Iâve had a single question circulating in my head since seven minutes and twenty-three seconds after the top of the hour, when Emma walked out of my office with the contract tucked under her arm.
Will she surrender?
Thereâs a chance sheâll turn me down straight-up. Iâm prepared for that. What Iâm not prepared for is the nauseating churn in my gut when I consider her walking out my door for good.
Which is fucking bullshit, of course. What do I care about one woman in a city of millions? I could hurl my desk chair out of my office right this second and hit a dozen willing prospects on the way down. A dozen eager yeses whoâd sign without bothering to read a single line of my love life contract.
Correction: not my love life, my sex life. I have no interest in love. I made that decision thirteen years ago when I saw what loving a woman would cost me.
Iâve dawdled away the evening, left aimless by the lack of an assistant. Without Emma to keep my life in line, Iâve simply canceled everything on my calendar, clearing a block of empty time to do nothing but obsess over what answer sheâll bring back to me tomorrow.
So Iâm glad for the distraction when my father and uncle stroll into my office. Both are working members of Bane Corp., with offices in the building, though neither one bothers to actually come in very often.
Thatâs the secret to keeping up the appearance of legitimacy: sometimes, things actually need to be legitimate.
âWhereâs your assistant?â Uncle Vadim asks, taking the left chair opposite my desk.
âSheâs taking a sick day.â
My father, Fyodor, scans my desk. âYou should have two assistants. For just such an instance.â He has just a hint of an accent, unlike my uncle, whose Russian bark is anything but subtle.
âItâs hard enough finding one competent assistant. I canât imagine finding two.â I really donât want to talk about Emma any more than I have to think about her, so I change the subject smoothly. âHow about dinner? Kirillâs on his way here. He can pick something up for us.â
I text Kirill and tell him to bring food. Then I turn my attention to the elder Oryolov brothers.
At sixty-five, Vadim is still spry. His piercing blue gaze carries a touch of menace from the old days, back when my father was pakhan and Vadim was his second.
Fyodor, on the other hand, whoâs just five years older than his brother, looks every bit his age. People call time the subtle thief of youth, but theyâre all wrong. Itâs not time thatâs the thiefâitâs sorrow.
âWhy are the two of you darkening my doorstep today?â
Vadim speaks first, which is strange. There used to be a time when Vadim wouldnât even sit until Fyodor gave the word. But that was a different time, a different pakhan.
âWe signed another client. Williamson something or other.â
I loft a brow. âThe basketball player?â
âThatâs the one.â Thereâs a note of smug satisfaction in Vadimâs voice. âHe wasnât happy with his previous security company. Enter Bane Corp.â
Thatâs easily a ten-million-dollar account, but I merely nod. I learned a long time ago that my uncle considers praise to be offensive. Or rather, he considers praise from me to be offensive. In his eyes, he was the one who was supposed to be handing down orders. He was the one who was supposed to wear the mantle of pakhan.
But he got short-changed when Fyodor decided to pass him over in the wake of the accident. Instead, at twenty-one, I assumed the crown and my uncle was forced to fall in line behind me. But fall in line he did, because no one fucks with a pakhanâs decision.
By the time Kirill walks in with our food, Iâm starving. We spread the takeout boxes across my desk and fall silent as we eat.
I stuff my face with pita and shawarma and try not to think about Emma. But despite the conversation rotating through half a dozen equally irrelevant topics, my mind keeps sliding back to her. She showed up today looking extra put-together. Probably intending to counteract her dazzling lack of professionalism from yesterday. High heels, a moss green skirt, a cheap leather choker around her throat. Her hair was pulled back so tight that it made me want to rip it out of the bun just so I could use it to rein her in.
I can just imagine the filthy things she would whimper to me with those plump, red-stained lips. Punish me, Mr. Oryolov. Fuck me. Do whatever you want, sir.
Kirill snaps his fingers in front of my face. The fantasy dissolves. âYo, bro? Whereâd you go?â
âJust preoccupied with the launch.â I focus on the last of the meat on my plate, but I can feel their eyes on me.
âYou canât let this consume you,â Vadim offers sagely. âAll work and no play makes for a dull pakhan.â
He hides his resentment well these days, but I still hear it, in the sliced edge of his tone any time he mentions my title directly.
âIâll focus on playing after Venera is launched successfully.â
Fyodor looks at me, his lips poised to speak before he clamps them shut abruptly. Every year, he seems to recede more and more into himself.
You donât have to believe in ghosts to be haunted by them.
Vadim reaches for another piece of the shawarma with bare, greasy fingers. âPlaying is good. You know whatâs better? Fucking. And no one is easier to fuck than a wife.â
Kirill nearly chokes on his roast chicken. I fix my uncle with an unruffled stare. I know better than to let him rattle me. âMarriage is not on the table for me.â
Vadim sighs like Iâm too stupid to understand. âYou canât escape your responsibilities forever, Ruslan. You need heirs. Only one way to make that happen.â
I take a sip of my beer and wait before answering. âThereâs still time.â
âWhen youâre young, you think life is infinite. Itâs not. Better to secure your legacy sooner rather than later.â My jaw clenches, but Vadim pays no heed to the warning. âAn heir is good. Two, three, four heirs are even better. Look what happened to Fyodor: he had two heirs and he lost one to a fucking red light at the intersection.â
I donât have to look at my father to know how badly those words wound him. Heâs carried that loss on his sleeve for thirteen years. It makes me furious that Vadim would bring it up so casually. That he would bring it up at all.
He, more than anyone else, saw how my father unraveled after the car crash.
âAt least Otets had children. What have you contributed to the Bratva, Uncle?â
Vadim flinches back, pale blue eyes glinting. Fyodor clears his throat awkwardly. Kirill keeps shifting in his seat.
No one says anything for a long time.
Then, finally, Vadim breaks the silence. âIâve upset you. I apologize.â
Fyodor looks between us. On the one hand, Iâm his son snapping at his brother. On the other, Iâm their pahkan and that sets me apart. Noâit sets me above.
In the end, my father drops his gaze and leaves it for Vadim and me to hash out.
âThere are other ways to secure a legacy,â I growl. âYou should understand that better than anyone.â
Iâm extending him an olive branch, but he still squirms in his seat and gnashes his teeth. âNo, itâs true; my legacy will not be left to an heir.â He doesnât meet my eyes when he talks. âA young manâs mistake. An old manâs regret.â
âYour uncle was simply trying to give you the benefit of his wisdom, Ruslan.â Fyodorâs words are soft.
I sigh and relent. The last thing I feel like doing now is squabbling with my uncle over his petty grievances. âYour wisdom is welcome in all matters of business and Bratva, uncle. You know I value your opinion.â
Vadim smiles wryly. Heâs smart enough to understand exactly what I mean. Keep your opinions on my personal life to yourself. âOf course, pakhan. I will always be here when you need me.â
Fyodor seizes the moment and stands. âWe should head home. Iâve been away from my garden too long.â
Kirill shows them out. When theyâre gone, I stare at the mess of food containers on my desk. Normally, itâs something Iâd order Emma to handle. Iâd hide my amusement, watching as the vein in her forehead throbbed with irritation. I could probably make that vein disappear altogether if I just spread her legs wide and fucked her on top of all the empty cartons. Make her beg for me to stop. It would take a lot of begging, thoughâ¦
Fuck me. I need to put that little siren out of my head.
But the conversation with Vadim has me thinking. Marriage is definitely not on my to-do list. Heirs may be on the list, but far, far down. Which means I have time. Time to waste on my pert little assistant. Time to enjoy her whenever I want, wherever I want, in whatever position I want. Without the inconvenience of expectations.
But first, she needs to say yes.