It was a terrible misfortune. There was no other way to describe it.
What was the exact medical term againâ¦? Ah, yes. People generally call it the TS Disease. An unexplained phenomenon that suddenly changes the entire human body. In fact, calling it a disease is questionableâit's more like a devilâs prank that strikes without warning.
âYouâre flying out tomorrow, right? I came to give you a little change of pace.â âDo you think Dad just said that casually? The director and coaches didnât let you off the hook easily. The coach even said itâd be good for you to take a short break from practicing so hard.â
Would things have been okay if I hadnât gotten into my parents' car that day? No. It wouldnât have made a difference.
The drive from my parentsâ place to the training center wasnât short. They had taken time out of their busy schedule to come and see me, even if only for an hour. I couldnât betray their devotion, coming all that way just for me.
My tragedy was no oneâs fault.
How could anyone blame my father for contracting TS Disease while driving? It was the agony of staying conscious while his body transformed. There was no way he could control the steering wheel.
So, my father did his best. The fact that I ended up like this was due to a natural disaster. At least, thatâs what I believed.
âDa-hoonâs dad! Whatâs wrong?â âUgh, my body... suddenly... Ahhhh, grrrrrgh!â
We were descending a mountain road at the time.
My father desperately gripped the steering wheel, moving his foot toward the brake. But it was futileâour car began to shake violently. We had no time to think. While I hesitated in panic, my mother threw her body over mine, shielding me.
Why did she do that? How did she summon the courage to act like that? I still donât understand a parentâs heart.
As the car flew off the cliff and hung suspended in the air, as if the world had frozen, my mother chose her last words carefully from all the ones she could have said.
âI love you, my son.â
Boomâ!
I donât remember much after that. It felt like the world flipped dozens of times as the car rolled over again and again. Amid the darkness, a deafening roar surrounded me. I was hit by dizzying impacts from every direction.
I remember the taste of dirt in my mouth, maybe the metallic tang of blood, too. One thing was certainâmy motherâs sacrifice had saved me. When the wreck was found after my coach filed a missing persons report, the car was practically a heap of scrap metal.
They said it was a miracle I had survived at all.
So, I never saw my parents' bodies. My coach had begged me in tears, pleading that I shouldnât go to see them. How could I not understand? If such a kind person made such a request, it could only mean my parents were in an unspeakable state.
Their faces were probably unrecognizable. There would be no way to properly dress them up for a final farewell. If I saw their faces, the image of my mother and father I knew would be overwritten with something horrible. Thatâs what my coach was worried about.
But there was something my coach didnât know. I had a faint, lingering memoryâof a mangled hand gripping the steering wheel to the very end. Even death couldnât pry my fatherâs hand from the wheel.
Maybe thatâs why they had to sever his arm entirely. Naturally, I was the only survivor.
My parents' bodies couldnât even be identified. There was just one blood-covered girl barely breathing in the wreckageâno one thought it was me. The only clue was that the clothes I wore looked much too large for me.
They said TS Disease wasnât contagious. Yet that cruel devil seemed to mock me by cursing me with the same fate.
When I woke up, I had become a teenage girl.
âSo, as you requested, we wonât proceed with amputation. But your quality of life might be severely impacted. Are you sure about this?â âYou said thereâs not a 0% chance it could recover, right? I want to try walking again, even if itâs just a little.â âUnderstood. An agent handling your new identity will visit you later today.â
My mother had nearly succeeded in protecting my body, but not entirely. Everything below my left knee was damaged during the transformation. It looked like a grotesque burn scar and no longer functioned properly.
If weight shifted the wrong way or any pressure was applied, the pain was like my body being ripped apart. The doctor recommended amputation. He said it was practically dead already. But I stubbornly decided to keep the corpse of my left leg.
And so, Han Da-hoon, the national kendo champion, died, and Han Da-eun was born. The kid who lived for kendo had lost her body. There was nothing left. Well, not quite nothing.
What I had left were a mountain of medical bills for my legâs treatment, a small studio apartment paid for with my parentsâ inheritance and insurance money, and an outdated brainwave VR connection device my parents had used for experiments.
âI shouldâve thrown this thing away. It takes up so much space.â
I knew nothing about VR, but I couldnât bring myself to throw the device away. It was the last trace of my parents. But my curiosity about the machineâs purpose led me to try it outâand that was the beginning of my life as a gaming recluse.
You could call it a twist of fate.
The device my parents were developing was originally intended for severely disabled or paralyzed patients. Unlike the latest models that scanned both brainwaves and motion, this device operated solely by brainwavesâan extreme approach. It seemed they had created it to gift people not with games, but with normal life experiences. Yet I had fallen into gaming instead.
Now, the machine was practically mine alone. Since I wasnât using it for its intended purpose, it had its drawbacks.
Most gamers can only set their sensory synchronization rate at 30%. But my device wouldnât go below 70%. It didnât help my gaming performance and only made the pain more intense.
Since it was a prototype, I couldnât use any broadcasting or replay features. On the other hand, I couldnât control âGawolâ properly without it.
That was why I could never become a streamer or pro gamer. I had tried everything, but both paths were closed to me.
"A completely useless body."
Still, I couldnât give up on gaming. Inside the game, I could be like my old self againâsensitive, sharp, like when I was preparing for kendo tournaments. While I was playing, reality didnât exist.
I couldnât let go of that feeling. For two years now, Gawol, the black sheep of Infinity Black, the nightmare of streamers and pro gamers, had built a notorious reputation as a paid assassin who killed for money.
I woke up in the middle of the day.
What was the last thing I did? I went to the convenience store for ramen. But I felt sick, so I came home. I must have fallen asleep as soon as I arrived, too tired to even think.@@novelbin@@
Now that I think about it, itâs a waste. I shouldâve eaten it. Even a single drop of ramen broth costs money. What does my mood matter anyway?
Still, my body was pretty fuel-efficient. Iâve never tested it, but with proper care, my physical stats might have been quite good. Even living like this, I hadnât gotten sick, and in-game, I performed no worse than during my athlete days.
If it werenât for my wrecked leg, you could say I was blessed with a perfect body. Proof? I wasnât even particularly hungry right now. I just needed to focus and jump back into the game.
On my monitor, a streamer named Soolbbang was enthusiastically streaming. I sipped some cola and unmuted the sound.
âNot much progress today. Why isnât that accessory dropping?â â If Gawol hadnât grabbed your hair, you wouldâve had it by now. Wait, does he even have hair to grab? âThank you for the donation, Sulbbangâs Roots⦠Nooo! Itâs not that bad! My hair is still thick! And about Gawol, well, you just have to live with it. What can you do? He wouldnât come again, would he?â
Hmm. Sorry, but Iâll be visiting again.
When I hunt streamers for fun, I avoid killing them repeatedly. But when Iâm on a job, like now, itâs different. If I only killed the target, it would raise suspicion. To cover up the real target, I had to kill a few other random streamers along with them.
Not that I was obligated to... but itâs fun, right? Anyway, the first victim today was Soolbbang.
Iâd been watching him for a while. His basic skills were decent, he had a large fan base, and if he made a big fuss, it would create good gossip. He had some enemies too, thanks to his time in siege guilds. Plus, his reactions when he died were always amusing.
I picked out three streamers as my sacrificial lambs.
Alright, I had a rough idea of where they were. Since Soolbbang had logged out nearby, Iâd take him down first. The others would follow in order. A simple route mapped itself in my head.
These streamers had done nothing wrong, but I wasnât guilty either.
The difference is that you guys shine. Iâm stuck in the depths of this pit, but you get to show off on a grand stage. You get to do what I canât.
The only difference between us is that I have a useless left foot. Is that so wrong? I couldâve done it too. Even if I failed, it shouldâve been my failure.
So... itâs okay to vent a little, right? Itâs not like theyâre really dying.
Iâ
I have a reason to hate streamers.
I lay back into the connection device, and the system messages appeared.
[Launching Infinity Black.] [Welcome back, Gawol. Thank you for returning.]
I already felt at ease. The leftover cola was in the fridge, and I was in the connection device. As my body transformed into Gawolâs, I slowly gripped my weapon.