I stared at Casteelâs parents, caught in a cyclone of confusion and disbelief. I wanted to stand, but Casteel still held onto my hand tightly. And where could I go?
âFor you to have your abilities, you have to be the child of a deity and not just share their blood,â King Valyn explained in that same gentle way. âAnd it also means that neither of your parents couldâve been mortal.â
I inhaled sharply. âWhat?â
âThereâs simply no way that you were ever mortal,â Queen Eloana said, her gaze searching mine. âThat doesnât mean that the mother you knew isnât your mother. It just means that she was never mortal.â
I shook my head as my brain rapidly tried to process this new information. âBut wouldnât Alastir have known that? He met her.â
Queen Eloana lowered her gaze, and I knew then that she had said what she had to lessen the impact.
My stomach hollowed. âDonât do thatâdonât lie to soften the blow. I appreciate it. I do.â And I did. It meant that she cared in some fashion about my feelings. âBut I need to know the truth. I need to face it.â
A measure of respect rippled through the Queen as she nodded. âHe wouldâve known if the woman he met was not mortal.â
âIt also means that Leopold couldnât have been Malec.â Kieran had moved to perch on the arm of the settee. âAlastir wouldâve known and wouldâve said as much.â
I focused on taking deep, even breaths as I reminded myself that I had already suspected that at least one of my parents hadnât been related to me by blood. Iâd even started to accept that, and Iâ¦I could accept this. But Malec as my father? Something didnât add up about that. But my thoughts were too much of a whirlwind to figure out what that was at the moment.
âAnd he wouldâve told me if he had happened across Malec,â Casteelâs mother stated, snapping my attention back to her. âHe wouldâve told both of us.â
Casteelâs fingers slipped from mine then, and my heart stuttered at the blast of iciness that rolled off him as he stared at his parents. âDid you two know about Penellaphe before me? Did you know what Alastir took part in that night in Lockswood?â
Oh, my gods.
Iâ¦I hadnât even considered that. But I tasted it then, the sourness of shame, coming from both of them. The center of my chest hummed, and Kieran inhaled raggedly as he stretched his neck from left to right. âYouâ¦you knew?â
âWe knew that he had found what he believed to be a descendant of Malecâs,â Queen Eloana answered as her husband reached between them, clasping her hand. âBut we did not know anything else about you or your family. He didnât even know then that you were Malecâs child. He only came to realize that when he met you again.â
Casteelâs body was impossibly rigid, and I saw Hisa inch away from the window and move toward his parents. âBut you knew that he killed her parents? Left her to die?â
His father met his stare. âWe only knew after the fact. There was nothing we couldâve done then.â
A moment passed, and then Casteel started to stand. I snapped forward, grasping his arm. âHeâs right,â I said, swallowing thickly as his head swung in my direction. His eyes reminded me of frozen topaz. âThere was nothing they couldâve done after the fact. This is not their fault.â
So focused on Casteel, I couldnât quite place the strange sensation again, a fleeting emotion that was sour yet also tangy. I had no idea who it came from or if I had really even felt it when Casteelâs rage was a fire storm. âTheyâre not to blame for what Alastir did,â I told him, curling my other hand around his arm. âTheyâre not.â
He didnât move for several heartbeats and then stiffly returned to sit beside me. The muscles under my hands remained tense as Hisa stepped back to her post by the window, her hand easing away from the hilt of her sword.
âHow?â Casteel demanded raggedly. âHow could either of you continue a friendship with that bastard after knowing what he did?â
Thatâ¦
That was an excellent question.
His fatherâs chest rose with a heavy breath. âBecause we thought that he was acting in the best interests of Atlantia.â
âHe allowed a child to be attacked by Craven,â snarled Casteel. âHow in the fuck is that in the best interests of Atlantia?â
âBecause Malik was gone, you showed no interest in taking the Crown, and a descendant of Malec, raised among the Ascended, cared for by a Handmaiden of the Blood Crown, wouldâve been able to claim the throne,â his mother said, and I felt Casteel flinch. âAnd even not knowing the extent of the blood that she carried in her, there was no way that Alastir or either of us believed it to be a coincidence that a Handmaiden was masquerading as the mother of a child who was the heir to Atlantia.â
Masquerading as the motherâ¦
âGods,â Kieran muttered, dragging a hand over his face.
Casteel sat back, a muscle flexing in his jaw as he looked at me. âPoppy, Iââ
âDonât. Donât you dare.â Releasing his arm, I clasped the sides of his face. âDonât you dare apologize. This isnât your fault either. You were trying to find your brother then. You had no idea what Alastir would do or that I even existed. Donât you take on that kind of guilt. Please.â
âSheâs right, son.â His father cleared his throat. âThis is not on you.â
âAnd you truly think you hold no responsibility in this?â Casteel said, his eyes never leaving mine.
âNo, we do,â his mother said quietly. âWe didnât like what was done, but we did not disagree with it. And that is something weâve lived with since then and will continue to live with.â
âJust like those you killed to protect the location of Iliseeum?â Casteel broke my hold as he turned to his parents. âIs that another thing you both live with?â
âIt is,â King Valyn confirmed, and if either were surprised that we had learned about Iliseeumâs location, they didnât show it. âAnd if you become King, you will have to do many things that will turn your stomach, haunt your dreams, and that youâll have to live with.â
The truth in that statement silenced Casteel. For a second. âIâm sure there will be, but if I discover that any of my people took part in harming or killing a child, they will find themselves in the Abyss, where they belong. That will never be blood that sits on my hands.â
Sorrow pierced through the walls surrounding King Valyn. âI hope and pray that it never does.â
âPrayers arenât needed,â Casteel replied coolly as he picked up my hand and pressed a kiss to the center of my palm.
âWait,â Kieran blurted out, startling me. âI donât understand how Malec is her father. I know itâs never been stated what happened to him, but itâs been safely assumed that heâs not alive, and hasnât been for centuries. After all, why wouldnât he have returned to claim the throne?â
I jerked. That was what hadnât made sense about Malec being my father. Yes, no one appeared to know what had happened to him or Isbeth. But how could he still be alive?
âIt was a safe assumption,â Casteelâs mother said, rising. âAnd thatâs why itâs also impossible.â
I blinked once and then twice. âCome again?â
âItâs impossible that Malec sired a child nineteen years ago.â The skirts of her gown snapped around her ankles as Queen Eloana strode to the oak credenza, picking up a decanter of amber liquid. âAre you sure none of you wants a drink?â
Kieran looked like he needed one when he said, âI really donât understand what is happening.â
âAfter I had the marriage annulled, and Malec was dethroned, he disappeared,â she said, pouring herself a glass and placing the topper back on the decanter, her hand remaining there as she stood with her back to us. âAt that time, I was otherwise occupied with the growing threat of the Ascended, and the beginnings of the war, but it wasnât until some years later, after Valyn and I married and the War of Two Kings ended, that I found him.â Her shoulders were tense as she took a drinkâ a nice, long one.
âI knew I had to. If not, he would forever pose a risk to not only Atlantia but also to the family I was trying to build. I knew him.â She looked over her shoulder as she took another drink. Her lips peeled back, revealing the tips of her fangs. âHe would have sought revenge for what Iâd done. So, I hunted him down, deep within Solis, and entombed him.â
âYouâ¦you used the bone chains?â I asked.
She gave a curt nod. âIt is extremely difficult to kill a deity. Some would say impossible without the aid of another or a god,â she said, and I remembered what Alastir had said about Malec. That he had killed many of the other deities.
Not only was myâ¦father prone to chaotic violence and was a habitual adulterer, he was also apparently a murderer.
But that was if he was my father. And that was something Queen Eloana had yet to explain.
âThat was some four hundred years ago.â She faced us, holding the glass to her breasts. âIt wouldâve taken more than half of those years for him to become weak enough to die, but he wouldâve been dead by the time you were born.â
Casteelâs brows furrowed as he looked over at me and then back to his mother and then his father. âThen how is Malec Poppyâs father?â
âMaybe youâre wrong,â Kieran suggested. âMaybe Malec isnât her father.â
King Valyn shook his head. âThere are no other deities. Malec killed the last of them when he ruled. But itâs not just that.â His gaze flicked to me. âYou do look like him. Too much to be a child several generations removed.â
I opened my mouth, but I didnât know what to say.
âAnd what you did for that child yesterday?â his mother said. âFrom what weâve heard, she was too far gone to be healed. Malec could do the same.â
âBut he rarely did?â I said, repeating what Alastir had said.
She nodded. âHe did when he was younger and less embittered and bored with life and death.â She took another drink, and I noticed her glass was nearly empty. âHe actually saved my life. Thatâs how we met.â Her throat worked on a swallow as I glanced at Casteel, unsure if he had known that. âNo other deity could do that. Only those who carried the blood of Nyktos. And there was only ever Malec. And he was Nyktosâs grandchild. That was why he was so powerful. That partially explains why you are so powerful, as Nyktos would be your great-grandfather.â
âBesides that, Malec was the oldest deity.â Casteelâs father sat forward, rubbing his palm on his right knee. âThe rest were the children of great-grandchildren, born of the gods.â
Which meant that if Casteel and I had children, they would beâ¦they would be like the deities who once ruled Atlantia. Perhaps a little less powerful due to Casteelâs elemental bloodline, but stillâ¦powerful.
I couldnât even think about that at the moment. âBut Nyktos had two children,â I said, remembering the painting of the large, gray cats. âThey only had one child between the two of them?â
She nodded.
âI still do not understand how Malec is her father, then,â Kieran stated, and I was right there with him.
âWhere is Malec entombed?â Casteel asked.
His mother walked over to where his father sat. âI do not know what the area would be called now, as so much of that land has changed in the years since. But it would not be hard to locate. Trees the color of blood, the likes of which grow at the Chambers of Nyktos and now flourish across the Skotos Mountains, will mark the land that entombs him.â
I gasped. âThe Blood Forest outside of Masadonia.â
Casteel looked at me and then at Kieran. âYou know something Iâve always wondered? Why the Blood Crown sent you to live in Masadonia when it would have been safer for you to be in the capital.â
As did I.
âBecause her blood wouldâve been too much of a lure to the Ascended, and she wouldâve been placed with someone the Crown trusted,â his father said, and my stomach twisted with nausea.
âIâve had serious doubts about the Blood Crownâs judgement, but if they trusted the Teermans, that shows a lack of awareness that is startling,â Casteel replied, smoothing his fingers down the center of my palm.
âBut they never fed from me,â I said. âAs much as I can remember.â
âNo, they abused you instead.â His tone hardened. âIâm not sure I see much of a difference between the two.â
âIâm sorry to hear that,â Queen Eloana said, lowering her now-empty glass to a table by the settee.
âIâ¦â My stomach tumbled some more as something occurred to me. âIs it possible that Ileana or Jalara learned where Malec was entombed?â
King Valyn inhaled deeply, and every part of me tensed even further. âI imagine they did. Itâs the only plausible explanation as to how Malec is your father.â
I stared at them.
Casteelâs fingers stilled against my hand. âAre you implying that the Ascended raised him? Because I never heard them mention him.â
âThey wouldâve had to have gotten to him before he died,â his father said. âBut even if it took only a century or two to learn that he was entombed there, it wouldâve taken a lot of Atlantian blood to bring him into any state of consciousness. And even then, he wouldâve beenâ¦not of the right mind. I doubt he would recover from such a thing in hundreds of years.â
My gods.
I pressed my other hand against my mouth. The implications were so horrifying, I couldnât speak.
âAnd when did you all suspect that he had risen?â Casteel asked softly.
âWhen we saw her at the Chambers. Saw what Alastir claimed for ourselves,â his mother said. âWe wouldâve talked to you immediately, butâ¦â
But there hadnât been time.
A wild sense of panic rose in me, thinning each breath I took. I fought past it as my heart thundered against my chest. None of this changed who I was. None of this changed who I would grow into. At the end of the day, these were just names and stories. They were not me.
I breathed a little easier.
âThe only way to know for sure if Malec has risen is to go to the Blood Forest,â Kieran stated. âAnd that would be damn near the definition of impossible with all the Craven there and how deep within Solis it is.â
âAnd what would be the point?â I asked, glancing at the wolven. âIt would only confirm what we already know to be true.â
Kieran nodded after a moment.
âWhy the blood tree?â I asked, looking over at Casteelâs parents. âWhy do they grow where my blood spills and Malec is or was entombed? Why did they change in the mountains?â
âTheâ¦the trees of Aios once bore crimson leaves,â Queen Eloana answered. âWhen the deities ruled over Atlantia. They changed to gold when Malec was dethroned.â
âAnd we think that when Casteel Ascended you, it changed something in you. Perhapsâ¦unlocking the rest of your abilities or completing some kind of cycle,â Valyn explained. âEither way, we believe the trees changed to reflect that a deity was now in line for the throne.â
âSoâ¦theyâre not a bad thing?â I asked.
A faint smile tugged at Queen Eloanaâs lips as she shook her head. âNo. They have always represented the blood of the gods.â
âAnd that is why I did not become an Ascended? Because of the blood of the gods, or that Iâ¦I was never truly mortal?â
âBecause you were never truly mortal,â King Valyn confirmed. âWho your mother is? What she is? She wouldâve had to be of elemental descent or of another bloodline, perhaps one that died out as far as we knew. And she wouldâve had to be oldânearly as old as Malec.â
I nodded slowly, realizing that there was no way Coralena was my birth mother unless she was somehow fully aware and party to what the Ascended were doing. I doubted that was the case, as I couldnât see any Atlantian being okay with that.
Or surviving long enough in the capital if the Blood Crown had moved me away from there because I wouldâve been too much of a lure.
âIt is possible,â Kieran began, looking past me to Casteel. âIsnât it? That another Atlantian was held by the Blood Crown?â
âThey were usually half-Atlantians, at least that I saw or heard of,â Casteel answered, his voice rough. âBut itâs not impossible that I just never knew or thatâ¦she was held at a different location.â
If that were the case, then was my birth motherâ¦forced into pregnancy? Raped by a deity out of his mind and somehow manipulated into the act?
Gods.
My hands trembled, and this time when Casteel released me, I pulled my hand free. I rubbed my palms over my knees.
âI hate asking this,â Casteel whispered, even though everyone in the room could hear him. âBut are you okay?â
âI feel like vomiting,â I admitted. âBut I wonât.â
âItâs okay if you do.â
A strangled laugh left me. âI also feel like I could very well become the Bringer of Death and Destruction that the masked Unseen called me.â I looked at him then. âI want to destroy the Blood Crown.â Tears filled my eyes. âI need to do that.â
Queen Eloana watched as his gaze searched mine. He nodded. He didnât speak, but there was a silent vow there.
It took me a few moments to find my ability to talk again. âWell, at least you can stop calling me a goddess. I am just aâ¦deity.â
A heartbeat passed, and a wide smile broke out across Casteelâs face. Both dimples made an appearance. âYou will always be a goddess to me.â
Feeling my cheeks warm, I sat back. A hundred or more questions roamed through my mind, but two came to the forefront. âHave you heard of any prophecies supposedly written in the bones of the Goddess Penellaphe that warn against a great evil that will destroy Atlantia?â
Casteelâs parents stared at me as if a third arm had grown out of my forehead and waved at them. It was his mother who snapped out of her stupor first. She cleared her throat. âNo. We donât have prophecies.â
âBut Iâm kind of curious about this one,â King Valyn murmured.
âItâs really dumb,â Kieran advised.
âIt is.â I glanced at Casteel before continuing. âDo you know if deities have toâ¦if they need blood? I did when I first woke up after Casteel gave me his blood, but I havenât felt aâ¦hunger for it since then.â
King Valynâs brows lifted. âAs far as I know, deities didnât need to feed.â He looked at his wife, who nodded. âOn the other hand, I do remember reading something long ago about gods needing to feed if theyâd been wounded or physically exerted themselves too much. Your need couldâve stemmed from receiving so much Atlantian blood,â he said, his brow furrowing. âThat couldâve been a one-off thing or something that becomes a necessity.â
Casteel smiled faintly as I nodded. The idea of drinking blood was still a strange thing for me to consider, but I could get used to it. I snuck a glance at Casteel. He would definitely get used to it.
His motherâs gaze met mine. âWould you like to take a walk? You and I?â
Casteel stiffened beside me, and inside me, my heart turned over heavily. âI donât know about that,â he said.
Sorrow spiked in his mother, bright and raw. âI only wish to get to know my daughter-in-law. There is no nefarious reason to the request, nor any other shocking news to share.â
There wasnâtâat least, I didnât sense hostility from her or dread, only sadness and maybe the nutty flavor of resolve. I wasnât exactly sure I was prepared to be alone with his mother. The mere idea made it feel like a hundred flesh-eating butterflies were in my chest, and that provided momentarily disturbing imagery.
âI promise,â his mother said. âShe has nothing to fear from me.â
âI donât,â I agreed, and she looked at me. âI donât fear you at all.â
And that was the truth. I was nervous, but that was not the same as fear.
The Queen stared for a moment and then smiled. âI would think not. My son would only choose a bride whose bravery equaled his own.â
The Queen of Atlantia and I walked a path made of ivory stone and lined with soaring blossoms a bluish-purple shade. We werenât alone, although it might appear that way at first to some. Hisa and another followed at a discreet distance. Kieran also followed, and I was sure Iâd spotted a flash of black when we first stepped onto the path. I believed that to have been Lyra, moving through the shrubs and trees.
âMy son isâ¦very protective of you,â Queen Eloana noted.
âHe is,â I said. Casteel hadnât exactly been thrilled when I agreed to walk with his mother. He worried, and I think he feared that she might say something that would hurt my feelings or perhaps overwhelm me. But I didnât expect instantaneous friendship from his mother, and I had grown accustomed to existing in a near-constant state of being overwhelmed.
And, honestly, what more could be shared that would be more shocking than what I had already learned? The fact that I was able to walk and think about anything else was proof that I had most likely moved beyond being overwhelmed.
âThough I have a feeling you are more than capable of protecting yourself,â she commented as she stared ahead.
âI am.â
There was a faint smile on her lips when I glanced over at her. âYou like gardens?â she asked, but it was more of a statement than a question.
âI do. I find them to be veryââ
âPeaceful?â
âYes.â I smiled tentatively. âDo you?â
âGods, no.â She laughed, and I blinked. âI am far tooâ¦what does Valyn say? Too frenetic to find peace among flowers and greenery. These gardens,â she said as she gestured with her arm, âare beautiful because Kirha has a green thumb and took pity on me. She enjoys spending hours removing spent blossoms, and I enjoy spending those hours distracting her.â
âI finally met Kirha today,â I ventured. âShe has been very kind.â
She nodded. âThat, she is.â
I took a deep breath and said, âBut I donât think you wanted to speak to me about Kirha.â
âNo.â Glancing at me, her gaze flickered over my face before returning to the pathway. Several moments passed. âI would love for us to talk about something normal and mundane, but that will not be today. I wanted you to know that we were aware of you when you were the Maiden, before Alastir returned with news of Casteelâs intention to marry you. Not that you were the child he hadâ¦met all those years ago. Only that there was a girl the Blood Crown claimed was Chosen by the gods, one they called the Maiden. Admittedly, it was not news we paid much attention to. We figured it was some ploy the Ascended had created to strengthen their claimsâtheir behaviors, like the Rite.â
âThere was supposedly another before me,â I commented after a moment. âHer name is not known, and it is said that the Dark One killed her.â
âThe Dark One?â she mused. âIs that not what they call my son?â
âIt is, but I know he didnât kill her. Iâm not even sure she existed.â
âI havenât heard of another. That doesnât mean one didnât exist,â she said as we neared the jacaranda trees. âYou were raised in Carsodonia?â
Clasping my hands together in front of me, I nodded. âAfter my parents were killed, I was.â
âIâm truly sorry to learn of your parentsâ deaths.â Empathy flooded my senses as she turned to the right. âAnd they were the ones who cared for youâthe ones you remember. They are your parents, Penellaphe.â
âThank you.â A knot formed in my throat as I glanced up at the cloudless, blue sky and then looked over at her. âIâm sure you know that I spent many years with Queen Ileana.â
Tension bracketed her mouth as she echoed, âIleana.â Her nostrils flared in distaste. âThe Queen of Blood and Ash.â