Jisoo's heart filled up with nostalgia, tear-steams and the hint the of flattery. The memories came rushing and started fluttering in her mind and soul. This letter from Jungkook, the reservoir of the past, is taking Jisoo away from her present.
Jisoo recalled her forgotten past, the erased memories that kept her alive when she was only 10, a lonely little princess who used to face immense fear often. She got lost one day while roaming around with Seokjin in the forest, she started to cry, the day would be the worst day in the her, if she didn't meet Kookie.
She remembered how she passed her days with him, the moments were for ever. She was afraid, he taught her how to be brave, she was weak, he taught her how to fight, she was lonely, he taught her how to live the life even if someone's not along with. She was nothing without him.
But one day also came when she had to forget him. She was forced, she couldn't reach him ever in her life. She fthis.into silence and darkness. She faced problems, but still, no one in this world ever could give her permission to go there and meet him. He was waiting, but she failed.
From that day, Jisoo minimized her conversations with everyone, always remained out of the world, thinking something specific and special. She didn't understand why she was feeling like this.
She conquered, this is called love. She loves him.
But, as the time passed, she was forced to believe that it was nothing but a childhood crush. She believed, but not from inside her heart. She wrote all the moments in a diary and always used to keep the bracelet with her that used to remind of her childhood love.
Her family engaged her in various works without her consent and tried hard to erase everything. Her memories started to blur as she raised up to be a teenager and then an adult. But, she always kept the bracelet with her, not because she clearly tried to remember him, but because she always felt a deep connection to it. She felt happy whenever she is with the bracelet, it was one of the fancy thing to her.
Because of the blurry memories, she couldn't really recognize Jungkook when he saw his childhood photos after Jungkook forcefully took her to the tower, she felt that the pictures are very familiar to her, but failed to recall that it's Kookie. It's because of the unclear memories but also, she never thought that Jungkook could be her Kookie.
Jisoo closed her eyes in anticipation feeling all of the memories mixed with mist, her heart is beating fast right now thinking how complicated the situation is.
Jungkook is her past, her Kookie, Jisoo's unlikely to trust, but this is the truth, and no one can change it. When she already moved on from her past losing all hopes to get him back, while starting to forget everything, he came back in her life like a windstream.
When she's already in love with someone who feels everything to her, she's just getting to know that the person whom he hated the most in her life is her past love. What can be more mazed and pathetic like this, when she loved someone and lost him for some unknown reason, moved away with an unbelievable difficulty and fell in love with someone else, yet special and the most beloved, but the one she loved first and hated first unknowingly, comes back and loves like the same?
Jisoo's heart started to raise up and go down, she fell from ber standing position and sat on the floor as she felt like spinning her head.
I can't take it anymore, I hated the person whom I once loved in the past. But, I love my Kookie, not Jungkook!" Jisoo thought. Though the two persons are the same, Jisoo feels broad difference between Jungkook and his past life. Kookie is a kind and soft hearted boy, but Jungkook? He is a ruthless guy!
"No, he can't be Kookie! He's lying! He's confusing me! He is trying to divert! I hate this! I hate him!" Jisoo dropped a tear from her eye and she threw away Jungkook's diary.
She held her head with her hands. Somewhere is her heart started to hurt. Her heart only hurts when she feels extreme pain of regretting something. But, right now, Jisoo only have hatred for Jungkook. Then why is she feeling like this, when she neither loves him, nor regrets hating him.
"You can't have any feelings for him, Jisoo! You're only Taehyung's," Jisoo forced herself to think it in her mind.
"He was just your past, but right now, he is nothing but a random memory that happened without any reason, and it doesn't make any sense," Jisoo uttered to her inner self.
She closed her eyes and rest her head on the wall, while her tears streamed from the corner of her eyes. She breathed heavily.
She ignored and shrugged off her feelings. She stood up with all of her energy and went out of the room. She stepped ahead, her destination is the bedroom.
As she went near the room, she heard sounds coming from the room. Taehyung is inside, Jisoo thought and smiled bright. She wiped away her tears well so that he doesn't get any hint that she cried.
She stepped inside happily and saw Taehyung placing some flowers and equipping it beautifully on the table.
"Jisoo! You came? I was looking for you, baby," Taehyung said with a boxy smile as his eyes sparkled.
Jisoo went nearer and encircled her hands around his neck and back-hugged. "What are you doing?" Jisoo said in a cute way while pouting.
"I brought flowers for my darling," he said and he finished decorating the flowers. He looked back while capturing her waist.
Jisoo suddenly uttered, "I feel sick while standing, Tae. Let's rest together on the bed."
"Yeah, let's go," Taehyung held her hand and led her to the bed. They lied-down together. Jisoo felt comfort when she placed her head on Taehyung's chest.
"Jisoo?" Taehyung called Jisoo in a low tone. "Hmm," Jisoo replied. "How is my little baby?" Taehyung asked at which she placed her hand on the abdomen.
"Why Tae? Why? Why do you care so much about the baby? It reminds me of Jungkook," Jisoo thought and stared blankly being lost in her thoughts.
"Jisoo? Are you ok?" Taehyung asked as he caressed Jisoo's forehead and head.
"Huh!? Yeah, I'm......I'm fine," she said nervously as she's afraid to make Taehyung worried about her.
"Hummmm...., actually, I was thinking about the name of our child," Taehyung said out of the blue at which Jisoo smiled, but in her mind she is thinking something else.
"You're so kind-hearted, Tae. That's why I love you. You deserve to be loved. I will love you forever and always. But, I'll always struggle to believe my fate," Jisoo said in her mind.
But again, when she reminds of the baby, she reminds of Jungkook, "I loved you, Jungkook. But just unknowingly, both of us hated each other. I don't wanna love you again, but I don't wanna hurt you too."
Jisoo fell deep into her tunicated feelings, not knowing when will be the time coming fixing everything.
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"When It's too long, you can't help, unless it's in your destiny."-Aphorism
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Hey guys!! Sorry for short chapter.