âSerira, you are amazing! Where did you get the courage to talk to the Emperor like that?â
Elene started complimenting Serira as soon as we returned to our room. I also joined in praising her. I had given her my applause along with Elene.
You were so cool. How could she just state right in front of the Emperorâs face that his hair was dirty?
Well, she was not wrong. That was dirty to me. Everything except the food was dirty!
âHuh? What?â
However, it seems that Serira had no clue why Elene was praising her. As Serira placed me in the crib, she cocked her head questioningly.
Huh?
âWhat you saidâ¦â
âWhat?â
âThat, thatâ¦â
Elene diligently tried to explain herself. Unfortunately, Serira had no idea what she was talking about and frowned.
Nanny, what sheâs trying to say was about that thing earlier! Agh! Why couldnât you just get it?! Earlier that, that.
âDirty. When you said dirty.â
Elene was so frustrated she hit herself on the chest. Only then did Serira seemed to understand what was going on. Her face lit up brightly then it turned sullen.
âSo, what about it? It was dirty.â
Huh? What?â I gave her a slightly surprised look.
Serira youâ¦
I knew you were amazing, but do you also have an attitude? The Emperor was laughing, but his face froze when you said his hair was dirty. Did she not see that?!
I honestly thought her head would fly off at that point. She also pulled me out of his arms without asking and wiped my mouth. After that, she checked inside my mouth in case there was any of his hair still stuck in thereâwhile she was right in front of Caitel.
Ah. Was that why she did not see his expression?
âPrincess, donât eat hair. Itâs dirty. Dirty.â
I looked into the green eyes that gazed into mine and cheerfully laughed.
Nope. I wasnât trying to eat it, but I was trying to chew it.
âSerira, you have an unexpectedly large liver.â
As I heard Elene mumbling to herself, I also agreed with her. I didnât know, but my nanny really was Superman. I had always assumed Serira would just shake and cower in front of Caitel, but it turned out I was wrong about her or was her concern for me so great she overcame her fear?
I felt slightly strange. Itâs true she was my nanny, but I was not her real child. How could she pour so much love onto someone elseâs child that was not her own? I felt a lump form in my throat.
âWhat are you saying? Stop talking nonsense and bring me a warm towel.â
Elene stuck out her bottom lip and left the room. Her expression was full of complaints, but I was so used to it by now. It looked cute to me which made me get serious.
To think someone would look cute to me, I was really out of my mind.
As soon as Elene left, Serira took a chair and sat near my crib. Then she proceeded to pat my chest as I laid there. When our eyes met, her eyes gently turned into half moons and she gave me a smile that was like a sunny spring day. It was a welcoming smile, like flowers swaying in the gentle breeze with plenty of dew drops sprinkled on them. Her smile was that peaceful.
âItâs great that the Emperor cherishes you so much.â
What theâ¦
Actually, Nanny, heâs not really cherishing me. Heâs just playing with me. On top of that, the bastard treated me like a thing. He said I was his. Heâs a funny Japong! I liked Jajangmyeon way better.
No, wait a minute that was not the point.
âPrincess, you only have your father on your side.â
Huh? What were you saying?
I slowly looked up at Serira. She was looking at me with a sorrowful expression, and her eyes were glazed with tears.
Why were you suddenly crying?
âItâs true the Emperor gets fingers pointed at him for being a tyrant, and other empires and kingdoms condemned him as a mass murderer and an invader, but this is not just his problem.â
I just quietly gazed into Seriraâs eyes. This frail and delicate lady was quietly explaining herself to me who couldnât possibly understand what she was saying. It was as if she was confessing her sins to God. To me, it seemed like the act of praying. I held back my breath and watched her.
Her face grew dark.
Her expression wasnât that of anger or fear, but rather, a sorrowful display.
âI wish for the Princess to grow up cherished and to be able to show the Emperor what true happiness is through the experience of raising and protecting what is his, rather than through the act of stealing other peopleâs things and stepping on them. That is what I hope for.â
Everything she said was things I couldnât possibly accomplish. They were all things I didnât know how to do myself. âWhat is the feeling of wanting to protect something, raising them, and getting to know them?â I looked far away as I got lost in my own thoughts.
For a second, Serira laughed so brightly, like the sun that chased away the darkness. At that warmth, I lost all the words I wanted to say. I was just melting away from all this gentleness.
âPrincess, you can surely do this, right?â
Why did you expect this from me?
I started to whine at this impossible situation when I couldnât say yes, but I felt like I shouldnât say no either. This was more difficult for me than the phenomena of the seven wonders of the world. Couldnât you ask me a question like, âWho do you love more, mommy or daddy?â Ask me that instead!
âSerira.â
For the first time since I met her, Elene did a good deed. As soon as Elene walked in, Serira stood up and took the towel from her. Then she cleaned my face and cheeks thoroughly. Her movements were gentle and full of consideration.
âI feel it all the time, but I feel you treat Princess Ariadna as if she were your own daughter.â
I guess Elene felt the same way I did as she observed Serira.
Serira laughed at Eleneâs admiration and took care of me with gentle fingers.
âShe is my daughter.â Her voice was firm and strong as she said this.
Ah, I shouldnât get emotional over every single thing.
Even as I said this, I knew it was too late and my heart was greatly moved. I tried to hide my tears by forcing myself to laugh.
Serira noticed my tears and assumed I was sleepy. Well, I was pretty sleepy.
âWhat about Mr. Graecito who is at your relativeâs place?â
Elene acted out of character and said something heavy. Perhaps watching Serira take care of me made her heart heavy.
Anyway, Graecito? Maybe thatâs the name of her son whom she left with her family. At the mention of her sonâs name that she didnât hear for a long time, Seriraâs face grew heavy.
Huh?
Then her cheeks started blushing and her suddenly lively face surprised me.
âActually, Iâm going to see him tomorrow.â
âOh, really?â
Oh, really, indeed. I want to ask her too. I tried to attract her interest by shaking my hand and foot at her. I guess Serira was shy because she just lowered her head and nodded a few times.
âAt most, itâs only for six hoursâ¦â
âIâm so happy for you!â
Elene clasped Seriraâs hands. I also wanted to grab her hands.
Itâs great! Itâs really great. I was always grateful to Serira for taking such good care of me, but as soon as I heard that she had to leave her own child behind at her home to take care of me I had felt an unknown feeling grow larger in the corner of my heart. However, I now felt it suddenly clear up.
The burden in my heart had lessened. Serira, I hope she would become happy someday. This was a thought that came naturally to me, and one which I carried with me at all times.
Thatâs right, this woman must become happy.
âOh my, the Princess is happy for you too.â
Thanks to Elene looking at me, Serira turned around to look at me too. Seeing my happiness, Serira looked like she would break out in tears any second.
âOur kind Princess.â
Serira held me up. As soon as she embraced me I kissed her cheek.
It was something I shouldnât be able to do yet due to my age, but I wanted to do it for her. Obviously, it was a big surprise for them.
âOh my! The Princess kissed you!â
Serira stared at me with a surprised face. I smiled back brightly.
Serira!
Elene was going nuts by her side. She threw a fuss saying âOur Princess is good!â and how she loved her âto deathâ and was âan angelâ but despite all these praises I just looked at Serira.
My pretty nanny, Serira. I really like you a lot.
âMy princessâ¦â
Her voice shook and there was a great change on her face. She was barely holding her tears in. I grabbed her hair which fell into my hands.
Donât feel pain. Donât cry. Please be happy, okay?
I guess she must have heard me because she didnât shed a single tear. She only laughed.
âTch.â
I heard Eleneâs voice come from my side. Both of us stared at Eleneâs face which was filled with jealousy.
âAre you jealous?â
âNo, no. Not at all.â
She is⦠I laughed. Oh, Elene, you are an idiot. Stupid, Elene, but I donât hate that moron, so I held out my hand.
âOh, oh, oh?!â
It was the first time I held out my hand out to her that Elene was caught off guard. She didnât know what to do and just stuttered with shocked eyes. Yeah, you find this strange right? I find it strange too.
âMa-Ma-â
âAh, Ah- is she calling me mom?â
What in the world? Iâm just yelling randomly, but Elene looked greatly moved. Hey! I wasnât calling you mom!
âUmmm Ahhh~â
After I screeched out one more time Eleneâs expression changed. Good. She understands now.
âSo she wasnât saying, mom.â
Serira laughed at Eleneâs tantrum. She caressed my head one more time and smiled brightly at Elene.
âShe seems happy.â
Elene walked up to us. She grabbed my hands that were hovering in the air. When I saw how small my hands were in her hands, even I thought my own baby hands were just too cute. Elene laughed nonsensically after seeing that I stuck out my bottom lip.
âOur Princess is just too cute!â
Elene exclaimed as she rushed toward me. Serira agreed with Elene.
âYes, youâre right.â