She helped Ryan wipe his face today, making him feel insecure. Itâs normal for him to feel jealous and concerned, but often when Ryan is mentioned, he also gets nervous.
She thought that after going through so much between them, he would understand that she no longer has feelings for Ryan. But he still doesnât feel secure, not even a bit.
Holding James tightly, she heard her ask this and he weakly buried his chin in the nape of her neck.
âBecause you loved Ryan, loved him like you love meâ¦â
If it were someone else, James wouldnât be scared or concerned, but Ryan is different.
âHe attempted suicide for you, and he got depression. He loved you so much, Iâm afraidâ¦â
James took a deep breath, enduring the pain in his heart, and softly said:
âIâm afraid youâll soften your heart and fall in love with him againâ¦â
Just like back in Washington, when Ryan begged her to be with him. At that time, he was physically healthy and didnât have depression, but she still softened her heart and agreed to be with him.
Now, Ryan had become what he was today because of her, so she should be more likely to soften her heart, rightâ¦
If she fell back in love with Ryan because of her soft heart, what should he do?
He knew he shouldnât have such thoughts, butâ¦
Amelia used to love Ryan so much, but then she stopped loving him, right?
Heâs so scared that one day, she will stop loving him just like she stopped loving Ryanâ¦
After understanding what James was worried about, Amelia lifted her hand and gently touched his thick black hair, her actions filled with pity and heartache.
âHoney, I no longer love Ryan, a long, long time ago when I kneeled and begged him, when his older brother pretended to be him and kicked me, and when I was lying in the hospital on the verge of death, at those times, all my love for Ryan had already been exhausted. I stopped loving him a long time ago, so how could I turn backâ¦â
âAfter I let go of him, I slowly fell in love with you. Maybe you feel confused, why did I not only forgive you but also choose to be with you despite the misunderstanding. But giving up Ryan was because deep down in my heart, I always loved you. Thatâs why I chose youâ¦â
âItâs just that between Ryan and me, itâs not just a simple first love relationship, but also a familial relationship where he worked and studied to help me pay for medical expenses and let me grow up healthyâ¦â
âIf he was just an ordinary ex-boyfriend, I wouldnât care about whether he had depression or not, whether it was mild or severe. Itâs because of this bond between us that after learning about his severe depression, I rushed to the capital to see him. Otherwise, there wouldnât have been any connection between him and me in this lifetime.â