I rest my forehead against the steering wheel of my car and close my eyes. My first instinct is to call him and ask him why heâs hiding the trip from me. I stop myself from doing that because this is the perfect opportunity for me to try not to jump to conclusions without asking him first. There is a chance, a small one, that Kimberly is mistaken and Hardin isnât going to England next weekend.
My chest tightens at the thought of him still wanting to move back there. Iâm still trying to convince myself that Iâll be enough to keep him here.
Chapter one hundred and ten
HARDIN
It feels like ages since Iâve been at this place. Iâd been driving around for the last hour, going over the possible outcomes of my coming here. After formulating a mental list of pros and consâsomething I never, ever doâI shut my car off and step into the cold afternoon air.
Iâm assuming heâs home; if not, I just wasted my entire afternoon, and Iâll be even more irritated than I already am. I glance around the parking lot and find his truck near the front. The brown apartment building is set just off of the street, and a rusty staircase leads up to the second floor, where his place is. With each stomp of my boot against the metal staircase, I run through the reasons why Iâm here in the first place.
Just as I reach apartment C, my phone vibrates in my back pocket. Itâs either Tessa or my mum, neither of whom I want to speak with right now. If I talk to Tessa, Iâll be thrown off my plan. And my mum will just annoy me with her wedding talk.
I knock on the door. Within seconds Zed answers, wearing only drawstring pants. His feet are bare, and I notice the intricate clockwork-and-gear tattoo that he showed me before has spread further across his stomach. He must have gotten more of it done after he tried to get with my fucking girl.
Zed doesnât greet me. Instead, he just stares at me from the doorway, a look of obvious shock and suspicion on his face.
âWe need to talk,â I finally say and push past him to enter his apartment.
âShould I call the cops?â he asks in that dry tone he gets.
I take a seat on his worn leather couch and stare up at him. âThat depends on whether you cooperate or not.â
Dark hair covers his jawline and frames his mouth. It feels like months have passed since I saw him outside Tessaâs mumâs house instead of only ten or so days.
He sighs and leans his back against the wall on the opposite side of his small living room. âWell, get to it, then.â
âYou know this is about Tessa.â
âI figured as much.â He frowns and crosses his tattooed arms.
âYou arenât going to Seattle.â
He raises a thick brow before he smiles. âI am, though. Iâve already made the plans.â
What the fuck? Why would he be going to Seattle? Heâs making this much harder than it needs to be, and Iâm beginning to kick myself in the ass for thinking this conversation would end in any way except him leaving on a stretcher.
âThe thing is . . .â I breathe in a deep breath to keep myself calm and stick to the plan. âYou arenât going to Seattle.â
âIâm visiting my friends there,â he answers, challenging me.
âBullshit. I know exactly what youâre doing,â I bite back.
âIâm staying with some friends in Seattle, but in case you were wondering, she did invite me to visit her.â
The moment the words leave his mouth, Iâm on my feet. âDonât push meâIâm trying to do this the right way. You have no reason to visit her. Sheâs mine.â
He raises one brow. âDo you realize how that sounds? Saying sheâs yours like sheâs your property?â
âI donât give a fuck how it sounds; itâs true.â I take another step toward him. The air between us has shifted from tense to downright primal. Both of us are trying to stake a claim here, and Iâm not backing down.
âIf sheâs yours, then why arenât you in Seattle with her?â he presses.
âIâm graduating after this semester, thatâs why.â Why am I even answering his questions? I came here to talk, not to listen and âengage in dialogue,â as a professor of mine used to say. Iâll be damned if he tries to turn this shit on me. âMe not being there is irrelevant. You wonât be seeing her while youâre there.â
âThatâs for her to decide, donât you think?â
âIf I thought that, I wouldnât be here, would I?â My fists tighten at my sides, and I look away from him to stare at the stack of science textbooks on his coffee table. âWhy wonât you just leave her alone? Is this because of what I did toââ
âNo,â he interrupts smoothly. âIt has nothing to do with that. I care about Tessa, just like you. But unlike you, I treat her the way she deserves to be treated.â
âYou know nothing about how I treat her,â I growl.
âYeah, man, I actually do. How many times has she run to me crying because of something you did or said? Too many.â He points a finger at me. âAll you do is hurt her, and you know it.â
âYou donât even know her, first of all, and secondly, donât you think itâs a little pathetic of you to keep pining after someone youâll never have? How many times have we had this conversation, about how many girls?â
He eyes me carefully, taking in my anger, but not really biting on my pointing out his history with girls. âNoââhis tongue darts out to wet his lipsââitâs not pathetic. Itâs genius, actually. With Tessa, Iâll be waiting in the background for the day when you fuck up againâwhich is inevitableâand when you do, Iâll be there for her.â