Eliyas was sitting on the sofa When I walked in front of him with my wet hair ..it seems like we have some sort of twisted "wet" karma, since the last time I saw him 3 years ago he walked out of my house he was dripping and his hair was wet.. now it was I to walk inside the room with a wet hair.
He hadn't changed, he looked even more handsome than before, at the time when we separated he looked somehow sickly and had dark circles around his eyes, the trauma we lived certainly affected him as well, plus, the work load must have been so exhausting that it affected his health, still, even in that state, He still looked very handsome.
So you can imagine how more handsome the man sitting on my sofa was!
However, I was always immune to his charm anyways, because the handsome Eliyas Filladi was just the same devilish Eliyas Filladi who killed my child and tormented my life.
I didn't say anything to him nor recognized his existence, I kept drying my hair with the towel while walking around the room in front of him.
His eyes kept following me, i could notice them with my peripheral vision, it was so weird to be stared at, so after little time I decided to stare back at him as well.
And this is how we ended up having a staring battle.. We both were looking at one another in a serious and cold manner, not minding to show any other expression on our faces.
So ladies and gentlemen, this was our reaction after meeting for the first time in 3 years.
After a long staring battle, he finally said:
_"do you think that our company's secretary is so idle to call your phone repeatedly only to find it disconnected every time?.. Turn on your phone."
_" I see that even the CEO himself is so idle as to personally come to my house simply to ask me to turn on my phone, I guess your outstanding company is running out of business" I replied mockingly.
I walked to the set of drawers, Brought out the hair dryer from one of them, then started drying my hair not caring about his existence.
The sound of the blowing air was so loud that I didn't hear Eliyas's footsteps coming close to me, it was only after he stood right beside me that I finally noticed him, I almost shrieked of terror again .. Almost.
It's really hard to maintain an indifferent attitude in front of this man!
He intensely observed my actions.. Like, really intensely, I tried to act as if I didn't notice a thing though he literally was digging holes on the side of my face with his gaze.
Suddenly, he snatched the hair dryer from my hand, and weirdly started drying my hair for me.
I seriously have no description for him .. He's simply unpredictable and hard to deal with.
While he was drying my hair, I asked:
_"what do you want Eliyas? .. You didn't come to meet me after all this time just to ask me to turn on my phone."
_" you are correct.".. He admitted.
I waited for him to explain further, but he didn't say anything else, like the freaking usual him, he never bothers to explain his actions.
He only kept drying my hair.. Brushing his fingers through it, focusing on this task as if it was the most important matter.
He was standing so close to me, so close that I could sense his warmth, this familiar feeling was overwhelming me against my will.
I haven't been so close to him for so long, this little distance was making my heart beat faster although I didn't want it to.
I gulped in nervousness.. And looked at the opposite direction avoiding him.
_" don't bother looking for a job somewhere else, I will make sure that the only place that will accept to hire you is Filladi co."
He whispered in my ear while moving the hair drier away.. Making all the warmth I earlier felt because of him turn ice cold.
After a bit of thinking I said:
_" does your dear mother know about your wanting to hire me in your company? She'll assume I'm going after your wealth again, and attempting to snatch your precious company from you, then she will fall into another fake health crisis because of me, you should act like a filial son, just divorce me and get me out of your life. Marry another woman of her choice and make your mother happy, it never mattered to you who you're married to anyways."
I tried to act sneaky bringing his mother in the middle, I was never more thankful for her hatred like I did at that moment.
However, He resumed drying my hair as if he heard nothing from me, his fingertips kept lightly touching my temples, my ears .. And slid along my shoulder length hair, his touches were making me sensitive.. I guess he noticed that.
He gulped.. then whispered again:
_" it's not her company so she has no saying in whatever decision I make, as for marrying another woman, I'm an already married man and I have no intention in finding a second wife."
I was not given any space to think about these words, because his fingers that were initially sliding through my hair suddenly started touching the back of my neck.
His finger tips traveled through my neck .. To the tip my pyjamas. And slid on my collarbone.. Then.. Went downer.
I tried to step away from him feeling alarmed, So in quick movement he put the hair dryer on the shelf aside and firmly blocked my attempt to escape with his now free hand.
I was so surprised, describing his actions and actually living them are two totally different things. Because everything happened faster than my understanding, Before I could think clearly.. His soft lips were already nibbling my ear and his hot kisses landed on my shoulder.
He circled my waist even tighter with his arms pulling me harder towards him as his kisses became more thirsty, and more passionate.
But I was not going to let this happen.. This man no longer had any right to touch me.
In a moment of wake, I resisted him.
_"Eliyas!" I shouted angrily .. While Pushing him away with all my might.
It was as if he was drugged earlier, as if he wasn't even aware of his own actions and he only realised what he was doing when he heard me shout his name, he immediately let go of me, so taking this chance I stepped away from him and yelled threateningly:
_" don't you dare touch me again! Leave!"
He kept looking at me calmly, As if nothing happened and I was only imagining things.
then he ignored my words, he suddenly stepped closer and hugged me tight!
He didn't kiss me, nor his hands touched me the way he did earlier, he only hugged me.. The way you hug someone you long for, except he didn't long for me.. And he shouldn't long for me.
I was so small in his embrace, so startled, even in the past when we were together he seldom hugged me this way.. Now that we've long been separated it's just dumbfounding and pointless!
I was so angry that I harshly pushed him away, not only I did this.. I looked inside his face then I clenched both my fists and punched his chest yelling:
_" you disgust me! Don't you ever touch me again!"
He soon grabbed both my fists with his stronger hands.. And he shouted my name:
_"Noursine!"
He didn't say any other word, nor ordered me to do anything, he simply shouted my name.. And that was enough to make me stop hitting him and calm down.
We were both breathing fast, both angry.. And we both looked wordlessly at each other with blame and anger.
Eliyas didn't try coming close to me again, only stood in front of me, only his eyes locked inside mine.
And I didn't understand "us", I didn't.
It's frustrating to realise that even after 3 years I still fail to understand what does he exactly want from me, and why I'm so easily effected with him.
If he loved me, even the slightest bit, he wouldn't have hurt me the way he did, nor gave me up without trying to fix things, so I should never allow myself to think emotionally, even when being kissed and hugged, I shouldn't let my emotions take control.
The truth I must keep in head, is that the man every girl in the country dreams about was standing in my house and looking at me, for whatever wicked reason that he had, And I wasn't happy about it..
_"leave .. Please" I whispered.
He nodded, he let go of my hands, then weirdly started walking towards the house door apparently wanting to leave.
I kept staring at his actions in total confusion, just put your selves in my shoes.. Isn't he totally confusing!!
Why would he appear in my house without a convincing reason? why would he want to get close to me when he in fact doesn't even like it! And finally.. He just leaves calmly!!
he held the door knob giving me his back, then before leaving he reminded me:
_"turn on your phone .. And don't you dare see other men again, because I don't know what I will do if this happens again .. But I promise it won't please you anyways"
After he walked out of the house.. I finally breathed in relief.
I turned off the hair drier that was blowing noise in the air in vain. then I weakly sat on the sofa.. I rested my palms against my heart, and tried to calm my emotions.
Although I acted cold earlier.. But seeing Eliyas again made my heart go into a total mess. After he left the house I kept only looking at the door in daze.. As if expecting him to come back again in any passing moment.
It is still hard for me to meet him after all..
A bit of time later, I finally noticed that Eliyas forgot his winter coat on my sofa. It looked very expensive.. Very warm.
I held it with my hand and brought it closer to me.. It was so fragrant, and had his scent which I didn't smell for so long.
_" such a scum." I whispered while tossing the heavy coat away.
all I thought about at the moment was :"I need to take another shower".. Because I didn't want that man's traces nor scent to linger on me.
I turned on my phone after taking the second shower since I had no other choice but to comply like an obedient useless person and execute his orders, that man is more than capable of making me starve or throwing me to the streets, and I have absolutely nothing -but the mercy of Allah to help me stand against his ruthlessness.
Long minutes after I turned on my phone, a call finally came. But who called me was not who I expected, meaning not the secretary's unfamiliar number .. Instead, it was my grandmother's new number.
I frowned and sighed helplessly seeing my grandmother's name flushing on my screen. It was very uncommon for her to call me twice in the same month, she has already called only few days ago, I was surprised seeing her calling again so soon.
Ever since I left my husband's household, she was so disapproving of my decision that she decided to sever ties with me in order to make me regret my actions and get back with Eliyas.
Even knowing how he caused me so much pain and suffering, she still took his side and abandoned me, like everyone I know did.
It's so funny how in life you can't trust anyone's love, not even the closest people to you who claim to love and cherish you, everyone is selfish and can show you the worst in them when you least expect it.
Take my mother as an example.. She abandoned me to go marry another man and create a new family.
Take my friends as an example, ever since I married, they magically all disappeared though I tried to contact them several times..
And my grandmother.. This old sneaky woman.. She chose money over me.
And my husband..
I admit I'm not the kindest nor the warmest, but every time I try to get close to anyone I end up being abandoned and hurt, seriously, to hell with everyone..
I don't have such a big heart that forgives people so easily, I could never forgive Nana for letting me go away all by myself in the time when I needed her the most, And she chose strangers over me.
Once I picked up her call, Her voice came shouting from the other side immediately:
_" Noursine! You ungrateful granddaughter! If I don't call, You never call and ask about me!"
_"how are you doing Nana?" I asked coldly.
She sighed on the other side, and ignoring my question she continued:
_" your husband told us today that you will start working at the filladi co .. You finally started to grow a brain in that thick head of yours! You should have joined the company and proved your self a long time ago!"
_"my working there is not my decision so you don't have to praise me Nana, I will by all means try my best to walk out of that place with my divorce papers."
_"you ignorant!! Forget it.. I will no longer talk to you since you want to kill me with anger!"
When Nana "grand mother" was scolding, I heard a certain ugly female voice in Nana's surrounding.
A familiar ugly female voice.
So I instantly interrupted Nana and I asked:
_" is Lydia there in the Villa?"
Nana who seemed so amazed by the sharpness of my ears soon replied:
_" yes, that girl is here in the hall.. And she is speaking to your husband."
Once I heard that this pretentious girl was around .. I frowned even more.
Lydia khoudjali , Who is my sister in-law's best friend and the woman who was better matched with Eliyas and probably the first candidate to become his wife before I appeared out of the blue and snatched him away, this woman is one of god's creatures that I loath the most.
She is the only daughter of Mr Khoudjali Fateh, the president of some whatsoever political party and an MP, her powerful father is moving so fast in the political ladder for me to remember the exact position he is occupying.
Not only she has a good background, but she is as well a delicate beauty who possesses all the qualities that my mother in-law wishes in a wife for her precious son.
I never minded Lydia's repetitive visits to the villa nor the way she always addressed my husband as if he was already hers and treated me as if I was simply an obstacle that will be removed from her way sooner or later.
I didn't mind all of that because I was not interested in Eliyas at all. But one day, my patience and tolerance came to a drastic end, It was one ordinary morning, Lydia supposedly visited the villa to play at the tennis court like the usual with Ines, my sisters in-law.
I was randomly walking pass Eliyas's study room at the corridor when I noticed that my dear husband was not there alone, instead, He was in the company of a beauty, that Lydia.
Initially, I thought of just ignoring them both and continuing my way. But after second thinking I felt curious to know what these two actually do behind my back.
So I carefully stepped closer to the door to listen to what they were saying, only to be shocked with what I heard.
That shameless woman said:
_"Eliyas.. You know how much I always loved you! Don't you know how heartbroken I feel seeing you married with someone who doesn't care about you? You don't have to divorce her now.. You can take me as a second wife and we'll deal with her later!"
That fake woman said these words with a face full of tears, acting like a freaking powerless heroine who the whole world was bullying.
I laughed in mockery realising how disrespectful they both were towards me. I always thought she only used hidden means and kept her pride while trying to seduce him.. As it turned out to be, she had no face at all!
Wasn't she supposed to be the daughter of a grand family, she acted like a slut!
She then hugged him, and rubbed her wet face against his chest. While he simply stood there not saying nor doing a thing.
I hate deceitful people the most, even more than that, I hate those who disrespect me. And my husband and his secret lover were both deceitful and disrespectful.
After few moments of watching them, I felt so disgusted with that scene, so I just walked inside the room with my hands crossed above my chest and I said:
_" Ssi Eliyas (mr Eliyas), how do you expect me to sleep on the same bed with you later after seeing this? I hate sharing my things with others, now you're just trash to me."
They both turned to look at me in terror, although I initially wasn't intending to make a dramatic entrance still things went like this and they both turned pale because they knew what they were doing was wrong.
Eliyas pushed Lydia away .. And he kept staring at me.
I felt so disgusted with his stare, I knew we were not a loving couple, but he should have at least respected my existence in his life.
_"how dare you talk with him this way?" Lydia, who had lawyer's genes apparently, immediately said with more tears.
I chuckled in mockery.. And replied:
_"it is not your business how I address my husband."
Then I walked towards Eliyas, with nothing in my heart but pure disappointment. When I finally reached him.. I looked at his wet with tears dirty shirt, and I said:
_"I already had poor respect towards
you in the past, and now you had lost even the little that I had, Don't you always act so prideful?.. Is this how lowly you act behind my back?"
_" you misunderstood" he finally said .. "I rejected her, and I have no intention in following her fantasies."he continued.
When I heard his words, something broke inside me finally hearing his voice.. my heart hurt.
It is inevitable feeling hurt and being effected with what my husband does. Since after all, no matter how much we hated it, we were still married and shared our lives.
When I spoke next.. My voice which was initially strong became very weak and shaky.
No matter how hard I tried to act strong.. I was still surprised and hurt with what I saw.
_"is this how you reject a woman Ya Eliyas? " ( ya: used to call for someone's attention when addressing him)
The man who was standing in front of me became even paler, he had nothing to say to me.
I hated being married to such a person.. And I hated how silent and calm he was in the times he was supposed to talk.
In the end, It was me who just walked out of the room like a useless person.
At the time, I made a vow.. That even if I had to get a divorce from Eliyas, Lydia will never get him as long as I lived.
And this is exactly why I felt so enraged when Nana told me that Lydia was talking with Eliyas.
These scums!
I took a deep breath, then I said to Nana:
_" Nana, you take your phone and you go to Eliyas, then you put me on a loud speaker.. That man is still my husband and outsiders should know this."
_"may allah bless you! You finally decided to use your brain!"
Nana soon took part in my plan to destroy their bubbly mood, she reached them so fast, I bet she flied her way towards the couple. then I heard her saying:
_" your wife wants to speak to you Eliyas"
Soon, a pin drop silence was in there.
I didn't know whether Nana knew how to put a phone on a loud speaker since she has never been found of technologies, even learning how to slide the green circle to answer a call took her much time and practice, but I decided to try my luck anyways.
So once I sensed the silence, I said in an angry tone:
_"Mr Eliyas, when did I allow you to treat my place as yours? You're not allowed to randomly leave your stuff behind when you come to my house, your jacket is on my sofa! Are you planning to move your whole wardrobe here next?"
What I wanted to say was simply " miss Lydia, this man still comes to my house behind your back and even gets undressed, he's two timing again.. What a lovely karma".
I was very proud with what I said. Until Eliyas suddenly added with a laughter:
_" no need for me to move my wardrobe to your place.. Because soon enough you will move yours back to my house instead"
What was that?
Is he freaking insane!!