Chapter 75: Healing The 75

Sihana’s POV “Y – Yes?” I stuttered with my mouth falling open. No chy went by where Cahir didn’t say something that surprised me.

“Yes, I don’t want kids. I don’t care for them.” His words rang with finality and he stared at me with an indiscernible look in his eyes.

“B- But the – Your seat.” I looked at the large chair in his office. “Who will take over from you?”

“Who knows?” He shrugged, taking a seat with his arms behind his head. “I hate this pack and can’t be bothered to care for their continuity. Alpha Blood is relevant to me as it acts as my tether. That aside, I couldn’t care less if it perished.”

His words shouldn’t have surprised me but they did. It went without saying that someone who hated a pack wouldn’t care if they fell to ruins. Still, it was still Hard to reconcile the Cahir everyone knew, the one that would go to war if a single person in Alpha Blood was hurt, with the Cahir I knew who didn’t care about Alpha Blood. I wondered if it was something like possessiveness which he couldn’t help, if he didn’t want anyone to hurt Alpha Blood except him. I couldn’t ask him about that as so many thoughts swarmed my mind.

‘I want a pup, Asena said in a quiet tone.

Yes, I had not thought seriously about having kids but they were always a part of my future. I’d always envisioned having a little girl that looked like me and a faceless son who had started to look like Cahir these days. It was too early- we just mated and I wasn’t sure where we stood with each other. Kids in the mix now would be too soon but I always assumed I would have a family we would have a family.

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*But what about “The words in my throat felt too large to be spoken. They seemed to choke me.

“What about me?” He didn’t want kids but what if I wanted kids?

“What about you?” His forehead creased and I pressed my lips together to keep from biting them.

“What does that have to do with you?”

“I am your mate!‘ I wanted to scream but no words would pass my throat.

The legs which had been holding me as I stood facing his desk suddenly quivered and I hurried to take a seat.

“Are you sure you’re alright? You’re red in the face.” He got out of his seat to feel my forehead again. “You’re burning up!” He exclaimed.

“I am?” I felt my forehead. It was warmer than usual but nothing to be concerned about.

“Sometimes, it takes a while for my abilities to kick in,” I muttered, not paying attention to his palm on my body.

With Cahir, I seemed to be moving from one problem to another. He was a complex man with scars event he refused to acknowledge. I should have known he wouldn’t want kids but I hadn’t thought that far ahead.

It shouldn’t bother me this much because up until a few minutes ago, I hadn’t given them much thought, but they always featured in my plans. How was I to react when he said he didn’t want kids so flippantly and with such finality? Even Asena didn’t know how to react 북 45%

forehead again. I felt myself cooling from the inside so knew that in a few minutes my body temperature would be back to normal.

“Right, I came here for a reason.” I looked away from him, pushing his hands off me.

His flippant words had me irritated. He didn’t want kids so he wouldn’t have kids. He never considered I may want kids. Did he eve care?

‘Stop it, Asena warned me as I started to think negatively of her mate again. ‘He’s not used to considering the opinion of others but you can’t deny he cares for ut I deflated at her words.

Yes, he cared about me but now I felt awful for some reason.

It doesn’t make sense! I wanted to yell. ver gave serious consideration to having a family so why did I feel like shit now that he said he didn’t want one!?

“You came here for a reason?” His hand caressed my face with his brows pulled in. “Are you sure you’re alright, belle?” His thumb caressed my bottom lip. I nodded, unable to look him in the eye.

“Right. About Alpha Dorian.” His hand paused its movement on my face. The air around him turned to frost and I forced myself to look up at him.

“What about him?” His tone was flat, his expression closed off. He withdrew his touch, walking around me to take a seat. My body howled at the loss of his touch.

“What do you plan to do to him?” His eyes narrowed as I questioned him.

“Sihana Asena,” he called my name with a sharp sting. I am still the Alpha of this pack.”

“ver – ver said you weren’t,” I muttered, casting my eyes about.

“Why do you continue to question me?” His lips did not curl, his veins did not pulse, and neither did he slam his fist on his desk. His eyes remained expressionless as he forced me to hold his gaze, but I felt the anger wrapped around him begin to spread its hands, seeking to choke me.

“Do you – Do you acknowledge me as your Luna?” I blinked several times, rubbing my palm against my forearm.

“You’re my mate, aren’t you?” He replied to my question with a question.

“Y–Yeah.” I felt my temperature begin to rise again. The earlier lightheaded feeling intensified and my heart swelled with nervousness. “Yeah, I am your mate, your Luna so why “I swallowed. “Why can’t I question you?” He crossed his arms. “Look, Cahir, you may be the Alpha but Lam not – I’m no longer a nobody.” I forced the thick words out of my mouth. “I am your Luna so–this thing where you brush me aside should stop.” I already vowed that I wouldn’t let him push me away anymore.

“Sihana Asena “I cut him off, my words rushing out to drown him out before he could gain the upper hand and silence me.

“Dorian insulted me. It had nothing to do with you. If I can’t If I can’t concern myself with what you do, then you shouldn’t concern yourself with what I do.” As I spoke, I gathered myself. As soon as the word dropped from my lips, I stood and faced the door. “Have a nice day.” I all but fled from his office, ignoring his gaze burning a hole into my back.

While I ran out of the pack house, I once again met Sam who had managed to get himself into trouble yet again.

“Luna!” He wailed, holding out his hand to me with glass sticking into his bloody palm.

“How did this even happen?” I muttered, prying the glass out of his hand. He screamed and I knew his mother would be here in a second. “Where’s your mu?” I spoke to distract him from the pain in his hand as I tried to activate my healing mana.

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“She She “The little boy cried. “She said I should take the the plates to the the kitchen but I fell —

and and-” He broke off with a wail. “There’s too much blood!” There wasn’t that much blood but he –

tightened his eyes closed.

“Don’t worry. You’ll be fine soon.” As I said the words, elt like I was telling a lie.

I was a healer, kissed by the goddess and gifted the ability to heal myself and others but as I held that boy’s outstretched arm, I didn’t feel the familiar hum of power inside me and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t close the small wound on his palm.

I could not heal him.

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