âDo you want to see?â Lu Yinchu kissed her face and asked her.
Nanxi nodded, âI want to understand you! Lu Yinchu, you were the one who said to give me the chance to understand you!â
Lu Yinchu pursed his lips, his gaze deep and quiet, with an inscrutable thing hidden within. He laid his right hand on his left, a pair of hands with distinct and handsome knuckles.
He said, âNanxi, do you know? I put on this ring eight years ago on the day of Xiaoyueâs farewell ceremony. For the first two years, my little finger received treatment, the ring was taken off countless times and also put back countless timesâ¦â
âFeelings? There was numbness, there was sharp pain, but after countless repetitions, I found that I seemed to prefer the piercing pain over numbness. So, six years ago, I gave up treatment, put this ring back on my little finger, and never took it off againâ¦â
Nanxiâs eyes trembled slightly as she watched him slowly take off the ring.
Perhaps because he had worn it for so long, he had some difficulty, his brow furrowed, probably because he was in pain.
â¦His little finger can still feel pain, which means the nerve is still there, itâs not that it canât be cured, but that he doesnât want to be cured!
After straining, the ring was finally removed. Nanxi saw another scar left by a cut on his little finger, the shape of the ring imprinted on the scar, slightly whitenedâ¦
Her eyelashes trembled, she reached out her hand but did not touch it in the end, asking him softly, âDoes it hurt?â
âIt doesnât hurtâ¦â he replied quietly with pursed lips, âI canât feel the pain anymore!â
Nanxi felt her breath stagnating. He said it had stopped hurting, but she felt pain, all over her body, as if she couldnât breathe!
âCan you tellâ¦how it got injured?â she asked.
âThat day, it must have been a coincidence! I personally took Weihuan, who had been skipping classes, to school, I was on my way back to the company when I got caught in a traffic jam. Someone said there was a car accident ahead, but I didnât pay attention, I just felt inexplicably irritated until the radio in the car broadcasted the accident report. When the host read out the license plate number, I froze because it was Xiaoyueâs car, the car I had given her, I rememberâ¦â
âI donât remember how I felt at that moment, I pushed the car door open and ran towards the traffic jam. I fell on the way, but I knew I had to get to Xiaoyue, I had toâ¦By the time I arrived, the police were trying to pull Xiaoyue out of the twisted car, she was covered in bloodâ¦â
Lu Yinchu reached out to rub his forehead, his voice becoming unstable. Nanxi felt a ripple in her heart, she wanted to comfort him, but she didnât know what to sayâ¦
âI donât know what I was thinking at the time, I rushed forward, pushed away those police officers and held Xiaoyue. The police pulled me away, they said I could get hurt, but I didnât care, I just wanted to save Xiaoyue. I finally pulled her out, but then the twisted car suddenly turned over and was going to hit Xiaoyue. I didnât give it a second thought, I held her in my armsâ¦and then, my shoulder was wounded by the car door, my little finger was cut by the carâs glassâ¦â
âIn fact, I have forgotten many details! All I remember is that the ambulance came later and took Xiaoyue and me to the hospital. I didnât want to let go of her because I felt that if I let her go, she would leave, so I had to hold on to herâ¦â
âXiaoyue died on the way to the hospital, she died in my armsâ¦â
Lu Yinchu took a deep breath, â Actually, I used to think that life had a vulnerable side but it also had its strength! I was never afraid of death, nor was I a coward. But when Xiaoyue slowly stopped breathing in my arms, I realized how foolish I was! Then I realized how stupid I wasâ¦â
âNanxi, can you feel that? In the eyes of everyone, you are omnipotent. In the eyes of your family, you are also the most stable and trustworthy existence. But when the loved one you love is about to leave this world, you are powerlessâ¦Thereâs nothing you can do, but just watch her leave this worldâ¦Nanxi, can you feel it?â
Nanxi was sobbing by now, but she tried hard not to let her tears fall!
She knew that at this moment, Lu Yinchu needed her support and reliance!
Lu Yinchu held the ring, sighed softly and said, âThis ring, was given to me by Xiaoyue in the year she turned seventeen, she said it represented cherish and trust. The person she wanted to give it to was the most important and trustworthy person in her life! She playfully asked me not to tell Mo Yanâ¦â
Lu Yinchu gave a self-deprecating smile, âBut the brother she considered important and most trustworthy, couldnât protect her, leading to her young life ending forever at the age of nineteenâ¦I let Xiaoyue down, do you know? Nanxi, I let her downâ¦â
âNoâ¦â Nanxi bit her lip, her hands tightly gripping Lu Yinchuâs hand!
She knew he was holding back, holding back the sadness, the heart-wrenching pain, and he was about to be unable to bear itâ¦
Nanxi felt a pang in her heart, biting her lip she said, âLu Yinchu, listen to me, itâs not like what you think, Xiaoyueâs departure was an accident, it really wasnât your fault! There are dangers in this world, we are humans, not gods, we canât predict everything or save everything, so donât blame yourself, please donât blame yourself, Lu Yinchu!â
âNoâ¦â Lu Yinchu shook his head, âXiaoyueâs death, itâs more than just an accident. That day, she was feeling ill and originally planned to stay at home and not go out. The doctor had also instructed her to rest at homeâ¦If she hadnât gone out, she wouldnât have had the accident, she wouldnât have diedâ¦She wasnât supposed to leave the house initially, she wasnâtâ¦â
Lu Yinchuâs voice was very soft, but cold. He held Nanxiâs hand tightly, her hand hurt from his pressure, but she said nothing, just staring at him in astonishment!
âLu Yinchu, whatâ¦are you sayingâ¦I donât quite understand, if Xiaoyue was feeling unwell that day and was not planning to go out, then why did she go out?â
âBecause, someone called herâ¦â Lu Yinchu covered his face with his hand, his voice was soft, trembling slightly.
âBecause someone called her, so she had a reason to leave the house. Because of that phone call, Xiaoyue, who was feeling unwell, drove outâ¦â
âWho?â Nanxi asked, her voice trembling, âLu Yinchu, who called Xiaoyue and made her go out? Whoâ¦â
âQi Qun, Weihuanâs mother!â