âFor Godâs sake, Ben, Iâm working!â
âYou wouldnât answer my fuckinâ texts,â he growls over the phone. âWhat was I supposed to do?â
âOh, I donât knowâwait, maybe? At least until I came back home!â I glance nervously at Ruslanâs door. If he comes out here and sees me on yet another personal call, Iâm a dead woman. Heâll rake my ass over the coals for the sheer thrill of it.
I wince at the mere thought of my rear end. Every time I sit down, Iâm reminded of the punishment I received at Ruslanâs hand last night. The whole day, Iâve oscillated between feeling sore and aroused.
I guess, when youâre sleeping with the boss, thatâs just an occupational hazard.
Benâs voice jolts me back to reality. âI donât know how long thatâll take and I need money now!â
I bite my tongue to stop the steam of expletives from bubbling over. âYou already have courtside Knicks tickets and a fridge full of beer. What could you possibly need money for now?â
âI have fucking needs, Emma.â
I have no idea what that means and I have no intention of asking. âIâm hanging up now, Ben.â
âIf you hang up, Iâll just keep calling.â
âThen Iâll just keep hanging up.â
âDonât make me come down there.â
I nearly gag with fear. âYou wouldnât!â
âJust watch me. I willââ
âOkay,â I hiss. âYou blackmailing bastard. How much do you want?â
âTwo hundred bucks.â
I answer automatically. âI donât have that.â
âBullshit.â
âIâm seriousââ
âOkay, see you at the office, in like, half an hour?â
âYouâre an asshole.â
âJust transfer the money directly into myâCaro, Rae! Shut the hell up, Iâm on the phoneâinto my account.â
âDonât swear at them!â I hiss.
He just ignores me. âGo ahead and do it now. I can stay on the line with you while you make the transfer.â
You have got to be kidding me.
The thing is, I canât afford to have Ben come down here and stir up shit. So I cave, which is probably the worst thing to do, but I canât really see another way out.
I open my work laptop and pull up my personal banking page. âIâm transferring the money now. But seriously, this is the last of my cash for the month.â
âSure, sure.â His voice goes muffled as he holds the phone away from his mouth. I hear mumbling, a few punctured screams in the background, and the sound of skittering footsteps. Then the line clears and his voice comes through again. âAre you doing it? The money hasnât come throughâCaro, stop crying, I barely touched you⦠I donât know⦠just ignore himâshit, where was I? Oh, right, the money. Done yet?â
I click the transfer button and it starts to process my request. The screen is hijacked by a big rotating circle that informs me not to close the page.
âWhat is Caroline crying about?â
âHuh?â
âBen, what is your daughter crying about?â I ask through gritted teeth.
âUm⦠dunno, something about this creepy guy following them.â
âWhat creepy guy?â
âFuck if I know. Just kids being kids. Josh probably made it up to scare the girls.â
For goodnessâ sake, does this man know his kids at all? âThis is Josh youâre talking about, Ben. That boy wouldnât scare a fly, let alone his sisters. And he doesnât lie.â
âBingo. Just got the payment. Later, Em.â
âBen, hold on! I need to know who this guyââ
But itâs too late. The line goes dead and Iâm left staring at the picture of Josh, Caroline, and Reagan on my screen, wondering if I should be panicking.
No need to panic. Just stay calm and gather more information.
Knowing that Ben is a lost cause, I call Amelia. She picks up immediately, but sheâs not her usual chipper self. I want to ask whatâs wrong, but I need to check in on the kids first.
âAmelia, can I talk to Josh, please?â
âOf course. Hang on.â
My knee is bouncing wildly when Josh takes the phone. âAuntie Em?â
âHey, bud, I was just on the phone with your dad. He mentioned that Caroline was crying because some guy was following you? Is that right?â
Josh hesitates. âYeahâ¦â
My heart drops. âAre you sure he was following you?â
âHe was watching us from outside the gate at school yesterday. And he followed us home today. He tried saying something to Caro at recess, too. I donât like him.â
Okay, Iâm very close to full-on Panic Mode. âWhat did he look like?â
âUm, I dunno, normal? Skinny and blonde. He just didnât look nice, though.â
I want to vomit. Thatâs that reporter. Remmy something.
âThe next time you see this man,â I say as casually as I can, âI want you to call me immediately, okay?â Heâs quiet for a moment. âJosh? Did you hear me?â
âHeâs standing out on the street, Auntie Em. Heâs been watching the apartment since we got home from school.â
Panic.
Panic.
Panic.
I jump to my feet. âIâll be home soon, honey, okay? Now, can you hand the phone back to Amelia?â
I arrange with Amelia to make sure she will stay with the kids until I get there. Then I grab my purse and beeline for the elevators.
âWhere do you think youâre going, Ms. Carson?â
That icy snarl freezes me in my tracks.
Of course he chooses this moment to step out of his office. Iâm starting to think he has a security camera aimed at my desk so he can keep track of my every movement.
âIâm leaving.â The panic is eroding all my more diplomatic sensibilities. âIâve got a family emergency. The kids need me.â
I expect him to go all âHmâ on me and threaten to fire me if I walk out in the middle of a workday. But instead, his eyebrows pinch together. âWhatâs the emergency?â
âItâs nothing. Just this reporter. Remmy. Heâs been botheringâlook, it doesnât matter. I just need to handle it really quickly and Iâll be right back.â
The moment I mention his name, recognition flickers across Ruslanâs eyes. âRemmy Jefferson. Of The Brooklyn Gazette?â
I inch back towards the elevators. Something in Ruslanâs face is scaring me. âYeah, I think. He approached me a few days ago, asking if⦠well, he actually asked if I would spy on you for him. I turned him down, of course.â
Ruslanâs eyes narrow into slits. âWhy didnât you tell me?â
âBecause I shut him down and told him to take a hike. I thought that was the end of it. But now, heâs stalking my kids! Heâs watching the house right now. The kids are all freaked out. Iâm sorry, I gottaââ
âIâll drive you there.â
I gape at him. âWhat?â
He walks fast towards the elevators. âLetâs go. Weâre wasting time.â
I keep glancing at him in the elevator on the way down. Letting me leave the office during working hours is one thing, but actually coming with me? Why would he do that?
âUmâyou have meetings all evening,â I remind him as the doors whoosh open.
He pulls out his phone and starts tapping at the screen. âIâll have Kirill cover for me.â
Iâm so worried about the kids that I barely register the sleek Aston Martin that pulls up right outside the skyscraper. On the drive home, I keep picking at my cuticles, trying to calm my frayed nerves.
Ruslan glances at me out of the corner of his eye. âI know Remmy. Heâs a fucking leech. But nothing I canât handle.â
I nod, but Iâm not going to relax completely until that creep is far away from the kids. Still, something registers in the recesses of my consciousness.
Was that⦠a gesture of comfort? From Ruslan Oryolov? I look out the window, wondering if Iâm going to see pigs flying around the skyscrapers.
There are a handful of cars parked on the opposite side of the street when we pull up. I scan through the lineup, but I canât figure out which one is Remmyâs. Iâll figure that part out later; right now, I need to make sure the kids are okay.
Iâm on the second flight of stairs up the apartment when I realize that Ruslan is right behind me.
My first thought? Heâs gonna see the apartment.
My second thought? Heâs gonna meet the kids.
My third thought? Oh, fuck.
I push it all out of my head and use my key to get insideâexcept itâs been chain-locked. I peek in through the two inches of space the chain allows.
âAmelia? Josh?â
âSorry!â Amelia calls. âHold on a sec.â
I step back as the door closes shut. Then I hear the chain unlatch and Amelia throws it open for us. âSorry, the kids were really scared, andââ She stops short, her eyes veering to the behemoth of a man behind me. âUm, yeah, so we⦠um⦠used the chain.â
Her cheeks flush bright scarlet. I have a pretty good idea as to why. Honestly, I donât blame her. We women are only human, after all.
âWhere are they?â
Amelia focuses on me. âThey worked themselves up into a panic. The girls are hiding in Joshâs room underneath his blanket. Andââ
âAuntie Em!â Josh yells as he enters the living room. He bolts towards me, his arms wrapping tight around my waist.
I kiss the top of his head. âHow are the girls?â
âScared,â he admits without letting go of me. âThey think that man is gonna kidnap them.â
Iâm immediately furious. Josh would never admit to being scared himself, but the fact that heâs clinging to me like he hasnât done for years proves that he is, too.
âAmelia, would you mind staying with the girls?â
âOf course.â She stumbles away, her cheeks still mildly flushed.
âListen, Jâthat man is a weasel.â I stroke his head the same way I used to when he woke up from a nightmare and had trouble going back to sleep. The eight or nine months after we buried Sienna held a lot of nights like that. âYou have nothing to worry about.â
He swallows hard. âWhy is he even here?â
Because of what I got myself involved in.
âBecause heâs bored and jobless,â I assure him. âNow, youâre gonna stay here with your sisters and Iâm gonna go down there and talk to him, okay?â
âButââ
âI wonât be more than five minutes. Hold down the fort, okay?â
I let go of Josh. But when I turn to the door, thereâs a human-shaped boulder in my path. âExcuse me.â
Ruslan doesnât move. His gaze skirts past me to Josh. I glance over my shoulder to see that Joshâs mouth is hanging open, his eyes wide and awed.
âEmma, you havenât introduced us. This must be your nephew, Josh.â He offers his hand.
Josh snaps his mouth shut. He flushes, but his shoulders square and he straightens up as if heâs trying to make himself look as tall as possible. âI donât know you.â
I raise my brows, taken aback by the stilted, angry way heâs talking. âUm, Joshââ
âItâs okay,â Ruslan says to me before turning back to Josh. âIâm Ruslan, your auntâs boss.â
âWhy are you here?â
âJosh!â But I canât be too mad at him. Heâs just trying to be the man of the house, the only way he knows how.
Ruslan just smiles.
Whoa, the famous Oryolov smile. Itâs even more dazzling up close. But it doesnât seem to have any effect on Josh, who most definitely does not return it.
âIâm here to help,â adds Ruslan.
The furrow in Joshâs brows eases, but only a little. âHow?â
âIâm going to go out there and talk to that man. Iâm going to make sure he never bothers you or your sisters ever again.â
âAnd Auntie Em?â
Ruslan nods. âAnd your Auntie Em, too.â
Josh gives him a tiny, begrudging nod. He watches Ruslan straighten up and head toward the door and he doesnât so much as blink the entire time.
I get itâthereâs just something about Ruslan. Quite apart from being an imposing man, his sheer presence takes up space the way no one else really can. He exudes that âtake chargeâ aura that Josh has rarely seen in the men around him. Ben mostly just radiates âsad and lazy.â
âYouâll take care of everyone?â Ruslan is asking Josh, not me. Heâs deadly serious, too. No trace of that smile.
Joshâs jaw tightens as he nods.
âGood.â Ruslan heads out the door as though everything is settled.
I follow him out into the dimly lit corridor and close the apartment door behind me. Heâs already halfway down the stairs by the time I get it locked. âWait!â I call ahead. âIââ
He stops on the landing and turns to look up at me. âYou stay. Iâll handle this. Iâm the one he wants.â
The tenderness of his voice throws me for a loop. Iâm used to hearing him angry, annoyed, frustrated, or just completely impassive.
But this? He actually sounds halfway compassionate.
âYeah, but itâs my kids he chose to stalk. Like some creepy fucking predator. And heâs scared the living hell out of them. So Iâm gonna go down there andââ
âEmma.â His voice may be less harsh than it usually is, but itâs no less commanding. âThose kids are scared. They need you right now more than you need to kill him.â
That gets through to me.
Dammit. Heâs right.
Suppressing a frustrated sigh, I gesture for him to go ahead. I wait until heâs disappeared down the stairs before I head back into the apartment.
Josh is waiting for me by the door. I take his hand as we head towards the girlsâ bedroom. He gives me a shy glance. âYour boss is cool,â he breathes.
I force a smile. To an eight-year-old boy with no male role model, of course Ruslan is cool. But to a twenty-six-year-old woman with three young dependents, heâs nothing but dangerous.
Not for the first time, I begin to question all the choices Iâve been making recently.
Am I making a mistake?
Am I putting the kids in danger?
Is it too late to go back?
Iâm afraid all the answers are âyes.â