"We are all gathered here for the death of one of our loved ones."
"She was a beautiful bright soul,a mother and a awesome friend..Miss Jayda Lynn Sikes"
"She was taken from us way to early in life by the violence in these streets"
"We all are here to pay our respects towards her family and friends and even her son Jahlan who now doesn't even have a mother"
"Let's Pray"
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7Months Later.
Cj
"Hello?"I said into the phone with tiredness in my voice.
"Cj you have to come to the hospital quick!"Havana yelled into the phone.
"Calm down, Wassup?"
"She's awake!"She screamed and I dropped my phone on the floor instantly.
"Hello? Nigga I know you heard me."I heard her say and I picked my phone back up.
"On my way"I said and hung the phone up.
I rushed downstairs to get my car keys and ran out of the house. I quickly hopped in my car and zoomed off towards the hospital.
I pulled in the hospital parking lot and parked my car and hopped out. Once I walked inside I walked up to the girl at the front desk.
"Hey I'm here to see Jayda Lynn Sikes"I told her.
She looked up from her phone and popped her gum at me "Room two twenty"She said smacking her gum.
I went over to the elevator and went to the second floor.
When I got to her room I hesitated on opening the door,but I still did because I wanted to see my baby.
When I got in there she was sitting up with Jahlan on her lap playing with her. She looked over at me and start crying.
"Hey lil mama"I said walking over to her bed.
I tried giving her a hug but she pulled away from me. I looked up at Havana with a confused look on why Jayda was acting like that.
"Come with me"She said and we both walked out into the hallway.
"Yo why she acting like that? What I do?"I furrowed my eyebrows.
"She's acting like that because she doesn't want to be around you Cj..."Havana trailed off.
"The fuck you mean she doesn't want to be around me?"
"She feels that you are putting her and Jahlan in danger"She answered.
"What? I'm not putting nobody in danger!"I snapped.
"Cj yes you did. My bestfriend almost lost her life because she was in the car with you,and her son was back there"She said "Now she needs her space. Can you at least give her that?"
"Space? Nah man let me talk to her"I said trying to walk back into the room but Havana pushed me back.
"I said no. Give her some space she just woke up from a seven month old coma"She said sternly.
I saw the look on her face and backed up some "I'll give her some space or whatever the fuck she wants,but one day she is going to have to speak to me"I said then stormed off.
Jayda.
"I told him and he didn't take that to well"Havana huffed walking back over to the chair she was sitting in.
"Well I don't care how he feels, I almost died"I said with a tear escaping my eye.
"It's okay your right"She agreed.
I looked up over at her and studied her body "Havana you pregnant?"
She start cheesing super hard and she rubbed her stomach "Yes I am"
"Ahh yesss finally"I smiled at her "How many months?"
"About five"She answered.
"That's good"I smiled.
"Enough about me. How do you feel?"
"My head hurts the doctors said I have a concussion,and my whole left side of my body is paralyzed"
"Paralzyed? What do you mean"
"Girl you know what the hell paralyzed is,but it's temporary I have to go to physical therapy"I said.
"Well I can always take you to your appointments just let me know"She shrugged and I nodded.
I looked down at my son who was know asleep in my arms. He was so big since the last time I saw him, He was all big and juicy and he had a head full of big fluffy curls. He also got his skin color which was a beautiful brown color just like mine.
"I wish I was there to see him get this big"I said with a tear escaping my eye.
"Hey"Havana said putting her hand on my lap "Don't be sad it's just a blessing that your alive and you made it. Now you can watch your little boy grow."She smiled.
I looked up and smiled at her. "Your right, this means a fresh start"
There was a knock on my room door and then came in a mocha color lady with a blazer and a pencil skirt on. Her hair was in a neat bun and she had on cherry red lipstick with some more makeup on.
"Hi Miss.Sikes it's so glad to see that your awake"She smiled at me.
"Who the fuck is you?"Havana said looking the lady up and down.
"I'm detective Porter"She answered.
"Well nice to meet you and all,but why you here?"I asked.
"Well you were shot and was in a coma,and I'm here to investigate this"She said "I'm just here to ask you a few questions that's all"She took out a notepad and a pen.
"Um nah you don't need to investigate anything"I said.
I didn't want to throw Cj under the bus and have the feds after him, Yea I was mad with him but I don't mess with the pigs.
"Well keep in touch"She handed me a card with her name and phone number on it,then walked out.
Marsha Porter I said to myself.
"Hey look girl I'm about to head out, I'll be back over here later on."Havana said getting up.
"Okay"I answered her. She walked over and kissed my cheek and then walked out of my room.
I laid back and lifted Jahlan up on my chest the best I could. As soon as I was about to close my eyes Tyrone and Malinda busted in my room.
What the fuck do they want.
"Why y'all here?"I asked sitting up again.
"Oh Thank Goodness your alive"Malinda said running up and hugging me.
I nudged her off of me and looked at her like she was crazy "Get off of me, the fuck wrong with you?"
"Hey watch your mouth, that is your mother"Tyrone said sternly.
"She's not my mother and you not my father. Now why are y'all here?"
"We heard what happened...We were worried"Malinda answered with sincere eyes.
I waved her off "Girl whatever, you weren't worried about shit"I said rocking Jahlan some since he was starting to wake up.
"Look Jayda I know that we weren't the best of parents in the past, but c'mon let's just restart"Tyrone said sitting next to my bed.
I looked over at the both of them and could tell the worried expressions on their faces.
"Look"I sighed "I will try to put our differences aside,because you guys after everything at the end of the day you raised me"I shrugged.
"Oh my God I'm so happy"Malinda said clapping.
I just rolled my eyes. Jahlan woke up and start looking around with his big brown eyes.
"What's his name again?"Malinda asked smiling down at my baby.
"Jahlan"I answered.
She picked him up and start playing with his little fingers "Hi little Jahlan, I'm your nana"She cooed.
"Um actually Pierce mom is his nana, that's who watched him while I was in my coma"I told her.
"Oh well um I'm your grandma"She said to Jahlan and he just looked at her.
"Maybe he can come stay with us one day?"Tyrone asked and I shook my head.
"Um no not yet. No disrespect or anything but I don't trust you two with my child"I said.
"That's understandable, just whenever your ready sweetie"Malinda said bouncing Jahlan up and down.
"Wanna smile for Grandmommy?"Malinda said pulling her phone out and trying to take a picture of Jahlan but all he did was just sit there looking at her with a straight face.
"Here..Let me see him"I said and she put him back in my lap.
He cuddled up closer to me and fell right back to sleep.
"Where is Cam?"I asked them and they both sighed.
"We don't know actually..."My dad trailed off.
"What the fuck"I lashed out "What you mean you can't find him?"
"After you were shot, He just ran away"Malinda shrugged.
"And y'all didn't think to find him?"I asked looking at them like they were crazy.
"Well no..."Tyrone trailed off.
"Y'all are a sad excuse for parents. Just leave"I said shaking my head.
"That's fine, just know Jayda that social services will be knocking on your door"Malinda said and then they both walked out.
I wasn't even listening to what they were saying, I was just worried about my little brother.
I saw my phone on the little side table and reached for it. Once I got it I went to Cam's contact and pressed on it.
"Come on pick up pick up"I said to myself.
"Hello?"He answered on the last ring.
"Cam? That's really you?"I asked with relief in my voice.
"Jayda?your awake?"
"Yes I'm awake. Where are you?"I asked biting on my bottom lip some.
It was always a habit for me to do that or chew my finger nails I don't know why I just always find myself doing it.
"Your apartment"He answered.
My eyes bucked at his answer "What you mean you at my apartment?"
"I've been hiding out here from Tyrone and Malinda. I hate them Jayda I want to live with you"He pleaded.
"And you will, but you have to be patient Cam."I assured him "I have to get better first"
"I know I know, but can I still stay here? I don't want to go home"
I sighed in defeat and said "Yea Cam you can stay, but when I come home in two days my house better be clean I'm not playin" I said and he chuckled.
"Will do, Oh and Cj came by here"
"He did? What he say?"I asked a little annoyed to hear about Cj.
"Oh he's sitting here right now"Cam answered me and I swear my heart dropped to my ass.
"What? Cam you have him in my house?"
"Um yes, Cj took care of me while you were in a coma. He helped me to school and was paying your rent, he even took me to all my basket ball practices"He answered me.
I start feeling a littlw guilty for doing Cj the way I did, but still I want me and my son safe.
"Whatever. I will talk to you later, Don't forget to tell Cj thank you"I said and then hung the phone up.
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2 Weeks Later....
"Ahhh godammit"I yelled out in pain.
"Your almost there Miss.Sikes just push a little more"My physical therapist said.
"I can't!"I yelled out.
"Yes you can Jayda! You got that arm back to life, your so close to getting your leg back"She coached.
I took a deep breathe and start trying to raise my leg again "Uh uh I can't I can't"I said giving up and shaking my head.
"Well that's okay. We are going to start again Friday, Now you have a good rest of the week"She smiled and helped me off of the chair.
I got back into my brace and headed for the exit. I checked my phone to see if Havana was outside and I saw I had a text message from her.
Havanað-Sorry, I had go run some important errands. I got somebody else to come pick you up.
12:30 P.M.
I wondered who she had to come get me. I walked outside and saw that familiar car, then I saw him leaning against it looking good and all.
I rolled my eyes and start walking towards Cj. He opened the car door for me and I saw that James and Tristan was in the backseat arguing with one another.
"So out of all people Havana asked you to come get me?"I asked with annoyance in my voice.
"Yea, is that a problem?"He looked over at me with a smirk.
"Nope. Not at all."
"Man scoot yo langy body ass over"James said pushing Tristan leg's.
"Bitch quit I gotta have my legs opened, My balls be hurting"Tristan said and I shook my head.
"Do yall ever just stop arguing?"I asked looking back at them.
"You know them niggas fight like their kids. They childish like that"Cj cut in.
"Oh" I said all dry like.
He looked over at me and chuckled bitterly. "Yea aight"He mumbled.
He sped up some more and turned down a road and the car leaned to the side some.
"Yea just drive anymore reckless Cj"I snapped fixing myself back up in the seat.
"The fuck is your problem?"
"Nothing, Can you take me to Pierce mama house so I can get my baby."
He sucked his teeth and sighed "Yea I got you"He said and turned around.
When we got there. I quickly hopped out and walked to the door the best I could. I rung the doorbell and Pierce mom came to the door.
"Oh Hi Jayda"She smiled "How was therapy?"
"It could be better"I shrugged.
"Oou who is he? He's cute"She said looking past me and I turned around and saw Cj standing behind me on his phone.
"Oh that's Cj. He's my friend"I answered.
Cj looked up from his phone and sucked his teeth "Friend my ass"He mumbled.
I cut my eyes at him and gave him a death glare.
"Well come on in. I know you guy's are cold"She said and we both walked in.
As we walked in Pierce was playing the game while Jahlan was sitting in his lap trying to take the controller out of his hand.
"Tootie"I said walking over and he looked up at me and gave me a big gummy smile. I sat down next to Pierce and grabbed him.
"Wassup Cj"Pierce said and Cj looked at him weird before giving him a head nod.
Cj still doesn't like Pierce for being disrespectful towards me during my pregnancy but I've learned to just forgive and forget. Plus at least he's here for Jahlan now and that's all that matters.
"Um Jayda we better get going"Cj said looking at his phone.
I rolled my eyes and Pierce grabbed Jahlan and Cj walked over and helped me up.
"I'm fine you don't need to help me"I said pushing his hand away from me.
He shot me a glare before backing up and taking Jahlan out of Pierce's arms.
He put Jahlan in his carseat and stormed out of the house.
"Trouble in Paradise"Pierce said and I cut my eyes at him.
"It's nun of your damn business, and we're not together. Now move out my way"I said pushing past him and walking out of the house.
When I got in Cj's car I made sure I slammed the door.
"Damn, what the fuck?"James said from the backseat.
"Shut up James. Not in the mood"
"Yo I don't give not two fu-"He stopped and I looked back at him.
"Nah finish what you gotta say."I challneged him.
"Cj get yo girl man she buggin the fuck out right now"He said eyeing me.
"Not my girl"Cj answered
"Yea nigga you forgot he back with baby mama"Tristan said and I scoffed.
"Nigga I'm not with Amari. Just got a baby with her"Cj defended.
"Not yo kid but okay."James said.
"Can you all just shut the fuck up? Take me home"I said completely annoyed.
It kinda hurt a little bit wat what Tristan said because I did have feelings for Cj and kinda still do.
"Yea I'll take you home, but I have to drop them off first"Cj answered and the rest of the car ride was silent.
When he dropped Tristan and James off. He headed towards my apartment complex.
"Thanks"I mumbled and got out of the car. He got out as well and got Jahlan's carseat.
"Didn't need your help"I said and he sucked his teeth.
"You do need my help, What was you gone do? Carey him up there yourself?"
"Um yes"I rolled my neck.
"Jayda your crippled you was gone drop lil man on the damn stairs"He said and I rolled my eyes.
"Wouldn't be crippled,but I am because of you"I said under my breathe.
"Look man I'm really trying..."He trailed off.
"Well I don't need you too"I said back smartly.
"No I'm trying so hard not to pop you in the mouth. I already know how you feel about me, but you cannot fucking blame everything on me!"He snapped back.
"Yes I can!"I retorted "You put me in danger, What if one of those bullets hit Jahlan?"
"You know that wouldn't have a happened"
"It could've. Stop being so damn reckless and just think some damn times. I was put in a fucking coma! I almost lost my life, What if I died!"
"But You wasn't!"
"But I could've!"I yelled back at him "My baby wouldn't even have a mother"I said opening the door.
"Jayda look I won't put you in anymore danger. I swear"
"How do I know your not lying?"I asked with a tear escaping my eyes.
"Have I ever lied to you before?"He asked and I shook my head.
"I just need time to think Cj"I said wiping my eyes.
"So what you trynna say?"
"I'm saying that you just needa leave me alone until I get my mind together"I said looking down at the ground.
"Look me in the eyes and say that"He said lifting my head up.
I looked him in his eyes and then he reached in and kissed me. "Now tell me that"He whispered in my ear.
I pushed him back some and shook my head "You can't be doing that. I can't be with you Cj"I said looking him in the eye.
"Fine. Imma go, Bye Jayda"He said and walked out of my house.
I sighed heavily and turned around and Cam was standing in the hallway looking at me.
"Cam I-"
He just shook his head and walked back to his room while taking Jahlan with him.
I already knew why he was mad. Cam and Cj have grown really close towards each other, and he wants me with Cj so bad but I had my reasons to not be with him right now.
Or did I.......
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