Chapter 188 Guilt In the bright room, Lucas was half-naked, lying on the bed. âDoctor Armstrong, can I ask you a question?â he asked suddenly, sensing the woman behind him.
âWhat question?â Emily looked over in confusion. âWhy didnât you think of looking for the childâs biological father before?â Lucas asked, tilting his head. Hearing this, Emily was a little surprised. Obviously, she did not expect Lucas to suddenly ask this. After hesitating for a while, she sighed and said it. âBack then, in order to survive, it was already very difficult. I couldnât spare my mind to do that.â Hearing this, Lucas also felt that this was indeed the case. He was very clear about what kind of life Emily had lived before. As he thought about it, he asked again, âThen why do you suddenly want to find him now?â When Emily heard this, she pursed her lips and continued, âNow that the children are old enough and sensitive, they will want to have a fatherâs love. I owe them a lot. If I randomly find someone, they might not like him. Thatâs why I thought of finding their biological father.â As she spoke, she paused and sighed again. âWhatâs wrong?â Lucas asked.
âItâs nothing. I was just wondering if I could find him at all. After all, there are so many guests in the hotel, and so much time has passed. Iâm afraid it will be very difficult.â In the end, Emily felt that the probability of finding him was not small. Lucas was silent and did not speak again. Emily said kindly, âMr. Greens, donât feel pressured. It doesnât matter if you canât find him.â Hearing this, Lucas felt inexplicably uncomfortable. âWhat if I find him?â He spoke calmly and didnât give Emily a chance to reply. He continued, âAnd what if he is married? What are you going to do?â Emily was stunned for a moment.
This was something she had never thought of. However, she quickly smiled in relief. âIf he is married, then I naturally canât disturb him. Originally, I wanted to find him for the kids.â As she spoke, her mood became downcast, and her face couldnât hide the guilt. âBecause I didnât have a father since I was a child, and the environment at home wasnât very good. Sofia and Ethan were more sensible than others of the same age, but having no father was their greatest injury. Before you appeared and attended their school event, they were laughed at by other kids because they didnât have a father.â.. When Emily finished speaking, her voice couldnât help but choke up. When Lucas heard this, his heart felt very uncomfortable, as if it had been pricked by needles, and it was densely packed with pain. Fortunately, Emily spat out these words that had been buried in her heart and felt much better She said somewhat embarrassedly, âIâm sorry, Mr. Greens. I shouldnât have said this.â âIt doesnât matter.â
Lucas said softly. He didnât know what to say next, so he fell silent. Emily, on the other hand, calmed her emotions and couldnât help but hesitate.
âWhatâs wrong?â
Lucas saw her expression and asked. Emily did not hide anything and told him what she was thinking. âI was thinking, is it ok for me to suddenly look for him? Maybe he is living a peaceful life. What I do will definitely disturb him...â In fact, she had never thought about how to talk to the person if she really found him. After all...
That night was just an accident, and he might not want kids.
Thinking of this, Emily could not help but want to give up the idea of looking for him. âMaybe I should stop looking. Maybe after a while, the two children will not think about it. After all, childrenâs emotions come and go quickly.â
She said and looked at Lucas.
Lucas looked at her and naturally did not miss the struggle and hesitation in her eyes. For a moment, he felt very uncomfortable.
âI donât agree with your words. Father is irreplaceable for children. Moreover, you should not deprive the children of the truth about who their father is.â
Lucas asked in a deep voice. Emily opened her mouth, but she did not know how to answer.
In the end, she collapsed her shoulders in frustration and said dejectedly, âI know itâs unfair to them, but Iâm worried...â
She did not finish what she wanted to say, but Lucas still understood. Lucas sighed and began to persuade her. âIn my opinion, you are thinking too much. Since the other party is the father of the child, then the children are his responsibility. You must let him know thatâ âBut it was an accident at that time. He did not know about the two children.â Emily felt that this was like forcibly tying someone up, and she was a little uneasy. Lucas looked at her and knew that she was struggling. He explained again, âAlthough it was an accident, the children are innocent, arenât they?â Hearing this, Emily was speechless. At the same time, she felt much better because of this.
âYou are right. The children are innocent. And I donât ask for much. No matter what the situation is, I only need him to occasionally accompany the children and give the children some fatherly love. As for raising them, I donât need him.â
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