âYouâre so⦠big.â
âLike a giant.â
I assumed they were twins from the window. But now that Iâm looking right at them, I realize that the one with a missing front tooth must be younger. With her dark blonde hair, round apple cheeks, and prominent dimples, itâs hard not to smile just looking at her. Her sister is maybe an inch taller, slightly skinnier, with just as much energy.
âReagan! Caroline! Thatâs not polite,â Emma scolds.
Iâd be lying if I said it wasnât strange to see her in her mother mode. Sheâs rushing around the living room, trying to subtly clean up without looking like thatâs what sheâs doing. She shoves a dirty t-shirt underneath one of the cushions on the armchair when she thinks Iâm not looking.
The boy, Josh, is sitting opposite me. His eyes havenât left my face since I walked in. Iâve made enough grown men piss their pants to know that looking me dead in the eye is no easy featâjust ask Remmy. And yet here he is, all of eight years old, staring back at me as though heâs ready to take me down if I make so much as one wrong move toward the women in his family.
Heâs definitely a leader in the making.
âWhat did you say to the man?â he asks.
âJosh,â Emma chides gently, âmaybe nowâs not the time?â She glances pointedly at the girls, both of whom are still fixated on me.
Reagan wriggles out of her brotherâs reach and plops down on the coffee table in front of me. âWhy are you wearing that?â
I look down at my Hugo Boss suit. âThis is what I wear to work. You donât like it?â
She cocks her head to the side and thinks about it. âItâs⦠too much.â
âReagan!â
I grin. Itâs quite entertaining seeing Emma this flustered. She still hasnât sat down.
âI like your suit,â Caroline offers as a shy blush creeps up her cheeks. âAnd your tattoos.â Apparently, sheâs spotted my neck tattoo, judging from the direction of her gaze.
âKiddos!â The nanny calls from the kitchen. âDinnerâs ready.â
Emma kicks a lumpy thing under the sofa. âGo on, guys.â
Carolineâs upper lip juts out as she turns to me. âAre you coming for dinner? I donât mind sharing.â
I smile at the selfless offer. âThanks, Caroline, but Iâll have to come back another time.â
âOh.â Her mouth turns down at the corners. âOkay.â
Emma comes up behind the girls and puts a hand on each of their shoulders. âGo on. Iâll be right in.â
âAuntie Em, can you help me wash my hands?â
âReagan, you already know how to wash your hands.â
âBut I want you to do it. Youâre never home for dinner. Please? Pretty please?â
Emmaâs face breaks into a tired smile. âOf course Iâll help.â She sneaks me an apologetic glance and ducks into the kitchen with both girls trailing behind her.
Josh, however, stays exactly where he is. When I get to my feet, so does he.
âThe reporter agreed that he will leave you guys alone,â I remind him. âYou have nothing to worry about anymore.â
Josh frowns as he sticks his hands into the pockets of his pants. Theyâre way too small for him. His ankles should definitely not be on display. It doesnât take a lot to notice that as cozy as this apartment is, itâs also on the verge of crumbling.
The carpets are threadbare and stained. The upholstery is barely hanging on. The coffee table is propped up on makeshift coasters to keep it level and one wall is gradually losing a fight against an encroaching water stain. None of it can possibly be healthy for Emma or the children.
âThank you,â he says, so quietly that I barely hear him. Josh shifts in place for a moment as his eyes drop down. He gets a steely sheen in them as he mumbles, âOne day, Iâm gonna be big enough to protect them myself.â
I donât do him the indignity of smiling or talking down to him. I just nod. Solemn. Man to man. âI know you will.â
Funny enough, I actually do believe him.
He nods. Then his gaze veers to the side and he starts with surprise. I follow his eyes to find Emma standing by the doorway, tears in her eyes.
She swallows hard and clears her throat. Sheâs about to say something when the girls run back into the living room.
âYouâre still here? Are you staying for dinner?â Caroline asks, grabbing my hand and pulling on it.
âYeah!â the little one shouts, imitating her sister and grabbing my free hand. âStay for dinner!â
Emmaâs soft voice manages to cut through the clamor. âYou can, you know. If you want.â
âThank you, ladies, but I have a late evening meeting I need to get to.â
The girls let out a long, disappointed chorus of, âAwww.â
Emma claps her hands. âOkay, guys, letâs give Mr. Oryolov some breathing room. Come on, dinnerâs gonna get cold.â
She gestures for them to come, but none of them bother looking at her. I squat down in front of the two girls. âYou know how I got to be as big as I am?â I chuckle when both their heads bob excitedly. âI ate my dinner. Vegetables and all.â
Reagan scrunches up her nose. âEw! Even the brock-lee?â
âEspecially the broccoli.â
She looks severely disappointed in me. âAw, man.â
I muss up her downy golden mop and she giggles. Caroline glances shyly at me, so I offer her a low-five. She gives my palm a hearty whack and then scampers off to hide behind Emma.
One look at Emmaâs face and I know I need to get the fuck out of this house. Sheâs staring at me with this look in her eyeâall soft and tender and sentimental.
Hell no. Sheâs got it all wrong. Iâm not this guy. Iâm not a family man. I donât like to spend my evenings with a bunch of screaming kids.
And yet⦠thatâs exactly what Iâve done for the last half hour, and honestly? It wasnât all that bad. In fact, a part of me actually enjoyed it.
No. Thatâs not the right word. It canât be the right fucking word.
Abort. Get the fuck out! Now!
âGoodnight.â
Emma gives the girls a little shove into the kitchen. âYou guys get started. Iâll be there in a minute.â
Carolineâs pout is strong. âBut Auntie Em, why do you get to stay with him and we donât?â
Josh shushes his sister and shepherds them out of the living room.
Emma chuckles self-consciously as she walks over to me, an attractive blush turning her cheeks pink. âSorry about all that.â
I nod stiffly. âAll good.â
âYou were really great with all of them.â Her voice wobbles with all the things sheâs not saying. âThank you for being so patient with the girls. And for what you said to Josh.â
I nod again. This time, more from discomfort than anything else.
She clears her throat. âSo what happened with Remmy?â
âHe wonât be bothering you or the kids again.â
âOkayâbut what about you?â
That takes me aback. âMe?â
âHe was looking for dirt on you. He mentioned that he knew a lot already.â She glances back over her shoulder before moving even closer to me. Close enough that I can smell her perfume.
Citrus, honey, and danger.
âI justâ¦â She gnaws at her lip. âI know there are things that you might not want getting out there. Iâm worried that Remmy might make good on his threats. He just seemed really determined.â
Sheâs genuinely worried about me. After basically being my errand girl the last year and a half. Itâs enough to boggle my mindâ¦
And arouse the rest of me.
I take a step back. âDonât worry about me. You have your own shit to deal with.â She flushes, but she doesnât look angry. âIn fact, Iâm canceling our meeting tonight.â
âWhat? Why?â
The disappointment in her face reinforces my need to put some distance between us. Especially tonight. Today has been a little too involved.
âMissed a lot today. I need to catch up.â
âRight.â She forces a stiff smile onto her face. âI guess Iâll see you tomorrow then?â
I nod. âGoodnight, Ms. Carson.â
On my way out, I notice the shoe rack sitting next to the entrance door. Not one pair is even halfway presentable. One set of basketball shoes in particular looks to have been taped up under the soles time and time again.
I stop and think.
She desperately needed my contract. Which is probably the only reason she agreed to it in the first place. That was fine back thenâleverage is leverage, after all. But now that Iâve been here, reflecting back on that tidbit leaves me feeling fucking strange.
Iâm assuming Iâll feel better outside of her presence, but those citrus notes stay with me long after Iâve descended the stairs and stepped back out into the funk and mayhem of the city. Before I drive back home, I send Kirill one last directive for the night.
I want a background check run on Emmaâs brother-in-law.
Iâm just doing my due diligence. Thatâs all. Nothing more, nothing less. Nothing that means a damn thing.