Chapter 25: fight for lust

„Come on, get up, we just undress you and then you can sleep", I said with a soft voice when the three of us tried to undress him which was harder than it looked like.

„But don't get horny or are you all already?", he laughed instead of being helpful and laid back, „Take care of I'll get horny. Thats good, my friends."

„And? Should we leave?", Polo suggested and Ander and I nodded.

„No, don't go. Can't you all lay down with me? Just like in old times? Do you remember? Come on", Guzman begged.

„I mean, is the bed big enough?"

„Yeah, sure."

„It's a bit awkward", Ander said while we undressed us to the underwear.

We used to do that a lot when we were younger. It's usually been the eight year old versions of us sleeping in bedrolls in one room over night. And as we grew older we shared a bed. It's only been the four of us because Marina, Carla and Lu didn't like to hang out all together. They saw themselves only as sister and girlfriends. But I've been friends with all of them before I started dating Ander. During one of those night we grew closer when we were older.

„As if we never stayed overnight", Polo shrugged his shoulders.

„Right and we all have seen each other before. We just haven't done that in a long time", I added and stepped closer to Ander to give him a soft kiss so he would feel more comfortable, „I don't mind cuddling with my friends. I enjoy a good view."

„Did one of you ever like Guzman more than a friend?", Polo asked giving us a good view of his body.

„No!"

„No!"

„But did one of you like me?", Polo grinned, „Come on, guys, I look good. Look at my body."

„You'd like that. Move over, babe", Ander touched my leg so I got closer to Polo and laid in between the two.

„I haven't slept like that for a long time", Polo suddenly admitted and turned around to lay an arm around me, „I like the warmth and the touches."

„You can forget about that", I chuckled.

„Why do you get nervous? Or am I making you nervous."

„Polo", Ander warned him.

„I have to admit, Polo is hot", I told them honestly.

„Are you trying to say something, babe?", Ander looked at me skeptically, they exactly knew what I was thinking of.

„Us three together tonight", Polo suggested what we all thought.

„Here with Guzman?", Ander struggled, „That's crazy, all of us are crazy."

„Yes, we are crazy", I admitted with a grin before I let Polo give me a quick kiss so we gave Ander a preview of what we thought about.

„We should rather stop that", he still wasn't so sure about it but I laid over him.

„We're going to forget about this tomorrow", I whispered before kissing him passionately until he replied and the fight for lust began.

I woke up by the sound of Ander's and Guzman's voices. Polo had his arm around me and opened his eyes, too, but we stayed quiet while Guzman was talking about my brothers. Polo looked concerned but still gave me a warm smile.

„Where have you been last night?", mom asked me angrily when I came home so I could change my clothes before the first lesson would begin, „Where have you been, Emilia? I was worried. Samu came home late and you didn't even come back at all. You didn't even leave me a message."

„Wait, Samu came home late? Where have you been?", I looked at my brother who just shrugged his arms, „Oh, come on, don't be so mysterious. You know that that's not working. I've stayed at Guzman's, mamá. He was sad. There's no need to worry about me."

„Next time, you'll send me a message at least", she raised an eyebrow so I nodded.

„What's wrong?", I asked Ander since he looked more annoyed than the past weeks.

I just don't understand what's been going on his mind lately. We could finally be a couple officially, his parents accepted it and my dad was not as much involved in my life to find it out. I didn't think too much about Marina so we had a more relaxing time. But none of that changed his mood, it just got worse.

„Nothing", he said without any emotion in his voice and removed his hand from mine which were intertwined before.

„Ander, you've kept pushing me away for months now. Talk to me", I whisper-yelled at him since we were still in the hallways, „Am I still your girlfriend so you can show me around and that's it?"

„Says you. Don't you like Polo now?", he hissed back.

At least he showed any kind of emotion.

„Is this about yesterday night? I thought we had fun?"

„No, you had your fun. You could use the opportunity to fuck Polo in front of me. I didn't want to share you."

„That's bullshit", I shook my head and let out a frustrated laugh, „You didn't sound like you hated it and you know exactly that you didn't come off badly. I don't know what your problem is but I'm done arguing."

I had gotten a message from Polo who asked me to help him with an upcoming exam so I went to the library.

„Polo, are you okay?", I sat down next to him, „You don't look so good."

„I'm just stressed", he replied fast, „I'm fine."

„You know you can talk to me", I laid my one hand on his upper leg and turned his face around so he would look at me, „I'm here for you. Do you still take your pills?"

„They don't have the same effect as in the past."

„I feel bad. I thought Guzman and I have had hard times because of what happened but it's not true. I haven't been there for you when you needed me. Let's study together later in the afternoon. We'll do this together, Polito", I smiled trying to encourage him.

„What about Ander?"

„Forget about him."