I gulp and wait for Hardin to say something. Oh, right, I am his friend. Why would he? I stay silent and wish I had just stayed at the table.
âWe are going to the docks tonight; you two should make an appearance,â Zed says.
âWe canât. Maybe next time,â Hardin says. I contemplate interrupting and saying I can, but I am too pissed-off to speak.
âWhy not?â Jace asks.
âShe has to work tomorrow. I suppose I can drop by later. Alone,â he adds.
âThatâs too bad.â Jace smiles at me. His sandy blond hair falls over his eyes and he shakes his head to move it.
Hardin clenches his jaw and looks at him. I feel like Iâm missing something. Who is this guy, anyway?
âYeah, Iâll hit you up later when Iâm on my way,â Hardin says and I stalk away.
I hear Hardinâs boots stomping behind me but I keep walking. He doesnât call my name, since Iâm sure he doesnât want his friends to think anything, but he keeps following me. I walk faster and dip into Macyâs and turn a sharp corner, hoping to lose him. No such luck; he grabs my elbow and turns me to face him.
âWhat is wrong?â His annoyance is obvious.
âOh, I donât know, Hardin!â I shout. An elderly woman looks at me and I give her an apologetic smile.
âMe either! You are the one who just hugged Zed!â he yells. We are already attracting an audience, but I am fuming so I donât care at the moment.
âAre you embarrassed of me or something? I mean, I get it, I am not exactly the cool girl, but I thought . . .â
âWhat? No! Of course Iâm not embarrassed of you. Are you crazy?â he huffs. I feel crazy at the moment.
âWhy did you introduce me as your friend? You keep talking about living together and then you tell them we are friends? What are you going to do, hide me? I wonât be anyoneâs secret. If Iâm not good enough for your friends to know weâre together, then I donât want to be.â I turn on my heel and walk away to punctuate my little speech.
âTessa! Damn it . . .â he says and follows me through the store. I reach the dressing rooms and glance at them.
âI will follow you,â he says, reading my thoughts.
He will, too. So I turn and head toward the exit of the store. âTake me home. Now,â I demand. I stay quiet and at least ten feet ahead of Hardin as we walk out of the mall and to his car. He moves to open the door for me but backs away when I glare at him. If I were him, I would keep my distance.
I stare out the window and think of all the terrible things I could say to him but I stay silent. Iâm mostly just embarrassed that he feels like he canât tell people we are together. I know Iâm not like his friends and they probably all think I am a loser or not cool enough, but that shouldnât matter to him. I find myself wondering if Zed would hide our relationship from his friends, and I canât help but think that he wouldnât. Come to think of it, Hardin has never actually called me his girlfriend. I probably should have waited to sleep with him until he at least confirmed we were dating.
âAre you done throwing a fit?â he asks as we pull onto the highway.
âA fit? You arenât serious!â My voice fills his small car.
âI donât know why itâs such a big deal to you that I called you my friend; thatâs not what I meant. I was just caught off guard,â he lies. I can tell he is lying by the way his eyes dart away from mine.
âIf you are embarrassed of me, then I donât want to see you anymore,â I say. I dig my nails into my leg to keep from crying.
âDonât say that to me.â He runs his hand over his hair and takes a deep breath. âTessa, why do you assume I am embarrassed of you? That is just fucking ridiculous,â he growls.
âHave fun at your party tonight.â
âPlease, Iâm not going, I just said that so Jace would lay off.â
What I say next I know is a terrible idea, but I want to prove a point: âIf you arenât embarrassed of me, then take me to the party.â
âAbsolutely fucking not,â he says through his teeth.
âExactly,â I snap.
âI am not taking you there because Jace is a dick, for one. Two, itâs not the kind of place you should be.â
âWhy not? I can handle myself.â
âJace and his friends are way out of your league, Tessa. Hell, theyâre even out of my league. They are all stoners and scum.â
âThen why are you friends with him?â I roll my eyes.
âThere is a big difference between being friendly and being friends.â
âWell, why would Zed hang out with him, then?â
âI donât know. Jace isnât one of those guys that you say no to,â he explains.
âSo youâre afraid of him. Thatâs why you didnât say anything when he came on to me,â I point out. Jace must be really bad if Hardin is afraid of him.
Hardin surprises me by laughing. âIâm not afraid of him. I just donât want to provoke him. He likes games, and if I provoked him with you he would turn you into a game.â His knuckles turn white from his grip on the steering wheel.
âWell, good thing weâre just friends, then,â I say and look out the window at the beautiful view of the city passing by. Iâm not perfect; I know Iâm acting childish but I canât help it. Knowing how big a creep Jace is, I get why Hardin did what he did, but that doesnât make it hurt less.
Chapter eighty-two
When we get to the room, I plop down on the bed. I am still angry with Hardin but not as angry as I was. I donât want any more attention from Jace than necessary, but meeting him has only raised more questions that I know Hardin doesnât want me to ask.