âEven though his disabilities and severe depression were caused by me, I wonât soften my heart and fall in love with him again. I only feel pity and guilt towards him. Even today, when I saw him, I treated him as a family member and patient, without thinking too much about itâ¦â Amelia finished speaking in one breath, looking out at the moonlight through the gap in the curtains.
âI swear to God, I will never love anyone else in this lifetime. except for you. If I do, let me die!â Her last words hit Jamesâs heart like a thunderbolt, causing his heart to tremble uncontrollably. It seemed as if he could see the tragic scene of her death, and he held her tightly in fear.
âDonât say such things to scare me. You know, the thing I fear the most in my life is losing you.â
In his life, there was only Amelia. It was because of her that he would become restless and anxious about Ryanâs condition.
Now she clearly expressed her feelings towards Ryan, explaining when she stopped loving him and why. She even made such a poisonous vow. If he still didnât trust her after this, then his love for her wasnât deep enough.
âIâm sorry, I was being too sensitive.â She relieved the doubts that had lingered in his heart for years, dispelling his suspicions. Amelia not only gave him a tremendous sense of security, but also made his lonely heart feel a sense of belonging.
âFrom now on, no matter how you take care of Ryan, I wonât have any wild thoughts anymore.â Hearing this, Amelia remembered something she wanted to tell him.
âNow that weâve opened up, Iâm not afraid to talk more about Ryan.â Feeling the man holding her nod, Amelia began to speak.
âI wanted to tell you that Ryan refused my offer to be with him, but when I pushed him to take a walk in the garden, I saw the flowers he planted. They were the ones I used to love when I was young. I realized that he was trapped in the past, unable to move on, which led to his depression getting worse.â
âSo I treated him like a brother, breaking his attachment to the past. He should have understood my intentions and agreed. But I was afraid that I was too forceful and he wouldnât be able to accept it at once, so I made a promise with him that we would go see the pear blossoms together next spring.
When he agreed, there was a relieved smile in his eyes. I think he accepted it.â After telling James about what happened in the garden, Amelia looked up at the man holding her.
The refused me, so I wonât take care of him anymore. 11 only visit him occasionally as a family memberâ
âHe refused me, so I wonât take care of him anymore, only visit him occasionally, as a family member