Yang Su was taken aback, "So...so why donât you mention that even among the bad people, there might still be a little good in their thoughts, not all of them are evil... so the chances, half and half..."
Chang Linsheng chuckled, took another deep puff of tobacco, and said lightly, "If I look back ten years ago, to a girl like you, I only have two words to comment!"
"What?"
"Naïve!"
"..."
It took a moment for Yang Su to realize that Chang Linsheng was calling her naïve. Angered, she retorted, "Hey, who are you calling naive? Where am I naive? Say it, where am I naive?"
Chang Linsheng laughed with a "hehe," "Youâre still so young. Didnât you understand what I meant with half of what I just said?"
"..."
"Ten years ago, I thought you were naive, but now, I just think you, are quite spiritual!"
"...Spiritual?" (âoâ).
Chang Linsheng said, "You know? Girl, society is complex, there are no absolutely good or bad people, but thereâs a saying, donât harbor ill intentions towards others, but always keep your guard up. So, in the future, be more cautious, donât trust people so easily, even me, you shouldnât trust so easily!"
Yang Su was a little surprised, "Why? Youâre included too?"
"Of course!" Chang Linsheng turned his head to look at her, "Let me ask you, do you know me? Do you know what kind of person I am? What have I done in the past? What kind of life Iâve lived? Have I ever felt desperate? Have I been sad? Have I done bad things? Have I made mistakes? ....Do you know any of this?"
"..." Yang Su remained silent because she truly, did not know!
Chang Linsheng smiled faintly, "In that case, how can you be sure that I am a good person? Because I am Yinchuâs friend? Huh! Let me tell you, I havenât seen Yinchu, Shaojing for several years now, I have been in S City for five years, and I practically havenât contacted them during these five years. They might not know what has happened to me, they cannot know, let alone you."
"So what?"
Yang Suâs eyes flickered as she retorted, "So, you mean, I blindly trusted you without knowing you, and in your eyes, this is laughable, right?"
The man just slightly furrowed his brows and did not speak. Apparently, he had no intentions of denying it!
Yang Su continued, "Well, what if I told you that I came out with you so abruptly not because youâre Lu Yinchuâs friend, not because I had the presumptuous belief that I knew you and we were friends, but simply because of my gut feeling, just because I wanted to be with you, what would you think?"
With a harsh screeching of brakes, the car came to an abrupt stop. Yang Su was stunned and turned her head to find a figure looming over her.
In the darkness, the man exhaled a faint tobacco scent that filled her breath. Her heart raced as she remained still.
He was so close to her, so close that she felt if she spoke, she could kiss his lips. She felt her breath faltering, a warmth spreading from the bottom of her heart, her face, ears, palms were all hot, very hot!
"So, girl, youâre saying that youâve fallen for me?" The man spoke, the scent of the tobacco he expelled almost made her sink·into it!
Yang Su bit her lip, not knowing how to respond. Her mind was a mess, her brain was buzzing, she was unable to think!
She remained silent!
"So, would you dare to come to my apartment?"
"...What?" Yang Su was stunned, she could hardly believe what she was hearing!
A warm hand caressed her cheek, the manâs dark eyes looked down, his long eyelashes almost touching her eyes.
He smiled, a playful smile, "Why? Isnât it because you like me? You like me, but youâre afraid to sleep·with me? Is that what you call liking?"
"..." Yang Su was dumbstruck!
"Oh, right, I forgot to ask! Have you had a boyfriend before? Still a virgin? Hmm, if yes, then it would be troublesome! Because I have a principle, I donât get involved with virgins, because I donât like women who canât let go of me. If we get along, weâll sleep together, if we donât, we wonât. I like straightforward women, and virgins often are not. You should understand, thatâs just how men are..."
Yang Su bit her lip as he finished each word in a soft voice. Despite the gentle tone, it felt like a spear hitting her heart, making it fall, chilling her to her core!
"Susu, actually, I like you quite a lot too, so, are you willing to go back to my apartment with me?"
His finger lightly pressed against her pink lips, his handsome face moved a bit closer, it looked like he was about to kiss Yang Suâs lips. Startled, she acted without thinking, pushed him away, and said, "Donât touch me!"
Yang Su was surprisingly strong, pushing Chang Linsheng away, creating a distance between the two.
Yang Su sat there, panting and clutching her chest. Her eyes were gritty and dry, but, there were no tears!
Chang Linsheng glanced at her once, then returned to his seat, lit a cigarette, and started smoking!
"Iâm sorry!"
His voice was tinged with a hint of indifference as he expelled a ring of smoke.
Yang Su remained silent, but her heart hurt a little.
No, not a little. It hurt a lot!
"Actually, donât be surprised. This is pretty typical of men! Especially someone like me, whose wife is living abroad permanently and I am a single man living alone in this country! I have needs, and there are many girls like you who take the initiative to come forward. If I find you attractive, I wonât refuse!"
Yang Su turned her head, a hint of surprise flashed in her eyes:
What did he say just now? His wife is abroad? Heâs married?
"So, did you notice, young lady? I am not a good person. If you want to have a normal relationship, to experience a romantic thrill, you should find a young man who is around your age, not someone like me. Any relationship I have with you would inevitably end up in bed. Moreover, I am a married man; I wonât take you seriously!"
"So, are you deliberately saying this to force me to break up with you, am I right?" Yang Su bit her lip and stammered out her question.
Chang Linsheng laughed. "Donât you believe me? Haha. You can ask your friend, Gu Nanxi, Lu Yinchuâs wife. She knows it. What else do you want to know?"
"They said, you have no women... and there are also no dating rumors in the newspaper. I donât believe youâre such a casually love-seeking man!" She clung to the last shred of hope, though the hope was very dim, very faint!
Chang Linsheng said, "Do you believe any man who cheats on his wife would publicly announce his affair? On top of that, even though my wife is abroad, that doesnât mean she would agree with my misbehavior. I naturally have to hide it..."
Yang Su bit her lip and kept silent, her eyes welled up with tears, but she held back her crying!
Chang Linsheng took a deep breath of his cigarette, glanced at his wristwatch, and sighed. "Anyway, Iâm so sorry! I was planning to take you to eat supper at Qin Lake tonight. That place is indeed romantic. Iâve taken many women there, and they all liked it, especially girls of your age... but I think youâve lost your appetite by now. Itâs fine, you can go there with your future boyfriend someday. Now, let me take you home!"
Chang Linsheng started the car, his eyes clouded over, unfathomable!
And Yang Su, sitting beside him, couldnât comprehend what was swirling around in her mind.
She only felt dizzy, bewildered, and spun so out of control that she didnât know what to do next!
Not until the car pulled up under Yang Suâs apartment building did her senses return!
Chang Linsheng got out of the car and gentlemanly opened her door.
His handsome face was illuminated with soft moonlight, little different from the person she always knew!
But to Yang Su, he seemed so surreal at that moment!
She thought, perhaps he was indeed unreal, only a figment of her own dreams! Just a dream!
And now, the dream has ended, itâs brutal, hence, it was a nightmare!
Yang Su got out of the car, the wind blew against her face. It was cold. She wore a thin skirt, which she had put on specifically for him. But what kind of person did he see her as? It doesnât matter anymore!
The important thing is, he had never truly seen her. Never!
Chang Linsheng stubbed out his cigarette, his lean lips pressed together. Something in his black gaze that Yang Su didnât understand.
Yang Su felt that his eyes probably contained many things, but none of them was her!
Chang Linsheng said, "Young lady, youâre a good girl. I shouldnât have treated you like this before, Iâm sorry! Stop overthinking and get a good nightâs rest! My turn to go. Goodbye!"
Having said so, he got into his car and drove away. Throughout all this, Yang Su remained silent, only standing woodenly in place, watching as the manâs car gradually got farther and farther away, so far that she could no longer see it!
Just as his car rounded the corner and disappeared from sight, her eyes heated up, and tears rolled down her cheeks instantly. As if her contained emotions also collapsed at that moment, she covered her face, squatted on the ground, and began sobbing uncontrollably!
Not far from the turn, a white sports car was parked by the roadside, under a tree, a man with a frosty look stood.
With his hands in his pockets, he gazed distantly at the sobbing girl under the dim streetlamp from afar, his black eyes edged with a touch of melancholy that was hard to shake off!
[Three more updates. Kisses, begging for monthly votes, asking for recommendations, goodnight everyone!]