Sydney
"Sydney!" Someone's cry broke my blanket of sleep.
The next thing I knew whatever I was sleeping on was gone and I was falling. There was a growl before big arms caught me saving me from tumbling into the ground.
"Sydney!" The person holding me sounded.
"Stop!" I complained exhaustingly. "I'm sleeping," I whispered into the person holding me.
"Syd, open your eyes." The voice pleaded.
One of my eyes popped open to see none other than my big brother Aaron.
"Aaron!" I shouted throwing my arms around my big brother.
His hair was not black like the last time I had seen him, but back to his natural blonde. Or close to it at least. Pulling back I also noticed that all of his dark attire was gone too. He was wearing his normal faded jeans along with his converse and dark red Aerospatiale shirt.
"Jesus Christ Sydney! You scared the fuck out of Mom and I. And I swear the second I find this sick fucko, I am going to kill him with my bare hands."
Pulling away from my big brother I looked for someone to explain to me how much they knew.
"I told them everything," Jay watched the interaction coldly. His arms crossed his wide chest.
Before I could say anything I was wrapped in a new pair of thin slender arms.
I immediately knew it was my mother.
"Sydney, my precious little girl. Let me see you. Are you hurt? Did he assault you in any way shape or form? Did he-"
"Mom, it's alright. I'm okay. Elliot saved me before anything could happen." I looked over to Elliot standing shy and respectfully by the car taking in the scene.
My mother bellowed before letting me go and taking him in a huge hug.
Terrence and Jay started to growl while Elliot simply looked shocked.
He gingerly and awkwardly hugged my sobbing mother back.
"Thank you so much for saving my baby girl!"
"I would never let any harm come to Sydney. I would give her my life, Ma'am." Elliot ended off softly.
Before anyone could respond to that Mat and Ash came out running at me.
Mat engulfed me in his arms spinning me around after picking me off the ground.
"I swear to god Sydney, you go missing on us like that again I'll hunt you down."
"Wouldn't have it any other way Matty." I joked with my best friend.
"Now let's go inside, you have some explaining to do." Mat said like an additional protective and pissed off brother.
Looking at Elliot I knew this was going to be a long talk.
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"Wait so you're telling me that Logan was the reason why his mate got killed?" Terrence asked finally.
After Elliot and I finished explaining what Elliot had just told me hours before everyone was in a state of shock. My mother covered her mouth in disbelief, my brother and the guys looked pissed, Jay's parents and Jaci were in a state of shock, and lastly, Jay-Jay was expressionless. Or at least he was fighting to be. Somewhere I could see shock and concern struggle to the surface.
At least I think I did.
Something about it got under my skin and sent shivers to my back.
"Yes," Elliot answered simply disgraced of what his brother had done.
"How the hell do you put up with him! I would've ripped him limb from limb if anything ever happened to my mate." Terrence said in a furious growl.
I saw Jaci drop her head, but not before the blush consumed her cheeks.
"The scoundrel deserves to die in a fiery pit of hell," Labyrith said angrily holding Faith close.
Faith brushed her fingers over Labyriths' arms and whispered into his ear something that if I wanted to hear probably could have, but didn't.
"Sweetheart I would never let anything happen to you or our kids. I would kill someone before that happened."
Faith chuckled lightly.
"Alright Labyrith, we all know how strong and mighty you are, Handsome."
"You know it, Darling."
After that Labyrith shamelessly attacked his mate and wife with kisses along her neck and face.
Right there, that was what I wanted. Inside my wolf was howling for that too.
Looking across the table my eyes landed on my mate.
My thoughts were consumed with how I wanted the table and everyone around us to disappear. I wanted it to be just me and him sitting, talking, loving.
Needing to touch him I wiggled my foot around to find his foot.
I mentally smirked at the lightheartedness of this, and how he'd probably roll his eyes at footies. Still, it made my heart jump when I found his foot I nudged it with my own sock-covered one.
The simplest touch made my heart thump wild.
I nudged his foot a little more and felt his foot move away from mine.
I tried not to let my smile falter at that.
Maybe he's playing hard to get! My wolf suggested with a playful edge to her voice. I tried to agree with her, but doubt was leaking in.
Stretching my foot out further I tried to find his foot, but couldn't find him again.
Biting my lip I tried not to let the frown-which so eagerly wanted to settle in-set in.
Maybe he doesn't want to touch me because... I couldn't find a solution.
"Well, we will talk more about this tomorrow. There's no point in searching for answers when we are all half asleep. Do you need help finding your rooms Silva and Aaron?" Labyrith asked.
"No we will be alright." My mother responded.
After that everyone got up and bid their goodnights.
My brother brought me into a tight hug once more.
"Good night little Sis. Don't go getting kidnapped, alright?"
I smiled into my brother's chest. "I'll see what I can do Aaron."
Aaron rubbed my shoulder before letting go. "Alright, now get some sleep. Tomorrow I'm going to give you an hour lecture on becoming involved with cults Syd."
"But I'm not in a cult!" I hollared to my brother who was walking out the door.
"Werewolf gang whatever, but you know what I mean Sydney!"
Beside me, my mother laughed.
"It's been a long time since I've seen my kids joke around like that," My mother said adoringly tears gathering in her eyes.
"Mom," I whispered out.
"Aww my baby girl!" My mother cried out hugging me like there would be no tomorrow.
"It's alright Mama," I soothed stroking her hair as she cried into my shoulder. "I'm alright Mom I'm right here."
After she sobbed for a few minutes more Aaron came back and retrieved her wrapping an arm around her shoulder and pulling her out of the house.
"Love you guys! I'll see you in the morning," I said ending in a whisper as they disappeared out the door.
Looking around everyone else had gone to bed or left the house.
Making sure the house was locked up, I turned expecting to find Jay leaning in a doorway waiting on me.
He wasn't so I practically ran to Jay's bedroom.
Let's get ready for Jay! I thought in pure excitement. I felt the tension rising as I realized just how long it had been since he hugged me or kissed me.
Entering Jay's room I was still a little befuddled to find him missing.
He could be having a word with his dad. I'm curious what the plans are for actions against Logan now.
Closing the bedroom door I ran and skimmed through some things my mom had apparently brought over and a few things I'd collected from Jaci. Gathering a short spaghetti strap sleeping gown and a pair of my matching black panties and lacy black bra I went to the restroom to freshen up and change. Brushing through my hair I made sure it was tangle-less. I brushed my teeth quickly and gave myself a cloud of lavender to walk through so Jay wouldn't taste the perfume as much if things were to get heated.
Rushing back I practically hopped onto the king-size bed and crawled to the top.
Flipping over onto my back I gave the clock a glance.
It read 2:37 a.m.
My heart was racing as I collapsed my fingers on top of my stomach.
Now, all I have to do is wait for him. He has to come to bed at some point.
I wonder where he went. My wolf pondered.
It's not like he has anywhere else to go seeing as this is his room.
Satisfied with my answer she fell silent.
Rapping my fingers on my knuckles I let myself daydream about what may happen tonight seeing as there was nothing I had to do, and that's all I wanted to do right now.
Closing my eyes I could already see Jay slowly opening our door and peeking in to see if I was awake.
He'd open the door more and see my body laying out in the open, dress slowly sliding up my thigh. Jay would clench his jaw feeling himself losing to his wolf in controlling his desire for me.
I felt my skin flush, I didn't have many thoughts like this before Jaycen, and out time apart made those desires burn more brightly.
Walking over to me he wouldn't be able to help but brush his fingers over my soft bare thighs 'waking me'.
When I look up at Jay I will see his eyes start to glow as his wolf tries to take over and have his way with me and my wolf.
My wolf would stir and my heart would start to race in its place.
"Sydney," He'd whispered roughly looking down over me.
His eyes skimming over my face then down my neck to my cleavage showing, down the curves shown in my dress, then lastly down to my lacey panties which were now in clear view.
"Jay," I whimper back as he presses his body down against mine and I start to feel the effects my appearance is playing on Jay.
"Sydney, god I missed you." He'd say holding onto me like I was his source of life like he was mine. "I was so scared I'd never find you and that he would take you from me! No," He shook his head in against my neck. "I couldn't have survived without you Sydney."
Before any other words were exchanged Jay roughly kisses me.
"I love you Sydney, you're mine," He ends in a growl.
A smile spreads over my face as I cup his face in my hand, "I love you too Jay."
Jay smiles and his eyes become more human.
His lips once again press to mine put with more love than ever before.
Breaking apart I whispered up to Jay, "Make love to me, Jaycen."
And after that, we'd fall into a heap of passion and burning love.
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My eyes remained closed as I reached my hand out and searched for the man I loved.
My hand ran around the bed coming up with nothing.
Squeezing my eyes together I thought and tried to conjure memories of Jay coming to me last night. Coming to me and telling me that he does love me and reassuring me that he didn't look at other women like Jasmine while I was gone, that Jay was scared for me when I was taken and that I was the main priority on his list.
Slowly I opened my eyes and even though I didn't want to admit it, my wolf and I were silently praying that Jay did come to me and that my memories haven't flooded back to me yet and that Jay was simply taking a shower.
I sat up and saw I was still lying on the top of the sheets like the night before.
No.
I saw the covers on each of my sides were untouched and bared no warmth other than from me.
I dared a look at the bathroom door in my room and saw it was open and the lights were off. Jay wasn't in there either.
Please no.
Looking at my bedroom door it was the same as I left it. Closed.
Going to my last possible clue to if Jay came to whisper his love for me I closed my eyes and found my inner animal. The room was only of a stale dying scent from Jay.
No! Please!
I leaped out of bed and rushed around the room looking for any sign that Jay just even came to say 'hi' to me.
My lip trembled as all my hope of Jay coming to make up for being cold to me where gone.
My eyes found the ceiling and it came crashing down on me. Jay didn't come to see me. Maybe he doesn't care abou-
Tears flooded my vision, but I quickly blinked them away.
Maybe he was waiting for us to come to him?! My wolf tried making an understanding of Jay and his wolf, but I could hear her too start to panic.
Yes! You're right. It's always in the movies that guys sometimes are to shy to make the first move. Let's go find them.
Practically running I rushed down the hall to one of the guest bedrooms that Jay had mentioned one time that he found comfortable when he wasn't in his own room.
The door was cracked.
See he was expecting us! My wolf cried out happy.
A smile found my face as I realized that Jay was just waiting for us.
I quietly pushed open the door hoping I could catch Jay sleeping peacefully.
I was wrong. As wrong as possible.
There, in messy sheets, laid a sleeping and bare-chested Jay holding a seemingly naked and sleeping, Jasmine.
Tears were in my eyes before I could understand anything.
Jay had an arm wrapped around Jasmine protectively like she was me. Like she was his mate and not me.
Before I could think I quickly backed out of the room and closed the door.
Standing there staring at the door I was tempted to open it again to reassure myself that what I just saw wasn't real.
My hand reached out but my wolf said, Don't.
That right there meant what happened in there was real.
Turning I ran back to my room and locked the door behind me.
Tears were spilling and a sob came closer.
I walked backward still staring at the door waiting for Jay to come rescue me from this nightmare.
No, Jay's my mate. H-he wouldn't sleep with another woman the night I get back. Not when I was waiting for him to come and give me all of his love.
I crumpled to the floor in tears and sobs. My breath so hard it hurt my burning lungs. My nose stuffed.
No, Jay loves me. I think less confidentially.
Jay was sleeping with a woman. A woman that wanted him and hated me.
Why was Jay in bed with her!? W-what about me? Wasn't I good enough? Did he think she was stronger than me...Did he think I was not female alpha enough? Was she prettier than me? Was he not attracted to me?
I couldn't help but think about how I was supposed to be the naked girl in his bed brushing his messy hair out of his perfect face. I couldn't help but imagine that I was dreaming of sharing last night with Jay losing my virginity to him.
It was me who was supposed to be wrapped in his arms. It was supposed to be me he made love to. It was supposed to be me who he said he loved. He was supposed to be mine and me his. I was supposed to be his mate.
Jay was supposed to be my mate.
Clearly, he wasn't and that absolutely broke my heart.
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EDITED JUNE 30 2020