The next couple weeks were boring. Colby would take me to base with him where I would sit and do art while he worked.
We would occasionally go on dates but most of the time they had to be at the apartment or somewhere very public so nobody would try anything.
It was frustrating being in a relationship where we had to be hidden and scared.
I was just grateful we were both still alive at this point.
Today was one of the rare days I decided to stay back and just hang out in Colby's apartment.
I was sick of sitting in his office, staring at the same walls. Granted, I was sick of these walls too, but at least here I could take a bath.
I let myself relax a little bit as I soaked in the scolding hot water. It was probably a little too hot for me since it was turning my skin a bright red color, but it felt good nonetheless.
I haven't been feeling well the past couple days but I haven't actually gotten physically sick yet. I just had a constant headache and my body felt weak, as if I was about to get a cold.
It was always hard when I got sick because I couldn't really take medicine to help with the symptoms.
I hated that part of my life so much.
"Jules?" I heard Colby call out as I opened my eyes. "In here." I hummed as he walked through the door.
"Hey. How are you feeling?" Colby asked as he walked over to the tub, leaning down to give me a kiss.
"The same." I said as he sighed and brushed my hair from my forehead.
"I hate to be this guy but...should we get you a pregnancy test?" He asked as my heart sank.
I didn't think I was pregnant because I wasn't actually throwing up or anything but it was a possibility.
"I don't want to know." I said and picked at my nails.
"How about you take one, I'll read the results." He said as I leaned my head back, wincing in pain at how bad my head hurt.
"I don't like this." Colby mumbled as I sighed. "Yeah. I think I need a Tylenol or something." I said as he nodded and went over the cabinet that had medications locked in it.
I found it strange that he had a cabinet with a lock on it since he lived by himself.
I knew it wasn't new because we were with eachother pretty much every single day since we reconnected.
I just learned to not asked questions.
"Here." Colby said then handed me two white pills. "Thanks." I mumbled then took them.
"I'm gonna run to the store. Did you need anything?" He asked as I shook my head slowly, closing my eyes.
"Okay, baby. I'll be back." He said then kissed my head. "Hurry back." I mumbled and put my hands over my eyes.
"I'll be only a couple minutes. Promise." He said then left the room. I whimpered and slipped into the water a little more.
With every moment that passed the worse I felt. Part of me couldn't stop thinking about what Colby had said.
Was I pregnant?
I couldn't remember how it felt when I got pregnant last time because I was so numbed by narcotics.
If I was pregnant right now it would kill me.
I don't know how much time passed before Colby was coming back into the bathroom.
"You're back." I said with a small smile. "Yeah, I'm back." He said with a smile and came over to the tub.
"I think it might be time to get out, yeah?" Colby asked and gestured to the cold water I was sitting in.
"Yeah." I said and held my hands out so he could take them. "Has the Tylenol kicked in yet?" Colby asked and helped me stand.
"Ah!" I gasped as my vision blurred slightly. "I've got you." Colby said quietly, holding me up.
"I don't know what's happening." I said as Colby lifted me up so he could safely get me out of the tub.
"It might be the flu." Colby said as he grabbed a towel, wrapping me up in it.
"I feel like I'm gonna throw up." I said as my stomach flipped.
"On it." Colby said then sat me on the floor, pulling me hair back as I threw up into the toilet.
"Fuck." I grunted, feeling my head throb even more. "I got you a test...did you want to take it?" Colby asked as he scratched my back.
"I'm scared." I said quietly and looked up at him, trembling from the sick feeling in my stomach.
"I know. I'll be right here with you. No matter what happens we will figure it out together." He said gently.
"Okay.." I said quietly and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand.
"Let me go grab it." He said then got up and left the room. Colby came back a couple seconds later with a little box that had the dreaded words on it.
Pregnancy test.
"I'll get you a change of clothes while you take that. Colby said as I nodded and took the box from him.
I felt my heart racing as Colby left the room. There was so much at stake with taking this test.
If I were to be pregnant it would most likely be Adam's baby. Even if it wasn't though, this would make everything worse.
It would make everything more dangerous.
As much as I would love to have a baby with Colby, I wanted it to be when we were out of the crime world.
I didn't know if it would ever happen but I wanted us to be safe.
I wanted my child to be safe.
"C'mon, Jules. It's gonna be okay." I said to myself then ripped the packaging open.
As soon as I was done taking the test, Colby came back into the room.
"How's it going in here?" Colby asked as I sighed. "I just want to die." I grumbled and stood up, taking the clothes from him.
"Don't say that." Colby said as I started getting dressed. "If this is positive you better get me on some sort of list." I said as he chuckled.
"A milf list." He said causing me to roll my eyes. "I'm serious." I said then looked at the test. "It would be his." I said under my breath.
"I want to kill him." Colby said as I nodded. "I know." I said then looked up at him.
"No. I don't think you understand that I will spend every minute of every day planning his death until I can make it come true." He said with venom in his tone.
"I wanna watch." I said with a laugh causing him to grin. "That's hot as fuck." Colby said then looked at the test in my hand.
"How long do you have to wait?" He asked as my stomach ached. "Not long enough." I said with a sigh.
"You can do this, Jules. Remember that no matter what happens, I'll be by your side." Colby said and took my face in his hands.
"I love you." I said quietly. "I love you, too. Go ahead and look." He said as I nodded then looked down at the plastic test in my hand.
Negative
"Thank God." I sighed with relief. "Negative?" Colby asked as I nodded. "Negative." I said as he grinned and pulled me into his arms, holding me tightly.
"I wouldn't get so close. I'm not pregnant which means I'm sick." I said with a sigh as my body shivered.
"I don't care." Colby said then pulled away so he could kiss me.
"Let's get you to bed." He said once we pulled away. I nodded and let him lead the way towards the bedroom.
"Oh..." I whimpered as my vision blurred. "Something isn't right." I said, stumbling slightly.
"What-" Colby started but I couldn't hear what he said after that because my hearing was fading out.
Before I knew it I was laying on the floor with Colby hovering over me.
There was a frantic look on his face as my whole body erupted with pain and discomfort.
I felt myself starting to choke as my vision filled with black fuzzy dots.
I didn't have any idea what was happening to me but seeing Colby's fear was freaking me out.
If he was freaking out, something must have been seriously wrong.