Some changes happen gradually:Â a slow evolution from one state to another. I know that when I look back now on the path my life has taken, and seeing the past versions of myself I have shed along the way.
But other changes do happen overnight.
Sometimes quite literally.
One night, I was still sleeping alone, in my own bed. The next night, I wasnât the only one in it.
Since then, Annika in my bed has become an every night thing. Or Taylor. I donât know what to call her anymore. Itâs become increasingly clear to me that the woman staying in my home and sharing my bed really is two different people. The first is the girl I married fifteen years ago. The cold, closed-off, quiet and uncertain teenager who mumbled âyesâ to a promise neither of us wanted to make.
The woman whom I wake up next to every morning now is someone else altogether. Bold and confident. Tenacious and unflinching. A woman who faces the world on her terms and tells it exactly how to behave. A woman who looks me in the eye and says precisely what sheâs thinking, no matter the consequences.
Itâs infuriating. But itâs also refreshing. And itâs become something I look forward to. A challenge, to keep me sharp and on my toes.
So yes, sheâs two people: the one from the past, and the one in the present. Before, she was Annika, and now, sheâs Taylor. So for the last few days, thatâs the name Iâve been using with her. At first, she was surprised. But she also couldnât hide her smile whenever I said it. And goddamn if I donât enjoy that smile. So Iâve kept saying it.
But then thereâs another overnight change.
One little word that I never once intended to or thought about saying out loud. But out it popped, with no way of putting it back in the box.
Love.
It wasnât preceded by an âIâ or followed by a âyouâ. But still, itâsâ¦out there.
Come what may.
âBoss.â
I look up from my desk as Milos steps into my office.
âGot a second?â I nod as he plops down in one of the chairs across the desk from me, a manila folder in his hands. âThereâs two things we need to discuss.â
I frown. âIs this a bad news first or good news first thing?â
He grimaces. âTheyâre both shit. One involves a meal, though, if that helps.â
Milos clears his throat as he drops the folder in front of me. I reach for it, but he keeps his finger pinned on it for a moment.
âCan I speak freely?â
âBy all means,â I grunt.
My friend inhales slowly. âIs there a reason you havenât just asked her who she met the other night?â
I have, in fact. Once. But instead of saying a name, she looked me in the eye and asked me to drop it. She asked me to trust her and said it was merely someone who might have answers to parts of her past.
And I agreed to let it go.
I do trust her. But thatâs not why I agreed.
I agreed because I already knew who the fuck sheâd met. I just needed confirmation of it.
I nod at the folder under Milosâ finger. âCan I assume youâre about to âsurprise meâ with cleaned-up night-vision shots of Kenzo Mori sitting in my rowboat talking to my wife in the middle of the night?â
Milos scowls darkly. âYou fucking knew?â
I say nothing as I slip the folder out from under his finger and flip it open. Sure enough, the somewhat shit images taken by a security camera on the shore have been run through a computer program that uses AI to clean up photos, giving me a clear shot of the man sitting in the bow of the boat, talking with Taylor.
Kenzo.
I know they were just talking. I know from the photos he didnât touch her, aside from pulling her out of the water, which not for nothing is enraging enough.
But I donât trust him. Specifically, his interest in her. And I sure as fuck donât like that he somehow had access to her and got her to come meet him in the middle of the night.
In a bathing suit.
Insecurity? No. Jealousy? Perhaps. A murderous sensation that some other man was sneaking around in the night to meet up clandestinely with what is mine?
Fuck yes.
âOur guys are trying to track him downâ ââ
âThey wonât,â I grunt.
I donât know Kenzo that well. But I know enough to be sure that if he doesnât want to be found, he wonât be. The man is half Viking and half samurai. He can charge at you with a goddamn axe and a battle cry, or he can slit your throat from the shadows before you even know youâre dead.
I exhale. âBut try anyway. If nothing else, heâll know heâs being tracked, and itâll occupy a sliver of his attention.â I drum my fingers on the desk and raise my eyes to Milos. âWhat was the other shit news? Involving a meal?â
âYou and Annika have been invited to one. Dinner, specifically.â
âWith?â I ask curiously.
His face darkens. âVadik Belov.â
Fuck.
âObviously, this is where I advise you what a terrible idea it would be for you to get within shooting distance of that fucker,â Milos mutters. âAfter the other night.â
I turn to look out the doorway to the veranda and the ocean beyond.
âWe donât knowâ ââ
âDrazen,â Milos growls. âWe know.â
The men I killed after I found them chasing Taylor through the dark the other night were hired gunsâmercenaries from the Russia-based Werner Group, made up of ex special forces from all over the world. Contractors whoâll do dirty work for the highest bidder.
Theyâve got two positions vacant after the other night.
âThey were obviously hired by Vadik. They knew the island, they knew how to get past securityâ ââ
âTo be fair, she knew how to get past security,â I grin at him.
Milos doesnât look remotely amused.
âDonât let other influences in your life right now cloud your judgement, Drazen,â he mutters. âYou know what Iâm talking about.â
Busted. I stand from my desk and walk over to the doorway out to the veranda.
âYouâre probably right, Milos. It probably was Vadik. What we donât know is why.â
âSimple: he hates you,â Milos mutters. âHe hates your family. I mean, he was the one who gave the order all those years ago, Drazen.â
âYes, but he doesnât know that I know that.â I turn to look at him. âAnd it doesnât explain why would he choose now to try andâ¦â
âWhat, take you out?â Milos growls. âBecause why not? No offence.â
I shake my head. âBut it wasnât me he was trying to take out. They were after her.â I look at him sharply. âWhenâs this dinner?â
âTomorrow.â
I grimace. âFine. Iâm going.â
âDrazenââ
âWe can assume it was Vadik who sent those men the other night. Maybe because he knows now that I know about his involvement with what happened. Or maybe he guesses why I want to join the Table. But we donât know any of this for sure. Iâll need to sit down with him and look him in the eye to figure that out. So yes, Iâm going.â
âThe invite is for both of youâ¦â he begins.
My jaw clenches. âWell, sheâs not coming. Obviously.â
Milos arches a brow. âVadik is a dumb fuck, but heâs not stupidâ¦if that makes sense. If you come without her, heâs going to wonder why.â
I scowl. Heâs not wrong. Thatâs a red flag Vadik will see a mile away that I donât trust him, and heâll throw up walls accordingly.
âFine,â I grunt. âSheâll come along. But a contingent of men will come with us.â
Milos nods. âIâll go with a teamâ ââ
âNot you.â
He looks at me curiously.
âI need someone I trust on the outside.â
âJust in case?â he smirks.
âJust in case.â
My gaze swivels sideways in the back of the Range Rover. But as it rumbles down the road from the private airfield to Vadikâs massive summer house on the Black Sea, Iâm not looking at the pristine beaches or the ocean beyond.
My gaze is firmly settled on something much closer in the foreground.
Taylor.
Sheâs in a stunning black gown that looks painted onto her body. Itâs somehow both elegant and tasteful while also being outrageously sexy and alluring.
Or maybe thatâs just her. Maybe she could be wearing a garbage bag and Iâd be thinking the same thing.
Either way, she looks gorgeous. Her hair is up in a high ponytail, her long red locks tumbling down to her delicate neck. She looks perfect.
Almost.
âTaylor?â
She startles, smiling in that way Iâve gotten so fond of when I say her name.
Taylor.
âHere.â
I hand her a little velvet box, watching her brows knit.
âWhatâs this?â
I lift a shoulder. âJust a little something sparkly for the evening. Not that you need it. But Vadik is the sort of man whoâs easily distracted byâ¦â My eyes drag up to hers. âJust open it.â
She does, and her eyes widen.
âDrazenâ¦â
She pulls out the diamond-studded silver bracelet with the large six-carat diamond centerpiece fitted to the band. Her eyes fly to mine.
âI canât wear this.â
âYou can, and you will.â
âThis mustâve cost a fortuneâ ââ
âThere have to be some benefits to being forced to marry an international crime lord, right?â
Her lips twist into a smirk and her cheeks flush as her big blue eyes lock with mine.
âSome,â she shrugs, grinning.
I fasten it around her wrist just as our car pulls up to the gates of Vadikâs summer house with our entourage behind us. His men wave us all through, and we drive to the massive stone steps leading to the double doors of his estate.
I pull my gaze away from Taylor and look at the lavish home, manicured grounds, and garage full of priceless sports cars I know Vadik is fond of collecting.
I smile to myself.
Iâll enjoy slicing Vadikâs eyelids off and making him watch as I burn this entire estate to the ground one day soon.
Vadik greets us at the front doors, all affable, glad-handing host as he welcomes us into his home.
âPlease! Come in!â the fucker chuckles as we step inside.
Yes, the Werner Group mercenaries I killed the other night when they were chasing Taylor were almost certainly hired by Vadik. But Iâm not sitting at the Iron Table yet. If I accuse him of that without concrete proof, heâll be able to twist it against me. In fact, by the very laws of the Table, Vadik would be able to initiate a majority vote for all the families to declare me a persona non grata. Even to declare war on me.
I loathe the idea of bringing Taylor into this house, or anywhere near this asshole. But I need that proof. I need something to connect him to the mercenaries.
Itâs not like I expect to find something sitting out on the dining table. But Milos picked some of his best guys to accompany us tonight. A few of them are cyber security experts, too.
âItâs so good of you to accept my invitation, Drazen,â Vadik smiles at me. âWith you almost sure to be voted onto the Table soon, I thought we could take this time to become better acquainted. To become friends.â
I smile back at the snake. âOf course, Vadik. And thank you for your generous invitation.â
He grins before clearing his throat and nodding at my men as they follow us up the stairs into the house. âIâm afraid I canât allow your men to enter my home armed, though.â
No shit. Thatâs why I had them arrive armed to the teeth. Distract him with one weapon, so he doesnât see the other one.
âOf course,â I smile before turning to my men and nodding. They know the drill, and they allow Vadikâs men to take their rifles and sidearms, stowing them in a locked gun case.
What Vadikâs men donât take, because the component parts are being smuggled into the house inside boot heels and hidden pockets, are the wireless hacking tools that my men will be using to crack Vadikâs home network and glean everything they can.
âWith your permission, Iâve prepared a side room for your men while we dine,â Vadik says with a wide smile. âWith some of the finest vodka from St. Petersburg for them to enjoy,â he chuckles good-naturedly. âIf that is all right with your boss, boys!â
I smile in amusement, nodding to my men. âOf course! Enjoy our hostâs gracious hospitality, please.â
My men grin and elbow each other excitedly.
Itâs all an act.
Vadik leads Taylor and I into a sumptuous sitting room with walls of bookshelves and elegantly masculine leather furniture. A blonde girl who barely looks legal smiles awkwardly at us as we enter. I remember her as Vadikâs âdateâ from the gala.
She looks just as happy to be here now as she did then.
âYou remember Polina, yes?â Vadik chuckles lecherously as he grabs the girlâs ass and brings her closer.
âOf course,â Taylor says warmly, smiling at the poor girl. âSo good to see you again. I love your dress.â
Polina smiles shyly back. âThank you. And your bracelet is beautiful.â
Taylor grins genuinely as she glances back at me. âThank you. It wasâ¦a gift.â
Vadik chuckles. âOh, this one knows all about gifts,â he snickers, rubbing Polinaâs ass again as her face pales. âA necklace here, an apartment in Paris there, fancy clothesâ¦â He grins salaciously, turning to wink at me. âAnd in return, she gifts me that tight little body and any hole I want, whenever I want it.â
Fucking pig.
Polina looks mortified as she drops her gaze to the ground.
âA toast, perhaps?â Vadik says, clapping his hands together as he walks over to the bar cart. He picks up a bottle ofâholy shit, 2003 Petrus. He turns to grin at me. âYouâre a wine man, I hear?â
âI have moments.â
âThen please, I insist. You open and pour for us. I donât know how to pour fine wine. Iâm but a poor Russian who grew up swilling bathtub vodka,â he chuckles.
âIt would appear you can afford some impressive bottles now,â I smile tightly.
He grins back. âIndeed, Drazan. Fortune has favored both our families.â
I resist the urge to break his face against the nearest flat surface.
Fortune didnât favor my family. This piece of shitâs betrayal and greed destroyed my family.
But I push the impulse away, turning to focus on Taylor. On her eyes as they meet mine. On the soft curve of her lips, and the feel of her hand as it slips into mine and squeezes.
She knows what Iâm thinking and feeling.
I take the bottle from Vadik and open it, letting it breathe. Vadik hands out glasses to the three of us and himself, smiling as I pour the wine.
âTo new friendships, and more fortune for us all,â Vadik grunts, lifting his glass. I wait with mine halfway to my lips, watching as Vadik and Polina drink first.
Poisoning us ten minutes after entering his home with eight of my men just down the hall would be bold and reckless even for this fuck. But you never know.
Taylor and I glance at each other and drink our wine as well, savoring the insanely smooth and bold flavors.
âNow, I was hoping you and I couldâ¦â Vadik shrugs. âDiscuss some business before dinner that is maybe best talked about without the company of our dates.â
I glance at Taylor.
âOh, Polina and I would love some girl time, right?â She beams as she turns to Polina. âWithout the men,â she laughs plastically. Fuck, sheâs good at this.
âYâyes,â the girl stammers, forcing a smile. âOf course.â
âCome,â Vadik nods with his chin for me to follow him out of the room. âWe can go to my study. Bring your wine.â
I glance back at Taylor. Before I know what Iâm doing, Iâm pulling her into me and leaning down to kiss her softly.
âHave fun,â I murmur.
âYou too,â she breathes.
Vadik chuckles, patting my shoulder in a way that makes me want to punch him in the throat as we walk away down the hall.
âQuite miraculous for you to have found her again, Drazen.â
I smile and shake my head. âThere was no finding necessary; she wasnât ever lost,â I shrug. âWe were young when we got married and had things we each wanted to do. Weâveâ¦reconnected,â I murmur.
âJust in time for a vote onto the Table with the very woman who was godmother to your ânot lostâ wifeâs father.â
Heâs digging. Prying. Poking to see where thereâs a weak spot.
He wonât find one.
I laugh as I clap him on the shoulder, like weâre good buddies.
âYouâve been watching too many spy movies, my friend,â I smile.
Vadik eyes me coolly. Then he grins. âWhat can I say. Iâm a sucker for old Bond films.â
âWhat sort of Russian does that make you?â
He snickers. âA rich one who cares not for politics, just getting paid.â He turns to me. âYou know, since youâre such a wine man, Iâd love to show you my collection. Before business.â
I feel myself grinning widely.
âSounds like a blast,â I chuckle.
The fuck. Iâve never once said âsounds like a blastâ in my fucking life. And why am I smiling so hard?
âThis way, then!â Vadik says, leading me down another hallway. We step into a lavish room with glass walls, behind which sit hundreds of temperature-controlled racks full of wine.
âFuck me,â I whistle.
Vadik laughs. âYou havenât seen the best part. Come!â
He gleefully walks over to a table. He looks at me like a kid showing off his new Christmas present and twists the lamp sitting on it.
âYouâll love this.â
Behind him, one of the walls of glass slides backward and then to the side, revealing a staircase and a stone archway leading down.
âThis up here?â He snorts. âGood enough for stockbrokers and CEOs. But for men like us? With power like ours?â He gestures with his head. âCome. Iâll show you the really good stuff.â
âIf thereâs not a bathtub still cranking out vodka down there,â I chuckle, grinning widely, âIâm going to be very disappointed in you, Vadik.â
He roars with laughter. âI think that Petrus is going to your head, my friend!â
I chuckle as we start down the stairs. Then I frown as his words ripple through my subconscious.
I think that Petrus is going to your head.
I think so, too. And Iâve only had like four sips.
When we reach the bottom of the steps, Iâm even more confused. When I turn to glance at Vadik, the lights blur. Trails of color tease across my vision.
My feet feel like theyâre sinking into the ground beneath them.
What the fuck is going on.
âAre you okay, my friend?â Vadikâs not smiling now. Thereâs just a cruel, thin smirk on his face. âYou look unwell.â
âIâsomething I ateâ¦â
âWe havenât eaten yet.â
I shake my head, feeling like the very air is pushing down on me. Like the color balance of the whole world is off. Like I can see those colors.
âThe wineâ¦â I mutter, turning to stare into my glass. It throbs and bulges like a soap bubble, suddenly getting huge in my hand before shrinking back down.
Vadik chuckles behind me. No, in front of me.
Fuck.
âI think maybe you should sit down, Drazen.â
Something slams into the back of my knees. I crash to the floor, the glass shattering as I blink in confusion at the trails of light and color. I look around, only now realizing that weâre not in a wine cellar. Thereâs no wine here at allâ¦
My eyes lock on shapes in the corner, and my blood goes cold.
Not shapes. Bodies.
Itâs all eight of the men we arrived with not twenty minutes ago, all dead.
I try to scramble to my feet. But my legs arenât working. All I end up doing is rolling around on my back like a flipped-over beetle. Vadik and three of his men grin at me ghoulishly as they stand over me.
âDonât blame yourself, Drazen,â he growls. âThis isnât your fault. Itâs mine. I started a job fifteen years ago, and I made the mistake of not finishing it. Now, Iâm correcting my mistake.â
No.
I try again to lunge to my feet. But it feels like Iâm moving through maple syrup. One of his men laughs as he uses his foot to push me back to the floor. It feels like Iâm melting into it.
âAnd donât worry about your wife, Mr. Krylov,â Vadik smiles coldly. âSheâs in good handsâ¦.â
I roar and try and lurch up. But I can only lift my head maybe an inch before the floor sucks it back down.
The room turns neon purple with blue dots drifting through it. The dots turn to eyes.
Her eyes.
Watching me fade. Watching me sink into the depths as the lights swirl and flicker around me and the floor swallows me whole.
âEnjoy your trip, Mr. Krylovâ¦.â