At Polo's funeral, everyone looks sad but in a good kind of sad. That type of sad when you're just thankful that you got to know this person. Ander, Guzman and I sit in the second row and although I've tried not to cry, the tears stream down my cheeks and the boys take my hand to show me their support.
âSo you're going to London?", I ask Carla after we all have stood by Polo's grave for some time. âI thought it's a good place for a new start", she nods, âListen, I'm sorry for what I've said a few days ago. You and Samu only tried to be there for me and I pushed you away." âIt's alright. I'm just glad that you're feeling better now. I'm sorry about Polo. You've loved him for three years. It's not easy to let go." âNo, I'm sorry about it. I may have been his girlfriend but you, Ander, Guzman and Polo have always been together ever since we were children."
As everyone else is leaving, I sit down next to Polo's grave and let my head fall into my neck and let the tears stream down again. âIt's always been the four of us. What do we do now?", Ander sighs as him and Guzman sit down next to me.
I've spent the next weeks in isolation. I've met Guzman and we joined Ander at his chemo but most of the time I was at home. Samu and Guzman tried to convince me that it'd be better to go out and have fun but I couldn't enjoy the moments when we went to a club or even only to a café.
The main thing that has happened was when I said goodbye to Lu. After everything that has happened, I didn't want to leave Madrid early. Ander, Guzman and Samu have to repeat the last school year so I decided to go to Madrid's university first. I might even have some classes in Las Encinas as they invited great professors from different universities and they would talk about topics that I'm interested in. As I wave at Lu when she goes through the airport, my own emotions overwhelm me and I know exactly what to do.
âYou look familiar. Andres, right?", I joke as I sit down next to Ander in the hospital and hope that I can make him laugh. âHello again, Emily", he smiles and I'm glad to see that he understands what I mean. âListen, I don't care how much you push me away. It doesn't matter what they say or how often we have to come back to this place but I love you and I've always loved you and I never stopped."
As Ander smiles widely, I raise my eyebrows confused. âWe don't have to come back anymore. They've said that it's getting better. But I loved your speech, honestly. Hey, Em?" âAnder?" âWe're the only couple of our group of friends that hasn't completely broken up. And I also never stopped loving you."
It's been a long time. I wish I could say after all this time I've healed, but I didn't. Not only did I still think of Marina a lot, but Polo's death broke me even more. We all thought we would feel better if justice is given, but this isn't justice, this is unfair. Even if i did not think about them too much, there was still a lot on my mind, on our all minds. No one got over what happened easily or at all but we're in this together. I'm still not sure if it's worse because we see each other regularly and get reminded of what happened or if it's good because we all feel the same.
It's even more confusing as Ander and I found back to each other. It's good, actually. But a lot happened between us. During the time, especially when Polo and I got closer - if you could say so considering the circumstance -, I understood Ander even more and we both forgave each other. It's been a long way but we got close again.
âWhat the hell is going on here?", I ask Samuel, when I walk into our apartment and find him and Carla making out. âUh, Em. Shouldn't you be with Ander?", Samu stutters. âYeah, I just wanted to leave my stuff here. Have fun with whatever is going on here."
âI mean, Cayetana is crazy, you know? A crazy bitch. But she saved us", Rebe tells Ander and Omar about the other night, when Guzman, Cayetana, Rebe and I hung out. âI'm surprised you would hang out with only the girls", Ander nods into my direction, still confused after that's what I've told him the next morning. âOnly girls? No, no. Luckily Guzman joined us", Rebe makes clear and I internally hit my head.
âGuzman, huh? You left that detail out", Ander grinds his teeth. âI thought it doesn't matter", I shrug my shoulders trying to stay cool when in reality I was really nervous. We may have found back together but Ander is still skeptical when it comes to Guzman. That's why I'm looking for a girl to make her go out with Guzman. âDon't you think it would have been worth a mention?"
âI didn't want you to worry when nothing happened. We were hanging out with and as friends. I don't mind you hanging out with Alexis." âOkay first, Alexis is ill. Second, I never had sex with him." âI thought we were over it?!" âWell maybe we're not." âAnder!"
âHey", Alexis initiates a conversation with me, âWhat was that about earlier?" âNothing." âIt didn't look like nothing." âIf you really need to know, Ander found out that I've met the girls and Guzman and I didn't tell him about Guzman. Are you happy now?" âI'd be happier if you stopped treating him like that." âExcuse me?", I scoff annoyed, âIt's not your business."
âWell", he replies cooly, âYou're right. It's not my business that you were cheating on him with his best friend." I have to admit, he plays his role good. He knew that Ander was coming over to us and heard him. And he really shocked me. âHow-" âEm, it's.. it doesn't matter", Ander intervenes.
âIt does! Why didn't you tell me that you've found out? Why didn't you break up with me because of that but rather used Alexis as an excuse?" âCan we please discuss this at home? Please Em." âFine", I give in sighing.
Luckily, our conversation at home went really well. Ander and I've forgiven each other for anything that's happened in the past. He also made Alexis understand that he's still into me so Alexis decided to give me a chance. It all went out fine in the end.
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