Sydney
I waved goodbye to Megan and Em as they pulled out of the driveway and started back towards the main road.
There was a creak of a floorboard behind me; my senses seemed almost to be collecting information about the sound: if it was a person or the aging of the home settling, if it was a person who it could be by their weight and what they smell like.
But the way my wolf cried I knew immediately who it was.
"Happy that they know now?" Jay inquired.
I closed the door and leaned against it. "Yes, I am. I just wish they had just found out under better circumstances if they had to still find out that is."
He nodded and silence followed.
"We need to talk Syd," Jay stated.
My pulse skyrocketed.
Oh no, he's going to kick us out of his pack. We broke the rules, even if not intentionally.
No, he's not. He's our mate. His wolf won't let him.
"Come with me Star, I want to show you something."
I looked at him hesitantly as he held out a hand.
"Come on Star, I don't bite," He persuaded with a coy smirk.
Memories of our tangled bodies flooded my mind and eased my tense form.
I walked to him and laced my fingers through his thinking this could possibly be the last time I get to hold large and soft his hand.
Jay silently guided me out the back door and proceeded to lead me across his grassy backyard to a path through the forest that I had yet to realize was there.
Leafs of the new season had started to fall on the path in bright oranges, vibrant scarlets, and lively yellows. The only sounds were our shoes crutching across the leaves, our breaths, and the occasional small movements of animals in the forest.
If this was any other situation with just a normal boy, I'd have my camera to my eye, my notebook and alternative lens strapped to my back taking in the changing scenery.
That or I'd be convinced the guy was plotting to murder me.
The thought tumbled into nervous knots in my belly. I mentally argued that my mom and brother knew where I was, but equally, I realized they could write off my disappearance as an incident with Logan, which had already happened before.
Jay's thumb brushed against the delicate skin of the inside my wrist softly as we walked down a slope. I was positive he could feel the racing pulse of my blood.
We walked for about ten or so minutes before we came to a small opening.
"Here we are," He whispered so quietly I wasn't sure he really said it.
There was a patch of soft green grass and clovers. A stream about five feet wide rippled over the shinny rocks like silk. Off in the distance, I could hear the rush of water indicating a nearby waterfall. The trees towered over us but left a thin opening directly over the stream allowing some sunlight that peaked out from behind the clouds to shine down on the stream making the water sparkle.
"This is magnificent," I was captivated.
"It is." He sounded just as awed as me. "Come sit with me Star,"
My eyes swept the area for escape routes just in case.
Calm yourself. He is out mate, we are mated. If we die, he dies.
That thought somehow didn't ease my nerves.
I accompanied him to the edge of the water and sat down beside him.
For minutes we sat in silence and mentally I tried preparing myself for the heartbreak or fear of my punishment for exposing us.
Where there witnesses at the ice cream stand that one day?
I had never followed up after the commotion of being returned home suspiciously.
Werewolves might not believe in three strikes and you're out...two seems enough.
Then Jay spoke. "Why didn't you tell me you were having dreams about Logan and you?"
My eyes snapped up from my lap to his face. Wobbly I asked, "W-what?"
"Please don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about Sydney; I know you were having dreams about being with Logan and dreams that I bit you instead of Elliot that night."
I was shocked by this turn of events, and relatively relieved.
"I didn't think they were important. How do you know I had those dreams?" I asked, curious.
"When I talked to Elliot he told me Logan made a connection with you by using a witch and because Elliot bit you and he and Logan twins along with the fact that all three of you are white wolves, granted that might have been just because you were bitten by one, Logan is now able to worm inside your head and make you dream and think things that aren't exactly real."
The breath left my lungs, "Oh my god." I caught my head between my knees as I felt my head spin. My stomach felt heavy at the implications of that.
Not only were my thoughts not private, but the person who wanted to kill the love of my life had complete access to my brain.
"Wow wow, hey. It's okay, I'm right here Sweetheart." Jay tried to calm, wrapping his arms around me, pulling my body tightly to him. "I have you Sydney, I have you."
I immediately shoved him away. "This psychopath has total access to my head and my thoughts, you shouldn't be trying to comfort me Jaycen! For all I know he's in my head right now. Jaycen, he could find all of our plans to kill him and already be planning a counterattack and use it to hurt you or someone else." I shook my head vigorously, "I can't let someone I care about get hurt. I couldn't go on if something happened to you Jaycen. I can't live without you Jaycen...and it seems the only way I can do that is by staying away from you Jay," My voice fell to a whisper as I finished. I tugged my knees into my chest.
My wolf was anxious under my skin, thinking of ways to fix the problem or the quickest way to dismember Logan.
Jaycen released a deadly growl as his eyes practically pierced a hole through me. I saw his eyes starting to glow and his canines began to lengthen.
"Ja-" I was cut off when Jaycen was on me.
His lips were against my neck and licking against my still sensitive mark. My hormones burst like a floodgate, now raging. My legs were swiftly found their spot around his hip bones and I bucked my hips against his loving the friction it caused. As I went to move again Jay caught my hip and tried to pin it to the ground with a groan, "Damn it Sydney, you feel what you do to me?"
He flexed his hips into me allowing me to feel the hardness of his friend against my apex.
A moan curled out of me.
"Fucking hell." He cursed before pulling back from kissing me and pressing into me.
"Huh?" I said in a daze of all the emotions that were a cause of Jay against me.
"As much as I love the thought of making love to you right now, we have bigger problems here."
I nodded mostly because I was still trying to catch my breath.
Jay rolled us so I lay on top and so my legs were no longer linked around his waist. I rested my head on his collarbone and rested my hand on muscles of his stomach trying to match the rising and falling of his breathing.
"What are we going to do Jay?"
"My dad and I started to put together a plan, but Megan and Emily arrived on scene before I could tell you," Jay said kissing the top of my head. "My father and I were having a discussion. He wanted to know if you and I would like to go to Robin's pack."
"Who is this Robin person? And what about your pack though, why wouldn't your dad go there and you stay here to watch them?"
Jay nodded. "Dad thinks it would be better for you and me to go because it might throw Logan off your scent for a little while at least. That combined with me taking over the pack in the next few years, I need to be building my own relations with the neighboring packs."
"Alright whatever you think is best, Jay 'cause I'm clearly insanely new to all of this stuff," I reminded Jay.
"Well you are my mate, I want to take into consideration your opinion. I'm not just going to tote you around without consulting you first."
I wanted to snort and smirk at the same time, "I appreciate that Jay, but am a fish out of water here and will be glad to let you take the lead on things till I get a better understanding. But yeah I think we should go. I want to meet some of your alpha buddies." I nudged him with my shoulder teasingly.
"These men are not my buddies." Jay's voice was now suddenly tough.
I laughed thinking this was an ego thing, "You're right because now I fill your buddy capacity!"
His dark locks shook across his forehead as he denied that. "No, Sydney, what I mean is some men are not disciplined in other packs. Not like my father and all of the men in my family teach throughout the pack."
I looked up to him questionably.
Mean they did have a full out war with the Fallen and Blue Cresent pack so clearly I have a lot of catching up to do.
After seeing my face he went into more detail.
"Some alphas do not teach their pack self-control like we do. Some just let their pups right into the human world and don't work on the early stages of werewolf development. With that, males are sometimes undereducated or haven't tamed their nature to mate and reproduce." He looked off into the distance swallowing hard, "Sometimes it's too hard to compete against your wolf and werewolves just give in to their wants," Jay continuing to look uncomfortably looking away from me.
My lips formed a frown, "Jay, I'm not getting what you're putting down."
His seafoam eyes finally found the courage to look at me, "They condone rape Sydney."
"Oh..." The whisper was much like air through my lips.
Jay's eyes flashed back and forth taking in my reaction.
"It's completely despicable, and I don't think Robin's pack is like that, but if they were, they definitely wouldn't advertise it."
"I see." I nodded.
It reminded me all too much of some of my father's investigative work into rape cases around the state and trying to help bring those stories to light. It was one thing to hear about them, but another to be possibly taken into the den of where that could be happening.
"Yeah, so if we go then you will not leave my side."
I thought, my mouth and chin pressed to my knees as I rocked myself lightly beside him.
Then a thought struck me. "Maybe we can bring somebody with us..."
Jay's eyebrow quirked up. "What are you scheming my little mate?"
I shrugged and looked off to the moving water, "Maybe we can bring Terrence with us...it would give us more protection, maybe you two can bond again...who knows road trips do things to people." I suggested as innocent as possible.
"Sydney," Jay groaned.
"Jay," I mimicked.
"I don't want him with us."
I fluttered my eyelashes at him, "But I would feel so much safer with Terrence with us."
At this, my profusely jealous mate growled. "Are you saying that you don't feel safe with me?"
"Jay! Not everything's about you!" I quipped.
Jay eyed me. "Not funny, Star."
I groaned and shook his arm. "Come on Jay! Jaci is so heartbroken that you don't approve! And I'm sure Terrence misses you too!"
"Ahh, fine. But you're asking him." Jay said glumly.
I squealed and threw my arms around him trying hard not to squeeze the life out of Jay. "Thank you! Thank you, thank you, thank you! You won't regret this!"
Jay laughed and pulled me into his arms crushed his lips to mine.
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EDITED JULY 3 2020