Nanxiâs fingers trembled slightly. The small piece of steak she had just cut had a good color after being dipped in tomato sauce, but as she looked at it, her appetite disappeared.
âIâm sorry, Nanxi. I didnât mean to bring all these up, Iâm justâ¦just feeling a bit overwhelmed and kind of shocked. I didnât expect Yinchu to have gotten married so quietly, and to an ordinary girl like youâ¦â
âOh, Iâm sorry, I didnât mean it that way. I just thought he would have married a well-matched and high-profile lady, given his status and positionâ¦â
âItâs okayâ¦â
Nanxi pulled a smile awkwardly, âI get your point, I do! Because, actuallyâ¦actually, Iâve felt the same way! Heâ¦is indeed exceptional, and I indeedâ¦am not a good match for him!â
âNanxi, I really didnât mean it that wayâ¦â
Han Qing furrowed her eyebrows, reaching to hold Nanxiâs hand. A glimmer of guilt flashed in her beautiful eyes, âIâm truly sorry, I mayâ¦may have spoken carelessly. Please donât take it to heart, Iâ¦I donât even know how to phrase it!â
âItâs really okay!â
Nanxi held Han Qingâs hand for a moment, as a form of reassurance.
But for her, beyond saying itâs okay, she had no idea what else to say!
And Han Qingâs confusion, itâs all because of Lu Yinchu, isnât it?
How shall I put it?
In fact, she can understand, how it feels when the man you like silently marries someone else, an inferior young girl at that!
Anyone in that case would feel wronged, wouldnât they?
Han Qing sighed in relief, feeling somewhat reassured, ââ¦Anyway, itâs good as long as you donât take it to heart. And the reason I came today is not to talk about this. Nanxi, we havenât known each other for very long, but I have a great impression of you, and I really like you. Indeed, youâre a girl who people canât hate. So, I really feel happy for Yinchu that he is with you!â
Nanxi pressed her lips together, forcing out a smile, ââ¦Thank you!â
Han Qing laughed, âWhat are you thanking me for? If anything, I should be the one thankingâ¦you probably know about this. Eight years ago, Yinchuâs sister passed away. Yinchu was seriously injured in that car accident. How he held on, only he knows best! Six years ago, when I came to this city and met him, I thought he was marvelous, and brilliant. Even if he was just sitting there silently, gazing blankly at everything around him, no one could take their eyes off himâ¦â
âYou know, heâs that kind of man. His entire being is full of charm, and many women adore him, whether itâs for his looks, temperament, appearance, wealth, or status! He is the perfect man in the eyes of all the women in H City, unique and irreplaceable! But who wouldâve thought that such a perfect-seemingly godlike man, his soul, was already full of scars, shatteredâ¦â
Han Qing, biting her lip, began talking with a hint of pain in her voice, âHe is a man who touches peopleâs heart, but heâs also a man who evokes heartache. However, he will not easily give others the chance to pity him. Unless you understand him, and have established a deep friendship with him, and are considered a friend by him, itâs hard for anyone to associate the word âpityâ with him!â
âSometimes when I think about it, I feel somewhat lucky to be his friend, and to be able to perceive his loneliness and helplessness from a close distance. That in itself is a kind of happiness. However, the sad thing is, all I could do was to watch silently. I couldnât offer any help, and I feel quite ashamed!â
Nanxi looked at her, not knowing what to say for a moment, and just quietly listened to Han Qingâs outpouring. Deep down, she felt a little uncomfortable.
No, not a little, a lot. She felt very, very uncomfortable!
Han Qing looked at Nanxi and flashed a faint smile, âSo Nanxi, you know? When I heard that you got married, and that Yinchu really likes you, I felt really, really happy for him from the bottom of my heart, and I was truly grateful to you! He has had too many tough and lonely years. He needs someone to be with him, to rescue his helpless soul and life. He has been in the dark and chaos for too long, he needs a touch of brightness, and he needs someone who can touch his heart to warm his ownâ¦and that person turned out to be you.â