"Julia?" Juniper asked causing me to look over at her. "Why did you let us go?" She asked innocently, watching me with her stuffed animal in her hand.
Carter and Sam were standing next to her. In the distance I heard a smacking sound and Jenna crying out in pain.
"I didn't want to, love." I said quietly, my voice cracking. "We trusted you." Sam said as I closed my eyes.
"There was nothing I could do. I failed you." I said as a tear fell down my cheek.
"We trusted him." Carter said and pointed into the void.
When I turned all of my siblings disappeared and Adam was standing there in his fake cop uniform.
"Hey, baby." He said and came over to me, kissing my neck. "Get off of me." I whispered and tried to push him away.
"Come on, baby. You know you want it." He said and pushed me down, getting on top of me.
I sobbed as he continued doing whatever he wanted.
"Hey!" Colby screamed then shot Adam, causing the scene to change.
I was standing in the middle of the void, my belly rounded with a baby inside.
I put my hands on my belly and felt the pain starting to erupt inside of me.
"Help!" I gasped, crying out from the pain. "I'm leaving." Colby's voice sounded as I looked around.
"I needed you." I cried, feeling the belly disappear. Colby showed up in front of me again, a somber look on his face.
"I never loved you." He said then clenched his jaw. "I wish you would have stayed away." He said then pulled a gun on me.
"Please." I begged as a hard glare I didn't recognize filled his features.
I closed my eyes, waiting for the pain to hit me but heard the gun go off and a pain fill my stomach.
My eyes flew open as I gasped, looking around the unfamiliar room. I tried to calm myself down, but I needed to get some water or something.
I got out of bed and shakily made my way out to the main area where the kitchen was.
Colby was sound asleep on the couch so I had to make sure to not wake him.
I tried to calm my racing heart but ended up hyperventilating. I was starting to panic and I couldn't find a glass to get the water.
I leaned against the counter, unable to catch my breath.
I must have been being too loud because Colby sat up and looked over at me.
"What's with the noise?" He asked as hot tears rolled down my cheeks while I gasped for air.
"Hey." He said and stood up, walking over. "I can't breathe." I choked out as he sighed and opened a cabinet, grabbing a glass.
"You've gotta relax." He said and filled the glass with water for me. "I'm trying, dickhead!" I snapped as he chuckled.
"Fine. Figure it out." He said then went back to the couch so he could lay down again.
I took the glass of water and took a sip. I closed my eyes and tried to focus on breathing because the sick feeling inside of me was was boiling up.
I stood there, struggling for a minute before Colby sat up again.
"I'm sorry." I whispered as he stood up. "What's got you all bent out of shape?" He asked and came over to hug me.
"Gee, I don't fucking know." I mumbled, thinking of the long list of things bothering me.
"Just try to calm down. We have a busy day tomorrow." He said and rested his chin on my head.
I closed my eyes and tried to focus on literally anything but the fact I was wrapped in my ex lover's arms.
It felt wrong but also so right.
"Thanks." I mumbled and pushed away from him, crossing my arms.
"Yeah. Goodnight." He said then turned to go back to the couch. "Goodnight." I said then went back to the bedroom.
There was certainly some tension between us but I couldn't be bothered to address it.
When I got back to the bedroom I laid in bed awake.
There was no way I was even going to try and sleep, knowing what nightmares would ensue.
When the sun was starting to rise, Colby slipped into the room quietly. He probably thought I was sleeping.
I sat up as he reached for the bathroom door.
"Oh." He said as I nodded. "You're up early." I said and picked at the blanket in my lap.
"I told you we have a busy day." He said as I narrowed my eyes.
"Are you just gonna force me to join you? I'm back to no free will?"Â I asked and crossed my arms.
"You want to get murdered or kidnapped? I can make sure that happens." He said with the same cold tone he's been sporting lately.
"I told you he wants nothing to do with me." I said and glared at him. "And I told you that he knows the one way to really get to me is through you." He said as I looked down.
"Not anymore." I mumbled almost inaudibly. "I have to shower." Colby said with a sigh then turned to go into the bathroom.
"We'll leave in thirty minutes." He said then left the room.
It seemed like my comment didn't phase him all that much, it didn't surprise me but it did hurt a little.
Once he was in the bathroom I got up and went to his dresser, looking for something I could wear.
I ended up with one of his hoodies since it was cold and kept the grey sweatpants I was wearing.
I got dressed then braided my hair into two french braids since it was a mess after sleeping on it wet.
Once I was done with that, I went to sit on the bed, waiting for Colby to come out.
I didn't have any toiletries or anything but I was hoping he had some mouth wash or something that I could use.
When he came out he was wearing only a towel, causing me to roll my eyes.
"Can't you at least pretend like you have some dignity?" I asked as he chuckled.
"You don't seem too upset." He said with a shrug then went into the closet.
I sighed then went out to the living room, grabbing my water glass on the way.
I still wasn't hungry since there was a lump of anxiety sitting in my stomach but I was thirsty.
I chugged a glass of water then looked up to see Colby staring at me.
"Thirsty much?" He asked as narrow my eyes at him.
"If you're gonna be a cocky tool then I'm gonna leave." I said angrily.
"I'm not being anything, sweetheart. Let's go." He said and grabbed his keys.
"Do you have any mouthwash? I feel disgusting." I said as he sighed. "In the bathroom, left cabinet." He said and pointed in the direction I needed to go.
I nodded and went into the bathroom, grabbing the bottle and swishing some in my mouth.
It wasn't brushing my teeth but it was at least giving me something to work with.
"Where are we going?" I asked as I walked back out into the living room.
"To base. I have work to do since now we have someone after us. Thanks by the way." He said as I gasped angrily.
"This is not my fault!" I said and glared at him. "If you would have kept to yourself then this wouldn't have happened." He said as I shook my head.
"If you were better at your job then I wouldn't have caught you trying to poison him in the club. That's how he knows I actually know you. I never spoke a word about you." I snapped.
"Maybe if you were more careful about who you threw yourself at then you wouldn't have been in the club with him in the first place." Colby said harshly.
"Are you calling me a whore?" I asked as he rolled his eyes.
"All I'm saying is you clearly don't know how to pick them." He said and led the way out of the apartment.
"I was plucked off of the street by the first criminal I've met so it's not exactly my fault." I said as he chuckled.
"Please. I was the best thing to ever happen to you." He said causing me to clench my jaw.
"You're the worst thing to ever happen to me." I said, not really meaning it.
Colby was my first love. My only real love. Of course he meant a lot to me but after everything he didn't deserve to know that.
He didn't deserve to know that I cared for him even after he ripped my heart to shreds.
"Good." He said and kept his eyes straight ahead. His reaction was exactly how I expected it to be.
Cold and uncaring.