In all of the time I had spent with her.
Every doting moment between the connection we had.
Meeting her that day when I first joined JYP Entertainment.
Her bright elegant face but a mix of awkwardness in her voice when sajangnim introduced me to her. At first, it felt like it was just going to be an employee to employee relationship but.
When she came that one night out of curiosity and she had some free time on her hand after practicing, hearing that knock on my door out of confusion.
Getting up from my chair with a half-finished project and opening the door to see her in front of me.
A bit of shy red blush on her face, her eyes facing away from me as she brushed her hair to the back of her ear.
I remember her words quite well.
"H- hey. I- I was just stopping by because I was curious about editing, d- do you mind if I sit and watch you?"
And just, utterly dazed out of my mind. Unsure on what to say, I let her in.
You know what?
I don't regret that at all.
It was a nice summer night,
The type of night where it was a bit warm but a bit cold too, especially from the breeze from the wind giving way to cool us down.
It was quiet too.
Too quiet.
Sitting in the middle of one of those fancy restaurants where they let you eat outside, she sat opposite me on the other side of the table with a big smile on her face while we sipped out of our wine glasses
Hae - you do know how to treat a lady right
Shrugging with a bit of confidence in my voice, my eyebrows lifting up and a faint 'huh' knowing that I was acting a bit too cocky too
Y/N - hey, we've been together for five years. I know you in and out
Hae - heh. You know me too well
Y/N - and I know that fancy restaurants aren't exactly your thing, same with me. But, It's nice to have an excuse to feel somewhat great
Hae - I highly agree with you. And with some wine too? The nice kind as well?
Y/N - you think I spent a bit too much on it?
Softly laughing to herself, she sipped from the glass again before giving me her response as she sat down the glass on the table with a smirk on her face.
Hae - nope, I think it's money well spent.
Y/N - if it wasn't that you girls were still idols and now I got a new job at SM? I don't think I would've been able to afford this, let alone the house
Hae - we chipped in remember?
Y/N - oh right you all did. Which is surprising since I thought we couldn't afford it
Hae - with about eleven working girls in the house? Yeah I think we could afford it alright and even getting Jinae's college fund account too
Y/N - you still putting in the installments we agreed upon?
Hae - still am, put my one in last week
Y/N - you know with the girls chipping in for her college fund, I don't think she has to worry about debt
Hae - she could probably buy a house by the time she's nineteen
Y/N - shit. Yeah.
The both of us looked at each other, our gazes ever so warm and loving as it was since that night when we confessed.
I'm just,
So grateful that I have her in my life.
If it wasn't for her.
The cycle I was in four years prior to meeting her,
I don't think it would've ever ended.
Briefly glancing down at our plates, our meal was done including the dessert for a very well priced tiramisu. I sat my elbow down on the table, my hand reaching for her hand that laid on the table while she sipped on the last of her wine.
Grabbing onto it and softly holding it, my gaze changed to a more softer look.
Y/N - Oh Haewon. You are the greatest woman I ever had to be a part of in my life.
Hae - honey....
Sighing, I broke the romantic atmosphere in the air. Feeling ready to reiterate myself.
Y/N - you and Jimin since she did give birth to Jinae
Hae - no I get it. I think you have too many women to thank in your life.
Softly chuckling, my eyes had never left her once. Not even breaking.
Y/N - heh. Yeah. but you. You- you saved me without even knowing.
Hae - I did?
Y/N - you did. Where I was the past five years before meeting you. I was not, well. And then I met you that day and it's like everything in my life just changed forever.
Hae - b- but you never could've known that I would've even- liked you.
Y/N - I had faith in it, not in a creepy way but. I just never expected it. Every time I looked at you, every time you came over to the editing room and just sat there and we would talk for hours without even knowing the time. Distracting me from work.
Hae - heh. I'm proud of that
Y/N - and I'm proud of you for who you are today. I'm proud of us. You didn't ask to become a mother to Jinae and you could've just walked away. But instead you stayed.
Her mouth slightly agape, her hand turned my hand upside, interlocking our fingers together. The glint of her eyes becoming more apparent like diamonds shining.
Y/N - I don't know why you really did. But- either way. I'm happy you did. Knowing what the challenges would be.
She slightly pouted out of my romantic gesture towards her, in every way. My soul spoke for me including my heart. Pouring it out there like a heart in a hand grenade.
Hae - I stayed because I knew you were a better man than you thought you were. Those tired eyes of yours kept me going. Behind them, I knew you were just someone that was worth saving.
Y/N - and I thank the motions of life for giving way for guiding me to you.
Hae - didn't take you to be so philosophical
Y/N - I only am when I'm surrounded by the people I love. And that's better than anything else in life.
Hae - I love you so much L/N Y/N.
Y/N - I love you tenfold Oh Haewon.
If there's an afterlife.
I would fight back wherever I would be just to come back to her,
To all of them.
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Her arm wrapped my arm like a snake, our shoulders against each other as we walked home in the dimly lit streets of Seoul.
Our stomachs full and hearts contempt to a romantic night dealt with.
The both of us shared a look with each other, a hearty giggle coming out from the both of us.
Y/N - that was nice
Hae - it really was.
Y/N - what time are you going to work tomorrow?
Hae - about nine am
Y/N - oooo early
Hae - who's dropping off Jinae to school?
Y/N - me
Hae - I thought you got work tomorrow?
Y/N - nope. Since I'm such a valuable asset to SM, I'm allowed to take days off when I want to and get this
Hae - yeah?
Y/N - I can choose what time to come in for work
Hae - oooo look at you! Mr V.I.P
Y/N - heh.
Hae - so what are we going to do when we get home?
Y/N - I don't know. Maybe spend time with Jinae on my part
Hae - it's late though
Y/N - I promised her we'll play the new game that just came out that I bought the other day
Hae - oh you two, even at her big age she's still playing games
Y/N - trust me, she's gonna be the exact same whatever age
Sharing another laugh with each other, in front of me were two guys looking at us with such stern looks as we were about to cross paths with each other.
But it caught my attention since they were dressed rather weirdly.
It's cold I get it, but really thick felt trench coats in the middle of the night?
It's not that cold as I assume it was.
Maybe I got the temperature wrong?
Turning my head towards Haewon, a bit of concern in my face.
Maybe it's my paranoia acting up or something, but something is just shaking me from the way they were looking at us.
Y/N - hey do you thin-
All of a sudden,
Just this feeling of pain rushed over my face.
Before I knew it,
I was on the floor looking out onto the street,
Not a single car in sight.
"HEY GIVE ME EVERYTHING YOU GOT!"
W- what?
My ears are ringing a bit and I'm seeing everything a bit fuzzy.
Trying to get myself together, blinking over and over again. I was suddenly brought up by my collar being met face to face with one of the two guys who I thought looked suspicious.
? - Hey man! Give me your shit!
Y/N - w- what?
Another jolt of pain struck me across my face,
I think he just punched me.
My entire face hurts.
But my body screamed for me to just,
Get up.
Get up.
Get up, it kept telling me.
"HURRY THE FUCK UP!"
? - I'M TRYING!
I'm trying to make it out slightly but-
But, I think Haewon's shouting? Screaming?
Hae - Y/N! Y/N!
"SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH!"
It just echoed throughout my ears, hearing it all around me.
Something hitting with a loud clap.
My eyes slightly looked to my left while I tried my best to process what ever the fuck was going on
Hae-
Haewon?
She's on the ground while the guy is-
Is-
Shit.
He's got a knife in front of her face, I'm trying to make out what he's saying but my ears keep ringing and ringing nonstop.
Get up.
The voice ran through my head,
My face tensed up. My teeth gritted against each other like metal against a concrete wall. My hands balling up into a fist as the man in front of me shouted illiterate at me,
His ugly mug just pissed me off.
It really pisses me off.
With every amount of power and strength I had in my body, I immediately bent my knee. Using all of the force I accumulated to kick him right in the stomach.
Making him groan out loud in pain, giving me the time to get myself up.
Shaking my head to get my equilibrium together.
All I could see was red,
And I best hope that the years of boxing will pay off.
"SON OF A-"
Before I could react, my head turned to the left where I was met with the man.
His angered and tense face right in front of me and a weird feeling coursing throughout my body like something was wrong.
Like every alarm in my head was just going off.
Loud sirens and an inescapable prison.
That's what it felt like.
Then it just vanished.
But I don't have time to dwell on it.
My right fist immediately lifted up, gathering all of my power from the ground to deliver a hard right hook to his face. My eyes followed his face as it connected from fist to skin to him dropping onto the ground while I watched.
Breathing frantically, I-
I don't know why I'm breathing too much.
It-
It's like something inside of me is searing hot inside.
And I don't think it's the anger anymore.
My head tilted down towards my torso to examine myself,
A slight pool of blood coming out of my shirt was pouring out.
Fuck.
? - MOTHERFUCKE-
No time to process it.
My expression remained unchanged, my ears picked up on Haewon's voice while I turned my body to the side to see his friend charge at me with his fist up.
Hae - Y/N!
He was amateurish from the way he tried to punch at me, ducking under his punch.
I let out a yell, loud enough to hopefully alert someone to our location.
Y/N - AGHHHHHHHHHHH!
My elbow tensed up like a cramp was about to come through, giving him a ferocious uppercut to his jaw knocking him down to the ground.
Watching his body limp and almost become lifeless like a puppet.
Y/N - stay down.
My head turned to the guy who first attacked me. His hand on his head, shaking it slightly to try to get himself out of the dazed state.
Feet stomping on the ground, I walked over to him and squatted down over his body.
My anger is still apparent inside of me, opening my fists up and tucking in my fingers except my thumbs.
What I did next,
Truly was a vulgar display.
My hands reached into his eyes, thumbs gouging into them without any resistance. His arms flailing around like madness, screams digging into my ears.
Listening to them to fuel me even more.
Hae - Y/N! Y/N STOP!
I dug into his eyes even more until he eventually stopped. My chest panting like a dog in and out until I turned my head to Haewon.
Y/N - H- Haewon.
All I could see since I couldn't open an eye properly.
Seeing the fear in her eyes.
Her hand reached out for me.
But all I could really see.
Was the same girl I loved.
When all of a sudden.
It came to me, and I saw black.
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Y/N - that's all I could remember anyways.
Sitting on a dark wooden chair, my hand laid on a knight on a chessboard moving it to where I wanted to put it.
Sighing out of boredom, tilting my gaze towards the man in front of me.
He was dressed in a dapper black suit with the exception of a red tie of course.
He just looked like any normal man in the world, a stoic expression sat on his face as he took my king.
? - checkmate.
Y/N - well shit, you got me.
We both looked at each other, his hand reaching in from under the table for me to shake.
Feeling contempt with my loss, I lifted my hand and shook his.
? - sounds like you had a good life.
Y/N - I did.
? - that was quite a good story if I must say.
Y/N - well I don't remember it that well to be exact, but. Then again. I'm not surprised about where I am right now.
? - you're finally well aware are you?
Y/N - given that I'm in a void of pure light and it isn't making my eyes squint and the first thing I see is you and a chessboard on a table. Then yeah. I'm well aware.
He laughed wholeheartedly, his hands clapping together as it echoed all around us.
? - Ah well fair game to you Mr L/N! Sounds like you'll have a fun time where you're going.
Sitting against the chair, slightly leaning down with my legs spread across.
It was like I was in High School again when I used to do the same exact thing when I was listening to my teacher.
? - well that's over with now.
Waving his hand to the side, the table along with the chessboard suddenly disappeared like an apparition. Not even surprising me one bit.
? - how about we take a look right now at where you are?
Y/N - sure.
Waving his hand to the side again, a sudden voice echoed throughout the place making me turn to the side where there was a TV in front of me.
Like a video playing, it was Haewon.
And.
Me.
Her hands cradled my hand while the paramedics did their best to save me.
Hae - Y/N! PLEASE! DON'T GO! H- HOLD ON!
Hm.
I'm going to miss her face.
I'm going to miss-
Jinae.
Jinae.
Oh.
Oh why.
My eyes fixated on the TV, watching her cry out for me where the TV suddenly disappeared again making me turn to the man.
Y/N - so. Why did you show me that?
? - well. It's just part of the job to show newcomers the exact moment of your passing.
Tucking in my lips, clicking my tongue as I nodded my head slowly.
Y/N - I see.
? - don't be mistaken. Where you're going isn't exactly what you're imagining.
Y/N - so..... Hell?
? - HA! You humans.
Y/N - jeez okay.
? - so creative with such fears. No matter, I'll just keep it a surprise for you.
Y/N - fine by me.
? - you seem to be content with the current situation you're in. May I ask why?
Y/N - well, I knew that one day it'll come for me and you know. I have my regrets.
? - AH! The fun part. Stand up for me?
Y/N - sure.
And just like as he did. He waved his hand around, seeing his chair disappear into whereever what. Safe to say, my chair is gone too.
? - What are your regrets Mr L/N?
Y/N - that I won't be able to see my loved ones again.
? - the usual. Any more?
Y/N - I'm regretful that I won't be there to watch my Jinae grow up. Tell me about her first day of Middle School, High School, and College. The day she gets married, the day she was supposed to watch me die old. That I won't be able to walk into the house and see her face every time. To argue about the boy she likes. To make her lunches for school. I regret a lot of things.
? - well. That sure does bring a tear to my eye.
Y/N - you don't have feelings do you?
? - nope. I just exist to serve a purpose.
Y/N - well now I know that someone was right at least.
? - right indeed. Any more regrets?
Y/N - you do know don't you?
With a big smile on his face, his hands laid against each other. Proud of my answer to him.
? - and I wonder why part of the plan was to let you pass so early. Such a smart individual.
Y/N - well shit. I guess I am smart after all.
He walked over to me, standing right beside me as he whistled to himself a catchy tune. His hand on my shoulder where a door with no hinges appeared. Just an open door to a bright light, brighter than the door that it would normally blind a person.
? - well. Mr L/N. You lived a good life, didn't you?
Y/N - I think I did.
? - nonsense. You lived a life that many desire. What you have done my boy. Will be remembered.
Y/N - will I?
? - your memory. Will only pass on with the next of your bloodline.
Y/N - so everything I did? Red Velvet? Aespa? NMIXX?
? - they'll be forgotten sadly to time. But, who you were? Who they were? Everyone will remember them.
A slight hum came out of me, slightly turning to him where he patted my shoulder out of comfort.
? - come with me. It's time for you to go.
Y/N - can't bargain can I?
? - it ain't a movie son.
Y/N - well fuck.
And just like that.
He guided me to take a step into the light.
All I could think was,
Love.
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*9 years later.*
*yawn*
I opened my eyes tiredly, a yawn escaping my mouth.
Jinae - what time is it?
That was the first thing I could even think of, let alone even let out first when I first woke up.
Immediately sitting up in bed,
The sun is shining through my blinds.
I looked around my bedroom, seeing everything that represented me.
A wooden frame showcasing my certification of graduation from High School and right beside it was a picture of me and dad together.
Hm.
Dad.
That's today.
Turning in my bed to the side over to my nightstand, my phone sat there with the charger still in. my other hand gripped onto the cable and took it out of my phone, throwing it on the ground before grabbing my phone to check the time.
Jinae - eleven am? Damn it I'm late.
Realising the time, my hand gripped onto my blanket and lifted it off of me.
Jinae - shit shit shit.
My feet immediately stomped along the floorboards and rushed into the bathroom, turning on the light on the way there.
Rushing to pick up my toothbrush as I got to brushing my teeth as I stared at myself in the mirror.
My hair was all messy but I'll wear a baseball cap to cover that up.
In an instant, my ears perked up to hear my bedroom door open where I turned my head to the side of the bathroom door to see eomma.
Jimin - what'd I say about you stomping?
Spitting out the toothpaste and grabbing my cup to fill it up with water, quickly putting the cup to my mouth and taking in the water. Swishing it around in my mouth before spitting it out and wiping my face away from any remaining toothpaste that stuck around and putting my toothbrush into the other cup.
Jinae - sorry eomma.
She smiled, her crossed arms not even corresponding with her smile before uncrossing them and walking over to me. Her arms opened up and wrapped them around my neck.
A gentle kiss on the top of my head, where I hugged her back.
Jimin - excited to see appa?
Jinae - yeah.
Jimin - just get ready, you haven't eaten yet haven't you?
Jinae - ani eomma.
Jimin - I'll send you money to get some on the way to the cemetery.
Jinae - thank you mama
Jimin - mama? I haven't heard you say that since you were five
Jinae - feeling nostalgic
Jimin - that's good. Go on and get dressed
Jinae - hehe
She let go of me, letting me walk past her and back into my room. I don't know why Dad chose to have a bathroom in my bedroom,
It keeps me up at night sometimes when I was younger worrying that something was going to pop out of there.
Rushing over to my closet, opening it up and grabbing the first things I saw.
Changing out of my sleeping clothes and into some skinny jeans and a black fleece. Hopping up and down to put on my socks before grabbing my sneakers and putting them on.
Jimin - Jinae?
Jinae - yes mama?
Turning my head to look for her, she sat on my bed. Looking at a photo of her and dad.
Jimin - when you see him. Tell him that I miss him.
Jinae - I know mama, you tell me that every year.
Nodding gently, a sad look on her face where I walked over to her. My hand on her back.
Jimin - I miss your father. So much.
Jinae - me too mama.
Jimin - breaks my heart everyday.
Jinae - he's in a better place mama. You know that.
Jimin - yeah- I know.
She sniffed, wiping her eyes before she nudged her shoulder and turned to me with a soft smile.
Jimin - go on and say hi to your other mama's before leaving.
Jinae - okay mama. I love you
Wrapping my arms around her, she hugged me back with a warm feeling before letting go of each other.
Jimin - I love you too, munchkin.
Softly smiling, standing up from the bed. Walking over to my bedroom door and opening it, turning back briefly to glance at her.
She sat still, staring at the picture of dad.
Tucking in my lips, understanding her. I walked out of the room, closing the door to let her and dad have some time together.
Walking into the hallway, I made my way downstairs. Grabbing Dad's jacket off the jacket rack on the way down before going into the living room where they all were. Just watching a video on the TV.
Jinae - hi eomma's.
They all turned to me, a soft smile on their faces.
Hae - there you are muffin.
Seulgi - going to see him?
Win - you're up early.
Gis - hey muffin.
Sully - good morning muffin
Lily - good morning sweet muffin
Bae - you're up muffin
Jiwoo - good morning muffin
Kyujin - hi muffin
Ning - muffin?
They all stared at me where I hugged all of them individually before putting my eyes on the TV, curious what the video was.
It was a video of everyone at some party. Dad's there too, just smiling and laughing.
Jinae - what's this?
Seulgi - oh it's just some video we took at his twenty fifth birthday party.
And for a few seconds, I saw myself waving to the camera although fifteen years younger.
"Helllllllo!"
Hae - brings back good memories.
Jinae - you all look so young there.
Gis - we're still young muffin
Jinae - no offence mama.
Hae - mama? I haven't heard you say that in years
Seulgi - feeling nostalgic muffin?
Jinae - yeah.
Sully - you still had your baby teeth in the video
Jinae - I can see that mama
Jiwoo - aigoo, you were so adorable
Kyujin - she still is dummy
Watching her elbow her in the side, making her yelp a bit, making everyone laugh including me.
Bae - are you going to see him?
Jinae - I am
Win - we'll visit later
Jinae - you all always visit later, why is that?
The room immediately silent for a moment, wondering if I said something offensive.
But then, Haewon-mama spoke up
Hae - it's just. We let you see him first, you know how much you meant to him.
They all nodded in agreement where I frowned slightly.
Seulgi - he put you first more than any one of us, and how could we argue? He loved you more than anything.
Win - he really did.
Sully - you're the only person that he had number one in his heart till he-
Hae - yeah.
Jinae - I see.
My attention swayed to the TV.
Seeing dad smile ear to ear with me in his arms.
I guess I meant more to him than everything else after all.
Jinae - I- I'll go ahead then mama.
They all waved at me goodbye when I walked out of the living room, going to the front door before a hand on my shoulder stopped me. Making me turn behind me to see Haewon-mama.
Hae - Jinae.
She had something in her hand, a white envelope addressed to me.
Jinae - what's this mama?
Hae - it- it's. Well. something he wanted to give to you just in case.
Jinae - when did he even make this?
Hae - when we first moved in here eleven years ago. I- I was holding out on this since he-
Jinae - I get it.
Hae - I've been afraid of handing you this for years, just waiting for the right time.
Jinae - hm.
Hae - but you're old enough to read it. And, it's time.
Jinae - oh mama.
Taking the envelope from her, she wrapped her arms around me. Hugging me tightly as I hugged her back.
Hae - he meant the world to me. I may not be your real mother, but-
Jinae - you're still my mama either way. All of the mamas. It doesn't change a thing.
Hae - oh.
Letting go of each other, her eyes watered up. Leaning into past me to open the front door for me.
Hae - go see him muffin. He's waiting.
Softly smiling behind my tucked lips, she wiped a tear that fell down her cheek. A small smile on her face.
Jinae - I'll see you later mama.
Hae - I love you.
Jinae - I love you too.
Turning my back to her, my foot stepped out on the stone steps before walking out entirely, hearing the front door close entirely.
The view of a blue sky and sun shining brightly ahead of me.
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Flowers sat in my head while I walked up to the cemetery, dad's headstone in sight.
I drove dad's mustang here.
Been waiting to get my driver's license to drive it and fix it up, I don't know if he wanted me to but I hope he wanted me to.
With a steady breath, a frown on my face as I walked up to him.
The rush of emotions crashing over me.
Reading his headstone once again like I do every year.
"L/N Y/N
Loving Father &Husband
2000 - 2029"
Oh dad.
I'm glad we took care of your headstone for you.
Squatting down and with the bouquet of flowers. I sat them down in front alongside the other things the mama's left for him.
Jinae - hey dad. It's been a while. Sorry I'm late. Overslept.
Laughing softly while I swayed side to side with my hands in my pockets, clutching onto the envelope in my hand.
Jinae - it's been, great. I just got into college, got the letter last week and it's a nice place. Really, it is.
I know he isn't there.
But I know he's listening.
Jinae - I- uhm- mama's are doing alright. They're just doing the same as they always do and uhm- I miss you. I know I was eleven when you died but. I still remember everything you did for me.
God.
I miss him.
A tight feeling crushed my chest, the frown on my face becoming more apparent as I stared at him.
Jinae - reading me bedtime stories, me in your arms and playing around with the mamas. I'm still nostalgic about it.
Nodding softly, I think it's time to take out the envelope.
Jinae - Haewon-mama gave me this.
Taking out the envelope from my jacket, this jacket didn't fit me so well.
Considering it was dad's, it just hung below to my thighs which honestly, seeing dad in the pictures. He was pretty tall so I wouldn't be surprised.
Caressing the envelope before opening it gently, taking out a piece of paper where I unfolded it.
Jinae - I- I'll read you it since maybe you would wanna hear.
Clearing my throat with a cough, my eyes started from the very top.
"To Jinae.
Hey muffin, if you're reading this then. I'm still alive. Just, you know. Maybe older. I don't know. But, hey.
How are you?
Maybe you're reading this because you feel down or something. I was never good with these types of things, you'll probably hear it from your Jimin-unnie. Or mama? I don't know the future so I assume you know she's your real biological mother by now. But, I just wanted to let you know that. Everything's gonna be okay. I know that, maybe we'll have our ups and downs by now or not. I don't know. But, when you were born. I never knew if I could take up being a father. Really. I was afraid, I was young. I didn't know what to expect but then, when the years came by. I really accepted it. All of my fears, stress, feelings, everything. Washed away when I picked you up or played your favourite game with you. I remember you used to have that bear with you that Seulgi gave you when you were two years old. I hope you still have it because that cost me way too much money but pushing that away. I want you to know that I love you. That I love you with all of my heart. That even if I'm gone, just know I'm watching over you and your mothers. You gave me hope in life again, you gave me everything that I needed to push myself further into living life with a bright smile again. Like I used to think, you weren't just my muffin. You were my sunshine, my hope, my shining star, my munchkin, my pumpkin. All of those. And your mothers? They were everything I could've asked for, and I'm one lucky son of a bitch to have ever loved them. Because I loved them as much as I did for you. I hope you're okay, that they're okay. And well.
I love you.
I love you tenfold or even, infinity.
You'll always be my muffin.
Dad."
My eyes teared up, my voice shook as I read the last line before lowering the paper down to look at you.
Jinae - dad......
If I could relive my life over again,
I would do it.
Just to see you again dad.
Wiping my tears away, squatting down towards his headstone. My hand was placed on it, patting him gently.
Jinae - you were the greatest dad to ever live. I hope you know that.
I should clear my head.
Jinae - sorry dad. I'm gonna go for a bit and come back to you if that's alright?
Patting his headstone one last time, I stood up and folded the letter neatly and back into my pocket along with the envelope into the jacket.
I turned around, walking to the entrance of the graveyard.
When I turned my neck back to look at him, a smile on my face.
Jinae - I love you dad.
Before turning away and walking back to the car.
And with a thousands things that I've had done,
With everyone that I loved.
Every moment, every interaction I had.
It couldn't compare to one thing I wanted the most deep inside.
To remember the memory of my father.
I hope you're okay dad,
Somewhere.
Watching over us.
Because I know I'll see you soon,
Eventually.