully - nerd

Y/N - I heard that

Sully - it's true though

Y/N - I know, somehow I never understood why Jimin ever loved me or Haewon, even Seulgi too

Hae - because you're a good man, your hobbies don't turn us off

Y/N - okay I get that

Sully - it's adorable though, it's nice to share something with Jinae too. Maybe she'll thank you for it, does she get bullied for it or anything?

Y/N - actually, no. she's liked by the boys more than the girls and they don't even like her, she's just relatable to them more

Sully - we got a tomboy on our hands

Y/N - give it till she's in middle school or high school, only time will tell how she'll change in looks or whatever

Sully - looks?

Y/N - fuc- I mean- uhm- you know like if she'll stay a tomboy forever which I don't think so

Sully - at this point, I think she'll stay one

Y/N - for now alright, for now.

Laughing again, steps from behind us came closer where in front of us for a split second, Haewon appeared, lowering herself to put a plate of sandwiches for us, sitting down in between me and Yoona.

Hae - I made sandwiches

Y/N - thank you my love

Giving each other a kiss, which didn't irk Yoona at all, which was great since the girls were used to our public display of affection in the comfort of our home.

Hae - what game is this again?

Y/N - Batman Arkham Knight, came out like a decade ago but still looks good, holds up for it's time

Sully - really? I thought this came out this year

Hae - it does look good, where are you guys at?

Y/N - just the beginning of the game. Remember yesterday?

Hae - oh right, is this the sequel to the one you guys were playing yesterday?

Y/N - yep. Which reminds me, do you think I should let her play through Ghost of Tsushima?

Hae - what's that?

Sully - yeah what's that?

Y/N - oh. Erm- cool historical ninja samurai game?

Hae - violent?

Y/N - somewhat-

Hae - fine to me

Y/N - it's cool though, it's like a movie almost

Sully - didn't know you were into those types of games too oppa

Y/N - I'm into loads of stuff except RPGs and those visual novel stuff

The three of us reached into the plate grabbing a sandwich each, putting my arm uncomfortably to the side while reaching, tearing mine into quarters so Jinae can have a share.

Bringing my hand to Jinae's mouth with her share, which makes her open

Y/N - chew slowly, I know you're playing but I don't want you to choke

Jinae - mmhm

She bites into the sandwich, getting a good amount as I put the rest of it into my mouth while my left hand caressed her hair.

Hae - oh that reminds me, sports day for her is coming up. Are you coming to that?

Y/N - yeah for sure

Sully - is it going to be you only unnie with oppa?

Hae - I think Seulgi-unnie and Jimin-unnie will come too since you know

Lifting an eyebrow to Yoona, catching wind of what she meant by it

Sully - oh! Right right

Y/N - that's gonna be so hard to explain to the other parents

Hae - it'll be fine, just as long we're there

Sully - I want to go too

Pouting, Haewon pulled Yoona in for a comforting hug almost treating her like she was her own child too

Hae - it'll be okay, I think having Aespa, Red Velvet and NMIXX go to a sports day out of nowhere would really get us into trouble

Y/N - yeah, everyone wants to go too and I know you girls have been busy with promotions and stuff and being out of country so maybe next time

Sully - it's awful timing, right before your birthday too

Y/N - oh right, I forgot about that

Hae - what's the plan?

Y/N - I don't know, another Christmas situation again?

Hae - let's not have it here again, last time was horrible in some way

Y/N - a lot of drunk girls, yikes.

Hae - what about we rent out a venue or something?

Y/N - that's too much money Haewon-ah

Sully - come on oppa, it sounds good to me

Hae - you don't have to be stingy, me and the girls can chip in

Y/N - just for my birthday? No way. Come on, we celebrated everybody's birthday either in my house or at the dorm or their house.

Sully - Yeri-unnie's birthday was at her house and it was still pretty big of a celebration

Y/N - yeah I know

Hae - we did celebrate mine in your house though, remember how you met my friends?

Y/N - eugh, I'm not a social person you know that

Sully - you kind of are, you're close to us and it took a while but still

Y/N - yeah okay okay, but Joo-Hyun's birthday is two days after mine, you gonna go to her house and celebrate with her?

Hae - how about we celebrate both yours and hers on your birthday? Two in one

Y/N - I'll ask her about it, but a venue still seems intimidating

Sully - I've never seen you with other friends before oppa, wouldn't you like to invite some of them to your birthday if we go along with the venue idea?

Y/N - see that's the thing

Sighing, softly smiling at the thought but quickly brushed it off

Y/N - as rumours say, I do not have that much guy friends

Sully - what?! Really?!

Y/N - kind of- well- spent most of my childhood, teens with Jimin so I was surrounded constantly by girls, then before Aespa, spent most of my time with the other three. Then I spent most of my time as well with the Red Velvet girls since well, obviously.

The two were a bit shocked but not really surprised at the information given to them, making them almost burst out in laughter

Hae - playboy

Sully - pfft

Y/N - hey okay come on, it's true

Hae - n- no we know just- that's kind of sad

Sully - really kind of is

Y/N - aw come on, give me a break here

Feeling a bit butthurt about it, Haewon grabbed me by the shoulders shaking me playfully

Hae - we're just messing, don't get all grumpy about it

Y/N - I'm not, but seriously though if there's a venue, what are we gonna do?

Hae - oh right

Sully - hmmmmm

Hae - how about we give you a concert?

Y/N - no way

Sully - come on oppa, you got NMIXX, Aespa and Red Velvet if we can convince them to perform for you, doesn't that sound cool?

Hae - you'd be the only person in the world to get a personal concert from those groups, we'll even play songs that we usually don't play

Groaning a bit, sliding my back down on the couch. Hiding a bit of a sly smile away from them.

Y/N - alright fine. But I don't want to be Magic Miked and strapped to a chair watching,

Hae - you won't, it'll be cool.

Y/N - alright fine, I'm on board

Sully - butttttttt

Y/N - but?

Sully - how about you perform for us as well? It's Joo-Hyun-unnie's birthday we're celebrating as well

Y/N - sure.

Hae - eh?

Sully - that- was a fast response.

Y/N - I've done it before, I can do it again. And I know the perfect song

Hae - which is?

Y/N - a Red Velvet mashup, did it once while I was bored at home. And trust me, I can awfully dance to them

Sully - now we're talking

Hae - I'll join you in on it

Y/N - at least make my dancing bearable with you beside me

Hae - hehe, alright. Birthday plan is settled. I'll tell the others and everyone else later

Y/N - what about the food though?

Hae - we'll just hire a chef

Y/N - huh.

Sully - but then, I forgot. What about Jinae?

We all turned to look at Jinae, who was focused on the game and putting all her energy into mashing the buttons with her tongue slightly out.

Y/N - what about her?

Sully - there won't be any other kids at the party

Y/N - ooo right.

Hae - hm- hmmmmmmmm..... I don't want her to feel lonely

Y/N - me neither

Sully - Kyujin still counts as one

Y/N - she is eighteen years old, no way

Hae - well she's sort of right

Y/N - that's just disrespectful

Sully - have you seen her?

Y/N - okay yeah fine, but I'm straightening her out okay? Getting her to do chores and stuff

Hae - she's been talking about it, somewhat enjoying it

Y/N - huh.

Sully - but then, considering our ages, that's just Jiwoo and Kyujin who can somewhat play with her and stuff while we're there and not performing

Hae - hm. Are you friends with any of the parents from her class?

Y/N - I'm friends with this couple, one of Jinae's friends. I could invite them, we're pretty acquainted since you know that thing with the dad's to go against each other at sports day?

Hae - yeah

Sully - yeah what about it?

Y/N - beat that guy last year, and we have a friendly rivalry with each other, so I think it's a way to deal with the problem.

Hae - have a talk to him about it, it'll be great

Y/N - sure.

Laying back against the couch, we both remained focused on the TV, quietly watching Jinae play while munching on the sandwiches.

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Y/N - you know I don't why she's been doing this a lot

Sully - the whole thing with her and Jinae going out to get groceries?

Y/N - yeah, like she's an idol too wouldn't she be worried? The pictures did show Jinae so they would recognise her

Sully - it'll be fine

Y/N - it's gonna bring more heat I'm just saying

Sully - don't be a worrywart, they'll be fine.

Nodding my head in agreement, the two girls left once more to leave me and Yoona alone by ourselves. Sure it was cool last week when me and Jimin got some 'cardio' in with each other, which reminds me.

Haewon was cool about it, same thing with Seulg, and that really makes it three now. And that's three more gifts I'll have to spend on the holidays, but oh well. Fuck it.

Wrapped up in the blanket Yoona had on, surrounding our laps, letting her wrap her arms around me, her cheeks on my right shoulder while the TV played a movie that she wanted me to put on

Y/N - it's still bullshit by the way about the whole thing, Dispatch has been releasing statement after statement about it. We got the damn two companies to say something about it and yet they're like 'nah that's definitely her secret boyfriend' like what?

Shrugging in the air with my left shoulder, Yoona softly laughed, turning my neck to look at her.

Sully - let it take time oppa, these things don't just magically disappear in a day

Y/N - I know but it's annoying

Sully - it can be but I know I haven't experienced it yet, hearing it from Jimin-unnie and stuff. It's not gonna be life altering unless you had an affair or something

Y/N - nah, I would never cheat on them

Sully - but wasn't Haewon-unnie mad at you for kissing Seulgi-unnie on Christmas?

Y/N - t- that's different

Sully - it's the same thing

Y/N - okay yeah but we talked it out

Sully - you're lucky they were both into it and actually reasoned with you before resulting in a meltdown and Haewon-unnie has loads of patience

Y/N - I know, I'm still sorry for that, it just happened out of nowhere you know.

Sully - yeah. But hey, it all worked out and you still get a pass to be her number one person

Y/N - worked out somehow

Sully - yeah.

For the next few minutes, it had fallen silent between us. Focusing on the movie while it played, I scattered around, oddly changing positions while she kept her position on me the same

Sully - you okay?

Y/N - yeah nah, just an itchy back

Sully - I'll scratch it for you

Y/N - yeah no, I respectfully decline

Sully - oh come on, it won't be long

Y/N - no, first it's weird and second, you know how like if you itch the spot it just gets worse?

Sully - okay yeah never mind then.

Y/N - But hey, you know I just realized?

Sully - yeah?

Y/N - this is the first time that we've really hung out, like realllllly hung out

Pausing for a moment to glance towards me before her eyes went back to the TV with a slight nod

Sully - oh yeah it is.

Y/N - and the one thing we're doing is watching a movie

Sully - yeah because I suggested it

Y/N - no offense but I low-key want to play a game

Sully - you don't happen to have an extra console or anything?

Y/N - I have my Switch

Sully - oh really? I have mine too

Y/N - in your bag?

Sully - yeah just in case if I need it

Leaning over and moving herself towards the edge of the couch, immediately snapping my head away not to look at her ass while I listened to her go into her bag ruffling around

Sully - got it

A approving hum of a response, turning my head to look at her in awe, seeing her Switch in her hand already on the homepage

Y/N - oh, I'll grab mine then

Sully - let's play Minecraft

Y/N - yeah sure

Getting up from the couch, throwing the blanket to the side. Speeding up my feet on the ground to rush to my room, heading in and scanning my room for my switch.

Bouncing my eyes from the bed to my desk, there it was. Gliding towards it with my socks on, grabbing it by the case's rope or something and picking it up before running out of the room and going back to her. Jumping onto the couch on a very laid back position, scrambling to grab my switch out of its case

Y/N - hold up

Sully - yeah yeah

Turning it on and smacking my lips, a bit annoyed at how long it was taking

Y/N - you saw that the Switch two will be coming out later this year?

Glued to our screens, sharing brain cells between each other while we carelessly leaned onto each other's shoulders

Sully - yeah, might spend my next paycheck on it if I get a sponsor or we get a comeback by that time it comes out

Y/N - honestly, same. OLED screen and backwards compatibility

Sully - sounds cool, it means we get like a smooth screen and stuff like that?

Y/N - yeah

Sully - and we can play the games we have on here on the Switch Two?

Y/N - pretty much

Sully - cool because I don't want to spend money on Zelda again

Y/N - me too

Pressing on the buttons to boot up the game, glancing over to her screen to see her already making a world

Sully - Survival with cheats or what?

Y/N - nah, put it on hard too

Sully - but that's tooo hard

Y/N - exactly

Sully - fine

Y/N - cool, I'll join you in a second, let me change my skin

Sully - I'm adding in mods though

Y/N - it's fine, I have some since Jinae installed some when she was playing

Sully - cool cool

For the next while, we laid there in silence playing the game. Going through the usual spawn in, break the tree, make wooden pickaxe, use said pickaxe to get stone inside and furnace and you know the rest.

Only talking when we had to communicate on getting food, wool or finding a structure of interest.

Y/N - you know, you're pretty cool Yoona

Sully - you think so oppa?

Y/N - the girls aren't necessarily into games unlike you

Sully - I just play Minecraft and stuff on my switch that's all, if it's a shooter I'm horrible at them

Y/N - that's okay, you got Monster Hunter though?

Sully - I do, later?

Y/N - how long do you plan to stay?

Sully - you don't mind if I sleep- nevermind, me and unnie have a thing with a show tomorrow

Y/N - talk show? Music show?

Sully - one of those comedy shows, it's not coming to my head right now about the name but she'll tell you tomorrow

Y/N - oh okay okay

Sully - but yeah it's nice being able to play a game with someone, I just have a lot of single player games on her except for like Minecraft, Monster Hunter, Smash Bros

Y/N - wouldn't took you for a Smash player

Sully - I'm awful at it

Y/N - that's fine, who you playing?

Sully - Pikachu

Y/N - huh

Sully - what?

Y/N - nothing, not really surprised

Sully - I like Pokemon and?

Y/N - no no I like Pokemon too

Sully - you're trying to say something aren't you?

Y/N - not really

Sully - okay

She nudges me on the shoulder making me smile to myself, listening to her giggle while our fingers furiously mashed on the buttons

Y/N - so what do you think about the comeback this time around?

Sully - it's cool, I like it continuing the Fe trilogy concept. You know what the Fe stands for though? I never got told

Y/N - Fe is an iron oxide also black iron oxide which occurs within Magnetite using the formula Fe3O4. Magnetite is basically in the name, it's a magnet, a strong one too and it's naturally occurring pieces are lodestones, which is funny enough in Minecraft

Sully - oh, someone paid attention in class

Y/N - not really, got bored one time during editing and took the time to figure out what the concept was about, I didn't even do chemistry in High School

Sully - really?

Y/N - yup

Sully - you're smart though

Y/N - not really

Sully - you're smart enough to work for us

Y/N - I could've chose like SM or HYBE or whatever

Sully - but here you are in JYP

Y/N - at this point I should've just went to CUBE

Sully - yah oppa

Y/N - I'm joking, maybe.

Sully - but you are smart though, you're always fixing around the place and a bit too much of a cheapskate to even call for help so there's that

Y/N - I'm basically a handyman, hehe. Soos.

Sully - what was that?

Y/N - nothing, said I'm like a handyman

Sully - oh. Yeah, something like that.

Y/N - but you're pretty smart too, I've seen the videos,

Sully - I guess so, I kind of forgot a lot of school already

Y/N - it's alright, me too and I went to college

Sully - it stays with you I guess

Y/N - muscle memory at that point

Sully - but oppa

Y/N - yeah?

Sully - what'd you dream of when you were a kid? What you wanted to be?

Y/N - huh, I dunno.

Sully - really?

Y/N - maybe something cool like a policeman or a firefighter but then when I got older, no way especially with Jinae around

Sully - I get that

Y/N - what about you?

Sully - I think I always wanted to be an idol, I really like Twice-sunbaenim so that's why I ended up in JYP even though I auditioned for YG and others

Y/N - huh, imagine you in YG

Sully - good thing I didn't, I cannot rap that well

Y/N - to each their own strengths

Her shoulder pushed into me more, but unexpectedly her head drooped down onto my shoulder, resting as she let out a raspy sigh

Y/N - tired?

Sully - always am

Y/N - you know, what do you plan after NMIXX? I hear that Haewon wants to renew her contract but what about you?

Sully - I might as well, we like being idols. I like the music we make and the freedom we have, but if I had anything after NMIXX, I don't know. I might just stay in the industry that's for sure

Y/N - that's good

Sully - what about you? What if we don't end up together after the seven years are up?

Y/N - then I'm going back to SM, they've been wanting me for a while since even before Aespa was formed

Sully - must be nice, you must be very valuable

Y/N - to them yeah, to myself not really?

Sully - what was it like? Being with Jimin-unnie before Aespa? What was she like?

Y/N - she's the exact same as she is now, in private. Not on stage, that's just the on stage persona that's all

Sully - really? She's the exact same as she was even when she was a teen?

Y/N - so is the rest of the girls, which shows that the company ain't mistreating them so that's a plus

Sully - what was it like to be in a relationship with her?

Y/N - why? Want a piece of her?

Sully - Ani!

She slaps my arm, making me laugh softly from her almost funny action towards me

Sully - I'm just curious about your relationship with her! I've never been in one so I'm just curious about all the stuff you guys did!

Y/N - hehe well, just like any normal couple. Go on dates, nice restaurants, sometimes eat in or I'd cook for her so she'd cook for me.

Sully - oooooo

Y/N - go for a walk in the park, maybe go shopping for whatever she needed or I needed, take photos together. Hug, hold, kiss, sleep with each other. Have each other's backs, it was never anything complicated

Sully - hm

Y/N - not all relationships are bad Yoona, just depends who you're with

Sully - okay... I get that.

Y/N - what's with your interest in that stuff anyways?

Sully - I- uhm-

Y/N - you like someone right?

Sully - I do

Y/N - you told me before, must be a nice guy. How old is he?

Sully - erm- I don't know him that well

Y/N - you want to get to know him don't you?

Sully - I do

Y/N - what about? Like his hobbies? The way he likes his steak cooked? Shit even his shoe size even?

Sully - I do, I really do

Y/N - you're either obsessed or just in a weird type of love

Sully - r- really?

Y/N - no offence, but then again. If you never been in a relationship before or really liked someone like that since you guys never really had time, then I'd let it pass honestly

Sully - oh.

Y/N - what'd you like about him again?

Sully - he- he's nice. Like really nice. He makes the people around him just- confide in him, trust him.

Y/N - I see

Sully - he's just, confident and I want to be like him. He's likeable, loveable even. Like everything he does is just almost perfect, even the way he jokes

Y/N - *whistles* someone's really in love

Sully - shut up oppa

Y/N - hey, it's a good thing. Dating in secret is common, look at me for example

Sully - I know

Groaning a bit from my over pushy mood right now, I felt good on somewhat comforting her about the idea of her first love, or could be first love I don't know.

Sully - b- but.

Y/N - but?

Sully - he's just- when I look at him, or even talk to him. My heart beats weird, like too fast. Like almost it's in my stomach and I have this tingly feeling

Y/N - that means you really like the guy, like realllllllly like him

Sully - I thought it was just made up in the movies but- it makes a lot more sense now

Y/N - it's a good thing. You plan on telling him?

Sully - I don't know.

Y/N - why not?

Sully - we- we're friends and I don't want to ruin our friendship

Y/N - huh? You guys are friends already?

Sully - y- yeah.

Y/N - well, if you want it so bad, maybe he feels the same way about you too. To me, I'd never known that Seulgi-noona would love me at all, and out of nowhere it just happened. Same thing with your Haewon-noona, I didn't know at first that I'd love her as deeply as I do now. To care for her and to feel this fire in me for her, for all of them. Even if he doesn't feel the same way, he'll understand with them and if he rejects you, try and try again not until it starts to feel creepy but until he realises his emotions and can give you a proper answer that he won't regret even if it means rejecting you again.

Sully - o- okay oppa. Thank you.

Y/N - no problem, I'm here all week. Literally.

We both shared a laugh together while our avatar's mined together in the caves, giving her the light she needed while she mined and watching her back.

Almost feels like real life sometimes, you know?

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In my hand, I chopped some vegetables, the pot boiling to make a soup for what Jinae wanted tonight.

They just got home like twenty minutes ago so they must be tired, so instead. Even after some internal battles of not wanting to let our Switches go, we had to since we didn't want to burden Haewon even more and plus, I think we needed a break anyways. We sort of died in the nether and lost our stuff. So that's time to cool down as well.

Y/N - wait Yoona, you mind taking over the cutting for a second? I need to look for a bowl

Sully - oh yeah sure

Putting down the knife, her job was to peel the potatoes. Turning around and stepping forward to create space for her, squatting down facing the island's cabinets looking for a bowl

Y/N - uhhh where's that fancy bowl?

Almost furrowing my eyebrows looking for it, a sudden yelp caught me off guard making me stand back up and face Yoona out of concern

Y/N - yo you okay?!

Tilting my head slightly at the board, suspecting what I was thinking about which I was right, she accidentally cut her finger

Sully - oppppa I cut myself

Y/N - it's fine, hold on

Grabbing a piece of tissue paper and wrapping it around her finger, reaching into one of the cabinet's to grab the first aid kit

Y/N - alright, take off the tissue and run it under water then dry it off

Sully - okay

Doing as I said, opening the kit and grabbing some antibiotic cream and a plaster, I watched her dry her finger and the affected area before putting on some of the cream.

Her face cringed a bit, feeling the cream making its effect on the cut

Sully - it's always so weird.....

Y/N - I know *sigh* just let me do the cutting

Sully - sorrrryyy......

Y/N - it's fine.

Rubbing on the cream and not letting it congest with itself, distracted by opening the plaster and putting it on her, looking up at her slightly and in the corner of my eye seeing Haewon asleep on the couch with Jinae on top.

Being caught off guard by a sudden touch of her lips upon mine for a slight few seconds before she pulled away, rosy cheeks and her eyes avoiding my gaze.

Remaining silent while I wrapped the plaster around her finger, clearing my throat with a cough not knowing what to say to her.

Sully - Y- you're the guy I- I like oppa.

Y/N - hm.

A slight nod while I put the first aid kit away into the cabinet, also avoiding her eyes.

Sully - a- are you m- m- mad at me?

Sighing once more at her, looking her into her eyes where I could see a bit of the water rising in them, she probably feels a bit embarrassed, maybe disappointed in the way I reacted, expecting a scolding from me. But in reality it was just, really unexpected and knowing where I am right now with Jimin all of a sudden, I don't know how to feel

Y/N - I'm not Yoona. Just- you hear it from Haewon. Jimin just told me that she's loved me again, and that makes it three girls I have to take care of in a very different way I treat you and the rest of the girls

Sully - I- uhm- I'm sorry...

Y/N - no it's fine. Just- listen. Alright?

Putting her shoulders together, swaying left and right almost like a child being scolded. But to comfort her, placing my hand on her shoulder.

Y/N - talk to Haewon about it, you can go to her about it. She's the leader but also the first girl I've loved since Jimin, so don't feel embarrassed or shy about it.

Sully - what if she scolds me?

Y/N - it's not hard to understand someone's feelings, and you know her. She only scolds you if you mess up a step or a bend in the note while you sing, but she wouldn't lay you down emotionally. Trust me, she'll understand.

Sully - o- okay- I- I really do like you oppa.

Y/N - me too Yoona, not in the way you're thinking of but remember what I said earlier on the couch?

Sully - y- yeah.

Y/N - then, don't worry about my feelings. I'll figure them out, but for now. Let's just act the way we are.

Sully - o- okay. Ca- can I hug you at least?

Y/N - of course, come here.

Gesturing her to come near, opening my arms wide for her as she wrapped her arms around my chest, letting her head lay on my chest where my hand caressed the back of her head.

Y/N - it ain't puppy love for sure anymore

Sully - what I feel for you, is what I said.

Y/N - then don't worry about us, talk to Haewon and maybe Jimin, Seulgi too whenever you're over and maybe- let's just hang out more alright?

Sully - please. I really do.

Y/N - then you're just in luck.

A slight laugh came from her, an almost proud smile across my face while I caressed her long hair, unable to fathom what just had happened.

But I do know,

It's going to get a bit more complicated from now on.

Who knows who feels a certain way towards me?

Or what I feel towards someone even if I didn't mean to hurt or love them or even care.

But what If I'm just destined to hurt everyone I love?

In every way possibly emotionally?