âTwo days ago. Heâs a stubborn one, this boy. I came back to work to stay on my feet in hopes that heâll decide to join us.â
She speaks so tenderly of the unborn child. Will I ever have this? Will I have the glow in my cheeks and the tenderness in my voice? Will I ever feel the flutter of my baby kicking inside of my belly? I force myself to blink away my self-pity. Nothing is certain yet.
Nothing is certain as far as your diagnosis from Dr. West is concerned, but you can be sure that Hardin will never agree to father your children, a voice inside me mocks.
âAre you okay?â Natalieâs voice pulls me from my thoughts.
âYes, sorry. I was just daydreaming,â I lie and pull my hand away from her belly.
âIâm really glad that I got to meet you while youâre in town,â she says just as Trish and Susan appear from the back room, a bouquet of flowers and a veil in Susanâs hands. I glance at the clock; itâs two thirty. Iâve been talking to Natalie long enough for Trishâs cheeks to become slightly flushed and her glass empty.
âGive me five and Iâll be ready; you may need to drive!â Trish laughs. I cringe at the thought, but when I consider the other optionâcalling Hardinâdriving doesnât seem too bad.
âTake care, and congratulations again,â I tell Natalie on my way out of the shop. Trishâs dress is in my arms, and sheâs a few feet behind me.
âYou, too, Tessa.â Natalie smiles as the door closes.
âI can carry it, if itâs too heavy,â Trish says once weâre on the sidewalk. âI can go get the car. I only had one glass, so I can drive just fine.â
âItâs okay, really,â I say, even though Iâm terrified to drive her car.
âNo, really,â she counters and takes her keys out of the front pocket of her jacket. âI can drive.â
Chapter one hundred and thirty-five
HARDIN
Iâve paced around the entire house over a hundred times, Iâve walked around this shitty neighborhood twice, I even called Landon. Now Iâm stir-crazy, and Tessa isnât answering any of my calls. Where the hell are they?
I look at my phone; itâs after three. How long could this spa shit take?
Adrenaline is coursing through me when I hear a car crunching over the gravel driveway. I go to a front window and see that itâs my mumâs. Tessa gets out first and walks to the back, pulling out a massive white bag. Something is different about her.
âI got it!â she calls to my mum as I open the screen door. I take the steps quickly and grab the stupid dress from her hands.
Her hair . . . what did she do to her hair?
âIâm going next door to get Mike!â my mum yells to us.
âWhat the hell did you do to your hair?â I repeat my thought out loud. Tessa frowns, and I watch the sparkle in her eyes dim drastically.
Shit.
âIâm just asking . . . it looks nice,â I tell her and take another look. It does look nice. She always looks beautiful.
âI had it dyed . . . you donât like it?â She follows me into the house. I toss the bag onto the couch. âBe careful! Thatâs your motherâs wedding gown!â she shrieks, lifting the bottom of the bag from the floor. Her hair looks shinier than usual, too, and her eyebrows are different. Women do too much shit to impress men who can barely tell the difference.
âI donât have a problem with your hair, I was just surprised by it,â I tell her, meaning it. Itâs not that different from the hair she left the house withâjust a little darker toward the top, but itâs basically the same.
âGood, because itâs my hair and Iâll wear it how I want it.â She crosses her arms over her chest, and a laugh bursts through my lips.
âWhat?â She glowers. Sheâs serious.
âNothing. Iâm just finding your whole almighty-powerful-woman-thing amusing, thatâs all.â I continue to laugh.
âWell, Iâm glad you find it amusing because thatâs how it is,â she challenges.
âOkay.â I grab the sleeve of her sweater and pull her to me, ignoring the cleavage on display beneath it. I get the feeling this wouldnât be a good time to call her on it.
âIâm serious, no more caveman shit,â she says, a small smile breaking her scowl as she tugs at my chest.
âOkay, calm down. What the hell did my mum do to you?â I press my lips against her forehead, and relief floods through me because she hasnât mentioned Susan or Natalie. Iâd much rather hear her cursing me out over her dyed hair than over my past.
âNothing; you were rude about my hair and I figured it was a good time to warn you that things are changing around here.â She bites her cheek to conceal a grin. Sheâs teasing and testing, and itâs fucking adorable.
âSure, sure, no more caveman.â I roll my eyes, and she pulls away. âIâm serious, I get it.â I pull her back to me.
âI missed you today.â She sighs into my chest, and I wrap my arms around her again.
âYou did?â I ask, wanting her to confirm. She hasnât been reminded of my past after all. Everything is fine. This weekend will be fine.
âYeah, especially while I was getting a massage. Eduardoâs hands were even bigger than yours.â Tessa giggles. Her giggles turn into shrieks as I lift her over my shoulder and head toward the stairs. I know for a fact she didnât get a damn massage by some man; if she had, she sure as hell wouldnât tell me about it and then start laughing.