âThis all looks good,â I say to Drew as I finish looking over the contract papers. âAre you happy with Mike heading things up over there once I get everything finalized this week?â
Drew places his coffee cup down on my desk and sits back in his chair. âYes, for the tenth time.â He smiles at me easily. âTan, mate. I know youâre a control freak when it comes to working, but weâve got this all covered. Mike is our best project manager in London, and itâs only a three-month refurb. Heâs got the guys in the New York office helping him. Theyâre happy to have him, what with Tina being off on maternity. Besides, I told him how beautiful the women in New York are.â
âUh-huh,â I murmur, checking over the papers again. I donât have any doubts over Mikeâs ability to lead Tinaâs team while sheâs off. I just need to feel in control at work because I am sure as hell not outside of the office.
âWhatâs got into you, anyway? You take a week off work with no notice and then call me in for a meeting on a Sunday afternoon, the day after I have a hot date. Youâre lucky I said yes.â Drew drums his fingers around the side of his coffee cup.
âHow did it go?â I ask, raising my eyes to his, glad for the distraction.
âMeh.â He grunts.
I chuckle. âThat good, eh?â
âNo, man. I mean, phew, sheâs insanely hot.â Drew puts his hands on the back of his head as he stretches.
âWhy am I sensing thereâs a but? You took her out to dinner like you said you were going to, didnât you?â
Drew avoids my eyes. âNah, slight change of plan.â
âShe turned you down, didnât she?â
âOf course not! She just needs a bit more persuading to sample the âDrew Delightsâ, thatâs all.â He frowns.
I shake my head, smiling. âYou drove for two hours to take a woman out for dinner, who hadnât even agreed to it, yet youâre the one asking whatâs got into me?â
âMinor details, Tan, minor,â Drew says, skirting the issue. âIâm not the one whoâs been cozying up with a rabbit and sleeping on the sofa.â He laughs, slapping the table with his palm.
I scowl at him. âThatâs the last time I tell you anything. Oh, and that bonus we were talking about? Forget it.â
Drew laughs harder. âTan, mate, loosen the fuck up. Seriously, whatâs this chick done to you, man? Have your balls shriveled up inside your body?â
âSheâs not done anything to me,â I say as I lean back in my chair, blowing out a breath.
âDonât give me that. Weâve been mates for years,â he says, finally having stopped laughing. âSo? Whatâs going on?â
âI donât know. One minute sheâs all over me, and then the next, she acts like itâs nothing.â I tap the heel of my foot on the floor as I look out the window at the street below.
âShe sounds like a head-fuck,â he says, his eyes on my face.
âSheâs complicated. I know she doesnât have any family, and she told me she doesnât have relationships, only âfriendsâ.â I pick my pen up and slide my fingers down it, turning it once I get to the bottom and repeating the move while I think.
âLook, Tan. I get that sheâs hot. I dunno; maybe you feel like seeing her again out of the blue all these months after you got back from New York is a sign from the universe or something?â
I mull over his words. âItâs more than that. I mean, yes, seeing her again at the auction was unexpected, but thereâs something about her. I canât even think straight.â I throw my pen down on the desk.
âMaybe itâs just a weird coincidence? When you saw her at the airport, and she said that saying that made you think of your mom, it made you notice her.â Drew shrugs. âYou felt, I donât know? Connected to her or some shit?â
âUgh.â I let out a groan and lean my head into my hands on the desk. âThere was just something about her, and yeah, it threw me when she used my momâs saying. I donât know. I just wanted to help. Look at the shit itâs got me into now.â
âHang on? You said you were going to tell her?â Drewâs eyes shoot up in surprise as I raise my eyes to his. One look at my face, and heâs shaking his head in pity. âFuck, man, youâre in for it when she finds out. From what youâve told me and what Iâve seen, sheâs going to have your balls on a spike.â
âThanks for the support,â I snap.
âI canât believe you havenât told her yet. Youâve spent all week together, let alone the house viewing, and all the time youâve had her number in your phone. Whatâs been stopping you?â
âI know, I know,â I groan. âBut what was I meant to say? Hi, nice to meet you, Rachel, except I already know your name; Iâve been the one emailing you and sending you money for your worn panties for the past year and a half?â I shake my head. This is so fucked up.
âWhen you put it like that, it does sound weird,â Drew says.
âExactly.â I look at him. âSheâll think Iâm a creep.â
âOkay, look.â Drew leans forward in his seat. âWomen love all those honest, open conversations. Just tell her the truth. She already goes all weird on you after sex. What have you got to lose?â
Her. I could lose her.
Even if I donât get her fully, I still get a part of her when weâre together.
âYouâre right; I know Iâve got to tell her, and I will. After New York. Sheâs only fucking operating on the flight Penny booked me on tomorrow,â I mutter as I gather up the contract papers, and we head to the door.
âNo way! Thatâs hilarious.â Drew chuckles.
I glare at him. âYouâre not helping.â
âSorry, Tan. Hey, Iâll come to your funeral, mate,â Drew says, patting me on the back as we wait for the lift.
Itâs only a matter of days before I have to tell her who she was really talking to all these months. Fuck.
I can barely tear my eyes away from Rachel in her red uniform the entire flight out to New York. Itâs been over eighteen months since the airport coffee bar, and somehow, she looks even sexier in it than I remember. Sheâs been looking after the section of upper class Iâm seated in. I donât know if that was deliberate or just pure good fortuneâwell, mine anyway.
From the seat Iâm in, I can just about see every time she bends over to get in the end trolley in the galley. Her perfect ass calls to me to hitch her red skirt up around her waist and slip my fingers inside her panties. Oh, Fuck yeah. Seeing her now, knowing that all those flights she was working just like this, then posting the panties underneath her uniform to me, has more of an effect on me than I expected. I feel my dick stir in my suit slacks.
âWould you like another drink, sir?â one of the other female flight attendants asks me. Her eyes roam down my shirt, down to my crotch, and back up slowly, a flirtatious smile on her lips.
âNo, thank you. Rachelâs got me covered,â I say without smiling.
âOkay.â She shrugs and walks off.
I watch her pass the galley and say something to Rachel, who then looks over at me. I smile at her, and she lifts her chin in acknowledgment before going back to what she was doing. I drop my gaze back to my laptop and the document Iâm working on, but I can still see Rachel out of the corner of my eye. She finishes putting things away inside the trolley before she looks back over in my direction and stands with her arms crossed, leaning back against the galley side.
I love that sheâs watching me.
Oh, Snow, if only I could know what you are thinking.
âHey, Mom,â I say down the phone as I slide into the backseat of the town car the New York office has sent to collect me from the airport.
âHi, Sweetheart, how was your flight?â Her warm voice expertly masks her relief. Sheâs scared of flying. I always call her every time I land as I know she will worry otherwise and check all the news channels expecting to see a horrific crash headline.
âIt was interesting. Rachel was working on it.â
Momâs tone lightens immediately. âThe girl youâve been telling me about?â
âYes, Mom.â I smile at her sudden interest.
âHow exciting! So, what are you going to do in New York together? I assume she doesnât just fly straight back again?â
âNo, she gets two nights here, but, Mom, Iâm here for work. I have no idea what she has planned.â
âNonsense, Tanner,â she scolds. âYou donât have to work the whole time youâre there. I appreciate your call. Now, get off the phone with your old Mom and call Rachel! Ask to meet her later.â
I shake my head and smile as Mom barks out her instructions. Some things never change.
âFine,â I say to placate her, rolling my eyes.
âHave fun.â Mom giggles like a schoolgirl, obviously satisfied that Iâm taking her advice.
âLove you, Mom.â
âYou too, Tan,â she says as I end the call.
Before I can talk myself out of it, I fire off a text to Rachel.
Me: I know where to get the best caramel lattes in Manhattan if you fancy it tomorrow?
I stare out the window at the darkening sky as we drive over the Queensboro bridge. I always ask to drive this way from JFK airport rather than through the tunnel. Something about seeing the New York skyline on the way in and knowing we have an office there gets me every time. It reminds me just how far the company has come since I started it.
My phone buzzes in my hand.
Snow: I doubt your latte connections are as reliable as mine but sure.
Snarky. I smile. I guess she flies here most months.
Me: I should be done in the office by 2pm. Iâll pick you up from your hotel.
Snow: No need, meet you at the corner of West 49 and 6 Avenue.thth
I shake my head at her text, typical. Heaven forbid she would listen to me for once and just agree to me picking her up. Growing up with a mom like mine, Iâve always had one strong-willed, independent woman in my life, and now Iâm trying to add another. Surely this is a disaster waiting to happen.
What the fuck is wrong with me?