James didnât answer her words, but he was eager for her to tell him the reason so that he wouldnât have to be afraid of hearing her call Ryanâs name on some dark night, and wouldnât have to be terrified and panicky after hearing it.
She loved him very much, and likewise, he loved her too. He loved her so much that even the slightest mention of Ryan would make him lose all sense of security and become extremely abnormal, unable to control his emotions.
Seeing his furrowed brows and pained expression, Amelia couldnât help but raise her hand and touch his eyebrows.
âI didnât tell you before because I thought Ryan was my first love, and whether it was good or bad, I shouldnât talk about it. But now that I see how scared you are, I feel like I should be honest with you!â
After she put her hand down and let go of James, she focused on his handsome face and spoke softly.
âI broke up with him because his twin brother kicked me hard and broke my artificially constructed heart, causing me to suffer from severe psychological trauma. As a result, in every nightmare, I would dream of myself being kicked and I would keep calling his name because I was begging for mercy, begging him to spare meâ¦â
Upon hearing these words, James slowly relaxed his tense body, but looked at Amelia with a hint of disbelief.
âYou didnât lie to me?â
He had always thought that her calling Ryanâs name in her sleep was because of deep love and longing, never considering that it was because of fear.
Even after learning the reason for her breakup with Ryan, he thought she couldnât let go, which was why she cried out Ryanâs name in her dreams.
If she was really just scared, then he had misunderstood her for so many years and had been so cold to her because of this misunderstanding.
James, shocked and heartbroken, grabbed Ameliaâs hand and placed it on his chest, letting her feel his heartbeat as he asked for an answer.
Amelia looked up into his eyes, filled with remorse, and said each word clearly:
âI didnât lie to you!â
With her affirmation, James felt even more regret in his eyes.
If he had grabbed her and asked her properly after she woke up back then, would they have not missed out on so many years?
Unable to find the answers to the past, James took a step forward and embraced Amelia in his arms.
âIâm sorry. I should have asked you earlier instead of indulging in my own wild thoughts.â
Amelia shook her head, acknowledging her own fault as well. Butâ¦
Amelia lowered her head slowly, hesitated for a moment, and finally asked:
âJames, weâve been through so much, and Iâve told you many times that I love you. Why do you still feel insecure because of Ryan?â