Ander and I were walking into school together. I had no idea what his parents would say but I didn't have to care about that anymore. But when we saw Guzman, Ander's mood changed.
âYou're such an asshole!", he hissed at Guzman pushing him away slightly, âDo you know what you've done to us?"
âI've been worried about you, you're my friends."
âSo you don't talk to us but you rat us out to his dad?", I scoffed.
âYou know exactly how much I hate drugs and what happened to my sister."
âGuzman, get over it finally and stop getting on other people's nerves because of that."
When I came home in the evening, Samu and Nano were having a fight again.
âWhat's going on now?", I asked.
âSamu promised me to help me but of course, he was busy with his little girl", Nano looked at our brother pissed.
âAbout that.. I've talked to dad and he won't help us. Indeed, he's got a new girlfriend", I laughed frustrated.
âFuck", Nano threw his head into his neck dissatisfied.
âI'm so sorry. But I promise we'll find a way. I know where he's got his money and his credit cards, I could-"
âNo, you're not going to do anything. I don't want you to get hurt. Promise me, you won't help me with that, alright little sister?"
âAlright."
Samu's party went on but I were trying to hide in my room. After Polo had kissed me and dad had basically told me that he was done with our family. I just wanted to feel sad for once and not have to act like everything was fine. But Marina and Ander stumbled into my room.
âYeah, there's my best friend!", Marina giggled happily hugging me tightly.
âHey, baby, what's wrong? The others wanted to play spin the bottle. Why don't we join them?", Ander smiled.
I couldn't tell them about it right now. Both of them had their own problems. I didn't want to ruin the party for them. Plus, I was worried about Marina, I should keep an eye on her. And as I thought, she became a party girl. I loved that she had fun but it scared Guzman and I after what has happened.
âWhat's going on in here?", I asked the boys confused.
Marina seemed to have fun, not in a worrying way. So I let her have her fun and went into the kitchen to get some water. Christian was talking about Carla as far as I heard.
âPolo is a voyeur", Ander confirmed.
âHe's a damn fag", Chris replied.
âHey, he's not that bad", I said weirdly thinking back of how I felt sorry for him.
But when Guzman walked in behind Nadia, the situation got tense. Especially Nano immediately looked annoyed but Nadia could persuade him to let Guzman be here.
âWhy do you let her do that?!", Guzman yelled over to me.
âOh my god, Guzman. Get over it. She's just having fun. You should try that, too", I rolled my eyes.
âWhat's going on with you babe?", Ander later asked me happily, I just shook my head.
âI don't feel so well."
âHey, Omar gave me a pill. I could-"
âNot in the mood, Ander, sorry."
He would begin to speak again but Guzman asked us what was going on angrily. Christian soon intervened which was funny, to be honest.
âCan't you just leave?", Ander moved closer to Guzman which made him take a step back.
Instead, Ander left but not without shouting at each of them. And I decided to go back to my room.
Ems ðð
are you still having dinner with Carla and her parents?
Polo ð´â¥ï¸
yeah, why?
can we talk tomorrow?
or tonight?
as soon as possible?
I could come over
yeah that's fine
Nano's not here and Samu is sick
thanks Ems
âHey, Polo", I opened the door as soon as he messaged me that he was here, âYou don't look so good."
âWell, so do you although you always look good", he chuckled lightly which calmed me down.
âCome, let's go to my room. Samu's sleeping."
âThe party was good?"
âIt was just a party. I would have liked to stay here in my room."
âWhat happened?"
âMy brother's got some problems. I thought my dad would help us", I laughed frustrated, âHe didn't help us when Nano had to go to prison and he doesn't help us now. I thought mom and him would get back together someday but he's found someone else. It's stupid, I know", I shook my head.
âIt's not stupid. I'm worrying over Carla being the more confident one", he laughed with me.
âIs this about your speech therapy? Did she use it against you?"
âMaybe, somehow? I don't know. I feel like it. We're always doing what she wants and-", Polo stuttered again.
âHey, Polo, it's alright, it's alright", I whispered, âCome, let's lay down."
And that's where it happened again. Two lonely souls who would have got everything. Our parents had money, they had planned our future for us, we had good friends. But we had problems about which we couldn't speak. But it wasn't the right moment to talk anymore. We knew what we would say. But we needed to find a way to not feel as lonely. Those kisses were trying to numb the pain.