Chapter 3: chapter 3

“That night he entered my room and... Kept staring.”-RueThat night one of my guy friend came to my house, to return the homework. He took from me the day before. I was still wearing my bathrobe and sitting between uncle and dad. Mom opened the door. Mom called me and I greeted him. He glanced through me and went home. Later while sitting back with uncle I noticed that his mood was a bit off. As I was thirsty I went to the kitchen to drink water. Uncle followed me too. By now mom had finished making dinner and was sitting in the living room. Kabbadi match had changed to boxing. I could hear the T.V., the house was full of that sound only. I was filling my cup with water from the filter. Uncle approached me and whispered in my ears. “Who was that guy who came? Why was he glancing from top to down?” I was irritated by uncle's questions I didn't like his possesiveness for the first time. I was feeling suffocated. He exclaimed once again, and told me that I looked sexy. I didn't care again. We had our dinner and dad spoke about sports and stock market with uncle. Later we went to sleep. I was very tired so I slept soon. Suddenly I felt pain in my stomach and I woke. I luckily got my periods. Lucky because I didn't want my horny uncle to lay hands on me yet. Yes and I was scared he would do it. I woke to ware a pad. I saw a shadow outside my window. I knew it was uncle, he looked at me through the white translucent curtains. I didn't care again, and I tried to sleep. My phone vibrated and it was the call of  Lenon. I picked the call and he told me that he had a thing with me the next day. I was worried still I hung up the call and tried to sleep. The next day when I was about to go to school, uncle offered to drop me. I went with uncle, suddenly on the mid way he asked me if Lenon was my boyfriend. I yelled at uncle and called him a sugar daddy. The entire road uncle was silent. We reached school, I took my bag and I walked to school. Uncle looked sad, suddenly Lenon came from behind and slapped my butt. I was angry and out of no where I slapped him on his face. Uncle saw this and rushed towards me. He also beat up Lenon. I stopped uncle and I told him to take me back home. Uncle tried to interact with me but I fucking hated it. I was quiet, and uncle was silent too. I was thinking about Lenon now I knew that his mom would come to fight. Suddenly uncle asked me, what was the matter? And I told him that he made me a scandle over one second. I really wanted to kill my thoughts. What were we doing, may be I was digging my own grave, where uncle was already in his. The sun was blazing bright. I was feeling dizzy, I wasn't feeling right. I feel asleep and after some time we reached home. Mom asked us what took us so long and why didn't I make it to school. I told her half truth and I was quiet. I ran to my room and looked at myself in the mirror. I saw at every angle if I looked pretty. Later I had bath and went down for lunch. On the T.V. news headlines it flashed, uncle raped his brother's daughter. I fucking freaked out. I imagined myself. All I did was I wanted to kill my desires. I didn't want to do anything with my own uncle. I am going to escape this psychic world. Every creature on this earth is free to choose except me. I dont even have wings to fly and escape. I was sitting on the sofa still holding my plate. I was desiring for nothing except all love. I didn't want lunch, dinner nothing was entering my stomach. I hated the shape and configuration of my room. I hated home. I wished against wishing as my wishes wouldn't come true. I was quiet.  Mom noticed my behaviour since uncle arrived. Why couldn't my imagination come true. Why was I worried about falling for my own uncle. My faults are mine, I am empty. I finished lunch and went to my room which disgusted me. The scent, the decor the life I once loved I hate now. I could smell my death. My fingers were stuck within my hands. I had no option but live with my desires. My choices didn't matter, and neither my opinions. It was evening time and I decided to go out and eat at my favourite restaurant. I went to eat a chicken sandwich and some cucumbers with lime. I knew I had killed myself. I missed uncle and the way I spoke to him. I missed his care. I could see uncle in every man's face. I was feeling dizzy. My order came and I gobbled up the food and rushed home. At home there was a new geared bike parked outside our garage. It looked splendid, I thought to myself whose will it be. I saw my name written on the number plate. I knew that it was expensive. Mom dad and uncle came downstairs towards the bike. I glanced at my phone and saw that mom had called me several times. I was scared that uncle had written my name on the number plate and mom would ask for an explanation. Yes! She did that, but uncle covered up by saying that I was the only child of the house and he considered me to be his child too. I was hurt by uncle's explaination. I was thinking to myself that whatever we had for months had finally vanished. May be uncle had found a sexy bride of his age. May be she was more stunning and he thought I was still a kid.