"Pick whatever you want." Colby said as we walked through the clothing section of Target.
"I'll get what I can afford." I said and went over to the leggings.
"This trip is on me, since I didn't give you any time to pack." He said as I nodded.
"Yeah, you can keep the clothes and give them away to the millions of girls you sleep with." I said causing him to roll his eyes.
"I should have never given you my phone." He grumbled.
"I would have found out when I walked in on you fucking number four in the living room." I said and grabbed a couple pairs of pants.
"Nobody is coming to the apartment." He said simply. "Ooo you're gonna leave me alone while you do your booty calls?" I asked and walked towards the shirts and jackets.
"I'm not going to any booty calls, Julia. Jesus Christ." He said as I frowned.
"Bummer. I was looking forward to some alone time." I said with a dramatic sigh.
"You're so annoying." He said as I picked out my clothes. "I'm just being honest." I said with a shrug.
I ended up grabbing only a couple things because I didn't want to manifest being here any longer than a week.
Colby needed to find Adam, kill him, and do whatever the hell he needed to do so I could go home and get back to normal.
Normal wasn't so normal anyways though. My siblings were gone and would be gone for the rest of time.
I would never get to see them again.
The realization hit me like a ton of bricks, completely ruining my mood.
I wasn't in the best mood to begin with but I had to admit teasing Colby for being a man whore was actually kinda fun.
"You good?" Colby asked as I nodded. "Yeah." I said then looked at the basket.
"Alright. We need to hurry up and get out of here. Being in public together isn't a great idea." He asked as I nodded.
"Just need some toiletries." I said as he nodded and led the way.
We walked around, grabbing all the things I would need to stay in Colby's apartment.
I was still frustrated that I had to stay with him but if I stayed out of his hair then he would focus on getting Adam so I could go home.
When we got back to the car Colby looked over at me.
"If I get you food will you refuse to eat it again?" He asked as I sighed. "Probably. I'm not very hungry." I said with a sigh.
"Do you ever eat? You've lost so much weight." Colby said as I looked over.
"Hasn't anyone ever told you to not comment on a woman's weight?" I asked and crossed my arms.
"Yeah, I was also told to not ignore a cry for help." He said as I looked out the window. "It's not a cry for help." I said as he sighed.
"Alright. I'm gonna get us some food though, I'm starving." He said and started driving. He stopped at some bougie restaurant and got us some food before swinging by the pharmacy.
It was so annoying that he insisted on getting my pills but I had to admit I was a little bit grateful. Having big seizures like this almost daily was really bad for me.
It could actually kill me.
"I'll pay you back." I mumbled and looked at the little white bag in my hands. "Whenever you can, Jules." Colby said as I sighed.
"What did I say about calling me that?" I asked causing him to chuckle.
"What would you like me to call you, sweetheart?" He asked as I groaned.
"Julia. Just call me Julia. You're so fucking weird." I said causing him to chuckle.
When we got back to the apartment I immediately went to go clean myself up since I didn't have any toiletries this morning.
I made sure to take my pill which was actually a huge relief.
I knew it would take a couple days to take effect but it was a step in the right direction.
I decided to take a shower so I could feel more grounded. The past couple days have been a whirlwind and I haven't had a second to really breathe.
When I got out of the shower I got dressed in some of my new clothes and walked out to the living room where Colby was eating.
He looked a little stressed out but the look went away the second he looked up at me.
"Everything okay?" I asked as he nodded and jutted his head towards the kitchen.
"Eat. I'm serious." He said as I sighed and went to grab the box of food that was sitting on the counter.
When I opened it up I saw a pasta dish that actually looked amazing. I wasn't really all that hungry due to the stress of the situation but this looked good enough to eat.
I grabbed the box and a fork then made my way to the couch.
"You seriously don't have to stay and hang out with me. I'm sure number four would be able to relieve your stress." I said then took a bite of the pasta.
"I'm not doing that." Colby said with a bland tone.
"Why? It's not like you're tied down. Is number four bad at sex? Maybe number six or number ten would be better." I said as he rolled his eyes.
"You're annoying." He said and looked over at me. "How am I annoying?! I'm supporting you and your whore tendencies." I said as he clenched his jaw.
"Julia. Enough." He said as I cocked my head to the side.
"You don't control me anymore. Remember? I'm just an old flame staying in your apartment until you can get your shit together enough to kill the criminal that I found." I said with a cocky grin.
I was maybe enjoying this too much.
"You're more than that and you know it." Colby said as I squinted at him. "No, I really don't." I said as he stood up.
"I'm going down to the gym. Nobody comes in and you don't leave. Got it?" He asked aggressively.
"Yes, master." I hummed as he groaned and went into the bedroom.
I thought it was funny how much I got in his head.
I knew he was stressed and I knew that he could actually get really aggressive with me but I knew he wouldn't do anything serious.
He would try to fake me out by choking me or maybe even pulling a gun on me but I wasn't afraid of him like I used to be.
I wasn't afraid of him like his gang was.
When Colby was away I felt the most at peace I have felt in a long time. I was able to let out a deep breath and just sit in the silence.
Of course being alone came with the dark thoughts I have been pushing away.
I thought about how close my siblings were but how unattainable they were at the same time.
I wanted to leave and go look for them but Colby would kill me and what would I even do if I got there?
I wasn't allowed to interact with them anymore, so there was almost no point.
I felt hopeless, sitting on the couch in Seattle, in my ex boyfriend's apartment specifically.
There was nothing I could do to combat the sadness that was swarming me.
After a little while I sighed and sat on the balcony, trying to get some fresh air.
To my right was a pack of cigarettes, a lighter, and an ashtray.
Before I could even decide against it, I was lighting one up, sucking in the cancerous smoke.
I had only smoked cigarettes a couple of times and I didn't particularly enjoy it too much but the nicotine was able to calm me down a little.
As I smoked, I looked out at the city. The sun was just now setting and the view was absolutely gorgeous.
I loved my house in Spokane, but this view was unbeatable since he lived on the top floor of a huge building.
My thoughts were interrupted by the door opening, causing me to flinch. "What are you doing out here?" Colby asked as I looked up at him.
He was standing there shirtless, sweat coating his skin causing his hair to stick ti his forehead.
"Looking out at the view." I mumbled then looked back at the horizon. "Did you smoke?" He asked as I nodded.
"Sorry." I said as he breathed a small sigh. "Don't worry about it." He said then went to go inside.
"Colby?" I asked, stopping him. "Yeah?" He asked. "Can you do me a favor?" I asked then looked up at him.
"What kind of favor?" He asked and ran his hand through his hair. "Can you take me to my mom's house?" I asked as he scrunched his brow.
"Why would you want to go there?" He asked as I looked down, picking at my already raw nail beds.
"She took them back." I mumbled. "What?" Colby asked and stepped onto the balcony, putting his bag down.
"My siblings...she uh..she took them from me a couple weeks ago." I said, feeling my eyes well up with tears.
"So that's where they went." He said quietly. "I'm not allowed to interact with them...but I just want to see them." I said, my voice going thick.
"Hey..don't cry. Let me just go shower then we can go. Alright?" He asked and grabbed his bag again. I nodded, unable to stop the tears from stinging my eyes.
Once he closed the door and went inside, I let the tears trickle down.
I felt like such a failure for getting them taken away but I was hoping I could at least see them tonight.
It was all I could ask for if I was going to be stuck here.